Part 22
Sujal thinking I have no right to get mad at her or be jealous. I don't love her and I don't even care about her but then why do I always feel bad when I hurt her or feel so jealous when I see her with someone else. Could it be true that I'm falling for her? No there can nothing between us because we both hate each other and there is no way possible that she'll love me ever. We are forced in this relationship and soon when this relationship will be over we'll go our separate ways. This is what is going to happen and what should happen. Because there can never be anything between two people who have nothing but hatred filled inside of them for each other. I'll just ignore her today and just enjoy my lunch with Anjali. Both Anjali and Sujal find a table at a corner and sit down. The waiter comes up to them and gives them their menu. Anjali is staring at the menu trying to decide what she should eat. While all Sujal can concentrate on is Kashish and Kavya hugging each other still. Sujal is back to thinking why are they hugging each other for such a long time. Is there glue on them that they are attached together and can't leave each other. I swear if he doesn't leave her soon I'm gonna kick his ass. Wait a minute what is wrong with me. Why am I thinking like that? Sujal get a grip on your self and he takes a long deep breath. Anjali brings him back to reality by talking to him.
Anjali: so what are you going to eat?
Sujal: huh
Anjali: I asked what are you going to eat?
Sujal: I don't know
Anjali: are you feeling alright...you were fine a while back but since we have come here you are lost in your own world...
Sujal: I'm completely alright...I was just thinking about something
Anjali: fine...I'll order a chicken caesar salad with ranch dressing and iced tea...what would you like to eat?
Sujal: I'll have the same
Anjali: ok
The waiter arrives they both give their orders. Anjali starts talking about her modeling career and Sujal keeps on glancing back to Kashish who is now sitting at her chair finally but is crying. Sujal now wondering why is she crying? Did that kavya hurt her again. I swear I'm gonna kill him soon. What does he think he can just hurt my wife like that. I'll have to talk to him. He needs to get his brain straightened out because no one hurts my Kashish and doesn't repay for it. OH MY GOD did I just think MY kashish. Am I actually falling for her? I mean who wouldn't fall for that lovely smile and that sparkling eyes you just want to sink into. If only she would feel the same way about me. I know I'll have to find out first if she has any feelings for that Kavya and hopefully she won't. Then I could come like a prince charming and sweep her off her feet. Yes, I'll do that. I'll start being nice to her and give her everything she wants. Because I don't ever want to see her cry again she should be smiling all the time. Anjali was now totally frustrated by Sujal's behavior he was not paying any attention to her. No one had ever ignored her and now Sujal was doing it and it was pissing her off. She had repeated her question about five times now but there was no response. She now put her feet on his foot really hard and brought him back to reality again. Sujal was hurt and mad at Anjali for ruining his thoughts.
Sujal: oww...what was that for?
Anjali: I asked you a question about five times already and you didn't even respond once
Sujal: I'm so sorry...can you repeat it again?
Anjali taking a deep breath says her question very slowly: Do you think it is time for me to settle down now?
Sujal: do you think you are ready?
Anjali: I guess I mean I see all these couples together and I feel like I want what they have...they way they have someone no matter what...someone to love... who also loves you back...just talk to someone when you are down...someone who'll listen to you when you are down and make you happy....
Sujal: so do you have someone in mind?
Anjali: actually I do
Sujal raising his eyebrow: really?
Anjali smiling: yes
Sujal: who?
Anjali: I can't tell you
Sujal now pleading: please tell me...I'll hook you guys up
Anjali: are you sure?
Sujal: yes
Anjali: fine...it's you
Sujal could not believe his ears. She was kidding she had to be kidding. It couldn't be true. His tension free face was filled with a expression of total shock. He was almost going to fall off his chair.
Anjali was looking at him intensely, he was shocked and she had achieved that goal. But he looked extra tensed she didn't want to do that. She just wanted to shock him like before but this was getting serious. She had to tell him the truth.
Anjali: Sujal
Sujal: Anjali....I don't think of you in that way...you are a great friend but I love someone else
Anjali: who?
Sujal: Kashish
Anjali: you must be joking
Sujal: no I love Kashish...and I love her a lot...I just realized....OMG I LOVE Kashish I need to tell her...I'm already married to her so I can't lose her...I won't let her go away ever....
Anjali: you are married to Kashish and you love her but she doesn't know....what is going on with you?
Sujal explains everything to her. He tells her why and for what reason they had gotten married. But now he had finally realized he loved her with no conditions. He needed her, he wanted her he would die without her. Anjali also told him she was kidding and she didn't love him. He was so excited that he got up and made her get up and they both hugged each other. Just then Kashish turned her head around and saw Sujal hugging a girl. This was nothing new but this time he looked really happy to be hugging her. He had this new glow on his face with a cute smile. He was lucky to have his dream girl but she didn't even know who his dream guy was. God, why did life had to be so damn hard. She turned her gaze back to kavya smiling faintly at him. Now sitting in front of her was kavya the guys she thought she loved at some point of her life which was a very long time back. She was rejected by him and now she had no whatsoever feelings for him. He was a guy who had always protected her form danger like any brother would. It finally hit her she never had a brother and she loved him like a brother. She was now extremely happy to have her brother back in her life. She could tell him all her problems maybe he could help her out with her situation with Sujal.
Kashish: Kavya...could I ask you something?
Kavya: sure
Kashish: I need your help with something...can you help me?
Kavya now listening to her intently: yes...tell me your problem
Kashish: I mean I'm married to Sujal and we have been married for more than six months and there has been nothing between us...I know he hates me and can't stand me...but we're married....I can't be in a relationship when I know it's not going to go anywhere...I mean by keeping this relationship do you think I'm ruining both of our lives...Should I just end it and forget it ever happened or give it a chance
Kavya thinking intensely about her problem. From what he knew Kashish was a lovely girl who deserved all the happiness in the world and he could give it to her but she didn't love him. He had to ask her who she loved. Yes, that is how he would know what move to make
Kavya: Kashish...do you love him?
Kashish stared at him with a blank expression on his face: I don't know
Kavya: do you love anyone else?
Kashish: no
Kavya: so I think you should figure out if you love him or not and see if there is a possibility that this relationship could work out
Kashish: thanks a lot...I'll do that....
Kavya: no problem
Kashish: you are a great brother....
Kavya thinking did she just call him a brother. That one word had shocked him to his core. No he had misunderstood her she probably said something else. She could not only think of her like a brother.
Kavya: what?
Kashish: I said you are a great brother....isn't it okay if I call you my brother?
Kavya not wanting to but still agrees by saying: yeah sure
Kashish: thanks you don't know how happy you have made me...I never had a brother and I'm sure you'll be a wonderful one...
Kavya: I guess
Kashish: I got to go now...I'll see ya later
Kavya: bye
She left the caf happily thinking finally she had faced her past and now she could finally move on. She had finally figured out her life but what if Sujal didn't want to give this relationship a chance. What if he wants to end it. He was the first one to talk about getting a divorce. She could only figure out if she talked to him. Yes, tonight she would talk to him hopefully he would agree. Kavya was looking at his love walk out the door. She looked so happy when he had said she should give her a relationship a chance. It was like a little girl had gotten the chocolate she had been wanting to get for a long time. She just thought of him like a brother that had hurt him but it was all his fault. If only he had not let her go five years ago. He would be the one married to her hugging her and making her laugh but now he was her brother. He had to accept the fact no matter how much it hurt him because she deserved to move on with her life. She deserved to get what she wanted. Now it wasn't him it was Sujal. He couldn't believe he had lost his chance but he had to accept it. He hated this but this was life once you lose a chance, you can never get it back.
U.C. L. A.
Kripa like usual was waiting for Angad to arrive to meet her and like usual he was late. Sometimes she felt like he took her for granted. He would always be late then bring her a gift thinking she would forgive him. It was true she would forgive him because she could never stay mad at him for a long time. They were organizing their graduation party with some of their friends. She had arranged most of the things but few details were still left and Angad was responsible for them. But like usual he would forget. He was so irresponsible, and that fact got on her nerves. She got so annoyed by so much of his habbits but those same habbits had made her fall for him. She was happy to have him because he completed her. It was like she was an unfinished puzzle without him and as soon as he came he would comeplete her. If only he came. What was taking him so long? What if he got into accident? Oh no...she should think about nice things have a positive outlook. He probaly forgot that is way better. Right then Angad showed up without any breath and was huffing and puffing like he had ran a mile or something. Kripa looked at him and laughed.
Kripa: what is wrong with you?
Angad still trying to catch up on his breath: I....was....
And then stopped talking to catch more breath
Angad: I was being chased by dogs...there were two large black dogs in the parking lot and I have been running to save my life...
Kripa laughing at the image of Angad being chased by two dogs. In her mind it was hilarious. So she started laughing out loud which annoyed Angad.
Angad: stop laughing Kripa
Kripa: but it is so funny
Angad: it's not
Kripa: it so is...you being chased by two dogs...
Angad: what you think it is funny...what if I got hurt...would you still be laughing...or what if I got killed...you would be happy
Kripa stopped laughing abruptly upon hearing Angad's harsh words. She was hurt deeply. How could he say that? She was just joking around but what he said was completely unacceptable. Kripa started to walk away with tears in her eyes. Angad knew he shouldn't have said that but what could he do now. He had said that and hurt her feelings. She was now not going to talk to her. He had not only hurt her but also himself because whenever she was hurt he was hurt too. Now he had to make it up and he knew how. He went after her and swing her in his arms by holding her back. Kripa who was still mad was trying to loosen his grip. He was screaming 'I'm sorry' while Kripa was screaming 'let me go.' Finally he let her go and hugged her tightly. At first Kripa didn't respond but then seeing he had tears in his eyes and was obviously hurt too, she gave in and hugged him back tightly. He apologized and she forgave him. This was how cute their relationship was.
Sujal and Kashish's room-
Sujal entered the room quietly because it was completely dark and Kashish was sitting on the bed with her eyes closed. He looked at her, she looked mesmerizing with only wearing a plain pink sari. She looked so beautiful and now after he had finally realized his love she looked the most beautiful women ever to be born in the world. He came near her still looking at her intently. He was now standing right by her and was bending down to kiss her forehead when Kashish opened her eyes. He moved away. Kashish saw him and got up. She looked at him and saw he looked so handsome and happy it was like had received all the happiness of the world. She thought this was the right time to talk to him.
Kashish in a very low tone: Sujal
Sujal heard his name from her mouth and sounded wonderful, and he wanted her to repeat it so he didn't respond
Kashish: Sujal
She said it again with so much love and he loved it. He wanted her to repeat it again but this wasn't right so he replied her.
Sujal: Yes Kashish
Kashish: I was wondering if I could talk to you about something
Sujal: sure
Kashish: could we talk about us?
Sujal thinking did he hear he right did she actually wanted to talk about them. What if she felt the same way as he did. Yes, it would be a dream come true. He had to talk to her.
Sujal: sure
Kashish fidgeting with her hands nervously says: I have been thinking
Sujal: yes
Kashish: forget it
Sujal with love: Come on tell me...I won't hurt you
For the first time Kashish had heard him talk to her with so much love. Was he feeling okay? But it was good she liked it. They both sat down on the sofa and Kashish started talking.
Kashish: I have been thinking about our relationship and how it has not been heading anywhere
Sujal: yeah
Kashish: well...I was thinking that what if we gave each other a chance
Sujal: sure
Kashish: I know we're not ready to be husband and wife but we could still be friends...Can't we? Because if we give each to her a chance so we might be able to be together...
Sujal: so you want to be just friends?
Kashish: well...yeah I guess...I mean I don't love you as yet but I care for you...so what if we become friends...and it's not one of my new plans... and I need to know your true opinion...
Sujal: I think It Is a great idea
Kashish: so friends...
She put her hand forward to shake it but Sujal didn't take it. Instead he got up and made her get up and hugged her tightly. She hugged him back and felt so good. It felt like it was meant to be. She felt so good on his arms. He loved hugging her, it gave him a different kind of pleasure. They hugged each other for a while then Kashish let go.
Sujal: we're friends and friends don't shake hands they hug
Kashish blushing a little bit: sure...I'll go get you dinner
Sujal: thanks
He watched her go. It was good. So what if she didn't love her as yet. He would make her fall in love with her. Because he knew she was his and he was hers forever. Their marriage was suppose to happen because it was no business deal, it was destiny. He would get her soon and will have everything. Yes, he was know just waiting to hear those three words from her and waiting to tell them too.
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