Chapter 3
Dev stood looking out over the veranda at the Mumbai nightlife, wondering how his life had come to this point. How had what once was a happy life, a satisfying marriage to a beautiful and fun loving girl, been reduced to such a shambles? How had he come to this point, alone in a hotel room, nursing a drink in his hand as he brooded?
He didn't want to brood, but he had done nothing else for the past two hours since he came to the Grand Hyatt. He wanted to forget, hence the drink he had fixed himself at the rooms minibar. It was his third one, but just like the others, it seemed to have no effect on numbing the deadness that coursed through him.
Standing alone, listening to the sounds of a busy city, Dev marveled at how alive it seemed. Those millions of people out there were living, breathing human beings. They weren't experiencing the deadness that he was. Dev wanted that deadness gone. He wanted to feel alive again. Deciding that he could drink out amongst all those living people just as easily as by himself, he left his room and headed for the elevator.
Strolling casually into the China House, Dev thought about how ironic it was that he came here of all places to forget the tragedy that his life had become. This famous night spot of Mumbai, frequented by the rich and famous, as well as tourists and those just looking for a good time, was HER favorite place. Now, he was here, the place they had spent so many moments together, trying to forget and start over.
As he walked slowly towards the bar, Dev could feel the eyes of the guests and staff following his movements. He knew the rumors that had been making the rounds, and he knew that they were all wondering if it was true. Nobody dared to question him, the Khurana name powerful enough to keep even the nosiest people away. No, they preferred to stare and whisper behind his back.
Dev didn't really care. He didn't know these people, and even if he did, nothing they said could make his life any more miserable than it already was. He kept his focus on his destination, which was an empty seat at the bar. When asked by the bartender what he wanted, Dev said to surprise him. He didn't even wait for the guy to tell him what the drink was before he chugged it down.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Nope."
Dev sat there and waited for the drink to do its stuff, but any effect was overshadowed by the image that wouldn't leave his mind. No matter what he did, that awful picture was seared into his conscious. If only he had listened to Maan, believed him, perhaps when the disaster came, it wouldn't have been such a blow.
Now that he thought about it, Maan had never like Naintara. When they had eloped the year after Dev graduated from, Maan had been furious, convinced that Naintara had only married him for his position in their family, and not because she loved him. That she only intended to use Dev to further her career. Dev thought that was rubbish, for the Rathores were as well known in the fashion industry, as the Khuranas were in construction and real estate.
When Naintara had introduced Sameera to Maan, and they became friends, Dev had thought things were beginning to change. He had hoped that by having Dadi encourage Maan to propose to Sameera, that his brother would finally start mellowing towards his wife. He longed to start a family of their own, but Naintara had been adamant that she was willing to have a child until she was fully embraced by the family, including Maan.
Dev loved children, and had started weaving dreams about having a houseful of them as soon as he had been informed of the engagement. The pathetic fool that he was, he had even started thinking about baby names and whether they would have a boy or a girl first. That was why, when Maan had come to him with a vile story about his wife, he had found it unbelievable. He had accused Maan of looking for excuses to break his own engagement as well as Dev's marriage. He resented what he considered Maan's interference and inability to his own brother happy.
That final and devastating argument, after which the brothers parted ways, was not the end of Dev's family problems. Dadima tried her best to reconcile her grandsons, but with neither of them were willing to disclose the details of their falling out. All she knew was Maan had called off the engagement and that he and Dev fought. When Maan went back to Delhi, he refused to tell her anything, so she then turned to Dev. He also was reluctant to explain what had happened, thinking it would be too difficult to tell her about Maan's accusations.
While Dadima kept pressuring him for information, Naintara also became more hard to please. She had been shaken by the whole thing, ranting that Maan was trying to get rid of her. She claimed it would only be a matter of time before Dev started doubting her. To appease her insecurities, she demanded daily evidence of his love, a practice that in the end, betrayed her and destroyed him.
He had come back to their apartment early that afternoon, a bouquet of red roses in his hands, when he heard Sameera's familiar voice coming from their bedroom. "Tara baby, what are we going to do? Our plan has been ruined by that stupid man."
"Sammy darling, don't you worry. I've got Dev totally in my control. He doesn't believe anything Maan told him. As for Maan Veerji," came the disdainful reply, "we don't need him any more."
"But, Tara baby, you said if I married Maan, then we could be together without being suspected."
"Listen, Darling, I've figured everything out. Neither Maan nor Dev have said anything to Dadima about what happened. She just knows that Maan ended the engagement and that they argued. We will use that to our advantage. I will tell Dadima that you and I want to come to Delhi to try and work things out with Maan. While we're there, we will do everything we can to convince her that Maan has treated you in the worst possible way. That old lady is so soft hearted, it will be easy to turn her against Maan and in our favor."
"But, Baby, won't Maan tell his grandmother the truth if we try to do anything?"
"That's the best part, Darling. Maan and Dadima argued as well, and Maan has left the Khurana Mansion. No one knows where he's gone, but that leaves the way clear for us."
Dev had felt the fiery fury coursing through him as he listened to their words. He was all set to storm into the bedroom and start World War III. Yet he was stopped before even taking one step forward. Stopped by words that turned the fire into ice, dead ice.
"Tara baby, I'm actually glad the engagement is over. It was so difficult to let Maan kiss me. I can't imagine how disgusting it would be to actually have to sleep with him. Honestly, I don't know how you let Dev touch you. You must be a pretty good actress for him not to suspect anything."
"It's not as hard as I thought it would be. Dev has never been with anyone else, so it's been pretty easy to fake it all this time. Plus, whenever he touches me, I think about all the Khurana billions. You wouldn't believe how easy it is to hide revulsion when money is involved. The only problem I really have to worry about is that Dev keeps insisting on having a child. I've managed to put him off for now, but eventually I'm going to have to bribe a doctor to say I'm infertile."
"Baby, don't let him get you pregnant! How horrible would that be. It would totally ruin your figure, not to mention, I don't think I could stand to have my Tara baby giving birth to some disgusting man's child."
"Oh, Darling, don't look like that. Nothing like that will happen. I let Dev touch me, but you know I only love you."
Dev had long since dropped the roses in his hand, a strange combination of fascination and sickness pulling him silently toward the bedroom door. It was partially open, allowing him to observe the two women without being noticed. He somehow had the feeling that it was all a dream, and that any moment he would awake and find that everything was all right. That feeling was shattered when he saw Naintara put her arms around Sameera, kissing her passionately, with Sameera responding in kind.
After that Dev wasn't entirely conscious of what happened. He no longer seemed in control of his actions. Dev knew that he confronted the women angrily and when Naintara tried again to convince him with her lies, he couldn't stay there another second. Somehow he ended up at in a room in the Hyatt, trying to come to terms with what he had discovered.
Staring blankly into the refill he had requested from the bartender, Dev admitted how ridiculous it was to think he could come to terms with what happened. How did a man deal with the fact that he had accused his elder brother of a terrible betrayal, but that the real betrayer was the love of his life? How did he cope with the fact that his and his wife's sexual orientation were incompatible, and she had been trying to marry off her lover to his brother?
Who was he kidding! Dev chugged down the drink in his hand, certain that there was no way to get over the tragedy that his life had turned into. He had alienated his brother, who had only tried to look out for him, all for a scheming, lying bitch. What a fool he had been. What a stupid fool!
"Hey. Hey!" Dev called out, pulling the bartender's attention away from a girl who was giving him the come hither. As if he would fall for that again. "Get me another!"
The next thing Dev knew, a shrilling noise was piercing his head with a thousand tiny daggers. He tried to get away from the sound, but he found that his body wouldn't move. After a few seconds the noise stopped, and Dev felt immediate relief. He wanted nothing more than to go back to his previous state of oblivion, but the noise started again. Recognizing it as his cellphone, he blindly fished around for it, until he finally pulled it out of his pants pocket. Not contemplating the strangeness of the fact that he was still wearing his pants, with the cellphone in the pocket, he answered the call.
"Hello, Dev Sir?"
"Keep your voice down," complained Dev, wincing uncontrollably. "Who is this and what do you want?"
"Sir, this is Darpan Patil speaking. From KC's Mumbai branch. I'm calling about the ground breaking ceremony for the Inspiring Children Secondary School."
Dev tried to think past the pounding in his head. "I think I remember something about it being on Sunday, and you were trying to contact Bro, is it?"
"Sir, today is Sunday, and I haven't been able to reach Maan Sir at all."
"What?" cried Dev, who then winced again in pain, this time caused by his own actions. "What happened to Saturday?"
"Sir?"
"Never mind. Why are you calling me?"
"Sir, I haven't been able to contact Maan Sir, and someone is supposed to go to the ceremony. I spoke with Adi Sir, and he suggested that you would be available."
"Look, Darpan is it? Get someone else."
"Oh, but Sir, that won't work. Maan Sir donated not only company resources for building the school, but over five crores of his personal money for the school's scholarship programs. One of you has to be there!"
"Fine. When is this ceremony?"
Dev listened to the details and ended the call as quickly as possible. He then tried to get his bearings. It was difficult to believe, but somehow he had lost an entire day. Looking around the hotel room, he saw several empty liquor bottles strewn about the floor. He must have gone on some kind of crazy drinking binge. That was stupid.
Dev had no memory of anything after he left the hotel room Friday night. He knew he had intended to go to the China House, but he didn't know if he made it, or if he went anywhere else, or what time he came back. He thought back to how a guy he knew from Columbia University had died after a weekend of drinking. Dev definitely didn't want to end up like that.
He felt awful! The pain in his head was bad, and he felt a little nauseous. "God, I am never drinking again! I need a shower."
At half past one, Dev got out of the back of the car Darpan had arranged to pick him up, and made his way through the small crowd of what looked like families. Looking around uncertainly, he was unaware of the impressive sight he made, the sunglasses he wore to hide his bloodshot eyes lending him an air of aloofness. His wandering was ended when the school's principal came up to him and began talking. There was the usual gratefulness and lamenting that Maan couldn't be there.
The principal then began explaining what the Inspiring Children Schools were all about. Dev was unaware of the background of the school, or how the student body was made up entirely of children from some of the poorest neighborhoods in Mumbai. Children whose families couldn't afford to send them to school and had difficulty finding good schools that could take their kids on scholarship.
"We also focus on employing young, bright teachers who have the enthusiasm needed to motivate our students to achieve. Ms. Shah is a perfect example. Meera will you come here please?" The principal's request was answered by a young woman, with dark hair and large, expressive, dark eyes.
"Meera comes to us from the University of Delhi. We hired her just this school year as a Mathematics teacher. All the students admire her, and she is incredibly patient, especially with the young ones. Meera, this is Mr. Khurana. Mr. Khurana, Meera Shah."
"It's nice to meet you, Mr. Khurana," came the low, soothing sound of Meera Shah's voice.
She held out her hand which Dev grasped in a firm handshake. They engaged in small talk for a few minutes before Meera excused herself. Dev watched as she walked over to a small child who appeared to be running around, causing mischief. They were too far away for him to hear what she said, but her words quickly changed the child's attitude from naughty to contrite. The two then began making their way back in his direction.
"Vikram, I know that you can be a good boy in school. I want to see you be a good boy when you're not in school. Can you do that for me?"
"Yes, Ms. Shah."
"Very good. Let's find your parents."
Dev watched the young teacher lead the boy away with a mixture of longing and sadness. If only things had turned out differently, he might have been a father to a boy like that one day. With the recent turn his life had taken, Dev could see all his plans for a family breaking into tiny, worthless pieces.
Edited by laxmi2010 - 14 years ago
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