Epilogue
Life is a journey,we live,meet new people,and we died reaching at destination.People whom we meet are stranger in beginning, some of them become our friends,some become special in our lives that we meet them again or not but can never forget them...and in this way life goes on...
My life also went on...after Mayank sir left school I indulged myself more in studies...for some time I cut myself off from friends,classmates and lost in studies. But It was'nt that I never missed him or gunjan...two of them had become a part of my soul...a reason to be happy in long lonely hours..!
I completed my schooling and then graduation.Eventually made many new friendz,enjoyed my college life with them but at the same time wishing that somehow gunjan could be there...At my home when I use to look long empty path through window I used to figure Mayank sir holding my hand and walking slowly...it was a mere dream or my destiny I dint know.I tried a lot to forget him,to forget what I feel for him but at the end of day I realized that that feeling was as dear to me as my own existance and then I decided to preserve it.
It is a bit uneasy to disclose something you are hiding for such a long time yet I did it...something happened which drove me to do so...which pushed me so hard that I could'nt resist myself to pour it out.
It was last day of my college...I was coming back from grand farewell party organized by out juniors...it was a sweet sour moment when we were excited about our new life and sad on the end of a beautiful journey together...lost in memories I was driving to home when have to stop my car on red signal...with a jerk I came back in reality...irritated I was pressing the horn high and moving head all over the road..it was weird coz my that action was not going to give me any relief from my exasperation yet I was doing that.!
Suddenly my sight spotted a figure at bus stop...I looked so hard as though penetrating that figure...It was hard to believe...I breathed heavily and again rubbing my eyes again looked at him...
"He is..yes he is..."I thought shrugging my head and my body got a shiver on the thought.He was Mayank sir,I recognized him..how could'nt I...he always has been in my thoughts...as signal got green,I immediately drove and stopped car at one side and almost ran towards him so that I won't miss him this time.
When I reached him he was checking time in his watch,my louds puffs made him to look at me...he looked at me confusedly trying to recognize but I was lost again lost but this time in his eyes...After a few minutes he asked,
"Yes?"
I controlled my breath and said in broken whisperes,"Can I take a few minutes of your!"
He dint deny and I showed him the path to my car.I said him to sit inside...that time he resisted...
"But I don know you..how can I?"
"Sir Please..."I requested and I dont know what made him to believe.After half an hour we were in a restaurant facing each other.I ordered two coffee.He was looking at me weirdly.
Taking a sip I started,"Sir how come you staying in this city?"
He looked at me strangly and then said,"I think you should introduce yourself first!"
"Sorry sir...I am...Nupur Bhushan..."I gulped hard before saying.
His eyes widened..and he gazed me hard for a while,"Nupur..."he whispered in astonishment.I said nothing,he was also quiet as though composing himself to face me.
"How are you sir?"I asked
This question stroke directly into his heart,his face fell and then I noticed that he was looking more tired,weak and down as compared to men of his age.'He must be in early 30's" I thought but looking much older and tired soul.
"I am fine!"he gasped.
I could'nt find courage to look at him,so looking at other side I asked,"sir you promised me that you will tell me everything when I will be mature enough...I think now I can understand what you wanted to say..."
He startled on my question,it was beyond his imagination that a 15 years old girl could remember everything after 10 years too...he broke into stammers,
"You still remember..."
"Each and everything sir...sorry I tried hard to forget but failed...I am not a good student..."I said with a sly smile.
He thought for a while and then said,"Lets go!"
"where?"I asked
"To my home..."he said.
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It was a 2 room flat in a narrow lane small but not messy.He kept it clean and managed.I sat on the couch and he said,
"Wait I will bring some water..."
I darted inside...it was clearly showing that it was a becholers room.
"So is he still unmarried..."I thought and that thought made me curious...I stood up and started investigating things more closely...there was a side drawer on which some pills were spread,some papers,files and..and a diary...my eyes glimmed...I quickly took it and hide in my hand bag.
I sat like that when he came.
"Sir,you din marry?"I asked.
"Fate dint let me.."he said with a faded smile.
"Why so?"
He got up and reaching to window he started,"when I joined school I was planning a happy life with Pranita...pranita my love...but after few months I got to know that my mother had blood cancer...I was completely broken...yet I decided to fight and give best treatment to her and so we decided to leave for US where she could get best treatment..."
He stopped and took a deep breath,turning towards me he said,"and then I left school,I told pranita about that and requested her to wait for me...BUT!!!"he gasped and his face was full of pain showing that she must rejected it.
"In Us after 5 months of treatment,my mother could'nt survive...I lost everything...money,shelter and love I had already lost but my only hope..my mother..."he could'nt say more and broke in tears.
I went near to him and placed my hand on his shoulder...
He looked at me,his eyes were full of pain,"I knew that you were heart broken...I should have handled the situation more softly than I did but I had no other choice...I am sorry Nupur!"
"Its okay...at least you dint give any false hopes..."I said looking into vaccum.He was rather surprised!
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Returning back home,I opened his diary and started reading in a hope that I could find a single line about me...but it was full of his life,his mother,his close friends and his only love pranita!
I was almost shattered,"why!! why you again expected something that is'nt possible...you are stupid nupur..!!! "I was scolding myself and crying...turning pages I got a letter..a letter which was more than a mere paper..it was a emblem of someone's feelings...my feeings...my first love letter..which I wrote to him...I opened it,
"Dear sir,
I dont know why I am writing this letter to you,I even don't know what I want or expect from you...I just want to tell you that whenever you come in my class I don know from where I get a positive energy...whenever I look at you I feel as I am living my dream...whenever you smile..I feel like gazing you forever...!
What is it???I don't know...but I want to make you happy...I want to impress you..yes its true I want you surrounding me all the time..I feel safe and secure near you...
sometimes I think what if you never go beyond my sight...I want to wear a white fairy cloth and sit in a garden where you are playing guitar and I am gazing you...I want to be like that...forever...!
can I say that I love you,yes I do...!
-Nupur Bhushan
9th (B)
My eyes became moist...Kash aisa ho!!!I prayed...and folded the letter...but there was something written on its back side,
If I ever love someone again...I will love like that...so that my love would become my lover's dream!
a smile came on my lips...I could'nt control it..it was becoming wider and wider...I was crying and smiling at the same time...I kissed on each and every letter written by him...holding it close to my heart...I was feeling Mayank close to my soul.!
I am ending here with my story but leaving a question for you-do love really know boundaries????
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So this is the end...hope you liked it..press 'Like' if so...sorry for mistakes...
good bye from this ff..will meet you on other ffs😊
Edited by --Ruchi-- - 13 years ago
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