she let her tears keep flowing till they were dry... she wished she could cry more but she was too hurt now even to feel more on that...
she still couldnt believe what had happened... the only face that flashed in front of her eyes was her Arnavjii... she din know why but she couldnt think of anything else...
she looked up slowly... she could see the stars twinking casting its reflection on the lake...
she stood by the lake with the cold breeze lifting her hair ...
kushi: maa... paa... you are seeing na... you could have taken me with you right... why did you leave me here maa... paa if you had been here i would not have been here today na... why does this always happen to me... dont i ever deserve love maa... what did i do...
the stars shined brighter as if responding to her...
she slowly moved forward sitting in the edge of the lake letting her legs into the water...the cold water flew across her legs making it numb with every passing minute...
how she wished she could soak her heart in it too and make it numb devoid of all the bleeding wounds...
she sat staring thinking of the past... the first time she fell on his arms... the time he left her fall in his office... his bets... him watching the stars with her... the way he took care of her when she was sick...
the millions of FARAK PADtha hai left incomplete always...the way he had given her all the emotional support she needed when her dad was sick... the way he had hurt her a million times but the way he REALLY felt sorry ...
the tears were again flowing non stop and her gaze was fixed at the lake where she saw the memories floating...
her dhak dhak and acidity and the holi where he had told her the reason for her racing heart beats...
he could have hurt her... she could have cursed him but she had never imagined to live a life without him...
as she sat thinking the reality hit her bringing back his words: KUSHI THATS COZ YOU DON HAVE A CHARACTER... YOU DON HAVE A CHARACTER
I KNOW THE AFFAIR BETWEEN YOU AND SHYAM I KNEW THE AFFAIR BETWEEN YOU AND SHYAM
SHYAM HIMSELF TOLD ME...SHYAM HIMSELF TOLD ME
a shiver when down her spine making her tremble... even the thought that he had doubted set her a feeling of disgust... she din blame him though...
kushi was kushi
she looked up: maa i cant stay here anymore... i couldn't even bulid a trust in him for me maa... i believed him soo much ma... but i failed... i was never able to give him the trust... i am sorry ma and before she could realize
SPLASHHH ( guys obviously kranti knew all this only after kushi had told him later when they are friends... but he does not know anybody's names... he only knows what happened ... but he tells arnav the whole thing now and obviously he knows where to fit who in the story!!!)
: KRANTI:::I was sitting on my car with my back facing her...
the sudden sound of splash made me turn only to see kushi already drowning in the lake...
without a second of hesitation i dived into the water... the lake seemed to be very deep and i found it more difficult to swim across to reach her in the eyes cold water...
what shocked me was i was screaming my life out asking her to respond but there was no response.. she wasn't even making the effort...
kushi was slowly loosing her consciousness ... all the crying had taken its effects finally pulling her down and she was too depressed even to react...
finally i reached her and dragged her with all my effort to the s****...
kushi din respond... i tried pressing her abdomen successfully getting out the water but she was still unconscious...
i myself had gone numb coz the cold water...i quickly took out my mobile and informed neetu his friend in his mom's orphanage asking explaining the problem...
i rushed kushi to the hospital... i was just in time ... i put kushi on the stretcher and before i realized i started struggling for breath himself collapsing on the floor...
the doctors rushed to aid me... they put on the oxygen mask for me ...
kushi inturn was connected to monitor her vitals.. her BP and pulse were dropping low with every minute... the doctors pushed in fluids through her veins in one hand and drugs to revive her falling heartbeats through a vein in another hand...
on the other side i was becoming serious too... finally neetu and maa had arriived at the scene after which the doctors got to know that i suffer from sever asthma and i am forbidden from the waters...
but good deeds don go a waste and kushi reveived in sometime.. she was mainly affected coz the depression... the mangal sutra she wore was the only thing which helped maa know she was married...
but they were worried for me...
kushi had got up by then but refused to speak to anybody... the only question she asked was who saved her and how he was...
finally i came to normal next morning... kushi refuse to speak anything to anybody... finally we all left home... we took kushi with us to the ashram here...
kushi never spoke to anyone.. all that we knew was her name... she was like a living corpse walking around... she stayed in her room all the time...
neetu forced her to eat...
it was being this way all the time and i decided to talk to her... neetu and maa had gone out and i was alone... i walked up to her room knocking on the door
the door was open and the beds were empty... i wondered where she would be finally i saw her
she was lying alone in the corner of the room with her knees against her chest and head on her hands...
i walked closer to find the tears from her eyes making way continuously reaching the floor
i went near her and sat beside her... her eyes were closed... her face was pale and looked as if someone had sucked the entire life from her...
kranti: kushiii...
she din respond
kranti: kushiii and placed his hand on her head...
she slowly opened her eyes looking at me... the very look in her eyes told me that she wanted me to leave her alone... but i was scared that this might kill the life i saved for her...
kranti: i know what you want to tell me kushi... but i am not gonna leave... not unless you speak something... its been more than a week that you came here
she still din talk and turned her head to other side leaning against the wall...
kranti: kushiii
kushi: what do you want!! why did you save me and now you ppl are killing me every minute... why dont you understand i don wish to live... and she broke down
kranti: kushi...and placed his hand on her cheeks 
i don want to ask you what happened with your past... but i can tell you this... you have no right to kill the life GOD has given you... its equal to killing your mother... and if you continue behaving so you would do nothing but that...its time for dinner...
and kranti got up and left the room...
he turned back to see kushi still leaning on the door crying...
just as he came out he saw one of the babies crying badly and the staff trying to console the kid...it was 2 yr old aarav...
an idea flashed in his mind... he took the kid and left the kid enter kushi's room...
the kid kept crying continuously... kushi still sat frozen in the corner... the kids cry was going into her little by little...
slowly she turned and looked at the kid...she could see the kid pale and she immediately walked up and lifted the kid...
kushi immediately started consoling the kid... and as if the kid knew her he was responding...
i saw this and closed the door leaving kushi behind with aarav... thst one reason why aarav is spl to her even today
finally kushi walked out to leave aarav back... thats when she noticed the number of kids sleeping there... i walked up to her and transferred a sleeping aarav from her to the bed...
kranti: you decided to end your life kushi but instead why dont you give it to them... you might not have got what you wanted... but may be you have something which they need
my words finally reached her and she looked at me with a confused look
kranti: hmm... they are all orphans kushi.. but they wont be if we are with them...
i turned to leave when i heard her call my name the first time
kushi: krantiii
i turned and she walked towards me: thank you... and sorry
kranti with a smile: whats both for.. care to explain
kushi: thanks for saving my life and sorry .. you could have died saving me
kranti smiled: well but i dint.. so there is no need to be sorry about anything...but if you wanna thank me just promise me you wont ever do something like that again... now since i saved it i guess i have the right
he put forward his hand: friends???
kushi slowly raised her hand and placed it on his and he covered it with the other
kushi: but i need time to get back to me
kranti: well take your time... and left...
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after that day kushi slowly started slowing changes... but still she never spoke much with us... slowly she started getting to spend time more with the kids...
and when they were off to school she would go and sit alone in the garden...
you know i even got her a puppy to distract her... and i guess thats the best thing i did... we i mean neetu me and kushi used to try hiding the puppy from the others and thats when we started becoming friends...
i had always wanted to ask kushi what happened so much that she wanted to die but i knew i never had that right...
we never spoke about her past... but i got her na dneetu enrolled in the fashion designing by compulsion... kushi never accepted...
i walked into her rom begging her to join but she bluntly refused... then i dressed like a girl got some glycerine and made such a drama that she had no choice but accept... but after that madam was a topper... she was so damn talented
after that what followed were hilarious adventures of the three musketeers till i had to leave abroad for a year for my studies
though ppl listening to this think i saved her she has been the most pleasnt thing that happened to me...
and kranti flashed a smile looking at arnav%%%%%%%%%%%%%% FLASH BACK ENDS @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
arnav was killed every second he was hearing the pain kushi had gone through and sufferred and how kranti had helped her...
but in the full conversation it was evident she had never told kranti about him
arnav: kranti has she told you about her husband
kranti: yeah after like ages when we became best friends she told me... she even told me he was such a good man at heart and loved his family and that it was she who was unlucky to not have made it to let him trust her... she feels its her fault after all that happened...
i swear arnav... how can he doubt her... i hardly know her but i could see the innocence in her... why din he believe her man... you temme arnav... had you been her husband wouldnt you have thought a million times of accusing such a soul???
fine he saw her ... when he can go and ask that creey BROTHER IN LAW of his why couldnt he have asked her tooo... she believes he loved her but if that was true why did he do this to her??
temme arnav!! do you think he is worth her...... i just wish he is the last man i meet on earth... but god save me.. i am so bloody jealous of him arnav... she still says its all her mistake...
kranti turned to see arnav rooted to his spot
he went forward and shoke him..
kranti: arnav ... you heard meee
arnav looked up with his eyes all red: true.. i am sssooorrryy but... plz excuse me and left to his room...
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meanwhile the wedding group had gone away and kushi was searching for arnav...
he threw his coat on the bed
every word kranti told him sent a shiver of guilt straightly piercing his heart... he has been so careless...so careless that he never knew how much kushi was hurt and to even imagine her state he felt his breathe cease...
he blamed himself for not having been there to save her... well nobody need to tell him the reason for why she wanted to die that night... the reason was himself...
and kranti was right... he had never asked or even bothered to clarify to kushi after shyam had said...
what hade him more guilty was kushi had never blamed him... she had blamed herself...
kranti's last few words were right... IS HE REALLY WORTH HER???
kushi walked in finding him in his room
kushi: arnavjiii... finally i found you.. where were you...
arnav's guilt did not even let him see her face... he knew he will breakdown if he sees her
he turned his face to the opp side
kushi: oh your angry with me coz i din meet you so long
arnav: please leave kushi
kushi: but why..
arnav: coz i don want to talk to you
kushi: but
arnav turned: i said leave...plz kushi .. and gave a pleading look to her
kushi thought he was angry for some reason and will come back later...she never knew the seriousness behind
she left confused...
arnav slammed the door behind him...
he finally packed his bags and was about to leave...
he kept his face as normal as he can... neetu i have a important meeting.. don disturb kushi.. i willl talk to her later and left
neetu: ok bhai...
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kushi: where did this arnavji go... arnvjiii arnavjiii
neetu: what happened kushi
kushi: did you see arnavjii...
neetu: hmm he told he had to leave for some place as it was urgent.. since you were busy with the bride he couldn't tell you
kushi: but i heard the news.. all flights are cancelled too due to the rains... and why would he leave without telling me...something is wrong neetu... he suddenly was not talking much and now he left without telling also
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he saw reenu mam and took her blessings asking for leave giving the same excuse
reenu mam: long live beta.. you became one among us in just these 3 days... but you need to come back soon
arnav stood confused:
reenu mam: hmm for your best friends wedding
arnav froze
reenu mam: i am planning make kushi my daughter itself beta... who cares about the past when we can see the angel in her... i just hope kranti agrees
arnav din know what to speak... he just nodded and left the place...
he saw kranti in the lawn...
he walked to him and hugged him...
kranti: hey looks like your leaving
arnav: yeah got some work...
kranti: nice meeting you
arnav: me too... and hey one more thing and he hugged kranti again tight
kranti was confused:
arnav: thanks for being there for her
kranti: i shall always
arnav: hmm... bye and left
kranti: hmm... see even he is her friend for only few days and he is so hurt.. where the hell is this ex husband of her's... i promise to kill him if i find him...
neetu saw him talking all alone in the garden
neetu: who are you gonna kill my dear friend
kranti turned to see her: oh nothing yar! was telling arnav as he wanted to know about kushi's past... even he was moved and hurt and walked away... nice guy!!! and yeah i wanna kill that ex husband of kushiii
neetu froze realizing what had happened: you told him everything...
kranti: coolly said yeah.. he has the right.. her best friend afterall
neetu just froze at her place: kushi was right... it had gone wrong!!!
TO BE CONTINUED
thanks to every person who bothered to read the update!!! and yeah along with kranti i revealed the past too... and again kranti does not know the names... he just knew what kushi told him!!!!PS: MY PERSONAL THOught: no matter who forgives...and who never points out... GUILT IS ENOUGH FOR A MAN!!!! THE WORST EVER!!! SO THINK NOT JUST TWICE BUT MILLION TIMES BEFORE HURTING SOMEONE!!! COZ ITS NOT THEM WHO WILL PUNISH YOU BUT YOU YOURSELF!!!!!!! the next update shall be up once i get enough comments!!!now guys tomatoes and eggs for this update!!!!... i am ready... but plz comment 
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