chapter 20: Love & Hate
Virat strummed slowly and carefully, a tune that was a mixture of emotions, emotions that had been trapped for too long. The joys of meeting manvi, the jealousy he felt when he had seen her with dilip, the happiness he felt whenever he was with malika and as he remembered, the pain of losing the one person who had understood him more than anybody else. It had felt so right having her move to the sound he was making. A simple sound that held so much weight... The weight of virats world, where words had failed, music had spoken.As he strummed on his guitar the world had stopped, it had become just her and him. In that moment, they had become one.
Manvi saw his face as she twirled, she realised that he had nt noticed the tears that had streamed down his face as he sang. The blur of the crowd was unseen by her as she focused on him singing, every lyric pulling on the cords of her heart.
She ran towards him... Stopped only by the empty Look in his eyes, She could not stop herself She ran as fast As she could and embraced him As hard as she could. The tears streaming down her face, she sang his own lyrics to him
"You've found hope
You've found faith,
Found how fast she could take it away.
Found true love,
Lost your heart.
Now you don't know who you are.
She made it easy,
Made it free,
Made you hurt til you couldn't see.
Sometimes it stops,
Sometimes it flows,
But baby that is how love goes.
You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall"
Virat stared at her, wondering how she understood his pain, but then the painful memory of malika blurred his thought. "You made me betray her manvi!... I promised, i would never sing again... Why do you make me so weak?!, i hate this!" He wiped his jand across his face. Frustrated at this girl who changed him to the point he couldnt recognise himself.
" you hate me?"
"Thats not what i said manvi, why are you twisting my words?"
"Then why are you so cold virat, just because shes gone... You dont need to change who you are"
"Why do you care manvi?!... Remember what you said? Im a spoiled rockstar who doesnt care about anyone else?... So why should you care about me?"
"I just do virat...i hate you, but i hate that i love you even more..."manvi stopped and looked around "look at all these people virat, they all love you"
"Manvi, dont you know this is all meaningless when i cant have the one person i truly love?!!"
" how do i make you understand virat?... I want her to come back, i truly do... But time is in the hands of god... Malika is not coming back"she said regretfully
"Malika, malika, malika!!... You hated me all this time and suddenly you care??, you know nothing about her just let me be... Please" he looked at her pleading with his eyes
The crowds had disappeared by now, and both manvi and virat were stood at the centre staring into eachothers eyes searching for the answer only they could provide eachother.
Suddenly, manvi felt the warm embrace of virats arms around her. He hugged her tight, pressing her tiny frame to his chest, their hearts beating eachothers name... It seemed that they had been together for so long, when manvi slowly began undressing... The desire she had to hold him burning through anything else she would have thought to be important.
Hours later, they lay on the silk curtains staring into eachothers eyes, not realising the weight of what had just happened.
'Manvi, i know what heartache feels like... What about dilip?" Virat asked, the tone in his voice making the guilt apparent... Manvi slowly lifted her head, she hadnt wanted to snap out of what had happened, being lost in a deep sea of emotions with virat, building their own world that had felt so complete
"Virat, its always been you...but before anything can happen, theres something you should know"
The tears running down her face, like a silent waterfall of thoughts scared virat, he should have known he thought to himself... Nothing could ever be so perfect as those few moments where they had made love and forgotten the pain and sorrows of the cold empty world. He sat up straight and stared at her eyes that had filled with tears he wished he could stop.
"Tell me" he demanded
"Virat..." Manvi shook her head, wishing she could get the words
"Manvi just tell me, i'll always be with you" he promised, holding on to her hand in reassurance.
"Virat, you cant understand!" She suddenly shouted... Fury in her eyes "even i dont understand...just leave me and go, instead of making you happy i will bring you misery... This was a mistake"
"I wont understand if you cant even tell me" virat calmly answered "i will NEVER leave you" he answered sternly tightening the grip on her wrist.
"Virat... Please just understand... I..." Manvi suddenly fell into his arms lifeless... The heat of her body burning into virats chest.
"Manvi...Manvi?!!!" He shook her, trying to wake her from this nightmare.Unable to control his tears
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