The opening scene was too hot and steamy and after that call, it got too hot and I couldn't see anything because of the steam..he he..Good that I didn't read it last night, else I would have trouble sleeping alone in this cold winter night...
Life indeed is complicated even though people say it's simple. As long as emotions are there in each human, the feelings get complicated with the way we think about our life and our preferences. The priorities are an important factor in life and when they have to be decided and arranged in order, it gets tough to make choices, decisions. Relationships with family -dad, mom, siblings, grandparents, are priority no.1 by default. When a life partner enters that scene, there is priority shift or certain adjustments to be made. In Arnav's case, he isn't Khushi's husband yet he is more than that to her. Actually there isn't any need for him to feel insecure and he isn't insecure on that front, its just that he misses her...I loved the way you presented his thoughts - the feeling of she being unavailable for him, was something he wasn't used to..I remembered my dad when I read about Arnav. Once when I whisked away my mom for a month (during my thesis submission time) to Japan, dad was so lonely and unhappy. Until then it was him who used to go away on business trips and mom used to be there packing his bags, seeing him off, receiving him when he comes back...you know all that family hubby-wifey drama? I used to say my mom has pampered and spoiled dad. I used to ask how did he manage to live before he was married to my mom..his words were somewhat similar to what you wrote here --- " he wasn't used to Khushi being unavailable for him. She had been generous to him, not only with her love and affection, but also with respect and time. He had to just think about her and she would be there, bringing a smile to his face, just like that. And he had been demanding, he knew that. He had always found peace and contentment in being with her, solace and comfort in her presence around him, for him".
And now, her life had become about things beyond just college and her love for him. She was a woman who was inspired, he had known it was only a matter of time before she found what gave her the joy, the high in doing something that mattered, and something she enjoyed. Life had caught up with her, and he was no more the sun of her universe. He didn't resent her for it; such was life afterall. If anything, the woman she had become made him burst with pride. Yet, he felt the pang one feels in letting go of a time in life when one is truly content with all that is. ----Something about this feelings of Arnav touches my heart. I cant say exactly what..he realises the reality and accepts it without bitterness..is he for real? I wish, truly wish for a guy like him..wink!
The pig could have just called an hour back when she was on her way to the farmhouse. --- His frustration is clearly evident in this one line!
If Khushi had been bold and sensuous, Arnav was tender and indulgent. ----loved the contrast in their personalities!
He entered her in one fluid move; when they came together, Khushi felt nothing less than a deity worshiped. --- Blush blush... I loved it!
Always good food can pacify a woman than a man's talks..and now you made me crave for pizza when I have to make do with a pack of hide and seek biscuits for lunch.
Khushi's whining of bad food for a week, it has something real feel in it, since I tend to do that a lot!
- You and Payal and Di... and so many others, you guys do what you do because you like it. You have a passion for it; you have found something which gives you joy as well as peace. I have never had that, Khushi. I have never felt that rush,despite my best efforts. I was floundering in the dark for the longest time before I decided to do this. I had simple reasons behind my choice - it was respectable, I could make good money to take care of you and our families when we grow old... and every once in a while, I would have the opportunity to help somebody in need. And you see what happened ? The one time I had a chance to do something for a friend, I failed him. I am not being hard on myself Khushi, I am just sad to see that I failed to do one of the very few things that make my job worthwhile." --- I think I can really feel what Arnav is trying to say. Since I too feel the same darkness. It''s not the lack of ambition, but can't identify the profession which gives that drive or rush. At times I feel I am content like Arnav for exactly the same reasons he mentioned. But then it isn't enough to tie me up. Like me, he too gives his 100% dedication, sincerity and is passionate of what he is given to do..But personally it isn't giving him the thrill or satisfaction. I am really waiting to see how you mould his future..In him, I look forward how to discover the hidden talents..
To forgive oneself was the most difficult thing to do; he would have to want to let himself off the hook before he could look past it, and there was nothing she could do except be there with him throughout the journey. --- Arnav surprises me with his good heart. In this world people easily washes their hands when some mishaps occur. I often wonder how they can behave like that without a consciousness. Arnav is a good man!
"This is not the end, Arnav. There will be another chance, another case - you cannot weigh the significance of things against one another unless you see the bigger picture. And we have no idea what that looks like yet. --- Loved Khushi's thought! Its true..we think something this is the end' but no, like khushi said, only when we see the bigger picture, we know what was in making through all the hardships..
I feel like I have bitten off more than I could possibly chew in a lifetime." --- haha! It applies to all of us right?
"Theres no way to go back and change it?" --- I loved Arnav's concern here, he is so understanding and reassuring here. Most of the people won't even ask such a question, but his concerned patient question can ease a lot of worry and can sooth!
"Don't worry, I'm sure it looks like its too much right now - but it will get done. Its good to be under pressure, I have seen work getting done in a miraculously short time when people are pushed. As Calvin would say, its the miracle of last minute pressure.""What a lovely boyfriend I have! I tell him my worries and he quotes cartoons." - Superb closing line..But I loved Arnav's wise words..indeed it would be the miracle of last minute pressure but he is right, something things which would look like its too much and impossible, can be done within the timeframe!
Lovely chapter twiggy! I enjoyed it greatly!
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