Software Symphony 65 'Playthings' - Page 77

Tatvamasi ...I am what I think

Insecure and inadequate about herself

Eternally in self doubt requiring reassurance

Willingly she stretches herself to give

At times over stepping, bearing the brunt

Mistaken, isolated , shunned and slighted

He the succor that diverts her every time

The perceptive patriarch the mother hen that hovers around

Sam offering solace in matronly manner

The Dude's possessive streak comforting her to sleep

Sad is her plight when the insecurity voiced

Amma uttered the taunt that stabbed within

Tell tale marks stare starkly for all to see

Concealing the hurt, distracting her mind

Her emotions and feelings never gauged and laid to rest

The child within craves to be wanted, hugged and cajoled

Looks for acceptance from all , competing for attention with her new born

The damage done, the need strangled

She weaves and spins and fibs her way

Assuming her feelings lay buried within

He that dotes her worries and speaks

He that worships and adores her to the core

Is silently hatching pranks to match her lies

Her hope to run away from it all

Living in delusion and denial that the problem doesn't exist

Who she is and what she means to them

The magic she weaves the spells she casts

Enamored and enraptured in her words and silences

Ensnared and fascinated in her eel mode

In him she will find the solace she yearns

Calling on wife...

He showed up at her office at 6, and promised to drive her home. She protested citing not wanting to
leave her car behind, his Dad was Delhi's largest automobile dealer, he arranged for it to be picked up

"What?" she demanded nervously in the elevator "Are u going back to Paris?" she asked

"No I am not" he said blandly

"Then why do u need me?" she said carelessly

He laughed out loud

"U dont come get me unless u have something in mind... this time take Nivi with you" she sulked

"I am not going II" he said

"she keeps searching every room... "da da da da" she smiled

He smiled too

"U lied about dinner last night?" he asked

She looked startled

"Umm... bhool gayi... baat karte karte"

"is it about Shravu?" he asked

She had to nod...

"So ur imaginary friends have taken a break?" he mocked

"Dont blow it" she warned, her eyes filling up with tears

They walked quietly to her car

He bit his lower lip, she was right, she was attempting to be honest his sarcasm could have killed it

"I asked Amma why she didnt come to Sam's Amma said did u thank her in laws?" II said

He looked confused

"He... Shravu handed a love note" she cringed, leaning on his Ferrari door

"He is a teenager" he said matter of factly

"Well an Iyer teen" she said

"The school was going to throw him out" she said apalled

"Is that why u brought him home that night?" he asked

She nodded...
He walked to his door and opened and sat down

"Where do u want to eat?" he asked

"Ghar chalte hain" she said

Her tantrums were never about "things" or gifts or eating out or purses or jewelry
She was caught in her personal battles of trying to reconcile her wealthy post married life to her conservative middle class pre married one
She had no time for "petty" needs like Cartier and De Beers

"Lets grab a bite" he said patiently

"Dad spoke to the trustees and they let him off the hook" she said weeping

He pulled back into his parking spot

"Was Vandita unfair to you?" he asked

"Will you go beat her up if she was?" Ii asked red faced and sniffling and giggling

"Umm" he reached gently and wiped her tears off "Will that make u happy?" he asked softly

"Damn you" she cursed

Akka being in pain will never make u happy

"She loves u a lot II" he said softly

"I dont know any more da" II wept, sobbing

"Did u try going to Munirka?" he offered

"Are u actually offering for me to go away to Akkas?" she giggled again
He offered her a kleenex

"For an hour" "Yes" he said

"Its like I dont know Shravu any more, Athim any more or Akka..." she said

She proceeded to rant breathlessly about how Amma always thought the worst of her

"II" he tried to get a word in

"II.. listen" he urged

"Enough" he ordered

"If I didnt care for Shravu u think I wud have gone to get him?" she asked

"Everybody has pride"

"Its not like I dialed Manya" II blurted

R&B and Ii realized in shock what she had just said

"Manya doesnt like my family much... u know that" she whispered

"This is not abt her" he was defensive

"I know..." she said shutting her eyes in horror

"I am sorry... but we all feel that Sam understands us the most" II said

They drove quietly, he took her to a posh "after-work bar" type place near the airport

20 somethings, chilled, drank and scoped each other out pretending to play pool

The person behind the bar knew him they shook hands he introduced her

"Sam Adams for me... wine?" "for her" he said

"Red? white?" the bartender asked

"I am still nursing" she whispered in R&B's ear

"Umm... lemonade" he said

"If Shravu screws up one more time... Akka will stop talking to me completely" II declared

"Hyperbole" he muttered

"I dont pamper him... after the ipad thing I was harsh with him" she claimed

"What advice did u give him this time?" he asked curiously

"Umm... nothing" she muttered... deflated

I just love them...too sweet 😊

Chalo at last she told him...
Only after his persuasion but she told
She is still so unsure of him and scared of him going to Paris..
When they talk hey r so cute and adorable!!!
Lovely
👏

HIS BRIGHT AND DELICATE LOTUS

A lotus stays afloat in the muck

Untainted by its surroundings

She was married to a man poised and ruminating

A silent spectator of happenings most often

His warrior Princess enchanted him most

She the anchor that moored him and steadied a wobbling vessel

To see her struggle hear from observers her pain

Stirred him within and he reached out

Nervous she was jittery and strange

Weird fears and assumptions rankled her brain

His reassurance that they were on a date

Didn't assuage her rankled nerves a bit

Floored again at the realization of the battles that raged

Within her head and hurt heart

He gently coaxed her to talk

Unstoppable she was in ranting how flawed she was in her family's eyes

Rising like the lotus above the forces she battled

To stay grounded and caring the warrior Princess that held him hostage for life

By her simplicity and love and possessive streak

How distanced and isolated she felt

He realized her struggle to stay aloof and distant

Multi layered and gorgeous and delicate

Wonderful to see their relationship mature more than their physical relationship. Just like how i wish he talks about his work to II, I wish II share her troubles with R&B.

Good job R&B in bringing her out and coaxing her to advice Shravu ! 👏

Originally posted by: jasminechick

Wonderful to see their relationship mature more than their physical relationship. Just like how i wish he talks about his work to II, I wish II share her troubles with R&B.

Good job R&B in bringing her out and coaxing her to advice Shravu ! 👏

Talking to shravu ... On this The kiddo might be more receptive to dude than it coming from II.

Now this looks like a couple truly in love. it's so lovely to see that he cares so much for her. Even went to her work to get her. Slowly and steadily, one step at a time they Are doing what married couples should do... watch out for exh other but also comotnue to maintain the passion which at least for them formed the basis of their relationship! But I do miss their crazy fights...

Originally posted by: Errantnomad

Talking to shravu ... On this The kiddo might be more receptive to dude than it coming from II.

My boss - who has 3 girls - told me once - Take your daughter out separately to talk to her and for your son, ask a friend or brother/BIL to do it.

So true - a boy will listen better to another elderly man figure than his parents.

Wow one sensible convo with out shouting match