Originally posted by: Khyati55
Somuuu... Sooooo sorryyyyy for such a late comment and also for not commenting on previous episode, well reason you know.... But finally today I guess after a break of 5-6 days I am back and I seriously missed your update. You know what before reading both the episode I mentally made a note that yes the update will surely be gonna heart-wrenching and painful, but after reading it I can't control myself. I am still crying while laying down and though I am trying my best to stop my tears but can't. Even my mother who came to check on me few moments back asked me the reason for crying worrying if I am still not well , and I got a good lecture from her... Anyways , after reading such emotional episodes back to back , I have so much to say but can't find words, the feeling which I am having when just trying to keep myself in place of Siya or any family member and think from that pov is making me feel more helpless, ..
But before talking about anyother person or character of the story, I want to talk about Manda today, the pure innocent soul who is unwantedly bearing the punishment of the crime she never did, feeling ashamed of herself for sins she never committed,once full of self-respect and Pride today hiding her eyes from the world for the reason even unknown to her, the way she was blaming herself today was something more painful for me to see... So writting something for her..
Apne hi ghar mein kaid ,
Mein woh panchi hoon,
Jo bharna to chahti thi udaan,
Par ab chalne mein bhi darti hoon,
Kabhi jo karti thi apne aadarsho par guroor,
Aaj apne hi astitva se darti hoon,
Kehne ko to aankhon mein bas halki si nami hai
Par dil aasuon ka samandar behta hai,
Iss kadar sabke beech bhi akela hai mann mera,
Ki ab to apni parchhai se bhi uski pehchan pooch bethti hoon,
Doosre ki khushi sambhalane chali,
Khud bikhar vapas aa jati hoon
Jo kabhi mene kiya hi nhi
Un sabhi gunaho ka boojh mein uthati hoon
Kabhi sapne mein bhi kisi ke dard ka karan na banu, yahi koshish krti hoon
Par jab cheeti ki tarah kuchli jaati hoon,to tadapti rehti hoon
Cheekhna chahti hoon, par awaaz nhi aati,
Ghut ghut ke dam todti, aankhein sookhti jaati,
Bhaag jana chahti hoon, inn pathar se bhi kathoor logo ki duniya se door
Par aisi chot khayi h ki nazar na uthane ko ho jati hoon majboor
Tukda tukda tootati hui
Dheere dheere, katra katra ghulti hui
Zindagi jeena bhoolti hui,
Ek zinda laash ho gyi hoon...
Ok so I don't know what I have written, so sorry for the bakwaas but tried my best, now no energy left to re check and think more,
And about others can't say anything no words to say,
And hats off to You Somu... No words left for you...
Love you
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