Virman-SS-but I love you!!! part 15 - Page 29

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Virat's POV

The flame in the fireplace was flickering and roaring - taunting me and my pain - burning the dream that I held close so heart for so many years - the dream that had defined a part of who I was all these years. One by one, one by one, I was throwing them all away. I feel like I am burning a part of myself along with them. But, I know I have to do this. I look at the burning picture of me and her from our honeymoon, the part that had me had burned up and the end were curling up in flame, but I could still see her - She was standing by the beach, with a hand in her hair, as beautiful as ever - mocking and smirking at me - mocking my plight and smirking at my agony.

"Virat, you see those birds in the sky? See how they are flying away. I mean how wonderful their life must be right? No anchors, no bondages - they just fly wherever they feel like - always searching for better pastures. I want to be one of them Virat - carefree and high. I want wingsss!!!!" she was screaming, on the beach with her hands stretched out and running away from me."

"Hey..." I run behind her catching up with her and pull her onto me slipping down and rolling about in the sand laughing and giggling. She is over me with her soft hair falling on my face. I push them back so that I could see her lovely face. She was laughing so sweetly "... fly all you want baby, but don't fly away from me, okay?" I tell her.

"Hmm, I won't. Not anytime soon."

"How about never?"

"Ah! That I cannot promise."

"Even if you ever do, I am going to hunt you down and lock you up in my arms." I roll over her.

"Virat's own personal cage huh?"

"You bet!" I peck her cheek. She pushes me away and starts running again. "Heeey!"

"I don't do well with cages!!!!!!!" she screams.

"Hey. Stop. Simmmiii!!"

"You have to be able to catch up sweatheart!" she screams back.

I close my eyes and gulp down the third bottle of beer and smash the bottle in the corner. The anger and rage I feel in my heart when I think about this stuff is just maddening. Hope you are happy in your wide and beautiful sky Simmi. You probably weren't even attached to me as much I am attached to these junk of yours. I go into the kitchen, grab a big trash bag and dump all her stuff in it. There is a mad rush - a rush to get rid of this stuff - throw it out of my life, just like she threw me out of hers. Within a few minutes, I pulled all her stuff out and I dumped in out in the dumpster outside the house.

My whole body was shaking in fury. This is why I avoided doing this. I just let the rust settle in instead of vacuuming it all out. What all have I not done for you Simmi? I left my chance to study in the most prestigious Harvard Business only because I didn't want to leave you. Your career was so important for you and I couldn't ask you to come with me. At the same time, I didn't want to go without you. I did not even take up the jobs I got outside the city, however better they were for me, because that meant moving away from you. What did I get in the end? You blamed me that I was pulling you back, stopping you from achieving you your ambitions. It was the most horrifying nightmare of my life.

I looked at her wedding ring in my hand. This is probably the last things of hers that I have. I could imagine each and everything before my eyes. I had been patient with her for almost an year. Even though we were married, we hardly spent any time together. There were so many rumors of her going around with her boss in the hospital but I just brushed them all off. I trusted her blindly. Finally, I saw it with my own eyes that day. I was devastated and just torn apart into a million pieces. I had called her so many times that night to check on her, if everything was alright. She had not answered a single call of mine and on the top of that came home wearing some other man's jacket, riding on his bike and hugging him like they were lovers. I wanted to kill her and kill him. I was not in control. I beat the crap out of him.

"Virat! Why the f**k are you so angry? How can you beat Samir? He is my boss Virat!!! Are you out of your mind? We got delayed in the hospital and he dropped me home. That's all. THIS IS NOT ACCEPTABLE. You are messing with the people from my work and you are messing with my career dammit."

"Oh for godsakes SImmi. I am neither blind nor an idiot. Stop it with your career crap and just get out of here. I don't even want to look at you right now."

"Excuse me?"

"Priya told me that there was something going on between you too. I didn't believe it..."

"How dare she? That bitch.!!"

"SIMMIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed at her, my hand automatically rose at her. I was so out of control. I never knew that I was capable of getting so angry at someone, that too the love of my life. "Watch your language when you speak about Bhabhi." I warned her and moved away to calm myself down.

"OR WHAT VIRAT? You will beat me? Go ahead. What else can you do? Aur Kaunsi bhabhi, kaisi bhabhi. She is not even related to you. All these relations you make with random people - they are all your stupid imagination. I am sick and tired of your obsession with them and my parents. Why can't you think big Virat? Think past all these meaningless things? Do something with your life!!! If you have your days as occupied as me, you will not feel lonely."

I just stood there nailed to the ground as I saw the real face of wife - her opinions about me and my love for her; how she summed me up as an unsuccessful person; how she thought of me as a lonely and desperate fool. I didn't stop her that day. I let her speak. I wanted to hear it all.

"Samir is just a really good friend. I work for him and he thinks I have a great future. He took me up under his wing Virat. I never thought you will turn out into one of those typical husbands who is jealous of his wife's success. Do you know how big an opportunity it is to work with Dr.Samir. Why am I even asking you all this? What would you know about opportunities, dreams and ambitions? Let me tell you one thing Virat. I am not one of those typical wives who sit at home and cry because their husband asked her not to wear a certain dress or not to talk to a certain man. I will never let anything hold me back and right now, YOU ARE HOLDING ME BACK VIRAT!"

I stood there dumbfound, I felt like my whole world was crumbling around me. Is this what she really thinks about me? I couldn't open my mouth. I did not know what to say.

"Life needs to move forward but ever since we got married, I feel like my life has become stagnant. There is nothing to look forward to. All there is fights and fights and more fights. I cannot take this anymore Virat. I need an out. I need space. I feel suffocating."

"Suffocating?"

"I am sorry Virat. I love you but I cannot do this anymore. Maybe we should take a break. I need to be away from all this, from you."

"You need a break from me? What does that even mean Simmi? We are married, we cannot just be unmarried."

She threw her wedding ring on table like it was the most worthless thing on earth. "We can" she said and started packing her stuff. And the worst shock of my life, she called Dr.Samir for a ride to a hotel, she did not even want to take the car, because I bought it for her. I left the house that night as I couldn't watch the horror show. Remembering her words makes me feel so cheap and worthless. I made a lot of sacrifices for her but in the end, they all added up to discredit me. She didn't think I was worthy enough of her now. What do I say to that? The next day I came to know that she moved out of the city.

"Is that Simmi's ring?" someone asked me from behind me.

Manvi's POV:

"Hello?"

"Viratji? You are calling me? What a surprise? Guess what me and Priya are watching right now?"

"Mannu, can you do you me a favor?"

"Yeah. What's up? Is everything okay?"

"Yes. Everything is fine. Just stay over with Bhabhi for tonight, I am cleaning out some stuff at home and I want to be by myself. Okay?"

"Okaaay? I can come and help!!!!?"

"No. I mean it. Just let me be."

There is a huge pause.

"Manvi, there is nothing to it. I just need some space."

"But Virat?"

"You will listen to me. This is not up for discussion. I listen to your million requests everyday. Please do this one thing for me. Will pick you up tomorrow morning. Good night."

I stare at the phone for a few seconds. What's going on? He is cleaning up stuff at home and he needs space?

"Who was that?" Priya asks me.

"Apka pyaara devar."

"Looks like he is missing you already?" she nudges me.

"Yep! Can you please drop me home."

"Par Mannu, I haven't frosted the cake yet. You said you will die if you don't eat chocolate cake in the next 30 minutes."

"That's ok. I like plain cake more. I will take a big piece home, please drop me."

"You are unbelievable!!"

"I know. Pleaaase"

"FINE!"

I tell Bhabhi everything on my way back - about my stupid list and his call, everything. "Mannu, if he wants to be alone, leave him alone. Why do you want to go in?"

"When someone says leave me alone, that's when they need a friend by their side the most." I tell her and kiss her goodnight.

Getting off the car, I saw a lot of trash bags outside the house by the dumpster. I walk inside and the whole house looked like it was ransacked by burglars. He is letting it all go. This is a good thing. I tell myself. I peep into the study to see if he was in there. I saw a few beer bottles lying around and some smashed onto the wall. There were bits of burnt pictures in the fireplace.

Oh god!

I walk around and search for him in the house, I don't see him anywhere. I go to the backyard. He was standing there motionless and grim looking at something in his open palm. His other palm was clenched in a tight fist.

"Is that Simmi's ring?" I asked him.

He turns his head to me, taken aback by the intrusion. His eyes were filled up and blood red and he closed them shut tightly and turned away. "What are you doing here?" He asked me angrily.

"I got bored with Bhabhi-ji." I tried humor, knowing full well that it wouldn't work.

"Leave me alone Manvi." He says without looking at me.

I just stand there. I feel so bad looking at him like this. All this is my fault. He is getting rid of all this stuff because I asked him to. I hold his hand that was clenched into a fist. He moves it away from me almost immediately. "Manvi, you better not stay here. I am not myself. Please go."

I hold his hand again. "But this IS the real you!" I observe.

He moves away his hand again and this time bursts open on me. "Are you stupid or plain dumb? WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE MANVI!!!! What do you think of yourself? You think you are my savior? You understand me? You understand my pain and want to heal me right? You know what - you doctors are the most egoistic people on the earth, you think you are gods, and that you can fix anything. But guess what, I DON'T NEED ANY FIXING. I AM NOT A BROKEN HAND OR LEG. SO, JUST GO! PLEASE! LEAVE ME ALONE FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME!!!!!"

I just stand next to him silently. He doesn't talk anything for a really long while. I don't open my mouth either. He takes the ring in his hand and puts it in his pocket and looks at me - his tense face relaxing a little bit.

"If I need someone to talk to, there are a lot of people who will listen to me. I am not that lonely, I have a lot of friends."

"Mamma says a lot of people can understand words, but only a few we can understand silence."

He stares at me for a while and then turns away with a small sad smile.

"I hate you." He tells me.

"Aww.. But I love you.." I tease him.

"Shut up Mannu."

"Why do you hate me? Nobody has ever said they hate me, till date." I pout.

"Because you just barge into my life with all this positivity and freshness and liveliness and you make me feel like a dried up dead plant who cannot feel anything anymore. I just wish I could go back a few years and be that person I was - have all those hopes, ambitions and dreams again. I don't feel anything anymore Manvi. Nothing affects me. "

"Huh? That's it? I have a secret source"

"Why am I scared to ask about it?"

"Chalo, I will take you there." I hold his hand and drag him out. "Let me drive. I don't trust you right now." I take the keys.

Virat's POV.

"Mannu..you are crazy. It is middle of the night. Where are you taking me?" She just sits in and starts the engine. "Mannu!!!! MANVI!!!!!"

"Just sit. You ask a lot of questions!"

She is driving silently. Get that, Manvi is being silent. After like ten minutes, she pulls into the hospital. Why doesn't that surprise me?

"You drive me to his GOD FORSAKEN HOSPITAL in the middle of the night???" I scream.

"Shhh! Just humor me."

"Please Manvi, let's go home. I want to go to bed."

"Arey chalo yaar. Kuch nai hota.."

She drags me upstairs escaping three guards posted on the way, convincing me without any shadow of doubt that this is not the first time this psychopath has sneaked inside this building. She takes me to the top floor of the building and then inside into the floor which said pediatrics. I just resign myself and let her take me wherever the hell it is she is going towards. We enter a small room, it was a nursery with lots of new born babies in it. There were like atleast ten babies or more. They looked brand new. Some of them were sleeping and some were awake and looking at us curiously. There were so new, fresh and full of innocence. I don't know how and why, but my lips curve into a big smile seeing the baby in the crib in front of me extend his hand towards me. He was trying to grab something in my direction.

"Awww. He likes you." Manvi smiles widely beside me, looking over him.

"You are crazy, this is crazy. I am drunk for godsakes."

"Babies can't smell Virat-ji. That's ok. Give him your finger. They know magic." She holds my hand and pushes it forward so that the baby can hold it. And he immediately does and smiles making some kind of a baby sound. It sounded like a happy sound.

"I cannot believe I am doing this. This is so..."

"VIRATJI!!! why do you over think everything. It is making you feel good right. Seee. It affects you. It makes you happy!!"

"Look at them. They have a whole life ahead of them. Are you going to tell them not to hope, dream and desire or are you going to tell them to go all in and do everything as passionately as you can, just like you did, all your life?"

I look at her like I am looking at her for the very first time. Who is she? There is like a strange kind of fullness in my heart. I look around and at Mannu, she was poking a baby gently and everytime she does that, he was laughing and she was laughing too. Their laughter was ringing inside the room. It was such a sweet and magical sound. The little guy in front of me grabbed my finger again. He was smiling with his mouth open so wide that I couldn't help smiling back at him.

"Who are you people?" a nurse came in and asked. I looked at her not knowing what to do. I look at Manvi who was as cool as a cucumber. Why did I trust this maniac?

"Who are you?" Manvi asks the nurse as I along with the nurse, look at her bewildered. As the nurse doesn't say anything, Manvi starts again. "I am the new doctor here, Dr.Manvi. I have come to look around and inspect if you guys are working well in the night shifts. That baby in the corner needs feeding and the one in the blue crib, needs changing. What are you guys, sleeping? Get to it ASAP or I will have to report on you tomorrow. What's your name?"

"Deepa Doctor."

"Move your ass Deepa. Quick!"

"Yes ma'm"

"Chalo, chalo." Manvi holds my hand and starts walking fast and I walk along with her. Once we reach the stairs we run down, laughing loudly.

"Tume patha hai na tum kitni stupid ho?"

"Yeah!" she just shrugs.

~~~

Next day, I was sitting in my office with Rahul.

"So, Manvi is coming with you on your trip?" Rahul asks me in my office.

"Yes. She will get bored here. So, I am taking her along. She can meet her old friends and stuff."

"But not on a honeymoon?"

"Rahul, for the hundredth time today. NO!!"

"Just business??" he smirks, laughing at his own joke.

"SHUT UP! Will ya?"

I suddenly hear a huge uproar from the reception area and I walk out. Manvi was hugging Preity. I look around for an appropriate wall to bang my head against. Kya timing hai iska!

"What are you doing here?" I ask her as she walks into my office behind me.

"I have to go shopping for your business trip." She replies and greets Rahul . Rahul is winking at me and I know why. Don't talk anything stupid Manvi!

"Thanks, but I have everything." I tell her.

"But, I don't. I have lost a lot of weight after I came back to India. I need new everything for the trip."

"For you? Who said you are coming?"

"Why does anyone have to say anything? Chalo, let's go shopping." She drags my hand.

"Mannu, first of all, you are not coming and second of all, some of us have to work for a living."

"But, what about my clothes?"

"Mannu, I have a very important question. Two of my friends recently got married and ..." Rahul interjects.

"Mannu, here are my car keys. Go shop all you want. I will call you when I am done, come and pick me up." I try to send her off.

"Arey, but who will pay the bill?"

I look at her and roll my eyes. I get my wallet out and give her my credit card and push her out. Rahul is cracking up. "Virat-ji, Rahul has an important question." She walks in.

"No, he doesn't. GO!" I push her out again.

"Mannu, get some really nice lacy things." Rahul shouts after her.

I glare at him with my hands on my hips. "Hogaya?"

"Hogaya." He tries really hard not to laugh.

~~~

Shivani - again, the banner is mind blowing.. a big thanks to u!

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