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Shilpa clutched her torso unable to take the pain thinking that it might fall off from her body. Her hand moved to where her heart was beating clenching it into fist there hoping, wanting and wishing to tear her heart out so that everything would end. She won't have to feel the pain anymore which she had felt since her childhood. Hoping that when her stupid heart won't be there to feel anything then she might be able breathe a sigh of relief but she was unaware that her feelings for the love her life were so strong that even if her heart won't be there to feel anything she would still feel the same feeling around him. Breathing became even more difficult for her, every breath she took caused her even more pain than the last one as if someone was pulling a branch full of thorns in and out of her throat every time she inhaled and exhaled. She felt like her heart is pumping acid into her veins instead of blood and no matter how hard she tried she was not able to make it stop. Her knees gave away and she fell on the floor. The cold wind blew mercilessly and the rain continued to pour as if the Gods themselves were crying with her. Her tears were hidden between so many water droplets falling on her face. Even tonight her tears couldn't be seen when she was crying tears of blood''..
He was sitting on the side of the bed. His back facing shilpa he didn't had enough courage to look at her. He felt so bad and miserable that now he even had lost is one and only friend'in fact he had lost everything he had just because of one person. He looked backwards and saw her clutching her torso as if it would fall apart. A lone tear ran down his cheek. He had passed through all this and now because of him someone else was passing through the same pain, misery and helplessness. He had felt the same pain when ridhimma has left him and married someone else. But tonight he was feeling the same pain again as if someone was twisting his heart like twisting a towel to get every water droplet out of it. He didn't know why he was feeling it again. Only ridhima was the one who was able to give him so much pain but today when he hurt shilpa he felt the same pain but with more intensity. He hand automatically went upto his torso to hold it in place he felt like his own torso would fall apart. The pain was unbearable he looked back at her, she was now leaning against the reeling of the balcony her hand curled into fists upon her heart and the pain increased. He fell of the bed and curled himself up into a ball. Every time he looked at her, looked at how much pain he has given her his own pain increased and came back with more intensity then before. He closed his eyes tightly not being able to see shilpa like this and not being able to take away the pain anymore hoping that at one point or another pain would stop''..
The morning rays filled in the entire room lighting it up with its brightness. But even the sun brightness of the sun couldn't lighten up the darkness in the room. Armaan slowly opened his eyes and looked around. He was still of the floor curled up in a ball and his hands were still upon his torso holding it in its place. The pain however had reduced by now. He slowly got up and looked at shilpa. She was still leaning against the reeling holding he torso in one place just like him. She had fallen asleep sitting like that there. He went outside in the balcony and bent down on her knees. There were tear tracks down her cheeks. She had cried even while sleeping, he once again felt his heart twist in agony. Her lips were starting to get purple due to cold. Her clothes were still wet and the weather was still chilly. He moved his hands forward to pick her up so that he can carry her inside. But his hands stopped midair as he studied the expression on her face. Agony was written all over her face which was all because of him. He lowered his eyes atone he didn't had the strength to look at her like that. He slowly got up and went back inside.
Shilpa opened her eyes they were swollen from crying all night and burned. She closed them again as everything was suddenly too much bright. She opened them again and her eyes took a moment to adjust to the brightness. She slowly removed her hands from her torso scared that it might fall any moment but it didn't. The sensation of pain has reduced but still it was there like an unwanted memory. She took the help of the reeling to stand up and went inside. There he was sitting with his back on her just like last night. She was staring his back when suddenly he turned back and their eyes met and in that instance all those memories which she wanted to forget last night came rushing back to her'..
Shilpa was the happiest person on earth. She knew she felt something for armaan and he needed a friend so she became that friend. She was looking for him they were supposed to have coffee together. She had looked for him everywhere and angrily decided that she would just wait for that sadu in the cafeteria. So turned around and went towards the caf. She slowed her pace when he reached the caf there were a lot of people in there. She slowly went inside and the lights suddenly went off. She stopped in her tracks she was way too scared of darkness to take a step further. She was about ask "what happened to the lights?" when the spot light fell on her and another person sitting on his knees in front of her with a ring in his hands. Shilpa could recognize him anywhere by just the mere scent of his perfume. He looked at her and said "shilpa will you marry me?...i was heartbroken and need a friend, I didn't know where to go to whom to go'.I felt all alone and felt out and then you came'and changed everything'you were a friend I needed'u became my friend when everyone left me all alone and now I don't want you to leave me alone ever'.so will you marry me 'shona?" shilpa's eyes became watery as she heard him say all that stuff to her. She nodded her head silently and armaan got up. He grabbed her hand and slipped the ring into her finger. She looked at the ring for a long moment and then hugged armaan tightly. Everyone started hooting and threw their lab coats and files in air including sid while ridhima became jealous to the core of her exsistence. Her hands balled up into fists and she couldn't belived that he just pruposed'.shilpa. And did he just called her shona 'she couldn't believe her ears. She knew what shona meant to him'shone was his dream girl. He always said that the girl he would fall in love will be his shona 'she was his shona not that shilpa.
To be continued'''''
P.S: this story will be written in flashback for sometime...and one more thing i usually write romantic or humorous stuff but mostly romantic this will be an emotional FF...completely different from what i usually write...hope i will be able to do justice to the FF...but i will try my level best...hope i did justice to their emotions in this update...i will try to update as soon as i could...
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