FF : I Feel Nothing. Updated Part 40 - Page 52

wow, cptrs 20 and 21 awesome.. Love the fact that she is starting to feel arnavs love.. but boy am i worried about what the phsyco is gonna do next..

Part 22

"You want to take me on a business trip?" Khushi asked...Arnav smiled at her confusion but also felt sad that she didn't realize that SHE came first to him ..."Khushi," he whispered..."i am not going to do any work for the next few days...and in those few days, i want to take you away...so i can spend some time with you...just you and me...no work...not for work at all...just for you...i don't know if i can explain it any clearer..."

Khushi still couldn't register what he was saying..."but what about your work...? I don't understand...? What would i be doing? I don't know, i " She searched his face...and he quickly placed his fingers on her lips to quieten her..."Khushi...i left you alone the night we were married...both times...and i never showed you how much i truly love you, till recently...if i could rewind all those days and nights i would spend every damn second at your side proving that I'M worthy to have YOU...so now, i'm asking you...will you come away with me..." Khushi sat up ..."i need to think...will you please give me a minute?" Arnav nodded and kissed her hand, stood up and walked toward the door...

Anjali, Payal, and Nani said goodbye to Buaji and Garima whose concern for Khushi seemed to dissipate once Arnav had taken her upstairs...once the door shut, the three ladies and Akash hurried upstairs to check on Khushi...but before Anjali could knock on the door, it swung open...Arnav walked swiftly out, closing the door quietly.

"Chote? How is Khushiji? Can we speak to her?" Anjali looked at Arnav concerned..."she just wants some time to think for a minute...i asked her to come away with me for a few days..."

"WHAT? We know that you're trying to make things right with her, but she's my sister and i want to spend time with her too! Do you even know how I'VE hurt her!? I told her she was no longer my sister! I avoided her! And i did it all so easily!" Payal said starting to cry...Akash went to Hug his wife trying to calm her..."We all want to show Khushi how repentant we are..." Akash reassured Payal...

"would you all stop and listen to yourselves!?!!" Said Arnav, his anger swelling inside him..." you are all so bloody concerned about redeeming YOURSELVES!"...

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Khushi watched the door shut. She sat staring blankly into nothingness. "Arnavji wants to take me away? Why? He loves me. But why all this?" her head started to hurt from all the changes happening...then she heard chatter outside the door...Payal, Akash, Anjali, Arnavji. All of them retelling all the things they did to her. Khushi closed her eyes. Every detail of what had happened started coming before her. Memories that she'd suppressed...never wanting to remember...the hurt was rising again...her sister avoiding her...her family disowning her...her husband deserting and abusing her...her new family not accepting her..."why were they changing so suddenly towards me now?? ? Why couldn't they believe my innocence before? Did ANY of them truly know me? Know my character? Know that i would never..." she had a sharp pain in her chest...her breath became harder to catch...panic attack. The last time Khushi had this severe a panic attack was when...when...Khushi clutched her head covering her ears to drown out the loud screeching of tyres and crashing of cars that resounded in her mind...when her parents were killed. That day she had never known such sadness. Never known such pain. She remembered running away and being found by people who accepted her, adopted her and made her life happy again...now that same panic attack was showing her that she was back to being 8 years old...alone...and confused...she stood up from the bed. Tears running down her face, not stopping, constantly flowing ...she didn't think. She just knew she had to break free again..."nothing is going to help me now...i can't heal from this unless i run away..."...the thought broke what was left of her heart...she had given all her love to these people...all of it...there was only one more thing left to give...the reason for her leaving...Khushi picked up the phone and called her home, or what used to be her home...Garima answered...Khushi felt knives strike her heart when she heard the voice that once soothed all her worries..."thankyou for all that you did for me. But i need to disappear. Tell arnavji that i am sorry. Goodbye amma..." and with that she hung up the phone...and hung up her heart...

Khushi took nothing with her. No clothes. No jewellery. But when she looked at her mangalsutra she couldn't take it off...this is the only thing that will hold me to Arnavji...even when he moves on after me...i will still be tied to him...with tears...she walked out to the poolside and turned off all the lights...darkness...

oh the torture...hope Shyam does not get to her...

great update..good for them..but Arnav will catch her soon i think

oh she can't leave him now.. arnav would be broken.. why can't she see.. how much he is trying.. i feel sorry for both..

khushi is having a hard time dealing with all the commotion.

amazing part

poor khushi they are crowding her she is stifling there it to much her mind can't take it hope arnav finds her befor she does something really bad and i hope snake is still lock up