Avita SS-Back in Your Arms Climax 0n Pg-12 - Page 6

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Khwashish

Part-III

5 October

Oh god!

I can't believe; it's really happening… today m going to share here what I can't say because I don't have words to express that feeling_

I was trying to talk to her from all these days but all in vain, I can't understand why; whenever she is around me I starts behaving like a collage boy, nervous and shy, my beats increases at once when she stands close to me on table to serve me Breakfast or dinner (she use to wait for me on dinner). And me too trying all these days to wrap all works before 7 so I can spend more time while looking at her by side eyes ; yes side eyes as I can't watch strait in her eyes, I don't want to loose my self without saying her my feelings, though I don't know I can do it ever or not. Don't know which thing stops me from doing so, our age gap, our silence or just our Love, LOVE yes its love, what I feel for her and somehow I know she loves me too, but its me who was running away from the fact. As always I was sitting in my study and feeling alone I want to see her, I want her to be around me every moment. Without her I feel alone in my own home. Suddenly a thought struck me, if I am feeling alone in my own house what about her she left everything for me and here I am leaving her alone every time when I know about her dreams..,

I decided to talk to her, I get up and reached the room I was still trying to find words to express my feelings my thoughts if I can express them. She was lying there; I thought she was sleeping. I stepped in and shut the door. I felt as she turned to look at me on the sound of bolt of the door, it mean she was not sleeping my heart beats harder and I determined to talk to her at any cost tonight. I sit beside her , she already turned off all lights except the side lamps of our bed as she knows I have habit of reading before sleep, I don't know how she do but in just few days she understands me as she is with me from ages. I gathered all courage and touched her at shoulder lightly, that touch, that feel was different , apart from the world, any word can't express it and when she turned to me, those eyes were so captivating I forgot everything, who I am, what I was up to, my all hesitation just flushed away in her one look, there was love an innocent love, an ocean of immense love and its all for me and me only, that happened for which I was afraid; I lost my self in those eyes , in that owner of those eyes, I don't know how but I loved her , I loved her whole night as much as I can, and there was only love and devotion in her eyes, which force me to love her more and more passionately…I wish I could say it too that I love you but Without a single word we know that we love each other from bottom of our hearts, she is my love , my life, my everything all I can wish now is to say it one day in words. So I can hear it from her lips in that melodious voice, tonight I proved my self that She (BJ) was wrong she can't affect me anymore because I have found the one who really loves me and I love her. she was not in my mind even for a second and now when I am recalling her intentionally it doesn't affect me not even that anger, because now I don't have any connection with her not even of hatred. Tonight I lost my self , who was full of past life shadows and pain, and found my real self in her, in her love and devotion.

The love of my life, My Arpita is sleeping in front of me and right now I can see that cute child like innocent smile on her lips which is assuring me that I didn't do anything wrong by loving her, by making her all mine and she loves me too.

yeah her presence turn me to that innocent collage going Avdhesh and it proves tonight again , she was in my arms whole night but I can't say her that I love her I want to place a kiss on her rosy lips but I can't so I did it now when she is sleeping, I read somewhere – " Soul meets soul at Lover's lip" now I am waiting to meet her's I will try it everyday obviously when she will be sleeping , but I will not disturb her sleep just a light kiss and my soul will find a reason to live , that is to wait for her reply. Which will never come?

6October

I spent whole night wrapped her up in my arms but in morning I still wants to hold her like that for ever and ever, I observe her cute face whole night while she was sleeping, I think I slept for few hours too when she was in my arms and when I opened my eyes I find her cute face in front of my eyes what else I can ask for. I gradually draw my arms back and get back to my side of bed, I was watching her sleeping silently but how can I miss the chance to make my day, I get close to her swiftly and touched her lips with mine so lightly that she must thought it, some gust of air or butter fly but she was wakening so I tried to get back but can't so I closed my eyes in hesitation and pretend to sleep but I was looking at her , she opened her eyes and for some time she did the same as I do, looked at me calmly and then she get up looking at me affectionately and left the bed for daily chores of house. When she was leaving I wanted to hold her hand and drag her back to me again but I can't, I smiled at my silliness and hugged tightly my pillow and find her beautiful earring stuck in my pillow, it remind me of our last night, all that love that affection, everything I just kissed it and stored it with that white shirt which had her hand prints, remembrance of our first meeting. What else I can do except feeling proud of my luck to have her in my barren life, she came like first piece of cloud, first drop of rain, first swift if spring. My first and last love . My Love My life My Wife My world My Arpita.

Khwahisho me meri ye kaisa asar aaya..

Ke khuda ko bhi shayad iss nacheez par Reham aaya.

No khwaab me bhi kabhi chuu sakta tha jise..

Aaj usei khubsurat hasrat ko apni panaahon me paya

Arpita blushed to read her own praises. And turned few more pages and find the page from where their beautiful life starts turning hell.

15 October

Today an employee got badly injured in factory, I took him to hospital where I offered to donate blood for him, but don't know why they refused to accept it, when I asked the doc. He said he have some doubts; being my old doc, He is going to do some tests only after that he can say anything.

!7 October

No what ever the Doc said can't be true, I am not going to trust those fake reports, Yes till my Arpita is with me nothing can happen to us, no one can apart us, If God don't want me happy then he would never allowed her in my life and especially now when I am all his and she is mine.

I will go for the Specialist the best Doc. Of town, I know those reports are fake.

Tonight when I came back I was worried because of these reports, but when I entered I saw her, she was busy in kitchen , kneading the dough for dinner, my eyes stuck at her cute face, so gentle so pure, few strands of hair fell on her face while her hands were busy with dough , I stepped toward her , she looked at me I lost my self in her eyes once again as always, get close to her, I went to her back side and touched her cheeks lightly to settle those strands, she closed her eyes, and I placed a soft kiss at her neck. When suddenly Sharad Kaka came to me and take the bag from my hand and broke my day dream , I stroked my head and without looking at her again I get in my room but I send Kaka to help her with dinner.

18October

Yes I was correct, nothing can happen to me like this, last night when I was with her, I can feel how much she loves me and I love her the same, then how can it happen, God can't be so rude to me, after snatching my everything he gave me Arpita, and I am the only one for him too, then how can god punish us by… NO

God can't be so rude to us I will do anything but I will prove these reports wrong.

Aee Shamma bhaari hai tujhpe ye raat jis tarah

Humne to guzari hai ek umra ys tarah,

Zalte rahe , zalte rahe, aur bas zalte hi rahe

the next few pages were blank except few love confessions from him..

21 December

(the night before final reports)

Today any thing can happen I have tried my best to prove those reports wrong, but now m loosing my all hopes, its my last ditch, all these days these all things makes me a different guy, I never feared of any thing, life never meant any precious thing for me ever, but now I am scared don't know is this fear of dying or fear of loosing something more precious then this life "Arpita" or fear that what can happen with her after me. No what I am thinking, I am already hurting her in my foolishness, I am spending more time at Office then home, though I want to see her, but I am afraid if she get that something is worrying me then what will I do? No I have to bear it all alone even if its true I have to think something for her for her future. Don't know what will I do but for sure I will secure her life any how.

Last evening when I returned late from Office she was waiting for me on dinner table, I liked it when she serve me with all her love and affection but I don't want her to wait for me at dinner she don't need to stay hungry just because m late. She slept on table waiting for me. I went close to her, her hairs were hiding her beautiful face from me, I can't control my self from seeing her, I waited whole day for her one sight I settle them lightly, I think I gazed her innocent tension free sleep, but next second fear of those reports again drawn me to deep pool of agonies. What if..

No I can't think further, I left her behind and reached my study I called Kaka intentionally so she may know that I came back and she can have her dinner , I wish I could dare to say it my self. I said loudly "Sharad Kaka, bring some coffee in my room, I had taken dinner at office. Don't disturb me after that."

Huun don't disturb me as I am very busy. All I can do was to think about her.

I want to be assure that she had something so I tried to see her from behind the curtain but what I saw was not as I wished she just get up and start to put all things in freezer. I looked at Kaka, and he get what I want to say , earlier he wanted me to say something but when I looked at him in pleading manner he went to her and said-

"Arpita bitiya at least you take it, you prepared it with so much affection"

But her reply was- "Its ok kaka, I am fine, I am not hungry, its quite late, Aap rehne do, I will make his coffee, you just give it to him, he will not like if I disturb him"

Now what should I do, I already said that I had dinner and she was denying to have it alone, I was thinking and looking at her when Kaka came with a coffee mug made by her. She didn't had dinner but made my coffee just because I want, how can someone be so self less, I can feel her love and devotion for me in every gesture of hers, , My eyes filled with tear, kaka noticed it he put the mug on table and without looking at me he said or I should say rebuke me

"Now you are a Married man, Arpita is your responsibility, how can you do it with her, she made everything for you with so much love and affection and what u did 'I had dinner at office' huun how can you do it Babua"

What can I tell him, what I m going through, I thought what ever will happen tomorrow will be tomorrow, all I had was just the night , I followed him to dinner table she was there; lost in her own thoughts with rest of coffee, I don't know how to start it so I just said-

" You should take dinner on time."
it was clear by her expressions that she was surprised to find me suddenly there , that smile on her lips was the most soothing thing I can saw ever, I know she have same hesitation problem like me, she gets up and struggled with words "uuhh.I.. I..I ."

Oh that shy smile, that mesmerizing looks, though she was looking down wards but she made me forget my all worries for that moment I don't know how but my hand stretched toward her and I held her shoulder and made her sit in front of me, all I can say was

"Don't wait for me after 9 OK, Kaka bring the dinner." I think she was looking at me, I can feel her silent looks; once she sit I called kaka – "Kaka bring dinner but just for one" her smile was enough for me I don't need any thing else.

But she said-"Kaka am not hungry, I am not going to eat alone" those melodious words with that down stare was enough to took me in heaven.

"Kaka, bring for me too, Aaj double dinner karna padega" I said with a little smile I guess!

"No its Ok you don't need to trouble your self, I m not Hungry really!" she can't think of hurting me by any how, though the fact was i want to spend some quality time with her.

"May be but I am feeling hungry now. Would you mind if I dine with you" I said looking at her. Oooh that cute smile with that killing shyness, she was blushing all the while we were dinning.

After long time we took dinner together, again without any further word; I was taking pleasure to observe her cute and shy smile, and it turned the tastiest supper of my life.

After dinner I can't stay with her as I was not confirm about the future which may... no I don't want to think about it.

I came to our bed room , the fear of loosing her was breaking me inside didn't know what to do, I thought she may take some time to come but she came in few minutes I feel as I was about to cry, I can't afford it in front of her so I pretended to sleep, turned all lights off before she can reach to room, and hide my eyes by one arm as I feared what if she saw any tear. But the desire to hold her and cry to my heart was there somewhere in me which force me to wait for her with open arms, and as she can hear my heart, next moment she glided in by my side, her head was on my shoulder, her arms went around my chest, was it my imagination or real. M I going to die so god was granting my wishes! don't know what destiny has stored for us, all I know was that; I had only last night so I took a deep breath and hold her back in a tight hug. Don't know when we feel asleep but I am sure of one thing that she was happy and so was I, to have her in my arms, with all her love.

Today when I left home she was sleeping I just placed a kiss on her lips gently as I do everyday but today the desire for response of that call of soul was more deep, I looked at her for few seconds in desire; just hope that report will be fine and negative this time or my soul will left unsatisfied as my only desire is to touch her soul through those lips, to get the reply of my daily kisses someday…

Originally posted by: suvarnaawt

as usual awsm👍🏼 avi ki khwahish kitani pyari,hope k woh puri hogi,n avi n arpi hamesha sath rahenge❤️

Originally posted by: danno

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Originally posted by: MuktaJaiswal

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U described Avi KHWAISH better thn m hun.😳👏

Liked the shayaris also.😃 Bt m dnt lv Bhauji🤢 haun. Hahaha.😆

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For Avi's Khwaish Part III, two line frm a song of the movie Kudrat,😃

"humei tum se pyaar kitanaa, ye hum naheen jaanate😳

magar jee naheen sakate, tumhaare beenaa"❤️

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till now you read what happened behind Arpi's back and from this update you will see what Avi face when everyone including Arpi thought that he was enjoying with Simple

Khwahish

Part - IV

22December

Today I came office early before any one else

I can't face Arpita with my fearful eyes, what if she get what hell I am going through No I can't see her in any kind of pain or trouble, I have to face it all alone.

As time passes staff starts to come as always and start with their daily works, everything was normal as daily routine but the world was different for me ,

my life , my dreams, my desires all are on stalk. Simple came to ask for some work but I was lost in my thoughts she didn't took much time to smell that there's some problem and I had to tell her everything she laughed at me and assured me that nothing is going to happen,

her words- "You are still as you were in collage naa Avi, always scared of results, don't worry you will be passed this time too.. if you are scared to fetch those reports I will collect them for you and believe me there's nothing to worry"

"No Simple, I can't trouble you in this state, you need rest, If Chulbul heard that I caused you extra work he will be annoyed and you know I can't bear the anger of any three of you."

She laughed at it too, "Don't worry Your Chulbul is going to fetch my monthly test reports he will collect yours too." And she left to call Chulbul. She is always like that.

My fear came true, my all faith in god is shattered now, how can god do this to me, in just a flick of second I got everything and in next I loose it all, No I loose it all first then I came to know what I had.(the ink was faded a bit as letters were washed by his tear drops..)

After few hours Simple came back to my cabin with some papers,

I was restless since morning so I was pacing near the window for some fresh air, I saw her and my heart sank in deep darkness; she was looking as she had already cried enough.

I get what the reason can be but I hold my self back and asked her-"Simple where is Chulbul, delivery boy reports de ke chala gaya kya?" I tried to avoid her gaze, No I don't want to see pity for me in anyone's eyes.

She stepped toward me and said-

"Avdhesh, I have collected the reports, Its positive again" and she break into sobs and my world shattered into pieces in front of my eyes;

my whole life with my Arpita;

from the very moment I saw my Arpita,

her collage function,

our marriage,

the moment I touched her first time,

those eyes which force me to loose my self in them,

that cute smile for which I am living,

that warm hold around my chest which I still can feel,

it seems as someone is snatching it all from me, and I feel as my legs are denying to hold me strait further all I said was-

"Don't cry Simple your tears can't change destiny, I wish I knew it earlier" and Simple holds me before I can fall and I controlled my self some how by her support.

"What would you do if you know it earlier before your marriage, and what about Arpita now?" She asked settling her hair, As she knows it well my only concern is only and only Arpita, my own life never worth for me.

I looked at her, her face was socked in tears, I wiped her tears and what else I can reply except-

"if I knew it earlier, I would never married her, and now I don't have any choice except divorce" yes I said 'Divorce' she was about to say something when I heard Her whisper,

"A..v..dh...'ji'"

and when I looked up at door I can't believe on my eyes. Arpita was there and she was about to fell on ground I rushed and some how caught her in air. After seeing her I can't control my emotions and specially after seeing her like that, I lift her and placed on couch next to the window for some air, I think I was shouting her name to call her back because Simple was trying to calm me down. I shouted at Simple too, to call the doctor, she did it before I can say but at that time I knew only one thing and that was : my Arpita was not well, but I was wondering, why she fainted like that.

Oh God what if she heard all our conversation and came to know about my illness! But thank to simple she noticed that she was having her Pregnancy reports in hand. And when she entered the cabin I was in Simple's arms, and on top of all Simple didn't mentioned the name of any decease that mean she must misinterpreted what she saw and heard, and that was only good thing happened with me this evening.

No, actually I don't know whether I should call the next event good or bad.

In few minutes Simple came with her doctor as her number was on her speed dial, so she called her gynecologist , after checking her up she came to me with a smile and said-

"Mr. Thakur, why are you looking so tensed it time to celebrate, you are going to be a father, congrates she is pregnant."

and her words were like magic for me for a second I was like in heaven I forgot everything, I hugged the doctor in excitement and said Thanx to her, asked about Arpita's health, she said every thing was fine all she need was to rest, Simple was there too, she went out with Doc.

And for next few minutes I was alone with my Arpita and my baby, I was so excited I sit by her side and started to talk her, I hugged her while she was unconscious,

I said-

"Arpitaaa, thank you thank you so much you don't know what have you have given to me today, I can't even dream of this happiness, I can't believe I am going to be a father, you know I want a girl just like you, a sweet little angle, even I thought a name for her too,

I will call her Pari and in her sweet melodious voice she will call me Pa.."

I looked at her face, her eyes were wet with tears'Suddenly the reality struck me, what I was saying, how can I think of weaving dreams, when I already had lost everything, again the floor beneath me felt as melting; I was in deep pool of darkness, and next second I found my self on ground next to her couch where I was sitting when I looked up at her face, there were clouds of fear and pain, may be because of what she saw and interpret it, my eyes left her face as I can't bear that pain anymore, then what will she do if I died in front of her,

she can't see me with someone else then how will she bear it when I will left her alone forever and what about our baby, she is just 20 how will she manage everything and that's the time 'She'(BJ) came back in my mind, her greed her ruthlessness, she is calm till now as she knows it well that she can't harm my Arpita until am breathing, after me she can do anything to her for our property and top of all to take out her frustration as she knows I love Arpita not her.

No my decision was correct I have to divorce her, and above it I have to settle everything before leaving her alone, yes I have to make her marry before dying so I can see her happy, so what if I can't be there with her, who knows how long m going to survive, one month two months, one year, no I can't take risk I have to secure her future before dying,

And how can I forget her greedy step mother; I can't leave her on her, she will sell her to anyone for money, no I can't left her as my widow too, her life will be a living hell I have to do something.

And only thing which came to my mind was that after me our baby will always remind her of me, she can't live peacefully with my memories.

What can I do now suddenly incident what happed before few hours came to my mind again

She must hate me to cheat her, yes I have to maintain that misunderstanding of her but what about Simple! Will she agree with me? And what if Chulbul make any objection, No No all I need to think right now, was of her only, about her safe and secure future and for it I have to make her marry some good guy before dying,

But who will accept a pregnant woman as wife and love her. No with me, our baby too has to die,

Oh what a cruel father I am, before seeing my baby I was thinking to kill her or him, she was still unconscious, how can I miss chance to lighten my heart and soul both, but this time my heart wants to feel our baby I rest my face on her belly and tried to hear my baby's beats, I can't hear it,

But I know one thing that she or he was there and she or he can not only hear me but understands me too, my pain my helplessness was not hidden from it.

How it can be when its part of me too, but I can't feel it until it came in the world but I can't desire for it too, when I couldn't hear him/her i seized her bally, I kissed my baby several times, I started to talk her

'" Baby, I know Papa is so bad, but your mama is good naa,'

baby if you came in this world after me then your mama can't live peacefully ever as you will remind her of me, and I want her to forget me and if possible hate me...,

sorry baby can't allow you to come in this dirty world, you have to wait in heaven for sometime, may be when your mama can find someone who can protect her whole life, you can come, till then wait there,

I will come to see you soon.Hope you will forgive me for this."

And I kissed my baby again, I couldn't control my self and I cried a lot while holding her, may be its my last chance to feel her close to my heart, to feel my baby for the first and the last time, after few time Simple came in with Chulbul, when I saw them I recall that how happy was Chulbul when they came to know about Simple's pregnancy,

and here I am shattered and planning to kill my baby.

Simple tried to console me "Don't cry Avdhesh she is fine and very soon you are going to be a father."

Her Husband supports her too as he too is one of my best buddies-"Yes Avi why are you behaving like kids, she is fine yaar come on get up from the floor" he came and make me stand on my feets, wiped my tears off, all I need was their support to take Arpita away from me.

"Chulbul you are right everything will be fine, but only if you want,"

"What do you mean by if I want? we are always with you after all if we are happy today is just because of you Avi"

"Then plz ask your wife to pretend'"

Simple was astonished as she doubted on my intentions '"Pretend for what Avi?"

"To be my girlfriend"

, She shouted on me-"what the hell you are saying Avi, you just saw what happened her in that misunderstanding, and you want to maintain it! Don't you want her to live or what?"

"I know Simple, but you can't deny the fact that I can't live her love any longer then why should I spoil her life its better if she hates me, let her think me as ruthless womanizer."

This time it was Chulbul who showed disapproval- "stop it Avi, are you out of your mind, what are you saying? Why do you want her to hate you when you love her so much?"

"god forbidden, What would you do Chulbul if you were at my place, don't you want to secure your love's life after you I am just trying to do it.

Before closing my eyes I want to see her happy and safe with someone."

Simple shouted on me angrily ' "Are you out of your mind Avi! What's going in your mind, stop all this nonsense , what do you think of a women, you will show her that you are a bad guy and she will marry anyone else while she is carrying your baby! Are you sick Avi, stop all this because I can't tolerate this nonsense any more."

"I know she can't that's why I need your support guys, Simple plz fix an appointment with your gynec for Arpita. She will not continue this pregnancy"

"Stop it Avi, just stop it now, you are not god, you can't take her decisions, let her know and decide what she wants."

"I can't Simple; because I can't let her know my condition she can't handle it, its better if she leave me out of anger and disgust so she can accept someone whole heartedly next time. Don't you agree with me Chulbul."

I know he can't disagree with me, as I know how much he loves Simple, he would do same if he were at my place, I left it on him to convince Simple and some how he did it in few hours.

Meanwhile I had nothing to do except staring at my Arpita and my baby with all longing ness, I think I cried too again and again holding my baby and washed her with my tears, but before I can wipe them off from her belly; I felt as she was gaining conscious I don't want her to know the news as it has to be, I don't want her to know my pain I can't afford it right then and if she saw my eyes she would get it as she always do. I quickly fetched my shades and turn my back on her and started to wait for her questions.

As she came in conscious she tried to get up but due to weakness I think her head was still spinning as Doc said she need rest. I suppose to be indifferent by now but I can't control my self at that time, I want to hold her but I just touched her shoulder and said-

"Stay like that , Doctor said you need rest," I can't dare to look at her, she was there for some time silently as she was regaining what she had seen before fainting,

Yes that's what I want, that's what I was expecting some questions and lots of accusations to betray her, to violate the sacred relation, promises of marriage.

But instead of doing that she shocked me, as she get up and came to me with the plate full of food which she brought for me.

"I thought you must be hungry so I bring lunch for you.." She said with so much love and innocence and stretched a spoon full of love and affection toward me, No I can't accept that love anymore, I stopped her hand before she can reach me.

"Arpita"

I tried to start the end, It was so difficult for me but I had to do it, I controlled my voice from vibrating and continued '

"don't you want to know the reason of your sickness, what made you faint?"

She took a pause as she was trying to find some artificial reason for it and she fined it too-

"May be because of exhaustion, I am fine now, Aap lijeye naa, and tell me how is it?"

she lied to me and again stretched the spoon to me, How can she do it with so much ease, was she trying to overlook what she saw! No I can't let her do that. She was doing wrong with herself for me, I took the plate from her and placed it on table, this time I need to be more strong and rude because if she was not going to question me I have to push her to quarrel with me and leave me , hate me, she has to be disgusted on my existence.

"Arpita.. You are Pregnant".

I suppose to be happy on this but I said it in a cold manner as it doesn't affect me even a bit, while her face turn lively once again, as she found some treasure, of course it would be a treasure for us if everything was not like as it is, she hugged me tightly and started crying, I knew why she was crying she found a reason to take out her tears, there were both kind of tears in her eyes, tears of happiness and tears of pains from my suppose to be infidelity which she was accepting just because of love. She was close to my heart , I can feel her beats, I always want it to happen but not this way, her sobs were making me more weak, I was about to wrap her in a tight hug for which my soul was carving for; to hug her and cry of my heart, but I hold my self and before her sobs can break that hold I break her hug by pushing her back, Yes that palm which was risen to cares her pushed her back, apart from me, I felt a deep pang when I did that, god knows how was I doing that.

She stepped back and I was looking at her, how calm she was unaware of the storm which I was about to bring in her life, she wiped her tears and looked at me , I closed my eyes and said what I can't even think of in my weirdest nightmare '

"look Arpita, I want to be very clear with you, I know that you knows everything, so why should we pretend as nothing has happened, I can't stay in this relation any more, I can't bear it, I want divorce and I don't want this child, Just abort it."

And I turn my back on her, as I can't control a drop from rolling down from my eye. She was shocked I can't see her like that, the density of that pain was clear in her gesture and voice both, with frozen eyes she stair at me and only word was '"What!..wha.." I think she tumbled few step back too away from me, I want to hold her but that's what I wanted too, she asked it again- "What did you said?"

, I wish she didn't did that, It was hell for me to say it one time and she wants to hear it again, Why Arpita why are you making it so tough for both of us!

"You heard it correct Arpita, as I don't want to carry this marriage then how can I expect you to carry this child and why should you carry it? Abort it and move ahead in life, Right now you should go home and take rest. I thought to inform you that you have an appointment tomorrow for it, I will take you there."

This time I make it more rude and get away from her totally so I can't hear her silent sobs, but how it can be possible, I felt that she collapsed on ground, my heart stopped for few seconds, wants to hold her tightly and assure her that it all were just lie and our baby is safe as our love. But I can't, I dared to look at her over shoulder, she was there on floor on her knees like a zombie, without any expression , there was only one tear rolling down her cheek which was not only gliding down her cheek but burning my heart as drop of some strong acid. To decrease that pain I can't do anything don't know how my hands grabbed some edgy thing I think it was knife and I held it tightly as I want to hold Arpita, I should not do that as she was there at that time but my words were enough to take her sanity away from her for some time, I hope. She just get up some how by holding chair and table and left the cabin I called Chulbul as they both were waiting out side for her, they dropped her to home, later Simple told me that she didn't respond to her, even when she said about her appointment for abortion,

only word on which she was giving sign of aliveness was "Avdhesh" at my name she take deep breath and at the same time few drops of tear break out the edges of eyes.

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Jo chahegi iss kadar to mar ke rooh ko tujhse zuda kar na paunga..

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