FantsySeries(complete)-I(SK),II(AK),III(AR),IV(MG) - Page 20

Originally posted by: spvd

nice part dear.....................AR haven't met yet..................cont soon dear.............

Originally posted by: spvd

the story is really interesting and also different dear..thanks😊 thts what i was aiming for.........AR finally meet.the first two chapters were a bit like introductory.. who they are and why they are the way they are. and armaan is saved ridhhima from the thugs.oh he is going to be her knight in shining armor😆😆😉😉😉.......wonder what the touch shock meant..ah it means they have a connection, although what and why will be revealed later on... after all i have to maintain some mystery heheee........cont soon dear.........

Originally posted by: moonlight2630

hey meggs after a long time sorry for late reply now a days i m busy yaar..hey i understand.. i know what being busy means.. its just tht when i got only one comment i tought no one was reading at all.. but i am glad u r still around. now i know tht even if u dont comment atleats u r readiing and trus me thts enough😊

but as usual gr8 going i enjoyed every update.thankyouuuuuuu😃😃😃😃😳😳😳 i really like arman character.really? gooddy!!😃 especially he love fighting .sorry all the action novels do tht to me... and he don't want to show his weakness .uh huh he has PRIDE.. he just doesnt know what this emotion is called. he always hide his weakness to everyone coz when he was in heaven he was considered inferior by all other warriors, so he never showed them any reason to mock or bully him, same in prison same in agency... its habit part of his personality now. he saved ridhima in such a bad condition he is real fighter .oh yeah😆😆😆😆 i dont want ppl to think of him as a bloodthirsty psychopath... and i can't understand touch thing y they felt strange i hope u describe later.oh yes i will. its the part of the mystery of this story. and yes there is a particular reason for them feeling like this i really like the way u meet AR it's so natural as always u r the best truly amazing i like ridhima's character too ..thankyu so much for the compliment dear😃😃😃😃😃😃😃

it's lit bit different from previous stories.i know, but i really like this one i really like to read ur FF ur update made my days..well then my next UD will be dedicated specially to u promise😃 .thank u soooooo much 4 this amazing updates . .and thankYOU for the lovely encouraging comment, i really needed it

Originally posted by: sumaiya wahid

Hey Meghna....sorry dear am late...its ok .. atleast i know now u r here😊but firstly I must say....the story is again very interesting.....thankyou😃😃I am wondering how on earth u manage to write such wonderful engaging stories.hee well its not tht difficult. i start with profession.. whta i charectr to be or with some scene which i want to include... rest i just build around it..lol.. i never have astory when i start writing..just some scenen or dialogues i want to write...pretty clumsy i know but it works.😉......the characterizations r very interesting.i am glad u like them. i didnt watch dmg, o i dont know what thier real char are like ....and the AR meet was very nicely one as well. And of course....ur brilliant writing style just adds to it.....superb dear!!.thanks for the compliment... i really needed it.. since no one was commenting.. i didnt even know if these part or story is interesting..thnakyou so much for the comment😃😃😃😃 Loving the thoughts.....pls continue soon.....sure by tomorrow i'll post 2-3 parts together..and thnz for PMing me!! Keep doing that dear!!.sure😊 😉

Dedicated to moonlight

CHAPTER 4

Sloth.

Ridhima… I liked the sound of it as I lay on the comfortable sofa in the animal doctor's house. I haven't had such a nice place to sleep in…months? The prison was ok, but it was lumpy… and the agency was a small cot I hardly fit fully on it… but this…. Gods… I groaned shifting to an even more comfortable position. I had never know this much pleasure could be derived from such a small thing as this. I closed my eyes and felt sleep overtake but I made a promise to myself b4 sleeping. I need to thank her more properly… I need to thank Ridhima properly.

I twisted and turned unable to fall asleep and the fact that I couldn't sleep made all the more anxious and awake. Stupid stupid! There were no other words to explain my behavior tonight. What was I thinking I wasn't thinking at all!!!
First I get out f taxi to walk home after dark. Then I bring a complete stranger home whose name I don't even know!!

And as if that's all wasn't enough, my flighty brain didn't stop me from touching him….. I felt a shivering tremor go up my spine as I remembered what had happened… it was so oddly familiar to what I used to feel when I used my magic. Yet it was different somehow. I felt everything leave me, pieces of my heart, my soul, my emotions, my aura..Everything… they left me.. This was familiar… but then I all came back!!! Only it was his!!! This had never happened!!

I touched my hand and stared at in the dark wondering if it was natural or special. Would this happen if I touched another human with concern too? Or was it just this man… and why did I let him sleep here!!

I sat up in my bed, getting up I carefully walked out the door down to the hall where he slept. I didn't want to see him.. ofcoure not! That would be so silly! I was just checking up on him. What if he was stealing at my house…

I saw a heap on the sofa raising and falling rhythmically. So he was sleeping.. Then why the hell am I still moving towards him?!I forced myself to stop walking to him. I don't know why I had let him sleep here. I don't know why I felt when I touched him, but I did know one thing. I can't do this again. I can't even talk to him again. Who knows what stupid thing I may say next?

I crept back as quietly as possible to y bedroom and once more settled myself. I didn't want to admit this, but I was certainly feeling calmer after seeing him sleeping peacefully. I hated to admit this. But I wouldn't run away from truth. If I could face the truth then only I can avoid it. If seeing him sleeping makes me calm tonight. Then I am never going to see him again, coz I can't rely on anyone to calm me down, to sooth my emotions.. Armaan…no something's I just cannot wish…

I woke up feeling warm and protected. Protected?!! Me?!!

The thought gave me enough incentive to become full conscious in a second. That's the way I always wake up and not feeling warm or cold or anything..

As soon as I looked around though I forgave my emotions a little. The clean walls of the room greeted me along with her fading fragrance.. She had been here not more than 30 mins ago. Her scent still lingered in the air.

And what was she doing here? My training and experience told me to be cautious.. People sneaking around when you're asleep is dangerous. But my instinct refused to believe her the enemy. And something else… something that has been bothering me with strange emotions ever since I came to earth. It almost contracted painfully inside me over even the thought of her being wrong.

I thought of shaking my head to clear it. But it won't help. So I focused on my surroundings, took in the details of the room. It was a luxurious room with good looking (probably expensive) furniture, yet it was somehow bare. I picked up my bedding and neatly folded it back when I saw a note.

Ridhima had left me note before leaving. She had gone to wherever she treated sick animals. She had left some food for m- food?

I left the note half read and walked into the kitchen and ate everything which was left cooked. I ate a few fruits out of her cold box..fridge.. too. She won't mind.. no, no.. She let me stay here.. Most definitely she won't mind.

After the hearty meal I cleaned up the dishes and the table and continued to reading her note.

He had left some food for outside and I was welcomed to eat anything else I wanted from the fridge see, I knew it!! I munched an apple happily and read further.

If you want to rest some then you can do so. When you leave, leave through the front door and close it after u. its self locking and I have the keys. Thankyou once more for yesterday- Ridhima.

P.S. I left some clothes by the sofa that should fit you. It's cold these days. You can use the bathroom near the kitchen.

Leave? I stopped and frowned. I wasn't supposed to stay till she returned? Shouldn't farewell be given in person?

Feeling low I threw away the apple core in trash and saw it was already full. Well least I could do is take out her trash… After all I had thought of thanking her properly too. As she had made me more food I'll do whatever little I can around her house…

Ridhima came home with half an hour of sunlight to spare. Unconsciously I had hurried, so I wanted to see if he had stolen something or not. I don't have to justify for my coming home early.

I thought with firm resolution, but some small part of me knew I was lying and hiding. Well I was going to ignore this little small part of me then!

I walked in and took an inventory. Everything seemed to be present except him. And that's the way I want it too. Liar.

A second voice popped up in my head. I guess the little me wasn't going to be simply ignored.

I looked around just to be sure of what all was present or absent. And found that not all was undisturbed. He had taken out trash manly... cleaned the dishes manners…. Watered my garden and raked the dead leaves from a single plant in my backyard, pulled out some wild weeds too. Intrusive!... Oh he just likes gardening maybe. He had even cleaned the bathroom he had used… sparkly clean, hmm he's even better than the cleaners.

I closed the bathroom door and went up to my room to get changed. Whatever he had done.. Maybe he did it out of gratitude, like I had made him extra food and given him more clothes. This was enough now. So this was over now. I would never meet him again… or try to meet him again…yeah sure

I snorted over the stupid things I was contemplating. I was just shaken up by the incident otherwise I would never feel any inclination for looking up a stranger. Yes, just shaken up. I convinced myself and got ready for bed.

The thick wool jacket was warm and I was happy. Ridhima had been very generous in my opinion for giving me these clothes. The woolen pants were comfortable and the long overcoat jacket had kept me warm the entire night. Yet it felt wrong to take her gift and use it like this. If I could get some work then I could sleep in a cleaner place and not dirty myself. If I could get some work.

Working and cleaning at her house had made me realized something. I learn quick. I can learn any work quick. So why was I still a bum, a full day after leaving her alone?

'Insubordination….u just can't take an order'… My friend's voice rang in my ears. His presence was the only thing I missed down here at earth. A dear friend, he always told me that I didn't do get under orders. Losing the job at agency… maybe he was right..

I sat down on a cobbled stone and stared out at the fishing docks. It was still morning and the blue water glittered in the sun making it seem less cold than it really was. So if I can't take order from someone, I need to be the superior. But then I am not a leader either. I don't like sitting around and managing, while others go out and get the action. Then I was a lone….wolf?

The analogy made me smile look about myself. If a lone wolf can exist with grace then why can't I? I was good a fighting.. I was good at adapting… I was also good at manual labor. The thought hit me when I saw couple of fishermen hauling fishes off their boats onto the docks…

Grinning widely now I got up and walked towards my potential employer.

3 hrs later my hands were scraped red from cold and fish scales, my face felt frozen in the cold wind and I had money in my pocket. Waving goodbye with a promise of meeting tomorrow I walked away. I finally found something I could do. Maybe there were other jobs like this too. How could I have not come up with an idea like this earlier now?

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I check up on all the animals in clinic the first thing when I go to work. Today too I did the same yet something kept bothering me.. Armaan kept bothering…

It's been 3 days since he saved me…. yet…. No human had ever stayed on my mind this long, managed to bother me this much… maybe it's because of what I felt… I contemplated while checking up on a dog.

The dog had surgery here last week and he was beautifully healed now. I checked all his vitals and handed him over to his owner.

"Thankyou so much doctor… you don't know how close he is to all our family people… my daughter wouldn't…." the owner started speaking and I immediately tuned him out. No one who didn't care for their pets would bring them here. Then why did they all insist on telling me how beloved the pet was? Search me…

"…thankyou so much doctor…"The man repeated after 5 mins and extended his hand. I switched my attention back to him and nodded in acknowledgement. And pointed to my gloved hands that I couldn't shake. He smiled nodding eagerly

I don't like shaking bare hands… I wear a glove and use it as an excuse. I always do this. Yet today I was taking of my glove and extending my hand to the man. My heart beat was rapidly speeding up in anticipation. Slight tremble ran down my spine… Will I feel it again?

A warm had clasped my cold one and shake vigorously. Except for some warmth and sweat I didn't feel anything… Nothing…. Dammn you Armaan!!

I huffed away in anger to the wash room. I needed to center myself. I have been too unstable since I met this guy. Just coz I reacted to him doesn't mean I would react with anyone else. I stared at my sweaty face in the mirror and splashed it with cold water. I don't need to react with anyone! I reminded myself sternly.

But my heart ached and my skin crawled wanting to feel it again. Craving to feel it again. Reminding me of the time I used to feel it so often. The time I was taken to heaven for that feeling.

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CHAPTER 5

Part I

Avarice

Heaven…. It feels so close to heaven whenever I go to mountains… The bumpy road under my car reminded me of the earth… But the vast sky and deep valley always makes me feel so close to heaven. I closed my eye for the shortest second to store away this memory of cold wind blowing my face and feeling so happy.

Life had been good this last year. My dear brother Angad had earned much success from his new company, I was the head surgeon at the hospital now. Things couldn't be better.

I sighed happily and continued driving uphill to the resort where my brother was throwing a party. His company's success was being celebrated and I was going to be the last guest to arrive probably. I stepped a bit more on the accelerator and checked my make up for the last time. Just around the bend, suddenly lights flashed in front of me and I lost my vision for a split second. A second long enough for me to lose control and ram head first into the car in front of me. Only the other driver was quicker and served to take the impact at his side rather than front. I braked hard, sending my own car into a screeching spinning halt. But all our maneuvers were in vain. The side of the car in front of me was heavily damaged, the driver's side. My seat belt had stopped me from splattering against the windshield. And my body…. I could already feel the tissue healing which had been sprained by the impact.

Without bothering about my own injuries I hurried out of my car, only the damm door wouldn't open. Unable to do anything else I crawled out of the window and ran to the other car.

When I didn't get any closer to the car wreck I knew my feet had stilled. I tried to make them work, move forward to the horror, but it wasn't my blood that was rushing out of my head and I was only hyperventilating. Blood..So much blood..

I could see the man slumped against the wheel blood oozing out from everywhere. Broken glass glistening on his shiny blood and a big piece of metal poking out of his back.

Death I knew when it was near, and this was worse. He wasn't dead yet, he was bleeding to death, in front of me, because of me. Hot tears scalded down my cheek and I had difficulty standing on my own two trembling feet.

Never had I killed a being…. My whole existence was to save whatever, whoever I can. And today I had done the unthinkable…

A slight familiar tremble of the sinking sun made me look up, 5 minutes to complete dark and this man would die in probably next 5 minutes… Not if I do nothing about it. I bunched my hands into fists and started to get the man out of the vehicle. He wasn't going to die. Not on my watch. So what if I just had 5 minutes? I I'll make each damn second count!

I ripped away his tattered shirt and placed my hand, palm down over his heart. Generally I heal the injury and then work on the heart. But right now I had too little time, his heart was failing. A healed body and failed heart makes you dead at last. Finally knowing what to do, calmed me out of the shock, into concentration for the task ahead. I closed my eyes, gathered my life force and thrust it all at once towards his flailing heart.

It stuttered and then stopped, I was scared to even breath, but then it started again, beating faintly, sluggishly, trying to catch up to my heart. It only means that he was accepting my magic. I moved my hands over his chest and then worked on pulling back the hurt.

That's the way my healing worked. I gave them my life force and they gave me their hurt cells and bodies. My body repaired it and sends it back to them. Only this was so much more dangerous…. The pain I felt in the backlash almost made me faint, but I held on to the sound of that weak heart and again pushed. I didn't have much to give. The sun was almost gone. He was soo weak… It would be so much easier to give up and not push myself to death with him… No! I'll save him! Even if I die today! It was my carelessness, my sin that he's near death. Then I shall be the one to take the punishment too. I'll be the one to take his death.

I looked up to see the sinking sun. I had 5 mins to exchange our fates… With a deep breath I touched my lips to the man's lips and willed my life to him. I pressed my hand over his heart and willed my heart to be his… I pushed everything inside me into him and gave myself those 5 min to live.

"Dr. Ridhima!!"

I looked up with a jerk and saw my secretary standing in front f me. She had been here for a while, the while I had been reliving that horrid afternoon 10 yrs back.

"What is it?" I asked, glad my voice didn't waver as my insides still quivered with the memory.

"The X-rays you requested are here. Dr. are you alright?" she asked again, showing unnecessary concern.

"I am fine, just thinking about the case. Thankyou for the reports."

My secretary turned around to leave and walked out slowly, I could see her hesitation in every step. She didn't believe I was alright. And I would never share the shaming incident with anyone. Even Angad.

My trying to save the man and passing out from the effort is all I told Angad. I never told him I saw the place he so much coveted. I never told him, heaven didn't hold as much joy as he though it did.

When my eyes had opened once again I had known instinctively I was at a place unknown. My body didn't feel the drag of earth.. Everything was light, springy and bursting with joy and hope. I immediately distrusted the place. It would be easy to lose oneself in such a place. I didn't want to lose myself. I slowly sat up and saw that I was lying down on a small stage. People were seated all around me like was something to be observed. I looked more closely and something about the figures told me they weren't human. Humans don't look so perfect. Humans don't glow with golden aura, humans don't have wind blowing to keep hair out of their faces. One closest to me spoke in a voice that chilled a part of me with fear and made another part soar with pleasure.

"Daughter of angel. Do you understand why you are here?" as soon as the question was asked, I knew I was not on earth I was in heaven, a place in heaven where they judged guilty souls and I also knew I was here for saving that man.

So he is saved… then it doesn't matter that I am here.

I smiled at the realization and nodded. But I shouldn't have smiled. Instantly I felt their anger although nothing had changed in anyone' appearance. But I knew they were angry at me for saving him.

"He is saved. He lives. My mistake would have taken his life he is saved. What wrong have I done?" I asked feeling confident of my case. Yet my voice came out meek and trembling, asking for forgiveness when I didn't even know my crimes.

The chill inside me grew, the human part me was afraid, being in heaven and not on earth means death, and that scared the human me. But the heavenly half of me was brimming with joy as if it had returned home. I was agreeing more with my human self.

"No. he is not saved. You didn't right any wrong. You tried to go against almighty's will when you healed him. He was destined to leave earth and you tried to stop him."

"But it was an accident! I-"

"Silence mortal! Not every human dies of old age. If the god wills someone to him, then the soul finds a way to depart. You don't question the methods. You accept them."

But what of my sin? My sin of taking a life?

I wanted to ask but was too afraid to ask

"You're sin wasn't in taking his life. You sin was greed. Your sin was pride. To hold him back. To you use your pitiable strength to hold him back."

I didn't think I could have been more afraid. But a place where even my thoughts weren't mine, was a place I didn't want to be at.

"You have sinned and you have been judged now thou shalt be punished…."

It was the last thing I heard before my body knew that I was safely back on earth. Back at the accident scene, back inside my car. The stranger was nowhere in sight and my heart thundering at my broken ribs. I tried to move to make sure that man wasn't there. For I would heal him again if I could. But I couldn't move. The smallest movement made my heart pinch ad drew a gasp from me. My chest felt as if it would collapse I coughed blood and my ribs hurt even more. I knew what my punishment was then. I had lost my ability to heal.

I had quit my job and been a recluse for 2 years but Angad persuaded me out of it. But not everything healed in me with that time. With my ability lost, I too felt lost. Lost without knowing what the person next to me is feeling, if he/ she is healthy, if I could cure their cough, or pain just by sitting next to them…. I lost it and I lost me.

They had taken a part of me. And now Armaan had given me taste of that lost part. I thought I knew how much I wanted that part. But I wasn't even close before, I craved it… What all I would do…. Just anything just to feel it even once again…And now I shall give my everything to resist that temptation…

Should I return this coat to her now? It would be a good excuse to see her again. I contemplated while sitting near the docks…

It's been a week since I had met Ridhima and yet it felt longer than and it just didn't make sense for my wanting to see her again or missing her this much…

I was waiting for the fishers to return so we could haul them to carts. Then I would go to my second job and then to my third, but her thoughts would never leave me. Why? I wish to hell I knew the answer.

I got up and starting walking towards the incoming boats, wondering if I could ask someone what I was feeling… All these feelings, so new to me…

The first boat reached the dock and there was more commotion than usual. I rushed to them now and saw they were hauling a very big fish from the boat.. It was almost my size!!

Moment later I realized it wasn't my size but slightly smaller. I also realized it wasn't a fish but a drowned human. I cut into the circle of fishermen to saw they have caught up a girl in their net. She wasn't dead I could tell. But she was near it. I looked around and found everyone arguing. What's to argue? Why isn't anyone helping her?

I didn't wait to understand, I tuned them out and bent forward to help the girl. She was cold and barely breathing. I started rubbing her hands in effort to make her conscious. I pulled my coat over her to guard her from the chilly wind.

"Step away from her man.. It might become a police case. She tried suicide, it's a crime. You don't want getting involved in it." a man pulled my shoulder and made me hear what he was saying.

"We won't need the police if she lives, would we?" I asked biting back anger. How stupid can some get? How could some mild threat prevent you from saving a life?

"They are already on their way, we called form the boat. We had too… we don't want no funny business here." Another man answered. Suddenly they looked at me as if ii was the one who had pushed the girl into the water. Humans!!

I shook my head exasperated and tried to wake up the girl. She looked less bluer now. I rubbed her face and shook her shoulder.

"Miss!! Wake up!! Can you hear me? Wake up!!" I tried harder. Although I hat e to admit it but even I wanted out of her before police showed up. I rejoiced when I saw movement under her eyes. I picked her up in my arms and spoke to everyone in a hurry.

"If police comes, then tell them she recovered and left. Maybe she just fell into the water…." I started walking away before they could stop me again. I took her to a small Chinese restaurant nearby. It was where I worked my second job. Unlike the fishermen the restaurant owners were more helpful and they helped the girl as soon as they saw me. About and our later we had had warm under the wraps and fully conscious.

They told me I should have taken her to a hospital.. Well I don't know what to do after taking her there…

She looked at me angrily as if I really had pushed her into the water to drown. Humans!!! I seriously don't know how many times in a day I was saying this now.. Maybe a gazillion..

"Why did you save me?" she asked as soon as her voice was back.

Well technically I didn't, she was already alive when I found her.

"Suicide is a punishable crime. I don't want anyone going to jail." I tried quoting the law. Lame.. So lame.

"I can't if I am dead can I?!!" she balled her fist, no doubt waning to hit me. I had ruined her perfect plan

"And you think jail is the worst place to be at? How about hell? You go there if you commit suicide." atleast that's what the people at agency believed.

"Hell couldn't be worse than what I am suffering right now." She said put out, as if reminded of something so bad that it took away all her will, drained her of all her energy.

But hell was subject I know about. Only subject I am surefooted about.

"Miss were you raped? Molested? Beaten? Eaten by a cannibal?" I asked her seriously.

"No…" she asked looking highly confused as I if had asked was the sky blue?

"Do you know what it feels to go through even one of those things?"

"I have somewhat an idea.. Is there a point to this Mr.?"

"Well imagine feeling 10 times of that idea and compare whatever you were going through to it. Hell is ten times or more that idea miss. Are you sure it is better than what you were going through?" I asked, maybe no one had ever told her how truly horrifying hell was. Even this was watered down version.

"It… you don't know how I feel ok? It doesn't matter which is worst, coz I don't feel anything!! I have felt so much pain that everything else is numb and I don't care anymore about what happens to me now. If hell is more pain I am not sure I would feel it."

I wanted to say humans out loud this time. I really didn't have the patience for them. I had tried reason, but she was just too stubborn to listen. I reached out for her hand and pinched it hard.

The girl yelped so loud that she brought the owners back in the room, "Not very pain resistant are you?"

She simply glared at me, "It's not the same thing. Soul can't feel physical pain."

"How do you know that? And whatever has hurt u.. I am sure it wasn't physical, since you admit to never being beaten. Yet you claim you have never been hurt more badly. What do you think is hurting then? Your lungs?"

She tried to glare and look angry but her frown ruined the effect. Finally sanity prevails…

"It's not the same… It's…. I… Look I just… Uggghhh!!! You are so annoying!!!" she clenched her fists again. Now atleast she would think before jumping again.

"And then have you seen everything? Done everything? To give up the wonder of it?" And you don't have to thank me either..

"What?" she asked looking confused.

I have to say she was one human with most expressive face. It was even beautiful if you go by human definition. Human beauty isn't comparable to god beauty.

"I take it you were hurt enough. Nothing holds your interest as you referred to being as numb. You say you can't be hurt more. All I am saying is that are you can't be sure of it. What if something can make you feel hurt or happy again? You haven't tried everything have you?"

"I am sure there isn't anything that could-"

"sushi roll have u tried it ever?"

"No. but that's-"

"Wait here", I rushed out to get one for her. I will make her see reason. Guess I am getting stubborn too. So what if I am not fighting anymore. I'll save what and who I can.

I gave it her and asked her to taste it. Looked apprehensive at first, but got down to eating it. She finished it before she realized and smiled unknowingly. Nice smile too, why did she want to die?

"You are smiling." I told her evenly, not in way to rub salt on her wounds.

"It would be the first in a very long time.. I… Thank you I guess. I was wrong in some things." She admitted. And then said "you haven't been in love, have you? Ever had you heartbroken? It feels like end of the world. Makes you want to end everything."

"Love?" I had heard the word often enough, but I didn't understand it. Maybe she could help me… Females on earth were generally more talkative about feelings.. Especially if they weren't their own.

"What do you call it when you feel like seeing a person? Wanting to meet them again?"

"Crush, infatuation, liking…? I don't know… depends to what degree you feel it. if you just think about them in general then like, if you meet them again and can't help staring at them, feeling embarrassed in front of them, if it more than liking, then I guess a crush… infatuation is somewhat equivalent… depends on person to person definition…. And love.. When I know that you can't live without a person. When you feel dead when that person is not around, that is love."

I like Ridhima then. Good.

"So you were in love. And now that person isn't with you. Feeling dead is serious. Why don't you change everything. Do things to make you feel alive again. Since dying is a bad option. Try and see what makes you feel?"

"If something can make me feel then my love was not true"

Oh what now?! Is there a true liking too?

"Well if it wasn't, then isn't that a good thing? You won't be feeling dead anymore.."

"It is but in a sense it's like I cheated myself and the man I thought I loved. It makes his leaving me justifiable."

I shook my head and gave up. Humans as it were difficult. Human woman were another level all together.

"Well I'll leave you to think find out if it was true or not. Or whether it being untrue was a good thing or not. I have to leave now" before my head explodes..

I stood up and turned to leave, when she stopped me with an unusual request.

"Whoever you fall for would be very lucky you know… atleast tell me your name. I'll know who to curse or bless in near future.", she smiled now. True smile.

I shrugged, not much what she aid made sense, and I was already fallen. Where else, what more could I fall for," Armaan… and I hope you go easy on the curses…"

"Armaan very apt…. And thank you once again.", she smiled again and I left feeling more confused yet somewhat clearer.

I wanted to see Ridhima coz I liked her… but was true liking and what if she didn't like me back… Would I too do stupid thing like the woman if my emotion wasn't returned? How could things that weren't even tangible be so complicated?