Like a River - Mayur FF part 4 - page 13 - Page 6

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Part 3

If I say I was upset, I'm trivialising what I felt. Maybe I dint realise it all along but she was an integral part of my life, no, she was more. She had found a place deep in my heart and I had not really paid much attention to it. It dint really matter when she was around me all the time, my Nupur. But, when she left, I felt a pain akin to somebody tearing a part of my heart. Is it normal to feel that way about your co-star leaving the show? I tried to find my answers, but I was not really succeeding. I kept feeling worse by the day. I hated to be around anyone on the sets. It was odd for me, even people who were once friends felt like complete strangers to me. When I looked around at the sets the first time without her, I felt an insane urge to break things, strangle someone or simply break down and cry. It was an intense feeling of passion fueled by an indescribable feeling that seemed to have taken over my heart. It was pain, I can swear it was pain. I acted out scenes that had varun missing Isha. I acted them out with all my heart, all I had to do was think of Nupur and I could cry with no effort, no glycerin, nothing at all. I was lost without her. She was so important to my happiness and here I was crying for her like a lover. Wait a minute, did I say lover? Oh yeah, I was talking about Varun. Varun loved Isha from the bottom of his heart. Did Mayank love Nupur too.. What was I thinking,. I tried to control my emotions..

she left me behind, thats all I can say, she left me pining for her.

The River bends..

We spoke often, we knew what was happening in each other's lives. We mentioned casually how we missed the other. Nupur, come back ..was probably my favourite line to her, but I often wondered what she really thought about me. I dont know why it mattered to me so much but I wanted to know what she thought about me, did she miss me. Mayank sharma was officially loosing it and the sole reason was the stunningly gorgeous, graceful and lovely Nupur Bhushan. I sighed deeply, I told myself I was not in love with her, ofcourse not, it was just the whole situation, losing a wonderful friend that had made me so upset? she was still my friend though, I hadnt really lost her. I cursed myself for thinking of nothing but her in all my waking moments. Needless to say my dreams were of her as well, Varun and Isha were replaced by Mayank and Nupur in my dreams. She went out of town with some common friends and I couldn't go because I was working, it made me miserable beyond normal comprehension. I was not in the mood to be the happy go lucky guy who people turned to in times of trouble any more. I dint really care much about anyone as I felt no one really cared for me. The only person who did was not with me.

You know what the strange part was? As time went by I thought the pain would reduce, I 'll fall back into a pattern, but nothing of the sort happened. As much as i talked to her, I Continued to miss her. I still dont know if its Varun who missed Isha or Mayank who missed Nupur. For if it was Mayank missing Nupur, it dint even make much sense, as I was talking to her, meeting her occassionally in parties of common friends. So, I Came to this utterly stupid conclusion that Varun missed Isha. Incase you are wondering about how a fictional character was missing another, I have no answers, it was easier to accept that than the true state of my totally messed up heart.

I began getting disinterested in my work, I hated being at work, I hated doing the monotonous scenes. The only ones I really connected to were the scenes were I was thinking about Isha, my Isha.. when will she come back I wondered idly ever so often. It was not very rare for character that supposedly died on screen to be brought back by the makers, out of sheer desperation to save their shows. Even though I was part of it, I hated the show, I hated the creatives of the show. Luckily for me, the show was doing badly, the viewers missed their Varsh/Mayur...I missed them too, I missed them more than the viewers . Ok, I know I sound crazy now and there is really no competition, yet I wanted to be the one to miss her more, more than anyone else. I Was getting possessive. Always a bad sign. Its Isha.. I chanted on a regular basis, its Isha I missed, not Nupur. Who was I kidding? Myself obviously, still I was adamant I wont accept the truth.

The river flows swifter..

Then it happened, I was offered a stage show with Nupur, we accepted it happily. You see, people loved to see us together, here was an opportunity to make the viewers happy. No, I'm not talking about us, it was all for the viewers. I think I should mention how much I love my fans, I really do, they make me want to be a part of this industry like nothing ever does. As I was meeting her for the rehearsals I was excited and happy. Then things got better and better, I heard she was coming back, the creatives had no option but to fall in line with the business requirements of the higher authorities, the channel and all. She was coming back, aah my happiness knew no bounds. I was dancing around in joy quite literally. Mayank sharma, I chided myself, you sound very shallow, your happiness seems to depend on one person and the person is just your co-star. I silenced my conscience as I danced happily with her (All in the rehearsals of course) and twirled her around to my heart's content. She was laughing gayily as well. She seemed very happy that she was coming back. My heart was doing unbelievable number of flips that I made no attempt to hide from her.

We were back to being great co-stars, dont call us friends for I'm her lover, I mean husband (oh I mean, in the show) ..I mean, how does it matter, we are Varun and Isha..so yeah she is back in my life, to share food, to do crazy stuff, to flirt with, to have some fun and ofcourse to share the love..