Part # 9
Adil: Jab kaam thik se hota nahiā¦.then why do u even try it?? Ab lag gayi na chot??
Ashna: (stares at him for sum tymā¦.and then speaks up) Do u realizeā¦.ur cut is much much deeper than mine!!
At this Adil looks up and gazes deep into her eyesā¦..and their eyes lock for a whileā¦..as they both seek answers in them!! But after sumtym Ashna looks awayā¦..not being able to stand 'those' eyes anymoreā¦.which were again filled wid 'emptiness'!!
However Adil stands up abruptly from the bedā¦.and begins to leave the roomā¦.when Ashna calls from behindā¦.
Ashna: I think tumhe ek band-aid laga lena chahiyeā¦..lao mainā¦.(and she is abt to proceed towards him but he stops her wid a hand)
Adil: Main baad me kar lungaā¦..
Saying this he leaves the roomā¦.while she was standing there confused. And then her eyes fall on the photo which was brokenā¦ā¦she notices now that it was their wedding picā¦..that he was holding!!
She bends down and takes the frame in handā¦..she cud still find a piece of glass wid a droplet of his bloodā¦ā¦She kept staring at it for a whileā¦.and then she felt sum droplets of tears on the picā¦..She was crying!! But she doesn't knw wat brought those droplets in her eyes!!
Next dayā¦ā¦.at officeā¦.
Adil seems to be in a hurryā¦since morningā¦..he was being hasty in everythingā¦..It was only when he had left to fetch Rashi from the stationā¦..every1 had got an opportunity to sigh in relief!!
Howeverā¦..in the eveningā¦
Ashna: (is a lil irritated becoz she did a huge amount of work today) Mera aaj ka kaam pura huaā¦..I'm leavingā¦.tum to baad me aaoge naā¦.main car bhejā¦.
Adil: (cutting her) Excuse meā¦..u don't tell me u r leavingā¦.I am the one to tell u "U can leave"ā¦.which I'm not gonna say as of nowā¦.(giving her a file) Ye file loā¦.aur isse check karoā¦..
Ashna: Abhi karne ki kya zarurat hai? Kal aa kar kar dungiā¦waise bhi parso meeting hai naā¦.
Adil: Kal nahi hogaā¦..
Ashna: Kyun nahi hoga??
Adil: Kyunki maine kaha haiā¦ā¦now pls don't argueā¦.aur jitna kaha hai utna karoā¦..zyada waqt nahi lagegaā¦..and by then mera kaam bhi khatam ho jayegaā¦..then we can leave togetherā¦..waise bhi driver nahi haiā¦.
Ashna: Nahi hai matlab?? Kaha gaya??
Adil: Wud u pls start doing wat u r supposed doā¦..and pls sawal poochhna bandh karoā¦.mera sir dukhta haiā¦.and againā¦.tumhare saath saath mujhe bhi bahut kaam haiā¦..so will u pls?
At this Ashna gets extremely irritatedā¦.firstly she was very tired and sleepyā¦.and secondlyā¦.this was the first tym Adil had answered her bakā¦.he never really does so!! But however she leaves his cabin being perfectly angryā¦ā¦and as soon as she leavesā¦Shekhar enters his cabinā¦.
Shekhar: Isse kya hua? Aisa lag raha tha jaise Tsunami guzri mere samne seā¦..(at this Adil looks at him in a manner that says 'Shut up') Achha sorryā¦..main to kuch zaruri discuss karne aya thaā¦.
Adil: Hmmā¦.do that fastā¦..kyunki mujhe tumse ek behadh zaruri kaam haiā¦.
After a whileā¦Ashna storms in Adil's cabinā¦..and both Adil n Shekhar look up in shockā¦..
Ashna: Ye lo tumhara fileā¦..(she keeps the file on his table)
Adil: U r done wid it?
Ashna: Haanā¦.and ye bilkul perfectly kiya hai maineā¦ā¦becoz I knw my job wellā¦samjhe? So rest assuredā¦.filhaal tumhe barbaad karne ka koi plan nahi hai meraā¦ā¦..but then kehne ka kya faydaā¦.tum waise bhi isse double check karogeā¦.however that's surely not my concernā¦..mujhe bas itna bataoā¦tumhara kaam khatam hua ya nahi?
Adil: (too shocked to react properlyā¦.so just answers her question) Nahiā¦..
Ashna: Gr8!! Tum yehi baithe rahoā¦.main jaa rahi huā¦.Taxi seā¦.tumhari car tumhi ko Mubarakā¦..(and she turns to leave)
Adil: Jaa rahi ho matlab?
Ashna: Hindi samajh me nahi ati?? Jaa rahi huā¦..means I am leaving!! And this tym I am just not gonna stopā¦ā¦(murmurs to herself) Uffā¦.sir me dard ho raha haiā¦..
Adil: Achha rukoā¦.let me wind up my workā¦ā¦am coming wid uā¦.
Ashna: Maine kaha naā¦.main chali jaungiā¦huh!! (and she leaves in a huff)
Adil: Aaj isse achanak kya hua?? Aisa to kabhi nahi kartiā¦.
Shekhar: Aap khud aisa kabhi nahi karte Sirā¦.
Adil: Matlab?
Shekhar: Arre subah se tum 'bossy' behave kar rahe ho yaarā¦..saare employees aaj darr darr ke kaam kar rahe theā¦..aur itne me agar aap apni biwi ko employee ki tarah treat karogeā¦.to wo aise hi react karegi na?
Adil: Simply meaningless!! But anywaysā¦.I am leavingā¦..pls tum sab kuchā¦.
Shekhar: Yeah yeahā¦.I will do everythingā¦..
And even before he cud finishā¦..Adil storms out of his cabinā¦..and rushes to the parking lot and gets the car!! He was pretty much positive Ashna wud not hav got a taxi yetā¦.firstly becoz getting a taxiā¦.was always a tough jobā¦..and secondly becoz.....Ashna was too agitated ryt then to get a taxiā¦ā¦
As he gets to the streetā¦.he cud see Ashna walking along the right side of the roadā¦..her strides said she was too angryā¦..and Adil doubted if she had even tried to get a taxiā¦..However he takes the car by her sideā¦.being on the left sideā¦..
Adil: Get in the carā¦.
Ashna: Samajhte kya ho tum? Gulaam hu tumhari jo tumhare kehne se car me aa jaungi?
Adil: Maine aisa nahi kahaā¦.pls ye sab bachkani harkat chhoroā¦.aur car me baith jaoā¦.waise bhi tumhe koi taxi nahi milegiā¦.
Ashna: Tumhe kaise pata?? Future predict kar sakte ho kya?? Nahi naā¦.then just shut upā¦
Adil just murmurs to himself "Isse aaj hua kya hai??"
Just then a car zooms by her side in full speedā¦.and Adil's heart skips a beatā¦ā¦Being extremely angry he gets out of the carā¦..but as soon as he turns towards herā¦ā¦he finds her standing in shockā¦..becoz her saree was now all muddy!! She was having a cute angry expression on her faceā¦.which made him SMILE!! No matter how hard he triedā¦ā¦he cudnt stop that curving of his lipsā¦..and god knws howā¦.it fitted the definition of Smile!!
But however that lasted for abt a fraction of a secondā¦.and then again he had composed himselfā¦..he crossed the road and went to her in full angerā¦ā¦while she backed off a bitā¦.
Adil: Wat is all this Ashna? U never behave like that!! U r a sensible smart girl ryt? U do understand its not a very wise idea to keep standing here and w8 for a dam taxiā¦..u knw this is Indiaā¦..and getting a transport is not a piece of cake out hereā¦ā¦.u realize that wellā¦.dont u? (Ashna just makes faces at his words instead of replying) Achhaā¦.I knw tum mujhse naraz hoā¦ā¦.and I am sorry!! (Ashna just looks away at this while Adil just sighs) Pls car me jaa kar baithoā¦..ghar chalte haiā¦.phir main aapko band baaje ke sath 'sorry' bolta huā¦.thik hai? (he said getting absolutely pissed off)
Ashna: (smirks) Kis kis baat ke liye sorry bologe Mr. Adil Raichand? Aur tumhare sorry bolne se kya kya thik ho jayega?
At this Adil looks at herā¦..while she stares into his eyes in a challenging wayā¦ā¦But after sumtym it was Adil who averted his gazeā¦ā¦becoz he cudnt stand those questions and helplessness of HER eyes!! However Ashna walks towards the carā¦..and after a secondā¦.Adil gets in as wellā¦.and drives away!!
Inside the carā¦..it was perfect silence obviouslyā¦..but Adil was taking glances at her in intervalsā¦..she did look extremely exhaustedā¦..and was resting her head behind!!
Main bhi na!!ā¦..Usse sach me itna kaam ek din me karne ki adaat nahi haiā¦ā¦.she does look tiredā¦..
Uff mera sir kitna dukh raha haiā¦.dekha Papaā¦.apka Adil mujhse kitna kaam karwata haiā¦.dil kar raha haiā¦..iske sir pe zor se ek hathora maaruā¦..phir pata chalega sir dard hone se kaisa lagta haiā¦..upar se poochhta haiā¦. "aise kyun behave kar rahi ho"ā¦..huh!!
Reaching homeā¦.Ashna changes quickly and crushes on the bedā¦..she was too tired to even think of Rashiā¦ā¦.let alone meet herā¦ā¦who was bak today!!
Here Adil sits on the bedā¦.watching her as she had dug her face into the pillowā¦..to enjoy a sound sleepā¦..But as he keeps staring at her faceā¦..which was glowing in the dark roomā¦ā¦he gets lostā¦.
Madnooo
Mashukoo
Hai Dil Ko Teri Aarzoo
Par Mein tujhe na pa sakun
Hai Dil Ko Teri Justju
Par Mein tujhe na pa sakun
Main hoon Shab tu Subah
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Main hoon Lab tu dua
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madnoo re
Kai khawaab dil tujhko le kar sajaye
Par khauf yeh bhi kahin per sataye
Gar yeh bhi tute to phir hoga kya re
Mujhe raas aati hai khushiyan kahan re
Adil closes his eyes gentlyā¦..and leans bak on the head-restā¦ā¦.
Kyun dil ko dukhana bewajah Madno re
Kyun dil ko dukhana bewajah
Phir aansu bahana Ek Dafa
Phir aansu bahana Ek Dafa
There was a stint of pain in his chestā¦ā¦he had felt this pain after so longā¦ā¦but this was never meant to happenā¦ā¦.the droplets of tears that thereaten to fall from his eyesā¦..are never meant to be shedā¦..never!!
Main hoon Shab tu Subah
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Main hoon Lab tu dua
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madnoo re
Haan tera saaaya to mein hoon
Par sang tere na reh sakhun
Haan Iss safar mein to mein hoon
Par sang tere na ruk sakun
No matter watā¦.he cudnt be wid herā¦..he was never meant to accompany herā¦ā¦.all he cud do was to be right thereā¦.yet away from her!!
Main hoon Shab tu Subah
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Main hoon Lab tu dua
Dono Jud Ke Juda
Madnoo
Mashukoo
Dilbaro
Madnoo re
[Movie: LAMHAA]
After a while Adil opens his eyesā¦.and looks outsideā¦ā¦it was almost dawnā¦ā¦the sun was abt to riseā¦..and the day was abt to beginā¦..He gets up from the bed and spares a glance towards Ashna who was asleep till then. Wid sum thoughts playing over his mindā¦.he averts his gaze away from herā¦..and leaves the room.
At abt 8:30 in the morningā¦.Ashna wakes upā¦.and thinks that she is already late for officeā¦.and now Adil is gonna shower her wid his lectures!! Howeverā¦..she goes out of the roomā¦.to find sum arrangements being done. And thenā¦..she comes to knw that there is going to be a 'puja' for Mr. Raichand's death anniversary.
Ohā¦.tab to aaj office nahi jana haiā¦ā¦ (after a thought) kya wo isliye kal itna zor de raha tha? Hmmā¦yehi reason hogaā¦.lekin wo mujhe bata sakta tha naā¦..agar bata deta to aaj itni der tak nahi so rahi hotiā¦.aur naa hiā¦.kal se usse itna curse kartiā¦ā¦
Just then Ashna notices Rashiā¦and realizes she is bakā¦..and she also understands why Adil was so eager to bring her bak by yesterday!!
Rashi: Hello Bhabhiā¦
Ashna: (smiles) Gud to see you bakā¦.kal shyam ko ayi?
Rashi: Nahiā¦.dopahar koā¦.AB hi to gaye the pick karne!!
Ashna: Ohā¦actually kal main kuch zyada hi busy thiā¦..maine dhyan nahi diya hogaā¦.
After sumtymā¦.all is set for the 'puja' but Adil is still not here. So Ashna keeps looking at the doorway to see if he is comingā¦..but there was no sign of himā¦..Later on Rashi notices her looking at the entrance in intervalsā¦.
Rashi: Kya hua Bhabhi? Aap bahar kya dekh rahi hai?
Ashna: Woā¦puja ka waqt ho raha hai naā¦.Adil nahi aya?
Rashi: Bhabhiā¦.AB kabhi iss puja me shaamil nahi hoteā¦.Dadi ko pasand nahi hai naā¦..(she gives a sad smile while Ashna is shocked) Chaliyeā¦hum chalte haiā¦.
So finally Adil doesn't come for the 'puja'ā¦ā¦nor does he return home the whole day!! Ashna was really confusedā¦.and a bit worried as wellā¦..becoz he wasn't answering calls too. Finally Ashna goes to Rashiā¦.
Ashna: Rashiā¦.Adil kab tak lautega pata hai?
Rashi: AB to waise bhi der se ate hai na Bhabhiā¦.
Ashna: Haanā¦.lekin tab to wo office me hota haiā¦.aaj to office nahi gayaā¦.abhi tak nahi ayaā¦..itni der se kaha hoga?
Rashi: Don't worry Bhabhiā¦.wo thik hongeā¦.har saal aisa hi hota haiā¦..he will be bakā¦.aaj ke din to Mom bhi unka w8 karte karte so jati haiā¦..But AB gets bak really lateā¦..wo aaj kisise baat bhi nahi karte haiā¦..he spends this day wid himself only!! Aap bhi tension mat lijiye Bhabhiā¦..kyunki w8 karne ka koi fayda nahi hogaā¦..
Ashna: Lekin aisa kyun hai Rashi? Adil apne hi father ke 'barsi' par nahi haiā¦ā¦Dadi usse jitna bhi gussa hoā¦.ye haq kaise chin sakhti hai wo? Adil ka haq banta hai iss puja me shaamil honaā¦hai na? To phir kyun?
Rashi: Iss 'kyun' ka jawab maine bhi kayi saal dhunda hai Bhabhiā¦..par koi fayda nahi huaā¦.AB iss bare me bilkul baat nahi karteā¦ā¦aur Dadi to bas ek hi baat liye baithi haiā¦.
Ashna: Kaunsi baat?
Rashi: Wo Papa ke accident k liye AB ko zimmedaar manti haiā¦ā¦actually as far as I knwā¦..AB ko bachate hue Papa ki accident hui thiā¦..to ussi wajah se Dadiā¦..AB se baat nahi kartiā¦..aur unse itni kati kati rehti haiā¦ā¦Papa Dadi ke ek laute bete the naā¦..shayad isliye wo aaj tak uss dhakke se bahar nahi ayi haiā¦.
Ashna: Lekin ye to ghalat hai naā¦.Adil ke saathā¦.!!
Rashi: AB ki to baat hi mat kijiye Bhabhiā¦..unhe iss bare me kuch kahu to kehte haiā¦.. "Agar Dadi ko mujhse yu khafa rehna achha lagta haiā¦ā¦agar unhe isse shanti milti haiā¦..to aisa hi sahi"ā¦..I just don't understand his pointā¦ā¦.in fact unki kuch baatein main kabhi samajh nahi patiā¦..
Ashna: (lost in her thoughts) Main to uski koi bhi baat samajh nahi patiā¦.
Rashi: Kya?
Ashna: Nahiā¦.kuch nahi!! Tum kuch keh rahi thi na?
Rashi: Basā¦yehi ki AB ko ek hadh ke baad samajhna mumkin nahi hotaā¦..lekin chahe job hi hoā¦..mujhe itna yakeen hai wo jo bhi kar rahe haiā¦.jo bhi karengeā¦.wo hamesha sahi hogaā¦ā¦so I just let it beā¦.. (Ashna just smiles at her words) Aap bhi pareshan mat hoiye Bhabhiā¦...aap jaa kar so jaiyeā¦.u look tiredā¦.
Ashna: Tired main nahiā¦.tum hoā¦.isliye tum so jaoā¦.main chalti huā¦.(Rashi nods her head and Ashna stands upā¦.but taking a few steps ahead she turns bak again) Rashiā¦.u r sure naā¦.wo thik hoga?
Rashi: (smiles at her concern) Jee Bhabhiā¦.sab thik hi hogaā¦.har saal AB aisa hi karte haiā¦.tension wali baat nahi haiā¦.
Ashna: Okayā¦..then tum so jaoā¦ā¦gud night!!
But no matter watā¦.Ashna was a lil worriedā¦.the fact that he was away since morningā¦.and none knew where he wasā¦ā¦.didnt really please her much!! Yet there was nothing she cud doā¦..so she tried to get sum sleepā¦..though slightest sound wud wake her upā¦.anticipating Adil was bak!!
Here Adil was sitting inside a 'mandir'ā¦ā¦he was leaning bak on a pillarā¦stretching out one leg to the frontā¦ā¦.while drawing the other leg closer to himselfā¦ā¦to rest his arm on the knee!! He just closes his eyes a bitā¦.and that's when the priest calls himā¦
Priest: Betaā¦..phir aaj ke din der se lautoge?
Adil just manages a small smileā¦ā¦and getting the ans the priest leaves. And now Adil turns his gaze towards the skyā¦ā¦.staring at it wud make him feel much closer to his 'baba'ā¦ā¦that's why whenever he is confused or tensedā¦..he tends to stare at the sky. This might not help him to take decisionsā¦.but this wud definitely soothe his weary self!!
Kitna waqt guzar gaya hai Babaā¦ā¦..kehne ko kitna kuch badal gaya haiā¦..lekin phir bhi kuch nahi badlaā¦ā¦itne saalon se main kuch nahi kar paya. Log kehte haiā¦.mujhe haarna nahi ataā¦ā¦par jeet bhi kaha naseeb hui hai mujhe? In fact kabhi kabhi to har taraf haar hoti haiā¦..ā¦.sirf haarā¦..
And Adil looks down at his palmā¦ā¦.closely observing the lines drawn on itā¦ā¦and trying to make out wat it held for him. But as usual there was no ans for himā¦.and he slowly formed a fistā¦ā¦defining his helplessness!!
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Edited by sumaiya wahid - 14 years ago
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