This was as painful a read as was reading Khushi's descent into her own hell. As much as I expected Arnav's angst mixed with anger, helpless hopelessness, this update left me reeling.
I can understand why Arnav feels twice betrayed by love and life.
He tried his best to make his marriage work but failed as Lavanya could never inspire the kind of love Khushi did, and he must have some sense of guilt arising out of a sense of not having fulfilled his commitment.
However much he knows he is not at fault for not falling in love with Lavanya, he knows Lavanya was hurt by it though he did not intend or wish to hurt her.
Lavanya loves him but betrays him with her stubborn refusal to accept his lack of love in her desperate attempts to force him into acknowledge some feeling for her.
And now Khushi, the one ray of light in his dark world of sorrow of Arav's loss, guilt and Lavanya's complexities, decides to turn away from him.
Here is yet another person who has betrayed him by not accepting him for what and who he is and his love for her.
IOne cannot accept the simple fact that he cannot feel love for her; the other is not willing to accept the simple fact that he loves her beyond everything.
As one of your readers, an ordinary rank and file reader like myself, put it so eloquently, there is so much I feel but do not have the ability or the facility with words that your famous readers and fans have in expressing their reactions to the update and in analysing it from different angles.
So here instead is a song that I for me sums up beautifully and so poignantly Arnav's feelings.
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQ_ZI8TEsK0 [/YOUTUBE]
Edited by Japonica - 10 years ago
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