Chapter 2:
Two years earlier…
For the third time, Raj drove past the Ahluwalia's house, unable to find the courage to actually go up to the house and talk to them. Banging his fist down on the steering wheel he abruptly pulled the car up to the side of the road, and got out. Enough was enough, what was the worst that could possibly happen? Even if they hated him, even if they abused him, they still deserved to know the truth about their son.
Walking to the door slowly, Raj forced himself not to simply run back to the car. With a trembling hand, he knocked on the door and waited.
Half a minute passed before it was opened, and Navin's mother stared at the strange young man at her doorstep, wondering what he wanted. "Yes?" she asked him.
"Ma'am… I wanted to talk to you and your family, you see, I was Navin's batchmate, his friend and I…"
"Who is it?" A frail sounding voice called out from inside the house.
"It's one of Navin's friends," His mother replied, "He wants to talk to us."
"Then let him inside." The voice called out again, and Mrs Ahluwalia gestured to Raj to come in.
Mr Ahluwalia sat on a chair by the fire, looking far more frail and unwell than he had when Raj saw him at the funeral two years ago.
"Hello Sir," Raj told him, before sitting down in the chair opposite.
"I've seen you somewhere before," Navin's father told him, and then suddenly realisation dawned. "You were at Navin's cremation, it was you, wasn't it?"
"Yes Sir, it was me." Raj replied sadly.
"You left before I could talk to you."
"I'm sorry, Sir." Raj replied genuinely, "At the time I didn't have the courage to stay and talk to you, I've come to make up for that today."
"Naina!" Mr Ahluwalia called out, and a young woman came into the room. Raj knew that she was Navin's sister, but was struck with the difference in how she appeared and how Navin had described her. Navin had said that his sister was fun loving and extremely mischievous, but this young woman had an air of sadness about her as if she had already given up on life, there was nothing in her that spoke of fun and mischief.
"Yes Baba," she answered quietly.
"Beti, bring some tea and snacks for our guest." Her father told her, and nodding, Naina left the room and headed for the kitchen to join her mother. Within two minutes she and Mrs Ahluwalia were back, and Naina handed Raj a cup of tea, keeping her eyes down as she did so.
"Thank you," Raj murmured, and she nodded slightly in response before going to join her mother on the couch.
"What's your name, Beta?" Navin's father asked him.
"Rajveer Singh Shekawat, Sir." Raj told him.
Mr Ahluwalia thought for a moment, "Yes, I remember your name," he told Raj, "Navin mentioned you in many of his letters. You were his best friend, weren't you?"
"Yes Sir, I was." Raj tells Navin's father, a lump rising in his throat as he thinks about Navin.
"So what is it that you want to talk to us about?"
"Sir, I don't know how I'm going to tell you this, or what you'll think of me afterwards, but you deserve to know the truth." Raj said in one breath, wanting to get it out before he lost his courage. "I should've come to see you a long time ago, but I was never brave enough."
"Then tell us, Beta." Mr Ahluwalia answered, "These past two years all we've wanted to know is the truth, if you can let us know what really happened to Navin then we'll be very grateful."
And Raj began to tell them. He told them how there was no way that Navin could have been a traitor, and how he had definitely been trapped by somebody. Then Raj told them the truth that he had hidden inside himself for the last two years, a truth that had weighed him down, a burden on his soul. He told them about the last time he had seen Navin, and about how he had been the one to kill him.
When he finished, Raj looked up, tears filling his eyes. He felt more relieved than anything else, happy to finally have this dark secret out in the open. He had expected to see hatred in their eyes, or anger, but all he can see in Navin's parents eyes is sorrow, and perhaps… compassion. He can't see how Navin's sister has reacted because she's still not looking at him, keeping her head down as she cries quietly.
"Believe me when I say that I never wanted to kill Navin," Raj tells them, trying not to cry, "Since that day I've died a thousand deaths myself. But Navin gave me no other option, and I couldn't condemn him to suffer more…"
"It's okay, Beta, we understand." Mr Ahluwalia tells him quietly.
Raj looks at him in surprise, this wasn't the response he had expected.
"When we visited Navin in jail, we saw how he was suffering." Mr Ahluwalia tells Raj gently, "They had tortured him so badly, and he was in so much pain, defeated and broken. You didn't kill my son, you set him free."
Mrs Ahluwalia nods in agreement with her husband's words, seeing her son suffering like that had affected her terribly. In the end, while she hates the choice that Raj had to make, she understands it.
Naina says nothing, and neither does she respond, instead she continues to cry with her head down.
"Sir, I promise that I won't give up until I've proven your son innocent." Raj tells them emotionally, "I will get Navin back his lost honour, I will make this entire country accept that Navin was the best and most honest soldier it has ever seen."
"Thank you, Beta." Navin's father tells him tiredly, "At least somebody will fight for him. After Navin's death we've suffered… everybody has abandoned us, we were forced to leave our home, and…" he stops speaking, unable to say anything else.
"Just tell me, Sir. Tell me how I can help you and I will," Raj begs him, "I'll make up for taking your son away from you, just let me know how."
Mr Ahluwalia is silent for a moment, and when he answers it is something that Raj could never have expected.
"If you really mean it, Beta, then marry my daughter Naina."
For the first time, Naina looks up, staring at her father in shock. Raj is struck by how beautiful her eyes are, and he quickly looks away. "Baba…" Naina begins to protest, only to be shushed by her mother.
"Sir, how could I do that?" Raj asks him, "I'm not… I mean, you can find somebody better than me for your daughter."
"Look, Beta, in the past two years we have tried to get our daughter married three times, all three proposals have fallen through, the last one only two days before the engagement. Nobody will marry her due to the stain on our family's name."
"But Sir, I promise you that I will prove Navin's innocence." Raj told him, "Your daughter is still young, after Navin's honour has been returned, you'll be able to find any boy for your daughter."
"I don't have that long." Mr Ahluwalia replied, and Raj looked at him properly for the first time, noting the grayness of his face, the tremour in his voice. "I'm dying, and I don't know how I should face my son when I meet him. How can I leave Naina and her mother with no support here? How can I tell Navin that I didn't settle his sister's life before I left?"
"Sir, I…" Raj doesn't know what to say, he has no words in reply to what Mr Ahluwlia has just said.
"You can refuse," Mr Ahluwalia tells him, "And I won't blame you for that. But if you want to do anything to make up for taking my son away from me, then do this for me. This family needs your support."
With these words, Raj realises that he can't refuse. Glancing across at Naina, he finds her face completely blank of any emotion as she stares at her father.
"Sir, I can't refuse your request." Raj tells him quietly, "I'll do as you say. But at least once, Naina should agree to this."
Abruptly Naina stood up and left the room, her mother followed her quickly while Raj sat awkwardly with Navin's father, not sure what he should be saying or doing.
After about fifteen minutes, Mrs Ahluwalia returned, but her daughter wasn't with her.
"Naina has agreed." She told Navin's father, who nodded, a slight smile on his face.
"Sir, when would you like to hold the wedding?" Raj had asked him, "I'm only on leave until tomorrow afternoon, then I have to report to my duty again."
"Then we'll hold the wedding tomorrow morning." Mr Ahluwalia told him, "Come to our house at 10am if you haven't changed your mind. If you don't turn up then we won't blame you."
Raj had tossed and turned all night, thinking about what the next day would bring. But in the morning he had gotten up early, showered and put on his dress uniform. It was the only suitable thing he had with him to wear to his own wedding.
He arrived at the house at 9:55 and knocked on the door, When Mrs Ahluwalia opened it to see him standing there, she smiled in relief. "I'm glad you've turned up," she told him, "I was almost afraid that you wouldn't."
Raj helped Mr Ahluwalia to the car while Mrs Ahluwalia went upstairs to fetch Naina. When she exited the house, Raj was taken aback. She was wearing a silk sari which Raj guessed may even have been her mother's wedding sari. They had tied jasmine to her hair, and adorned her in simple gold ornaments. Navin's sister was beautiful and under any other circumstances, Raj would have been very happy to be getting married to her. He tried not to glance at her in the rearview mirror, wondering what it was that she was thinking and feeling right now. Just because she had agreed, it didn't mean that she was happy about this marriage.
When they reached the temple they completed the ceremonies quickly, garlanding each other and then sitting through the mantras, completing the pheres and other rituals. Naina's parents both had tears in their eyes as they watched, and Mrs Ahluwalia could see that for the first time since her husband's cancer had been diagnosed, he seemed to be at peace, knowing that his daughter would be looked after.
During the ceremony, Raj only caught Naina looking at him once, but as soon as she knew he had noticed, she looked away again. She seemed determined not to meet his eyes and he wondered why it was. Did she hate him, was she scared of him, or was she just shy?
After the ceremony they swapped rings which Naina's mother had bought the day before, and Raj was amazed by how small and delicate Naina's hands were when he held one in his, slipping the ring onto his finger. Afterwards they had gone to the registry office, where they had both signed the necessary papers, and then Raj had dropped them all back home. Naina had disappeared to the kitchen, Raj wondered whether she was using the excuse of making tea to avoid him.
"I would like it if Naina could stay with us… until the end." Mr Ahluwalia had told Raj, knowing that the day of his death wasn't far off.
"Of course," Raj had replied quietly, "I think that's for the best. I'm about to be assigned to a mission that could be quite dangerous, I wouldn't be able to look after Naina properly for awhile anyway."
"She'll be continuing her education," Mr Ahluwalia told him, "She's studying medicine."
Raj nodded, realising how little he knew about the girl he had married. He had only met her yesterday and they had never even had a proper conversation.
He had left shortly after that, using the excuse of needing to arrive early to report to his seniors. Glancing back at the house, he had seen Naina watching him through one of the windows and had lifted a hand to wave goodbye, surprised when she returned the gesture. She had seemed to be surprised about it too, hurriedly closing the curtain and stepping away.
Five months later, Mr Ahluwalia had died. Raj had wanted to attend the funeral, but was unable to due to the mission he was on. Before Mr Ahluwalia's death, Raj had taken over paying the medical bills, and Naina's college fees, feeling that it was the least he could do for them and not allowing them to refuse. After her father's death, Raj continued to pay her college fees, and also sent most of his wage to Naina and her mother, knowing that otherwise they would struggle to support themselves.
He had called them up occasionally to check how they were, but had only ever spoken to Naina's mother. They had both agreed that it was best that Naina stay with Mrs Ahluwalia until her education was completed. Raj had also written letters, always addressing them to Mrs Ahluwalia but secretly hoping that Naina would read them as well.
And so for the past two years, nobody had ever realised that he had gotten married. Even Raj sometimes felt that it had only been a dream, something that had never happened at all.
But now two years after their wedding, a wife that he barely knew stood in front of him.
Raj had never been more nervous in his entire life.
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