Res!
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Unres...
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: [ ] : [ ] : [ ] *jawdrops... like three timesss*
My dear Mavs, know that every time I receive a PM from you, my initial reactions are the same, yet they are entirely different each time. You see, your name itself brings about such contentment that I myself cannot express, yet the integrity and the satisfaction of knowing that you are once again back with a mastermind creation for us all, makes that happiness increase ten fold.
More and more every time, yet the magnitude with which you splendidly wrote this time was another beauty entirely. You literally and figuratively had me mesmerised in every sense possible, if that even is possible.
The plot and the idea with which you decided to revolve your OS around was very gripping and it seemed to soak in its own newfound uniqueness which you yourself had managed to incorporate into your writing.
I have always admired the variety of styles and scenarios with which you seem to somehow throw ArShi into and I love how each and every one of your OS's are always so much more beautiful than the last one, each reinforcing yet another ideology or theory we were all oblivious to, up until you did the pleasurable honour of bringing it to our attention.
This one however, stood apart from all the others, just like I said, so much more beautiful than the rest. It struck such a deep chord in my heart that mentioning I felt the need to cry and reflect upon the value of life would be soo much of an insultive statement to the boldness and the depth you demonstarted here that I could feel when reading. It was a real and definite reality check to the core.
Death. The word itself brings about such a tremor in our minds and hearts that one who has never been in that very unfortunate position to experience it, cannot know the excrutiating pain he feels when a loved one is lost from him forever. Tinging the foundation of this OS with Death and having being already too familiar with the profundity of your writing could only mean that there was most definitely and unevitably going to be a huge element of sorrow present, but also rekindling ype of hope that you, once again would be able to show us yet another side of IPKKND that was hidden in the shadowey curtains of interpretation and never came to surface.
The composition of your writing was flawless and the first paragraph itself was very wonderfully structured. I could visualise the traumatic state Arnav must have been in, whilst at the same time I could see the absolute stark contrast between the Khushi I once knew and loved and the Khushi you described to me just now. Her death was a terrible blow to all, yet when it comes to Arnav, I have absolutely no idea how to name the horror and shock he must have been going through at that particular moment in time.
Across the show and many other FF's on ArShi, is has always been made a point to portray how Khushi, out of all people was able to see through the rough exterior that Arnav had spent so long in his life trying to build up and hide behind, yet she still managed to find those tattered remains of the beating heart of a man who knew how to love, yet didn't trust himself or others to bring himself to it.
And then slowly and gradually, her ever innocent nature let itself wind way up into the chambers of his soul and nestle there, imprinting herself into him as he did to her, marking their eternal love. Now that Khushi was no more, the harsh reality of it all just seemed to tumble down on me, as it was so hard to try and take in this highly absurd mutation of Arnav that seemed just as worst as before.
Knowing Khushi was no longer present in his life, it felt as if Arnav no longer had any reason to live for. His actions, his body language showed it all and it was Khushi in fact who was the one that taught him how to love, who showed him that beauty still exists in his idea of a supposed world full of deceit and the whole reason why she began to love him in the first place was because she knew him all along. Her love for him made her see past the outer layers and managed to successfully peel them back, revealing a wonderful, vulnerable and insecure man who had been through a tough time all his life and just needed healing.
Pata hain, I always used to think back to the times when IPKKND was still on air and how it must have been like to see a real miniscule ArShi on the big screen; yet another addition to the Raizada and Gupta family. They would have been such a wonderful love triangle - Khushi, Arnav and their baby.
Obviously the baby has his or her own place in the hearts of his or her beautiful parents, yet the place which each of them held in each other's hearts, lives and souls was a total other dimension entirely. Having to choose between your partner for life or your linking legacy of blood is something I pray no husband/father, wife/mother ever has to face.
Something I was totally moved by and only came to realise the visciousness of when you mentioned Khushi's last wish and Arnav's final promise to her before she died.
The love between ArShi is phenomenal, but with Khushi being the ever giving soul she is, obviously would want to opt to open the pathway of life for her daughter. Saying that she did not love Arnav enough to be able to rethink her decision and ask to save herself is out of the question, but rather I felt Khushi's maturity seeping out of those last words of hers. She knew her daughter would be the only one in her absence that could heal her father's wounds and wash away the pain, yet there would always be that void of her presence, the emptiness of her cheery spirit, the reminder of her loving nature.
Arnav himself, loved Khushi to the bone, for she was such a crutial member, no the sole owner of his being, of his life and that moment.. that awful moment when everything just seemed to go horribly wrong, it felt as though he was trying to prolong time itself. Trying to get in as much of her beautiful face and her lingering presence into his soul and heart before she went away to unreachable depths.
Their kiss was promising, apologetic, loving, sorrowful, sincere, heartbreaking, well wishing, reassuring, memorable yet it was the final reminder and reminiscence of the fact that it all ended there.
Khushi was one such soul that affected everyone and so it is highly not surprising at all to know that all the members would be shaken by her death. I felt Anjali's sense of resolve towards her brother and the commendation she deserves for attempting to be there was a mother to both her brother and her niece is infinite, though she will never be able to address Khushi's death with the same pain as the torture Arnav feels upon her departure out of his life.
Initially, I felt Arnav's apprehension when it came to accepting his daughter, after all, even though it is very much so unfair to blame her, she is always going to be one constant reminder to him of the brutality of losing the love of his life. I highly respect him though for the fact that he was able to look ahead from the past and hold Khushi and his new Khushi their own respective places in his life.
Ironically though, his reason for living has been reincarnated from the ashes, as now his beautiful baby daughter breathes in his arms, her pulsing heart beating his blood. His Khushi will be relived through his new Khushi and though she may be the only reason for Arnav to continue living entirely, Khushi herself was the reason that Arnav was alive by showing him another side of life where one is promised to be happy, to bask in abundant joys.
You truly had move me very much so my darling Mav, I was very close to tears and though I tried hard to compose myself, being the highly emotional person I am just let it all out and cried along with Arnav. Along with Anjali. Along with NK and Akash who were silent sufferers.
Khushi may not be in this world no but she will always live in the world of Arnav and our new baby Khushi, beating in their hearts and resonating in their joys with them.
Thank you for the wonderful experience and thank you for the beautiful comment you gifted me with on my OS. I don't know if you saw it, but I replied to it very much so and I am ever so grateful to have come across someone who's writing just raises the bar so high for many others to look up to and be inspired by.
Lots of love, sincerely yours, Noor :) xxx
Edited by rockprincess123 - 12 years ago
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