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How are you all, hope you guys are not angry with me as i thought to update soon but took a long time for it
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by the way i noticed that you don't want to know kya ke what actually happened at their first night😉
why Avi behaved so strange when he loved her so much
check this Update and find it out
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Khwahish
Part -II
30September
Finally'
The day has come, I am going to marry her, or I should say today; I am going to get her out of that hell from which she is unaware of herself,
God!!! I can't believe it's really happening, tonight she will be with me, just this one day and then she will be safe and in front of my eyes, I will not need to be scare for her. she will be in front of my eyes always, though I can't forget that disgusting face of women but she (Arpita)make me again believe in that pure and beautiful side of women which I always believe before' that..
Oh what am I doing! I suppose to be happy today, yes I will be happy today onwards no more shadows of past.
I will be grateful to Simple for my whole life as whatever happen between us in past; but she is doing all this for me, She talked to Her step-Mother and make her agree to turn down Pappu's proposal for mine, Huuunnn She handle her well all she need to do was to show her my status in comparison to Pappu and she accepts me without second thought even I am 10 years older then Arpita.
"Arpita" what she would be thinking about me? Does she know who am I? How I feel for her? Will I be ever able to express my feelings for her?
Just hope I can or she can accept me with my drawbacks too."
Arpita-"I was expecting same Avdhesh ji that you will accept me with my drawbacks like my fantasies". She reads further as next para belongs to the same day, the day of their marriage, their first night when she saw him first time face to face.
"God can't believe it . Why it's happening with me? Whenever I try to move ahead in my life that women comes back again and again, can't she leave me alone.
I was really happy to Have Arpita in my life or because I was sure that nothing wrong can happen with her now until m breathing. I was getting nervous after RV's call. That idiot got excuse for not attending my wedding as he is out of town for few months and I can't delay. His words regarding Arpita and our relation made me nervous (Badmaash kahin ka) but his words made me feel happy too, when almost all guests left Kaka came to me and ask me to go to Arpita as she is new to this house and we both are strangers to her. All I can do was to smile and blush silently as I stepped toward my room with hard beating chest trying to control my nervousness, the phone rang and unfortunately I picked it
"Hello Babua ji, Kaisen hai aap' I heard you find someone! Just want to say'Congra.."
that voice that disgusting tone how can I forget it, I can't control my anger and burst out '" how dare you to call me at this hour of night,"
"Relax Babua ji abhi itne bhi parayee to nahi hue ki call karne ke liye bhi time dekhna pade"
"Oh just shut up, you are nothing to me or this house, don't you ever dare to call me again."
"Stop it babua ji, what are you thinking just getting some random girl in your house you can go away from me, no its not possible, you are just mine from the beginning"
"Shut UP!"
"if its not like that how only you and I survived that moment, Babua ji why are you not understanding me." That woman started it again.
"Stop it , just stop your nonsense OK you have already spoilt my life and my family as well as there is no one left whom I can call mine, but now I have someone to call mine, so just stop your drama and accept the reality"
"what kind of reality you are talking about babua ji , I am your reality and you are mine, you can't forget me and that girl! She can't take my place in your life I was, I am and I will be the only one who have all rights on you, you belongs to me only."
"its enough now" I banged the receiver as I hit it on her face, what can I do now somewhere she was right she still affects me not as she want but because she was the one who made me to hate the touch of women. I was seething with anger as those disgusting moments came alive in my mind again just by her voice and I feel sick of the word "women" want to destroy everything to take out my frustration but just then felt kaka's presence He knows about her but I can't let him know that m still suffering from that incident. I pretend to be composed and entered my room.
That sight made me really calm,
She was sitting there, all in red and golden lehnga-chunni, her face was half covered in that transparent veil. As I entered the room a swift gust of air strokes her veil and cause her half face more visible even in that dim light.
She was looking beautiful. Her sight works as miracle and my all fury; just washed away. But her words were still haunting me, "You belong to me" and were making me
Disgust of my own flesh, no I can't get close to any women it feels me sick. Lost in my thoughtsdon't know how I came close to bed where she was sitting, may be that was her innocent charm and my love for her that dragged me to her. I don't know how to talk to her; I just sit by her side. As I sat she turned to me as she want to say something, for a flick of second I got chance to look strait in those beautiful eyes behind that semi transparent veil, she was looking into my eyes and I felt as I was transported to some another world, world ' no it was bliss and don't know how my hand touched her skin at feet may be because she was turning to me or I was getting closer to her unknowingly. And that touch brings a sensation to my soul it was different feeling but somewhere I compared it and Her words seems me correct she was still affecting me, I have to belong to Arpita only, She has all rights over me, specially when she got married to someone who is much older to her ;without a single word. "You belong to me" that voice again haunts me and I draw back my hand away from her may be she can't even notice it. I turn my face away from her as I feel she can read my eyes and I don' want her to bother for me at first night, can't stay with her in that state of mind, don't know how to take leave from her when she was expecting me to stay even I when I too don't want to go away from her; I just started to speak don't know what but I said
-"I know we are strangers for each other, but fact is now we are husband and wife, Hope you will except this relation soon, My family members lives in London, they suppose to be here but for some reasons they can't manage to reach on time, hope you will meet them soon in coming days. You must be tired, take some rest I have some urgent works to finish"
And I get up and left her alone without looking back I know she was hurt as I know she use to dream about her would be husband loving and caring and here I m leaving her alone with excuse of "some urgent work" but some where the fact is that I have to sought it once n for all, I am running from this fact, from that night, from that moment when my imaginations were shattered by her real face.
I went to my study took out that old family album which I hide there from Kaka as he suggest me to throw it if its causing me pain but I can't do it as it was containing Amma's n Bhaiya's pics too but the reason of pain was also there, that lady whom I consider my "Bhauji".
I dared to open that album because I want to face all that once again so I can came over it, Pics of Bhaiya's wedding , I still remember how Bhaiya managed everything after Baba and that day it was his marriage.
I was so happy to get a new relation in family I was going to be a "Devar" one more person would increase in family to pamper me, I was 16 that time, we were returning in our car after ceremony with new bride. When that dreadful event happened.
Suddenly Bhaiya lost control over steering and our car banged a old big tree by road side in attempt to dodge the truck, when I gain conscious I found bhaiya bleeding but he was still in some conscious he asked me help Bhauji and Amma first, some how I managed to dragout amma from the car and left her at a distance, then I tried to help Bhaiya but he refused and ordered me to save his wife first as her safety was his priority I was bleeding too my vision was fading but I manage to drag her out and she was in semi conscious state, I left her with Amma but when I turned to go for Bhaiya, in front of my eyes the car burst and in front of my eyes my Bhaiya burnt alive and I couldn't do anything, I stepped forward for last ditch to save him from that burning hell but someone held my feet when I looked down it was Bhauji she nodded in negation and fainted, Bhaiya's voice filled my ears once again, his last words to me-"Amma aur apni Bhauji ka khyaal rakhna" that day I turn mature in a second somehow I manage to take them to nearest hospital and I think I fainted there too because if I can hold my self back for next few hours may be I could save Amma. Yes I loosed her due to blood loss.
When we left home we were Three, a happy Family and when we returned I was alone with a newly married widow and a lot of responsibilities on my young shoulders. That was last day I wept on Amma and Bhaiy's Pyre because I knew there will be no one to wipe my tears.
I took care of everything including Bhauji. But after two years I realized she was just 20, a widow, looking after me and my house but why should I force her to spoil her life like that. I decided to make her happy and alive again, I decided to find someone for her, who can take care of her as Bhaiya would do, but first I talked to her, she looked amazed but didn't said anything, I take it as agreement from her side for second marriage. I was happy that I was about to fulfill my promise to Bhaiya, to make her wife happy.
But that night my all happiness turns as my biggest foolishness. I was sleeping as usual in ganji and lower, I felt as something was sliding on my shoulder, I felt uneasy and when I opened my eyes I was shocked she was sitting close to me, there was something is her eyes which made me uneasy and for some instance scared I jump out of bed and '"Bhauji What are you doing here? I mean is there everything all right." I reached my shirt and started to button it, she came close and put her hand on mine to stop me from buttoning- "aree why are you asking it now, everything is turning right now." I was shocked with her gestures and that lustful voice. I feel sick of remembering it; And she came more closer and hugged me. I throw her away with jolt and almost shouted-"Bhauji'!!!' what are you doing? Are you out of your mind?"
"Aree Babuaji why are you so shy with me haan? Waise bhi kuch dino me shaadi ki baat to apne hi ki thi naa, you can wait for that long but I can't'Two years Babuaji', two long years do you have any idea how I spent these years in waiting for you."
"What? What's wrong with you? I want to you to marry but I am not going to marry you, how can you think me to think like that, so cheap chee"
"What? What were you thinking Babua ji, I thought you were talking about our marriage'(she was shocked and clearly disappointed because that day in a confusion she revealed her reality in front of me) Ok , so now when you know it, then I don't need to hide my feelings for you, yes I love you babua ji, I need you . You want to see me happy naa then just marry me I will not ask anything more...ever I promise."
"just shut your mouth and get out of my room, Now! Or I will throw you out."
"Ok so that's what going on your mind haan!, you want me to get marry someone and leave you and all this property for someone else, No, Not at any cost, all this including you is mine, and I m not going any where."
"Ok fine take all this but I am not in this list. I am not your property." And I left that haveli at that moment with Kaka only. And I started all this again on my own with Baba's small old firm, from an 18 year young guy to 30 year serious old businessman I have changed a lot , but I am still scared of that women, that lust in her eyes, in her touch makes me sick even today, and one thing which increase my hatred for her is Kaka's doubt on her that may be she was the reason behind that car accident as he told me later that she wanted me to marry her but as Bhaiya was running business and I was younger to her, her family had no other choice but to choose him. Once she tried to convince me on phone to marry her by her crocodile tears and when I refused her as always she threats me that she can do anything for me and she will see that who can dare to enter my life. And now when Arpita is here, I should be more careful for her, Kaka was right she can do anything though she is in London now but she is still single to maintain her claim on our property Yes our property as I started this business from dad's firm she wants a part in this empire too.
I collected all those pics in which she was there and I find it was all most whole album, I tare it and put it on fire, in that heap of fire and dust I can see the flame of that car blast and Amma's pyre . all those dark memories, that pain, that suffering, Its all was going away for ever now. All I can remember was the morals and teachings of Amma and Bhaiya, that to love your family and do any thing for their safety and happiness as Bhaiya sacrifices his life for that women just because he promised to protect her in one of seven promises . I am sure of one thing she will not dare to touch Arpita until I am alive because she knows well how much I hate her and after tonight's talk she would get it well how much I love Arpita.
I just came back to my room, now its almost 3 she is sleeping in her bridal attire, it was clearly visible that she was feeling cold I took the blanket and cover her with it, when I thought to get away from her I saw her face , so gentle, cute , innocent like a baby only thing which was missing was that cute innocent smile which I saw that day in function instead of it her eyelids were wet,
Oh God I made her cry! She cried because of my rude behavior, how I can be so rude to her specially when I know her nature, she had some expectations from her husband and here I just burnt it all in my own anger and pain.
But what is done is done, all I can do is to promise my self that it will never going to happen again, I don't know why but with this promise I placed a kiss on her forehead.
I am not going to disturb her sleep I will stay at this chair at least from here I can see her sleeping calmly. Her innocence and calmness is working like ointment on my wounds yes m feeling like nothing happened. That's her affect on my wounds, I think I have found the remedy of my all sorrows and wounds just hope I can give her that back. Hope one day I can tell her what she is for me.
Khwahish ki thi jiski aaj samne vo dildaar hai,
Badi mudaton se tha is dil ko intzaar jiska..
Aaj use paa ko bhi kyun dil bekraar hai..
Kaash ke meri khamoshi ka use ehsaas ho jata..
Meri tarah uska dil bhi bekraar ho jata
This time, my eyes were filled with tears on his pain and the realization of my value in his life; in such an initial stage of our relation. I turned few more pages. All mid pages were full of his inner struggle to talk to me and ice breaking.
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That all for today's Update, hope you all vil like it too 😳
sorry in advance for my mistakes, and m waiting for your comments guys
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Edited by joliefille - 13 years ago
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