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Maan shook his head knowing him by now...he turned again hitting his foot on the table. Dodo!!! he wanted to scream.. but he just hit the table in frustration. ..yet again hurting his hand on the plank that was on the table.
Maan just left himself fall on the couch flat in the pitch darkness.. his hand & knee hurting. But her questioning eyes were still lingering in his thoughts. Does he really know wat she means to him!! she meant everything..his life, his heart, his soul, his everything...the answere echoed in the silent room. He closed his ears tight..feeling terrified with the thought..with that voice.. trying to run yet again. But this time he was not able to.. he was not able to deny himself, deny his strong feelings for her, deny that spark that he felt now. ..or probably was always there & he was just feeling the thapish now!!!
yeh kaisen ehsaas the jo kabhi samjh hi nahi paya
yah phir samjhna nahi chata tha
ki samjh kar bhi manana nahi chatha tha
how was that he loved her... no..he can't ..he has been in relationships..god knows with so many..he doesn't even remember their names..now.. but there isn't a smallest thing about his dodo that is not carved in his soul. Even the things he is not supposed to know..he seem to know. He doesn't know how it feels to touch kavi or simran..or..parul..or...the list was endless.. but he exactly knows how magical it feels feeling her. He could close his eyes & imagine her. He could feel himself turning on just thinking about her touch, he was getting breathless with her mere thought. He instantly opened his eyes!! took a sharp breath.. looking into the darkness..main yeh kya soch raha hoon..wat is wrong with me?? she is my dodo!!.. the word my.. now felt deeper..how could he be fighting over her, that too her son.
It's been so long that he had forgotten all about that feeling. this new surge of emotion gave his life a new meaning. He need to see his dodo's face, need to look at her smile..a tea formed in his eyes. He wanted to look into her mind & understand what she felt deep inside. He wanted to imagine what she would feel like if he ever had the guts to touch her that way, wondered if would ever get to be with her the way he now want..probably always wanted to. She was all the while with him for him but only now he knew more about her, fate has told him...why!!
Damn he thought he was going to lose his mind, thinking so much about what he wants to happen. But alas!!!. it can't not anymore..he closed his eyes & fell back in the couch.
Having felt all this... he was clearing his mind it's not a sudden height of lust he was experiencing
he knew he was in love..love with his dodo.. don't even know since when!!! he laughed.. he laughed.. laughed at himself.. he love is dodo.. Oh god!! I am in Love!!!
in love with self.. because he never thought dodo was separable from him..thats why probably never thought it differently. He smiled hitting his hand with his palm.. dodo...
all her antics played in front of his eyes
he doesn't even know when he fell for her..thats why he always ignored his Gfs when it came abt his dodo.. uski halki si chink used to bother him more than the crying hauling of his Gfs. He couldn't recover out of kavi's betrayal because his dodo was not there with him. It just took her a sec to wash away his grief of 8 years. He can't believe just seeing her he forgot..he hated girls.. he demoted sasha god knows how any times..just for coming in front of him. All that pain ..all that misery washed away like..it all never happened.
We are friends...just best friends I thought!
He didn't know when he slept..or was he dreaming..when he saw Geet caressing his forehead with her soft weather hands & her face looked so much in concern, her hair wet & dripping like she just had her shower..he could smell the shampoo, the lavender perfumed soap she used.. all mixed with her scent was intoxicating.
he smiled..probably.. it was his fav now
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