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PART 4: Blooming Friendship

"Good Morning, Doctors..I welcome you all to Sanjeevani..All the information that need to be conveyed with done so by Dr.Kirti..I am in a bit of a hurry..So I cannot stay to personally talk to you all..I just wish all of you the very best of luck for this is the stepping stone of your career..Enjoy your work and thats the key to your sucess..My prayers are always with you, children..God Bless.."..Shashank Sir ended his short talk on a good note..We clapped loudly with a smile hanging on each of our faces..I could not express the kind of feeling I was having..It was completely mixed..I looked forward to everything in the hospital but I had to stay away from my mom who would be completely alone at home if wasn't for our housemaid, Sharada aunty..She came from South India and despite her slow Hindi,she loved our family and was always there whenever mom had a tough time with two daughters..Memories flashed through and I smiled with tears beginning to flood my eye..I wiped the one lone tear and turned around taking in confidence..

Whether I dreamt it or not I dont know..But I thought he was staring at me..He here means to Armaan..The Armaan whom I had my first meeting at Sanjeevani..I found it difficult to think properly when he was around..It was like a magnetic attraction..I had to concentrate on him even when I dint want to..I pushed away my thoughts aside as Dr.Kirti came in, her face dull after the long surgery that she had been to..But the strictness in her voice remained..The kind of the authority she possessed even when she was at the verge of crashing down amazed me immediately and a warm admiration for her skills began growing within..

We followed her to her room maybe because she was tired..She gave each of us a glance as we introduced ourselves that we almost felt that we were going to be hanged the next minute..I could personally feel my admiration going down the drains..If I got such looks every morning I was sure to keep her in my hate list..Once she was done with our introduction she began the entire list of her announcements and warnings and what not..

"OK now..I need you all to pay attention to every word of mine..I am Dr.Kirti Mehra..You will all be reporting to me and one thing let me tell you..I am not an easy going person..I cannot tolerate indiscipline and being on time for anything and everything matters to me the most..I hope you all learn from the two years of learning that you will have here at Sanjeevani..Sanjeevani as you are aware of is a world wide renowned hospital with doctors from different nations coming over for surgeries..I expect each one of you to carry the pride and dignity of Sanjeevani around and I will not stand any action from your side that will affect the image and reputation of this institution.Till here are you clear?"..Her voice echoed the room..We replied a 'Yes' in unison as we impatiently awaited what she was going to tell next..

"Good..Now as you all know you all will be staying in the hostels of Sanjeevani not because we want you to have fun with people of your age and ignore your workbur for the fact that we want you to be present at times of emergency and learn the art of carrying out procedures with a cool head even under the most stressful situations..As a doctor this is a must because we may have to stand extreme tension when we have personal problems..We have two blocks..One for girls and one for boys..I hope that all of you will play your age and not give me a tough time reading complaints from the watchmen and wardens..Yes?"..She once again finished her speech with a question to which we answered another "Yes, maam"..Though I knew very well that this Yes was sarcasm from the looks on every face in the room except Dr.Kirti's..They seemed to glow with the thought of having fun without adults around..I personally was looking forward to this only because I wanted to experience it but otherwise my mom's thoughts troubled me..

Soon enough, Dr.Kirti dismissed us assigning us blocks for our first three months..Sanjeevani being the huge hospital it was had three huge blocks..Dr.Kirti ensured that each of us gets a different block every month and decided on assigning three interns per block..But since there were seven of us she stood on taking the final herself along with the odd seventh intern..That intern's bad luck..And imagine my poor state to control giggling when I saw the bubbly looking intern named Muskaan whose face had turned as if she just heard she was going to be stabbed right through her heart..actually I couldn't blame her..Dr.Kirti would ensure she worked all day and all night long..My duties for the first month were with Rahul and Atul, two friendly looking handsome men, in block A..They turned sideways and smiled at me warmly and I was happy that fun and warmth was ensured for me..Dii, Nikita and Armaan got duties together..and for some strange reason Nikita seemed to be in a dream land..

We left for our works and couldn't get much time to meet each other, I mean the interns..Rahul and Atul came upto me and smiled..

"Hey Ridhima..So chale..for the first day of the roller coaster ride", Rahul told me chuckling at his own little dialogue..

"Yeah that's true..By the way call me Ridz..My names kind of long and plus I am more comfortable with that"

"And I am atul..Atul Joshi..", saying so Atul joined the conversation..

We spent some initial moments introducing ourselves before we left for our ward..We had an entire block to look into and so we had to begin now..General Ward was our first destination..New patients entry and checkups and diagnosis..Old patients medical records to be written..Treatment plans to be updated..There was so much work and I dint realize time flying..

Before I realized it it was lunch time..All seven of us had lunch at the common canteen outside the building where I met the other two..Though Armaan was already familiar to me..We returned back to our duties and one more engrossed ourselves in our works..Time passed by and the sun had set back..We all reported once more at the end of the day giving detailed explanations of all the cases we attended to..Thankfully I dint have any emergency cases today..We all walked to the hostels and split into two when we reached the parting between the girls and boys hostel..

Completely exhausted I decided to take a shower..By the time I came back Muskaan and Nikita were fast asleep and dii was busy in a file..

"Dii..arnt you sleeping?"

"Nahi ridz..I need to finish this one up..Extremely complimented..", she replied without looking up even once..

"Dii..You catch some sleep and wake up in the morning and do na.."

"But Ridz..wahi toh problem hai..I sleep like a pig..You know I cannot ever get up early.."

"Don't worry dii..I will wake up na..I promise I will..I anyways have to go for my jogging na.."

"OH..Thanks Ridz..I love you soooo much..Muah", saying so she hugged me and kissed me lightly on my cheek..

We soon crashed into our beds..I smiled as I silently prayed thanking god for all the beautiful moments and strangely only one moment seemed to invade my mind..Before I could deeply ponder on the reason I was fast asleep..

PART 5: Out In the Open

The sun rays hit my face and my eyes opened slowly in its impact..Another day ahead..more unfamiliar faces to be met..a whole new journey..I woke up stretching my hands with a light yawn..I dint fail to remember to wake up my sister who couldn't wake up before 8 in the morning..It was just 6 now and she would have 2 hours to think over her case while I went for jogging..I woke her up with great difficulty because I had to ensure that I don't wake up the other two..Finally I succeeded in my endeavor..I brushed and put on my track suit..I ensure that my dii was working and not snoring over the files..

I told a hi to our own chacha watchman as I came out of the hostel..He was quite old and his contribution to the hospital was known all over Sanjeevani..Just as I shut the same door in front of the Ladies Hostel..I heard a similiar sound from the opposite side..I turned out to find Armaan in a track suit and surprisingly almost like mine..He looks shocked to see me..And I wondered what was so shocking in me going out for jog..

"RIdhima..You in this morning???", came his shocked voice..

"Woh jogging ke liye ja rahi hoon..", I replied totally caught off guard by his question because I was deep into thinking why a guy like him was jogging at the early hour..Working men usually enjoyed working out in the evening after work and before dinner..I knew an old friend of mine doing that..

"Well, lets jog together?", he asked me..Once again this was an irrelevant question because he was already jogging with me..But I could see what he was implying..Maybe he caught the anxiety that was so broadly written on my face..I was certainly feeling uncomfortable but it wasn't his presence that was the cayse.It was just that I failed to react normally with any guy around..I completely overdid and always tended to be over conscious of myself with them..He could see that something in me was radiating negative vibes..I faced him slightly as I continued jogging..

"Yeah sure..No problem", I replied..Despite the heavy doubt on my reactions, I dint want to disappoint him because he did seem to want to jog together..Even the fact that he bothered to check if I cared was a gesture I decided not to ignore..

We jogged across the external boundary of the park near us..It was a wonderful place at this time of the day..The lovely flowers with the tiny dew drops upon them could brighten up any ones morning..The sun that had already come out was smiling soo sweetly that the sunflowers in the garden beside danced..I smiled at the sights as I forgot about Armaan beside me..

"Kinna sona couple, haina Pammi ji", I heard an elderly aunty telling her partner..Of course by their obese bodies and their sleepy eyes I could make out that they were forced to come out in the morning to reduce the burden on their weighing scales..It was only when I realized that the couple they were talking about included me did it hit me that they had assumed Armaan and me to be a couple..I quickly glanced sidewise only to realize the deep stare he was giving me..I gulped my saliva..Something about his stare was growing on me and I dint like it one bit..I glanced away and focused my eyes on the ground as I ignored his gaze..

We jogged for another half an hour before we jogged back to the hostels in complete silence..He wished me a 'bye' and a 'See you soon' and all I could give him back was a forced smile..

PART 6: Another Day

I opened the doors of Sanjeevani with a new, fresh life welcoming another day of expectation..another day of saving lives, another day of mixed emotions..Another day of my career and another day to live my life..I was always a girl who believed in these sort of philosophies making me amongst the most boring classes of people according to my sister..She always expressed her doubt on getting me married with a good guy because I was so boring..hehe

I greeted the nurses and the wardboys with a smile..I smiled at every person I met on my way only to realize that a smile can do so much..

I reached the locker room and opened its glass door and entered it as its first occupant..I was happy that I was the first to reach..Little things like these contented me..I took out my lab coat and my stethoscope..By then Nikki and Muskaan had arrived..

"Hey Ridzii", Nikki said..

"Ridzie..Arre wah..tu toh aaj first aa gaye..very good…dr.kirti ko floor karne ka icha hai kya", Muskaan told beginning to laugh the most contagious laugh I had ever seen..

We sat down at the locker room benches..and of course what else can you expect from three girls full of zing to do except to gossip and chatter till the roof is down..We talked about our first day since yesterday after all that work we had gone to bed like loggerheads..We also talked about the hot doctors here..We put in our comments on our boy counterparts and surprisingly, we all seemed to like the boys..I personally concluded that we were a jolly good gang..Just after Atul and Rahul came in..

"Guys, did you see dii??", I asked them when I noticed that my sister still hadn't reached..

"Wahi toh..We left her when she was doing her hair..She told us that she would reach the hospital within 5 minutes", Nikki replied only to raise my worry..I dialed her mobile number in my cell and I turned back in surprise as I heard the familiar ringtone of her phone from behind me..

I saw my dii with Armaan talking deeply..I wondered what they were upto..

"Dii, where were you??I was so worried", I told her partially accusing her of keeping me in tension and the other half, maybe more than a half, was even more eager to know what she was talking so intensely with Armaan..I had reasons for my curiosity..I was the only one my sister trusted in terms of sisters and I knew that she had three crushes when she was in the medical college..I was somehow against the idea of seeing my sister with Armaan Mallik..But I was relieved with my sister's answer..

"O Gosh Ridz..you worry too much..We met outside and then you know like usual got engrossed in a conversation..We have a complicated case in hand". I glanced at Armaan and his looks confirmed that my sister was telling the truth..

"Mujhe magazine do.."

"Yeh mera hai"

"O yeah..tum itni gandi gandi bate padhte ho kya chi chi"

"Tujhe koi problem hai kya"

"Haan mujhe problem hai..kuch karoge"

"Muskaan main keh rahi hoon mujhe apne magazine doo..abhi..warna"

"warna kya…oye tum mere aas pass bhi nahi aa sakte..main Patiala ki ladki hoon.."

"aur main Patiala ka munda hoon"

"hehe..lagta toh nahi..hehe"

"Muskaan hasna band kar.."

" Nahi RAOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLL.."

"Teri toh main……….."

Every pair of eyes were on Rahul and Muskaan who were standing on either side of the bench trying to tear up a poor magazine..And just as Rahul said the last sentence he chased Muski around the locker room..We were soo stunned because we had only known each other just for a day and they were already eating each other..

By the time we girls shut the wild mouth of Muskaan and Atul and Armaan handled the raging Rahul, we received pagers that we were running late for our duties..

My duties started with the normal rounds in the ward and then I had to go for a two hour outpatient consultancy since Dr.Kirti had 3 surgeries were lined up together..Atul had taken charge of the children's ward and Rahul was in the post operation ward..When Dr.Rohit, a senior doctor came to relieve me since there were more than 20 patients left waiting outside, I took myself for coffee at the cafeteria..I ordered a sandwich along with it and chilled myself..

PART 7: Saviour

A week had gone since I joined Sanjeevani..An eventful week..Three emergencies and I also got a chance to assist Dr.Kirti in a surgery..I felt at the top of the world when it was a success..I was in charge of his post operation care and now I sit next to him having finished his file..It was 11:40 at night..I was feeling sleepy but I was too dedicated to do so..I knew he was my responsibility and that leaving him alone would be a breach to my own personality..

As I felt more and more sleepy I decided that a coffee would keep me awake..I ordered the duty nurse and left for the cafeteria when my cell phone rang..I was surprised that it was my landline number of my house..I didn't understand what my mom had experienced if she wanted to call me at this time of night when she usually would be sleeping peacefully in her bed..I hit the answer button of my touch phone..

To my extreme shock I heard my sister Anjali dii..her sniffled voice clearly indicating that she is crying..I knew nothing was good because my sister rarely cried..

"Dii?Kya hua???Aap ro kyun rahi hai??"

"Ridzie..Ridzie."

"Haan di bataao..main sun rahi hoon"

"Ridzie..woh..mom..mom.."

"MOM WHAT dii..please tell me.."

"Moms had a stroke..*sniff*..a major one..*sniff*..Please come fast.."

I dint need her to tell that..I was already rushing trying to find my way with my blurring eyesight..I dint have time to inform anyone where I was going..I just found my car outside and raced up to my house..

"DII..what happened???Wheres she???"

"Shes inside..*sniff*"

"Dii..please ro mat..Hows she now???"

"I don't know ridz..I came here with Armaan since its weekend and you had duty..When I came no one *sniff*..no one opened the door..I worried..and then Armaan broke open the door..and and we found mom on the floor..I began to cry and partially fainted..so Armaan told me to call you while he handled.."

"Where are they dii??"

"Moms bedroom"

I rushed up there..and saw Armaan giving oxygen to my mom..I went by her side and thanked god as I found her pulse normal..

"Ridz..She will get fine..Dont cry..", his voice was not the kind I had ever heard..He was always the flirty Armaan who winked at every nurse at Sanjeevani..I dint know much about his doctoral abilities since we were in two different blocks..But now I owed him so much..Owed him my life..My mom..What she was to me couldn't be expressed..Till the moment I came here I was too stunned to cry..But now emotions whirled as tears flowed endlessly..I unconsciously hugged Armaan who had placed his hand on my shoulder..He dint stop me from crying..He let me let go of all those burnings..

"Sh..Sh ridhima..she is fine..dekho..enough of crying..you cried enough.." saying so he wiped my tears off as I still looked at the ground trying to find a reason to not cry..

Moms stroke was a huge hit on me..Armaan was there all night long with us not sleeping a wink..Probably he knew even though we were doctors we dint have the emotional strength to take care of her..and I was completely obliged to him for that..

The next morning I brought tea for Armaan and dii..I tried to remain calm now that I knew mom was out of danger..Dii had taken time to recover..she wasn't used to keeping her emotions at bay like me..But now she was fine and was one phone with Dr.Kirti explaining the situation here..I went to Armaan and offered him tea which he took with a small smile flashing his dimples..

"Thank You"

"I don't think there's any use of that..This isn't needed.."

I just smiled at that..

"Waise Armaan..how come you have an oxygen cylinder and syringes and all that in hand.."

"I had these ready in my car for our camp next week..since this week we have a lot to manage.."

"Was she so badly struck that she couldn't be taken to hospital..", I managed to ask in the lowest of all voice..

"Yeah..We were just in time..I thought we were late because she dint seem to be breathing..but God dint leave us..We couldn't waste our time taking her to a hospital.."

I shut my eyes at that..I couldn't vision my mom in that state..He saw me and came close to me giving me a side hug..I thanked him for all he was doing and he returned me his smile..

PART 8 : First Sight

We were back in Sanjeevani..I wasn't willing at all..But we had to..We had a set of doctors coming from the United States Sanjeevani branch here for a seminar under the guidance of Dr.Shubhankar..We also had to organize a party for the doctors and the management team..and the interns were given the responsibility of making sure that everything is perfect..Right from food to ambiance..

My adorable gang did do half the work understanding our situation despite our million protests..But then we decided that it was unfair to keep them doing more for us..And so we got back to Sanjeevani..

Strenuous work all around Sanjeevani and mainly around the conference room..Interns going in and out..Busy guiding the ward boys on what to do..Sanjeevani was on action and everyone was excited for the amazing day..

Unluckily I had to attend a surgery that night ..I couldn't hope to get proper sleep..I brought the sari and the accessories to Sanjeevani and had it locked up in my locker so that I need to drag my legs all the way back to the hostel to get ready after my duty..

Every girl was firm on wearing saris and every boy had fixed that they would wear suits..Our first ever seminar of our internship..

It was morning 9:00 am and I had barely caught up with 1.5 hours of sleep at the sleeping room beside the locker room..I opened my eyes in horror since I knew the doctors were supposed to arrive at 10..I had to dress up and also ensure that the arrangements were all perfect..

I ran to the locker room and took my dressing stuff..I changed quickly..and just as I was waving my pallu to place it neatly across my neck and over my shoulder..the cloth that acted as a door for the changing room waved open revealing Armaa.For half a second he dint seem to understand what he was doing or even worse what he was seeing..He stood there like a stupid fool staring at me like I was something to eat..I stood shocked and a second had passed before I realized the position I was in..I quickly placed my pallu across..By then Armaan had gone..The two seconds he stood there was completely turning my face tomato red..I hadn't ever gotten more embarrassed..Never had I encountered such an incident in my whole life..I wanted to run away..but then I couldn't..what if he was standing outside..I wanted to give him time to go..I used up that time to properly place my pallu and add on the light make up I always carried in my hand bag..

When I realized that a good amount of time had gone..I walked outside..First I peeped through the parting to check if he was there..Thankfully he wasn't there and I walked back..

I tried every single way to escape Armaan's glance..And for some odd reason I seemed to see him at every corner I turned..Like when I was busy writing out a final report since the whole day I would be at the conference room and then the party, I suddenly noticed that Armaan was leaning by the wards entrance door staring at me with a grin plastered across his face..I gulped hard and ran as quickly as possible to wherever my legs could take me..The grins on Armaans face were making me feel too embarrassed..I prayed that this doesn't happen to even my own enemy..

"HELLO"

I turned around to face a smirking Armaan who was having this smile that pissed me and made me feel all the embarrassed that I already had felt..I was busy arranging the flowers in the vase on the table trying to forget the incident of the morning..and then from behind me came his teasing voice..

I blushed badly out of embarrassment and I could swear upon anyone that he told under his breath something like 'oye haye or hoye' whatever it was in a dreamy way..

"What do you want?

"Your sari.."

WHAT THE HECK???This was our first proper conversation and he wanted my whattttt????Was he out of his head???Like seriously he teases me to a great extent and still has enough guts to answer so wittingly..

"WHAT????"

"Or you would be fine"

"WHAT???"

"Yup..I want you"

"WHAT?????"

"What what??I want you that's it"

"WHAT?????"

"Arre ok fine..atleast give me your sari"

"WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT???"

And with that he burst laughing like a maniac..I dint understand what the reason was but then I realized later that my face was at its comic best..I then realized that he was just verbally teasing on todays incident..I blushed beetroot before I gave him a scowl and stomped out of the room even though I was compressing my laughter for I was feeling stupid myself..

PART 9: Its getting hot in here

The guest doctors arrived on time and created their first impression on us..We did our best and put forward our best behaviors and maintained our dignity..Thankfully Rahul and Muskaan kept a distance and dint start a chaotic fight..We had learnt that they were childhood enemies but I still dint know why they fought like two cats..

We all had a bit of difficulty coping with the fast accent of the US doctors who seemed to blurt out words at a 200km/hour speed..But later on we got used to it and were able to distinguish one word from another..

Dr.Shubhankar did was wonderful job in preparing the presentation..It went very well and everyone appreciated it..We loved Sir a lot since he was fun to be with and can easily be taken if we wanted a half day or an hour off..And so definitely we clapped loudest for him..and sitting in the first..Dr.Kirti too clapped for her adorable hubby..

We, the Sanjeevani Gang took care of the foreigners needs with utmost sincerity..We made sure that they were comfortable during their day with us..To our utmost surprise, there was a young and handsome Indian doctor among the lot..We talked to him almost torturing him with our blabbers..Hehe

The party was to take place at a posh hotel some kilometers away from Sanjeevani..I was given the responsibility to reach there beforehand and to ensure the updated guest list was given..To my utter horror Dr.Kirti asked me to go with Armaan..Anyone can imagine the diameter of my mouth when I heard that..But with Dr.Kirti you really couldn't argue much..Unless you enjoyed doing rectal exams..

All through the journey Armaan Mallik teased while I tried to fevicol my eyes onto the window..I scowled and made all sorts of guttural sounds to make him shut his teasing looks..And everytime he would gesture removing my sari and I would just open my mouth and he would be laughing till he split..

The ambience in the hotel was really beautiful and not to forgot it was almost romantic..The almost dim light was turning everyone's moods to heat..I myself blushed as the US doctors kissed their wives and girlfriends in public..Of course it was not such a huge thing back there in US..

That's when Dr.Arjun, the Indian doctor from US called me on my cell asking me to come to room number 26 since there was something urgent..Guessing there was an emergency patient to be handles I rushed..

But what awaited me was beyond my expectations..He was there looking thristy out of lust..

"Ridhima..wow..you came..dint realize you would actually come..I mean after all you seem to be a very careful girl..you know the type who would not go to any boy alone and stuff..mmmm"

He came close to me just to give me time to back off..I fumed at his thoughts..but I knew I had to escape before its late because after all I was the weaker one..

I hugged him as tightly as I could..He was my clutch..My savior..I held on to his shirt for good life..He ofcourse hugged me back probably realizing that I was crying buckets..I dint know what happened..All I know was that I had tried running away from him..just as my back got badly scratched by a nail that was hanging lone across the wall..Whether it was bleeding and screeching pain of my back or if it was my deep desire to get away, I ran as fast as my legs could and ended up hitting onto Armaan..Words evaded me and his constant questions on my situation I couldn't answer..

"Ridzi..what happened???Why are you crying"

I dint answer back..I tightened my hold on his shirt as I kept on wetting it with my never ending tears..

"RIDHIMA..what happened??AND WHY IS THERE BLOOD??..come with me now..i will take you back to sanjeevani.."

I just nodded and hung close to Armaan's hands..

"Ridz..Try stopping the blood flow..", he commanded me taking authority of my condition..

Armaan shot his car at top speed with a sobbing me sitting beside him.. He almost dragged the half dead me..I couldn't think of anything..My head had gone blank..

I was sitting in the dressing room as Armaan was busy getting out the bandage and medicine..

He swiped all my hair to my front and worked on my bruised back..

He began to talk again and this time I had calmed enough to answer him touch..Guess his touch has real magic..

"Ridz..Atleast tell now, what happened?", came his pleading voice as he continued to clean my wound..

I told him what happened with my sobs as intervals..I couldn't see his face nor did he voice his opinions..The air in the room was expressionless to me..

Just then, as I felt him put the bandaid upon my wound..I could sense strong stares behind my back..I started feeling weird then and there..I just realized that both pieces of my blouse was gone and excepting my wound my back was completely bare before him..

I started breathing heavily as I felt his hand trace my damn back..Every part of my system turned upside down when he touched me..I couldn't even turn facing him..His eyes would burst my desires out of me..

He continued to keep brushing my back till he reached my neck..My neck burned just as his touch froze me up..

He came close to my earlobe..and whispered softly with the huskiness that drove me insane..

"Why, Why do you do this to me?"

"Armaan......"

"Shhhhhhh, please don't kill me anymore.."

"Armaan please.."

He dint reply back..His lips were busy pressing my neck as I closed my eyes involuntarily taking in his intoxicating kiss..

PART 10 : Yikes..I'm so Armaan-o-fied

WT* ????What was I thinking..Considering it was me who was always my dad's little girl and my mom's cute bacha and best possible sibling to Anjie dii..HOW COULD I let a guy I knew for just 3.5 months touch me and that too with me CONSCIOUS'

No I wasn't talking about that Bas**** Arjun..I was talking of that one guy who managed to get the better off me with his touch..Heavens there I go again..All gaga at the very thought of his touch..Even now 1000000 volts of electricity rushed in my blood vessels..I wonder why they say that the world is running short of electricity and power..Just make Armaan Mallik touch those weird wiry stuff and their problem is solved..Hmphh..And to top it all I was pissed ..Pissed because I was thinking of the guy who saved me and not leaking my eye tanks thinking of the terrific incident I had just escaped..Pissed because I had fallen..Fallen for a guy..Before marriage..Till now all the so called attraction proved to be what I so fearfully worried..LOVE..Yes..I had reasoned myself just today morning that I will keep cool , understand situations before I am all stressed due to my newly found obsession..I told myself that I needed to know more about Armaan before I end up in any kind of emotional traps..But little did I know that I was already in love with this guy..There was practically no use in fighting with my own heart..My brains were fighting with my heart in the hot topic of my body : Armaan..And today after what just happened I couldn't but let my heart win..Probably that was why only the brainy and conservative part of me let go of all the crap that I just thought of..My real self was nothing less than overwhelmed..My heart was pumping blood constantly into my cheeks..His wild touch on my back was bad enough..But when his lips had made its arrival into my body cells I was practically going wild..Not wild in desires though I cannot ever deny that I don't desire him..Yet I was wild because of the frenzy his skin had put my skin into..Moreover I was wild because the kiss on my neck awakened that part of me which lay hidden: The part of me which loved Armaan blindly even before my brains accepted it..It brought about my realization that I was head over heels on him..He had captured me in every sense..Despite my promise to myself that I shall not get into any sorts of relationships before marriage Armaan Mallik..my man, had changed it coolly erasing every line that could put my thoughts aside from him..Again I'm blushing..I know he is my man : My Macho man and I still don't know how this name struck my head..

Thoughts and blushing came in and out as I switched my lights on and off , staring stupidly at the ceiling, picturing my macho man's image..I had to accept it: I was soo Armaanofied..

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just read all d parts in one go.just awesome.loved every part of dis ff.
loved hw armaan teased ridz abt the sari, sooooo AR'ish.
very well written.
continue soon n thanks 4 d pm.

Thnk u arluver4life for PM

awesome, brilliant updates. loved them.