''And the award goes to Mr. Karan Singh Grover'' my heartbeat went erratic, nothing i could ever compare to. I was nervous; it was obvious from the slow beats that were drumming against my rib cage. Midst the huge thunder of applauses, i stood up, and as difficult it seemed that moment, i stepped towards the stage gracefully. A smile formed over my lips, seeing the gleaming countenances, cheering up for me. They were my friends, the people so dear to me. Boy had life been any lesser than a beautiful coaster ride, since i had become the heartthrob of feminine ' Dr. Armaan Malik, since id become the part of DMG. 'DMG' my lips left a profound sigh of comprehension. An endorsement again lanced through me. My eyes, my blue oceanic eyes scattered and scrutinised. Through the thousand of familiar faces, my rotating pupils, endeavoured to find those magical forest green eyes, which were all i needed ' too precious to let go. My friends stood up, engulfing me into a warm affectionate hug. I relaxed in their solacing embrace. My mind was clogged with restlessness. Where was she?
Ishq leta hai kaise imtehaan
Ishq mein jiyoon, ishq mein maroon,
Ishq hi mera bhagwaan,
Haye rabba tu hi meri jaan, tu hi jahaan
The wind blew? No but still my head turned towards the other direction, and at a distance, vaguely visible, my heart signalled, and my eyes captured the possession i desired the most. She was looking heavenly.
Tu hi meri manzil
Tere ishq mein main qurbaan
Her eyes slowly lifted and met mine. The sensation that streaked through my senses was so elementarily powerful that i was left shivering. My lips stretched, more and even more. My dimples moulded into the deepest curve. Her eyes slowly sparkled with elation and happiness. The smile of acknowledgment, enlightment flickered through her eyes and reached mine. The moisture was emergent. My eyes crystal clear, were covered with a translucent layer of wetness, that i had hard time to fight back. The moment of confession had come, and this was the best moment.
Tarararara tarira
tarararara tarira tu zindagi
today i would let go off every instinct of displeasure and insecurity that had come between us. With reluctance i averted my gaze towards the stage, where my presence was being utmost-ly awaited. My steps rose, as i slowly ascended the stairs. My face was glowing, not because i had won what every other person desired here, rather because i know what i had won just through the conveyance of those beautiful yet coercive unsaid emotions that bonded me with her.
I held the delicate and fine structure of appreciation in my hand. I smiled whole heartedly ' the time, id been waiting so patiently, had come finally!
Ab mujkho hai maloom
Ke Tu Hai Mera Janoon
Ab Tu Hi Mera Rab Zindagi
Tujhse Hi Mera Sakoon
Standing in the most centre, of the stage, with thousands and millions of eyes on me, i let my heart out. Thanking everyone, i took a sudden leap. My mouth went dry, and for a moment, my courage began to sink. But as soon as it had started declining my eyes locked into hers, and i knew nothing could stop me anymore. With a beautiful smile on my lips, i began ' again!
'' hmm not bad ye larka kaafi confident hai'' the smile grew wider, as i reminisced those most beautiful moments of my life. All eyes grew wider, but my soul, heart and eyes were locked into hers, which stared back amazed. I smiled, till my lips stretched to no estimable extent.
'' when she had first said this, i knew my heart had grown a million times bigger, and with such intensity, that contraction was wiped off. Ms. Shilpa Shiv Anand!'' i could feel it. A gasp slowly escaped her lips. The whole place grew immobile, and silent, but i could still here the unchained melody, that linked our hearts.
''sach kaha tha maine! The first day id met you i don't know we will become so close of friends, but there was something else i didn't know, ke wohi soni mundi will hack my heart.'' She grew stiff, and i could feel my heart skipping beats. The strong wave of stimulation streaked through me. Stuck in a million of emotions, i composed myself and continued.
''Her big green eyes, stole my heart. She has the most beautiful eyes in the world. Eyes which hold the power to mesmerize anyone! I was no exception. Her hair, became my hiding spot. The mest place in this world. Their fragrance engulfed my senses, i always loved nuzzling into them.'' I smiled wider, as the memories flooded back. A small smile came over her lips. I knew it. She was also reminiscing the most beautiful moments ' our moments. '' ive to admit i hated when she tied her hair. I always loved them lose. They became the most prized possession for me. The most dear thing to me. I loved moving my fingers across them. I know how mad it seems, but it actually was madder! Life couldn't be more beautiful. We became Armaan and Riddhima winning so many hearts, and then the most beautiful name became our identity ' KaSh! It still gives me those goosebumps, because it associates her with me. The whole day her laughs, our little cute fights, those igniting and fueling passionate intimacies which though were just a part of our profession, but they drew us closer, made that spark prominent. But one day she left, and my little happy world was broken. The most excrutiating pain was letting her go.. nothing remained the same anymore. Maybe that was the moment i realised her worth was so much more than id already thought. I missed her, missed her just terribly. Her hair, her smile, her RAWR! She always had this habbit of rawring on the sets'' a chuckle embraced the silence in a powerful echo, and the crowd grinned, but my eyes were fixed on hers. My heart began to thump loudly, when i saw her head slowly falling down with a lone tear descending down her soft white cheek, and her lips expanding into a grin aswell.
'' i missed her, missed those moments, missed the special feelings she had evoked inside me, i missed KaSh. There wasn't a moment, when my heart didn't desire her, need her, call her! I knew it wasn't the end, because id always believed ''in the end we'r gonna be together''
Hum toh chale the dost banke
Jaane kahaan dill mill gayye.
''but then she was back! Two years! She made me wait for two whole years! But she was back! I was the happiest person alive that day. My gratitude, my elation was unexplainable. She was back in DMG, she was back in my life! Her smiles began to make my day, her laughs began to echo so melodiously in my ears, her cute little habbits brought me back to life. I had everyone, but that special place that she had, in my life, couldn't ever be filled by anyone. My life became blissful again. I started smiling for no reason, ''flashacks gaye memories aaye'' her eyes slowly lifted, they were soaking with tears, just like mine, two thick fat tears made their way down the curve of my cheeckbone. My blue eyes glistened with memories.
''sitting with her all the day, i remember the day she came and i hadn't known, id to take away the directors flowers just to go and give them to her'' my smile grew big, as her eyes gave me a warning glare.
''the whole world changed for me. Everyday i was so more excited to reach the sets and meet her, i again started playing with my favourite thing ' her hair! God id missed them. I craved to be with her the whole day. Whenever there was an interview, i always forgot the cameras, all i did was stare at the most breathtaking face, full of expressions, and then look into her eyes so deeply. Ms bhelchor waapis jo aagayi thi!''
Sama Rahi Hai Tu
Jism Jaan Mein
Chali Jaye Gi Jaan Iss Imtehan Mein
' when ever she talked about the two year gap, my heart sank, and i always had to change the topic. I knew i wouldnt ever let her go again.' Suddenly my smile faded, when my eyes grew red, and id to say the most paiinful reality that penetrated my soul every moment, 'par tum phir chali gayi ' mujhe chorkar' her eyes lifted and met mine. They reflected the same pain. The same agony, the hurt which stabbed me excruciatingly.
'in all this that happened im my life, that happened between you and me, all this while when you werent with me, when the emptiness filled me up, i realised one thing id been always ignoring. The most important reality of my life.''
i held the mic strongly, as the tears flew down rapidly.i finally moved towards her, stepping slowly, and with each step i took, my own heartbeat grew wilder. I had to say this today, tell her what she meant to me. My voice slow and husky, began to mesmerize her senses,
asmani rang ho,
pyaar ki boond ho,
roshni ho,
dhoop ho,
chahaton ki goonj ho
aanchal mein hain dhanak chandni,
haaton mein woh chaand hai,
gairon se bhi hai wasta
apno mein pehchan hai,
ta ra ra rat ta ri ra tu zindagi
mera izhaar hai..
pyaar hi pyar hai,
yaaron ki yaar hai,
tu zindagi ...
ta ra ra rat ta ri r], tu zndagi
tujhse main kya kahoon
tu hi mera sukoon,
sang tere rahoon,
tu zindagi!!!!!
I finally reached where she was standing so still. The people moved away, letting her soul address to mine. I stepped closer, so close that i could feel her breathes floating across and creating a havoc inside me. Her odour, entered my nostrils, flaring the fire of contentment, and satisfaction. She stood there still, with her facial features covered in clouds of tears. I slowly, composed my self and sitting down on my knee, i looked deeply into her eyes, and slowly my voice made its way out of my throat, 'i love you! Maybe from the first day id known you! Maybe from the moment my heart had started to beat for you, maybe when you left me, and maybe when id let you go again! But all i know is, living without you is impossible! Miss Shilpa Shiv Anand, Karan Singh Grover is in love with you! I cant live without you anymore! Today infront of this whole world, i want to ask you, will you marry me?'' the breathes were caught. Everyone was silent, my eyes slowly shut, when the moisture trickled down her cheeks and landed on my cheek. Slow and silent gasps proceeded out of her lips. My lashes darted up, my heart nearly came out, and my soul was impatient, and restless than anything i could ever remember. Softly her lips formed into a smile, and in a barely audible whisper she let out what my whole life needed to live, 'Yes!'
The whole crowd exclaimed their joy, and the place echoed with cheers and claps, hooting and even shocks, but at that moment nothing else mattered to me except her. Slowly i stood up. My eyes never leaving hers, our tears collided and breathes tangled as i soflty cupped her face. Pulling her feminine delicacy closer, my nose softly brushed against hers. The puckering of her lips, and breathing so heavy, made me shudder in reponse. I was after all madly in love with her. My lips slowly moved down and the next moment i placed them over hers. Another fantasy, id been craving to live! My hands enmeshed into her soft textured hair, as my fingers gripped her hair firmly. It was nothing but the best thing! The reuniting of souls, that were made to become one! Her lips moved like a novice, as i slowly and sensually guided them, filling her mouth with my utter manliness, i made her toes curl with the tidal desire, and love! As i let go off those lush juicy petals, her breathes heaved against my skin. 'I love you too' finally and so intently, she spoke what i was dying to hear since the day id known her! My fingers wrapped around her waist, as i took her into a passionate rib crushing hug, and engulfed into the warmth of the woman, who meant my everything!
Arjun
