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Because I love you....

How I regret.

If only I did not say that so hastily.

Notice me, take my hand

Why are we strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me

"Fine. Bye. I don't want to talk to you anymore." I screamed at you.

And that was really the last nine words I said to you. I wonder what Angad is doing now. We were together for six months. And suddenly, everything went wrong. We quarreled more frequently. This time, it really blew up. We did not even know why we were quarreling.

I was so sick of it I said those nine words. We did not break up or what; we just ignored each other. It carried on for two weeks. I was so lost and didn't know what to do. Should I just apologize or should I continue with this cold war?

Josh and Mishty told me to continue but Alliyah advised me to talk to you.

Every time I try to fly, I fall

Without my wings, I feel so small

I guess I need you, baby

And every time I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it's haunting me

I guess I need you, baby

I couldn't concentrate on my studies. Every time during classes, I will just turn around to look for you automatically. It had become a habit. And a habit that I cannot kick.

It was true. I dreamt of you almost every night. We were either quarreling or we were whispering sweet nothings to each other. Two very extreme dreams. I dare not admit to anyone but I miss you a lot and I wished we can be like before. If only all these were a dream only.

I make believe that you are here

It's the only way I see clear

What have I done

You seem to move on easy

I still remember that day when I tripped over something because I was too engrossed looking at you.

"Are you alright?" you asked so softly and helped me up.

"I'm…I'm fine…" I stuttered. You still have this strange effect on me.

"Take this handkerchief and tie it round your bleeding leg."

"I'll wash it and return it to you." I quickly said.

"No need. Just throw it away." with that, you walked away from me.

I looked at you until you were walked away from my sight. I clutched the handkerchief tightly. It was the one that I gave you to wipe your sweat when your football practice had finished. And now, you're giving it back to me. That night, I cried myself to sleep, Angad. Do you know that? I don't think you heard even though you sleep in the next room.

You know something, Angad? What hurt me was not the pain from the fall. But the aloofness you treated me with.

And every time I try to fly, I fall

Without my wings, I feel so small

I guess I need you, baby

And every time I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you, baby

Dinner was over. I'm now staring at the mirror in front of me in my room. I could not forget what happened just now.

"Get out of my sight, you weakling." You hissed at me.

"Weakling? I'm not one." I quickly walked away before you had any chance to further insult me.

Why? Why did you say that? Do you know it hurt me a lot? We have not broken up, do you still remember? Then why are you treating me this way?

The reflection that the mirror showed was a girl crying miserably. The mirror was mocking at me. But, it wasn't long before I felt something salty on my lips. It was my tears. I was crying. And that girl in the mirror is me.

Eyes so red and puffy. You will always run to me whenever I cry. What about now? Where are you? Probably with another girl. I bit my lip as that thought ran through my mind and more tears came down.

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song's my sorry

I realize now that, I'm just dwelling in the memories I have of you and me. I use those memories to pass each day. How pathetic can I get?

And so, I pray. I pray that you will disappear from my memories, my mind, my heart and my world. But, everywhere I go, I will see you. How coincidental. God loves making sport of me and I hate him for that.

I don't understand myself. I love you and hate you. I love you for all the care, concern and love you showered me when we were so happy together. I hate you because you insulted me, ignored me and landed me in this situation.

But, I can't really blame you right? I was the one who said I don't want to talk to you. But then again, you could have started the conversation right? I don't know. I'm just so confused. All these hormones are killing me.

At night I pray

That soon your face will fade away

And every time I try to fly, I fall

Without my wings, I feel so small

I guess I need you, baby

And every time I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you, baby

So what should I do? Not to talk to you? Or continue with this childish cold war?

Finally, I decided. I shall let nature take its course. If I get to meet you alone, well, maybe I could pluck up my courage to just confront you. If not…we'll see about that when it happens.

But, no matter what, I just want you to know something important.

I love you…

And I will watch you from afar

Protecting you, guarding you

Being your little guardian angel

So, don't you worry

I won't let anything happen to you.

Because I love you.

So how did you guys like this one? I will let you know I am going to be doing happy...sad...happy....This one to me wasn't really sad, but whatever hope you guys like it! Sorry for not posting another one sooner I have been terribly busy. I will also try and update Bhool Ja soon!!

-Natasha

Natasha...im like behind in ALL of your fan fictions! 😭😡 Okay, so i read the first story Lonley Painter's Soul...that was sweet, realizing that he loves her, and needs her when he is about to lose her, that was simply gr8! 👏👏👏 I will catch up to the other stories too now! 😃 I like the idea of short stories, short and sweet 😛

Mallika 😊

Awww natasha, that second story was too cute!! Neha read this b4, and went crazy over the song...😆😆😆...and i know why now!! 👏👏👏

5 Long Years….

Angad Khanna reached his old school and began the long walk up to it, the school he'd been away from for far too long. Here he was 5 years after graduating about to do something that no one would ever expect. He stopped and took a shaky breath and tried to collect his thoughts, he had to do this it had been far too long and the pain had become unbearable.

Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Five years, five long horrible years since he had seen her smile, since he had seen her at all. He knew everything that had happened was his fault he didn't know if she would even be there or would even care that he it was killing him for what he had done all those years ago. He stopped again only to realize that he was at the gates. 'Not too much farther now', he thought to himself, 'please just let me get this over with, she deserves to know' He walked through the gates and made his way onto the grounds. He slowly walked towards the front doors of the school he once called home. The place where all of the memories that had become his torment had taken place.

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

He didn't know how he knew where her room was but somehow his feet guided him to a door that read Professor Kripa Sharma. One last time he took a deep breath and took a moment to control himself enough to raise his fist to knock at the door. Time seemed to go in slow motion from the second his knuckles touched the door, it seemed as though a lifetime had passed while he waited for an answer. Finally he heard the voice he had been longing to hear for so long. "Coming, one moment please, How may I help you…" as the door swung open. He slowly brought his eyes up from the floor in time to see her shocked expression, and to hear her whisper "Angad", next thing he knew the door was slammed shut and he heard her yell "Go away, do not come back"

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Well to be completely honest he had expected nothing less than what he got, but it still broke his heart even more if that was possible. He stood for a minute wondering if he should just walk away now. It was obvious that she didn't want to see him, but could he turn away now? It took him all of five seconds to realize that he could not take this pain any longer that he had to tell her even if she still turned him away when he finished saying what needed to be said. Summoning all the strength and courage he could muster he knocked again. "Kripa, please open the door I need to talk to you, it's important please open the door." He began pleading with her through the door. "Go away Angad, go away NOW!" came her muffled response.

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

Kripa Sharma was in shock on the other side of her door she slowly sunk down with her back pressed up against the door barely breathing, shock consumed her, she had never expected this in a million years. Here in school her safe-haven, her home, the only place she could find the strength to try and move on, to pick up the broken pieces of her heart, here he was. Angad Khanna the one and only King of her heart was banging on her door in the middle of the night, what the hell was she going to do? Could she open that door? Should she, after all these years, and the pain and tears, could she open that door, not only open the door to Angad but to all of the memories she had fought so hard to hide away. A tear began to make a path down her cheek.

Angad turned and slid himself down her door, he sat with his knees up elbows resting on them head in his hands, "Kripa please, please you have to listen to me, you don't have to open the door if you don't wish to but I am begging you please just hear me out. Please Kripa?" Again he heard her muffled reply, "What could you possibly have to say to me Angad, didn't you say enough on the night of graduation?" 'Ouch' he thought, "Ok I deserved that, but I still have to tell you some things, please can you just hear me out?" "Fine Angad talk, and talk quickly you have five minutes before I call someone to escort you out of here." 'Ok here goes nothing' he thought. "Kripa I'm so sorry, I was just so scared that I didn't know what else to do. Dad was furious and he threatened both our lives, he swore revenge on you for making me see the truth of what I would become. He wanted to go into the black market like him. When I became an FBI officer my father was absolutely livid and he cornered me during a fight and almost killed me, he would have too, that is unless Josh hadn't have stepped in and saved me. Dad knew he could see it in my eyes, he knew that I had changed because of you. He had known about us all along apparently and had thought you were just some little fling, you weren't you never could be. You were the only good thing I had ever had in my life, and I f*cked it all up because I was scared. He finally died in jail this morning Kripa I'm finally free, I was so terrified he would break out and would come for you, that I had to stay away. I had to break your heart to save you Kripa. Not only did I break your heart but I also broke my own. I'm nothing without you. I was nothing before you I am nothing after. I know I could never ask for your forgiveness I should have told you what happened but instead I took the easy way out. The coward's way out, I broke your heart I lied to you after I swore I never would, and I'm so sorry Love, I never meant any of it. If I could I would take it all back, I know that now, I should have been stronger for you, you deserved so much better than what I did to you. I would walk across broken glass to make it up to you, I would crawl through the fires of hell just to right this wrong. But nothing I can do will ever make it go away or give us back these last five years. I'm so sorry Kripa, I am. I shouldn't have come here, I should have just left you alone let you continue living your life without me here to mess it up. I just had to tell you, you had to know. I love you Kripa, I always have I always will, and I am so sorry. But please if anything just know that I have always loved you. I love you more than anything in this world, and all I want is for you to be happy, and to know the truth." Angad pulled himself up to stand never facing the door, his shoulder slumped head down and tears pouring out of his eyes like a waterfall. "Just please know Kripa that I love you and I never wanted to hurt you ever." He then slowly began to walk away.

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man

But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you

Kripa sat there crying silently as her told her his story. When he had said what his dad had done, it was almost as if she had always known that was the truth, she had known deep down inside that he wouldn't have done this to her. He loved her and she knew it deep down inside she had known what happened, but was so hurt that she didn't want to admit it to herself. While Angad was still talking she had quietly opened the door and watched him as he stood crying looking completely defeated, and her heart began to break again as he started to walk away. She had to swallow the lump in her throat, and take a few breaths before she tried to speak…

Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you, yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you

"Angad?" she called softly. He stopped but still didn't turn around; she walked up behind him and hesitantly turned him around. Finally he looked at her directly into her eyes that he had gotten lost in so many times, more tears began to fall, he lost all the strength in his body, his knees buckled and his slowly fell down to the floor on his knees pulling Kripa with him. "I love you Angad and I know in my heart I've always known that you didn't mean it, I love you Angad" Kripa sobbed out. "God I love you so much Kripa"

And there they sat on the floor hanging onto each other as if their lives depended on it. Finally after five long years Love had finally prevailed.

Hey hope you guys liked it! I have to go to a party so it was short. Also don't forget I am posting the songs on the first post so check it out if you want to listen to the song I used. Hope you guys liked it!

-Natasha