Chapter 67
Tom and Arnav both started to talk about the game again. The girls hung up the call. Minta took khushis phone and called back. Khushi took the phone and hung up.
They both just looked at each other.
Khushis eyes started to moisten. Minta was heart broken as well.
Minta: Why do guys never understand that we have feelings too. Tom doesnt want commitment, but he doesnt understand that without commitment how can we got forward. It is not easy for a girl to do this kind of stuff. Yeah i might seem more frank and friendly, but khushi, no matter what i am the same as you. I have the same values. And the way that he spoke about us as bases. What, you get to hold her hand,so pitcher is up at bat. You kissed her,or she kissed you, first base.
Khushi: How could arnav say that about us. I understand that he knows that i am not comfortable, but to talk about our personal time, and personal moments like this with someone else. Why.. How... She started to quietly tear.
Khushi: IS it necessary that you have hit at least one to two bases before you get married. Does he not realize that you will have the entire life for those things. Does love always have to have a physical aspect to it.
Minta: Yes khushi, because no matter what happens,all that men want is the physical aspect of love that is involved. Not realizing that the physical aspect requires more trust, and commitment. I have to talk to tom.
Khushi: no... Not right now. Right now they wont understand, and minta, i think that we should think about this before we say or do anything.
Minta: What do you mean?
Khushi: minta, arnav has done a lot for me. A lot. Always has. If that is what he wants, then.. I dont know... I am not sure if i can go forward with this... Cani do what he wants me to .. Can i be bolder.. Will my conscious allow me to..No.. But my heart tells me to please him, but my mind says to wait and stop..
Minta and khushi held each others hands.
Khushi: Minta, what he doesnt realize is that once the innocence of love is lost, it can never come back.
Minta: once you get physical, it never be emotional again... Both silently cried for most of the night in their own rooms. Thinking about the significant others.
It was Friday morning, and arnav messaged khushi..
ArnaV:
Tanhaiyoon main unkohi yaad karthay hain.
Voh salamat rahain,yeh fariyaad kar thay hain.
Hum unki hi mohabbatka intizar kar thay hain,
Unko kya pata, humunse kitna pyar kar thay hain...
See you Tonight.. 7pm. Your place.
Khushi read the message and was left in a deep thought. She spoke to minta, both of the girls decided to distance themselves from the guys for a bit. Space is what they needed right now. They needed to figure out what they wanted, and what they were willing to do, and for that,they needed time.
The girls left a left a note on the door saying that they were out. Wouldnt be back until late.
The guys saw this and were a little shocked. Khushi and minta both turned their phones on silent. They didnt want the guys to know that they were inside. Arnav called khushi and Tom called minta. Tom andArnav were confused as to what happened to the girls. They never did this. The went back to their dorms and kept on messaging the girls. Both Minta and Khushi ignored their messages and calls. Saturday passed by the same way. Both minta and khushi didnt leave their dorm. They didnt answer any calls or messages.Arnav and Tom were starting to get worried. Arnav and tom would go by the girls dorm, knock and try to see if anyone was there. But to no avail.
Sunday had come. Now arnav and tom were very very worried.
Arnav called khushi. Khushi finally answered.
Khushi: hello
Arnav: where the hell are you.. I have been calling you and messaging you for two days. What happened. Is everything ok? Where are you???
Khushi: nothing happned. I am fine.
Arnav: khushi.. Tell me what happened? You cannot just ignore me like this. Ever!
Khushi: arnav. I am just really tired right now please. I already have a migraine. Dr has given me meds to help control it. Can i talk to you later.
With that she hung up the phone.
Arnav: What the...
Tom looked at him.
Tom: What happened. Did you talk to her. Minta still isnt answering.
Arnav: No. Iknow something is wrong. I just know it. She is lying to me.
Tom: Lets go to their dorm now.
Both of the guys left for the girls dorm. They reached and both started to knock on the door. Minta and khushi were pacing inside. They knew the guys knew they were home. They didnt want to face them,not yet.
Tom: Minta open the door. I know you are in there.
Arnav: Khushi.. Open.. Come on. Please..
Minta: No. It might be better for you two to go. Please.
Tom: minta. Are you serious.
Minta: Yes, you have no right coming here right now.
Tom was left flabbergasted. What did minta just say. He whispered to arnav.
Tom: Arnav. This is something big. Arnav looked at him in a worried manner as well.
Arnav: Khushi, I have a ring on my finger which gives me the right to come in. Open. NOW. Arnav was turning into ASR mode.
Khushi whispered to minta.
Khushi: i know him minta. If he needs to, he will break the door. Minta and khushi both took a deep breath and braced themselves. Khushi went and opened the door.
Arnav was standing there angry. What was going on. Tom had his hands folded infront of him.
Arnav: We need to talk. Now. He said in a stern but quiet manner. Khushi angrily looked the other way, but down and moved a side. Allowing them to come in. Both of the guys came in and khushi closed the door. Arnav went and stood infront of her. Angry. With a raised eyebrow. Khushi just looked the other way. She took slow and deep breaths. She was no less upset than him. Only difference was that he didnt know why she was upset. Tom went and held onto mintas arms.
Tom: What is going on minta? Minta looked the other way. He jerked minta towards him. She pushed him back and folded her hands infront of her.
Arnav looked at khushi, then at minta, then at Tom. He took a deep breath, composed himself, then looked at khushi again. He held onto her hands, both of them and brought them infront of her. She still looked the other way, upset.
Arnav: Khushi.. Please tell me what happened? Please.
She remained silent. He had an idea. He slowly pulled her hands up and placed a gentle kiss on them. His touch also helped melt her heart. She closed her eyes, and started to think, of course,, something physical again. She opened her eyes and moved her hands.
He was shocked, she had never moved her hands away like that before. She started to walk away when arnav grabbed her right wrist with his left hand and twisted her back to him. Her right right was now in his left hand twsited behind her back. Her chest against his, and his right hand on her waist. Her left hand was on his chest. She looked up at him. He saw tears forming in her eyes. He tried to look more deeply into them, trying to find answers. He sighed and placed his forehead against hers. They both closed their eyes. He started to whisper,
Arnanv: what happened khushi.. Please tell me. Is it something i did, is it something i said. I thought everything was going fine between us.
Khushi sighed. She had to tell him. He had a right to know. She quietly whispered back.
Khushi: It is something you didnt say, but did say. Not to me, but to someone else. He took his head back and looked at her, he was confused. What was that suppose to mean. She opened her eyes but kept her gaze down. She had a tears come down from her eyes. He let go of her hands and cupped her face.
Arnav: i dont understand what you are trying to say.
Tom was trying to pacify minta at the same time. She said the same thing to him.
Tom and Arnav both looked at each other. What was that suppose to mean, and why did the both of them say it to them. Both of them.
Arnav looked at khushi again. He wiped her tears with his thumbs and slowly went in to kiss her forehead. He just had touched her forehead when she pushed him back. He was left mind boggled.
Khushi started to cry and softly said to arnav, just loud enough for him to hear.
Khushi: Why does it always have to become physical...Why.. She looked at him. Arnavs eyes were left wide open. His lips parted apart. He wanted to say something, but didnt know what to say.
Arnav: what are you talking about..
Khushi stood there silent. He walked up to her, His heart was beating faster and harder. He closed his eyes. Opened them and just put his hands in his pocket. She folded her hands infront of her. And looked down. Tears flowing out of her eyes.
Arnav: okay.. Okay.. Sorry.. I wont touch you. Just tell me what happened... Or just ...Just look at me. No words nothing. Bas. That is all i ask. Please.
Khushi slowly looked up at him. He looked at her eyes. They were filled with pain, betrayal. And regret. He gulped. Why was she hurting? He tilted his head down and hinted to her that tom and minta were also there. They were also fighting. He heard minta constantly say the word commitment...Khushi kept on saying physical. Physical? Commitment?? What was that suppose to mean. He looked at khushi again. His eyes widened. They heard him and tom talking. But how. He held his head. She put her head down and walked towards her room. Arnav stood there for a minute. He looked at tom.
Arnav: Tom,,, i think they heard what we were talking about that day, the day of the hockey game.
Minta: yes, me and khushi both heard you guys. You both are sick cowards. With that minta left for her room. Arnav went to khushis room, opened the door went in and closed it. She stood there by the window. Crying. Tom followed minta into her room.
He went up to khushi. He didnt know what to say. What did she exactly hear, what did she understand from what she heard. He knew nothing, just that he had hurt his khushi unintentionally. He went and stood beside her and softly whispered.
Arnav: I am sorry khushi.. I dont know what you heard, or thought, but i think we need to talk. She looked the other way. Tears were still flowing down her face. He took a deep deep breath. He tried to touch her should but she shrugged it off. She went and was about to walk out of the room when he grabbed her hand and pulled her towards him. She came crashing back into his chest. She was now upset and starting to get angry. She needed her space, her time, and he was not giving it to her.
Khushi: Why does everything have to become physical.Whyyy.. She said that pushing him back. He just stood there. His arms were left a bit up. He just placed them back into his pocket. He knew she had to get all of her emotions out, and that was a trigger enough.
Khushi: Why... I thought that we actually loved each other. Not just attracted, but actually loved each other. And you... I always let you go as far as you wanted, because you wanted it. Not me. You stopped by yourself, becuase you know that i was not comfortable. But why couldnt you come and tell that to me.. Directly... Tell me something. If we started off on a more physical basis,than the innocence that we had in our love would have been lost. Did you not realize that. Did you? Isnt it more important to understand each other rather than sleep with them first. Why is it that it always has to be this way for all males. No matter where you look, it is always a matter of becoming physical. You are the one that said... Something more.. Sometimes you just want something more right.. Okay fine.. She wiped her tears.. She went up to arnav and stood infront of him. He looked at her. His eye brows furrowed, his eyes were moist as well. She brought her hand up to her chest, grabbed her duppata.. And pulled it off. She held it up on the side. He looked at her shockingly. His mouth opened. His eyes were wider. He looked at her, than at her hand that held the duppata that was not falling on the ground. He looked at her again.
Khushi: here.. Come.. Lets do something more.. I will not stop you. Not say anything. She closed her eyes. Tears flowing down her cheeks.
He looked at her face. All he saw was pain and tears. He looked down, her chest was heaving heavily. He slowly came foward and bent down. He grabbed her duppata and placed it back on her. She oepend her eyes but kept her gaze down. She gulped. He took a minute to compose himself. He didnt want to use any words that would hurt her even more. He took her hand and gestured her to come and sit down on the bed. She refused. He looked at her again, with her pain being reflected on his face. He gestured for her to go and sit on the bed again. She obliged and went and sat down.
He kneeled infron tof her. She looked the other way. He tooks his two hands and wiped her tears. Then slowly bent forward and placed a kiss on her forehead. He knew she said nothing physical, but he knew that they both needed him to do that at that time. She closed her eyes and sighed. He moved his head back and started to talk to her while still cupping her face.
Arnav: Khushi... I am sorry for what i had said..But. I dont expect anything for us to change. I am happy the way we are. How close we are, or are not for that matter of fact. Trust me.
She looked at him.
Khushi: phir aisa kaha kyon? And i heard regret in your voice that day. On the phone, we heard you two talk. I heard regret in your voice.
He looked at her. Waited a moment, then answered.
Arnav: I dont have any regrets with you. Never have, never will. Khushi, i love you.. Everything about you. I fell in love with your heart and soul. Yes sometimes i will agree that i have a....(he looked down ).. Desire for more... (he raised his head again). But that doesnt mean that i expect anything. I dont think that it is necessary that i fulfill my desires right now. We were raised differently khushi. And plus.. I knew that even though we had gotten engaged, w could have done more. We never did, because we have our values close to our hearts. Did you ever think why i didnt tell tom and minta about us from the beginning.
Khushi shook her head. She looked down.
Arnav: because i needed to make sure that if, by any chance i am unable to control myself, then having to hide it from them would force me to.
Khushi looked at him in amazement. She thought that he didnt tell them because he was mad at her at that time. But it was all for a reason to help control them.
He looked at her and nodded his head.
Arnav: Please khushi.. Trust me... I dont want anything to ever change between us right now. Right now we need to understand each other, out thoughts, feelings, etc. Not be distracted by the physical stuff. I will say though, that sometimes, we mayyy.. Become more physical, but nothing that BOTH of us are not comfortable with.
Khushi gulped and took his hands into hers. She placed them on her lap. She was still upset about something. But what.
Khushi: arnav. I trust you. I always have, and i know i always will. Even if you ever did want to get more physical, i have never stopped you. Because i trust you. She looked at him, her eyebrows furrowed. Her eyes asking him to confirm this.
Khushi: remember that night when you became very upset, I knew that you needed.... Me... (she said that hinting to herself, her physical self as well, indrectlyl). And i would not have stopped you. Arnav, you have a right over me, but..
He looked at her.
Arnav: but what khushi.. But what..
Khushi: Arnav,, if we want this relationship to work, then we need to be more open with each other. We need to become each others best friends. We need to be able to come and talk to each other about anything. But when you didnt come to me and talk to me about this, and instead went and spoke to Tom, I was hurt. It hurts when you hoped that you hold that special place in someones life that they can come and share anything with you, anything.. Why did you need to go and confide in a friend about.. Us.. Our personal things, how close or not how close we are.
Arnav was held back. She was right, but did she realize that she had done the same thing to him. When khushi mentioned that one night he got mad, she reminded him of his identity as Aish. And how he begged her to tell him about shyam and everything, but she refused.
Arnav: Sometimes it is not as easy as you thinkkhushi..
Khushi: it is if you try.
Arnav: Khushi, no its not. Okay. Why did you agree to marry the other guy?
Khushi was confused,why did Arnav bring that up.
Arnav: Khushi.. Remember that night.. Before that night when we were back home, i kept on asking you about why you had agreed to marry someone else. I begged you, i pleaded. And you didnt tell me. You went and spoke to Aish..
Khushis was in shock. Arnav stopped for a second. What did he just say. She let go of his hands.
Arnav: i mean.. You told someone else..
Khushi: how do you know aish?
She looked at him. She had a straight face. He lowered his eyes. It all made sense to her now. HE was Aish. That is how he knew everything about her likes, dislikes. That is how Aish knew about Arnav. That is why Aish had a significant other the same time arnav did. The night she told Aish about shyam and arnav erupting. It all made sense now.
Khushi: appp... Kya.. Apppp....
He looked down. Closed his eyes.. And slowly nodded his head. She stopped breathing for a moment. HE looked up at her and tried to hold her face. She moved his hands away...
Arnav: khushi.. Listen to me first. Please let me explain. You need to hear me out in this.. Please..
Khushi: please leave me alone right now..
Arnav: no.. You need to hear me out in this.
Khushi: i trusted you... I TRUSTED you! ... Leave please.. Just leave!
Khushi started to yell. Arnav didnt want her to find out this way. She stood up and walked towards the door. He went after her. She opened the door and stood there.
Arnav shook his head.
Khushi: please.. I need to be alone right now.
Arnav sighed. He faced outwards and whispered to her.
Arnav: call me, please...
She just looked down. He left. She closed the door and started to cry profusely. IT was all a lie. He lied to me for all these years. Why.. How could he. He betrayed her trust.
Tom and Minta has also decided to take a little break from each other. Arnav kept on trying to call khushi over the next couple of days. But she didnt answer. She would speak to his family as if nothing happened. And he spoke to hers just as normally. They didnt want the family members to worry about them. MM would speak to both of them and so would Garima. Both of the mothers knew that something was wrong.
Khushi realized that arnav now knew about shyam. His reaction was what she had feared, but what would happen when they come face to face. Her worst nightmares were coming true. She just worried more and more as the holidays approached.
Three Weeks passed,each day becoming more difficult than the other. Khushi was missing arnav, and arnav was become lost in his own world. Both heartbroken, both in pain. And they both knew that the only cure for their broken heart was with each other. It was not that easy for khushi to forget what arnav hid from here, but she understood what he did and why. She was not just scared for his reaction.
It was almost reading week, and khushi knew that her and arnav both had to go home. Arnav wished for them to go together, just like the last time. But khushi wasnt talking to him. There were just a couple of days left for them to go, when there was a knock on arnavs door. He opened it. There is a courier boy with a big box. He signed off the sheet and took in the box. He opened it. It had wrapped gifts. One was for Anjali, Akash, MM, and Prakash, then also khushis family. Arnav recognized the writing on the labels. She had sent gifts that arnav could give everyone on his behalf. He smiled, she may be mad, but she is still there with him. There was a letter inside. Arnav wanted to talk to khushi. But wasnt able to. Arnav had an idea. She may be avoiding him, but she wouldnt be able to if.... Yes, that was it. He knew what he had to do. He called his mom.
Arnav: Hi mom...did i ever tell you how beautiful you are.
MM started to laugh.
MM: Kaam batao.
Arnav: voh mom.. I have reading week coming up. So does khushi.. And... We actually had a ...
MM: You guys had a fight, and she is not talking to you. Right.
Arnav: how did you know.. Did she say something.
MM: No arnav. She didnt. But both of the way that you guys kept on talking to us, or ignored the topic of each other gave us the hint. What do you want me to do. Hmm?
Arnav: Can you call Khushis mom and ask her to tell, she has to force khushi to come with me. Make it sound as if it is.. Well mom you know.
MM: Ok. Let me call her tomorrow and then tell you.
ARnaV: No mom.. Now please. Okay. I will be leaving Friday afternoon. Around 5 pm. Just make sure that khushis mom says that she must come with me. Bas. Khushi wont agree, but you both have to do something. Please please please....
MM started to laugh.
MM: ok ok. Let me call her right now.
MM called Garima and both of the ladies started to laugh. Garima called Khushi told her to be ready Friday by 5 pm. She already told arnav. And that is final.. Khushi was hessitant. But had no choice.
Friday came, and arnav was ready at khushis door by 4:30. He knocked on the door. Khushi opened it.
He had seen her after soo many weeks. Emotions were running through his mind, love, desire.. He just wanted to hug her... He wanted to hold her. She wanted the same.
Arnav: hi....
Khushi smiled softly and looked down. She was still upset,less than before.. But still upset. That is what he thought anyways. When is reality she was worried.
Arnav: Umm..Chalain. Amma called me and asked me to bring you with me.
She nodded her head and opened the door. He stepped in. He saw two bags. Two?
Khushi: minta. Lets go...
Minta stepped outside ready to go as well.
She saw arnav and smiled. He smiled back, a nice hello type of smile.
Arnav: I need to go and get the car. I will see you guys outside.
Arnav went outside and called tom. He told him to get his bag ready, this was the chance for them to both win their lady lucks back. He told tom to stay at his place, but to make sure that he had everything ready for himself, this was his chance.
Precap: What are arnav and Tom up to.. Hmmmm.....
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