Aziyat...Sujal&Kashish FF...Last Part...10/06 - Page 60

A month had passed by..and it was the morning of Sujal's birthday..Kashish was sat in her lounge silently..as she closed her eyes..wishing him silently..when she picked up her phone calling Sia..

Sia: Hello Kashish...kaisi ho tum?

Kashish: main thik hoon...tum kaisi ho...

Sia: main theek hoon Kashish..kya baat hai aaj tumne subah subah muje yaad kiya...sab theek haina?

Kashish: kya tum aur Rohan mere ghar abhi ke abhi aa sakte ho..

Sia: sab theek haina Kashish..tum is tarah achanak hume kyun bula rahi ho

Kashish: sia sawal mat karo...ple aa jao..

Sia: theek hai hum abhi aarahe hain..

Sia cuts the call and tells Rohan that Kashish has called them..he gets worried and then helps her up..as they sit in the car and he drives off to Kashish's house..they arrive within 20 minutes and ring the door bell..Kashish opens the door and sees them stood at the door..

Rohan: Kashish..sab theek haina?,,tum theek to ho..

Kashish: hmm...main thik hoon...tum dono andar to aao..

They look at each other and then follow her inside..a little confused at what has happened..but they were relieved that she is fine..they take a seat as Rohan helps Sia settle down..they were more calm now..

Sia: kya baat hai Kashish..ab batao ke tumne hume yahan kyun bulaya hai

Kashish: bas aise hi aaj bahot akela lag raha tha to tumhe bulaya...woh aaj...aaj Sujal ka birthday hai..

Rohan and Sia look at her and then understand how she was feeling..

Sia: ohh..aaj Sujal ka birthday hai...

Rohan: tabhi tumne hume yahan pe bulaya hai..lekin tum karna kya chahti ho

Kashish: kuch bhi to nahi...birthday to unka celebrate kiya ja saktta hai jo saath me ho..

Rohan: Kashish...tum aisa kyun soch rahi ho...hum haina tumhare saath...agar tum uska birthday celebrate karna chahti ho to hum tumhara saath denge..

Kashish: woh yaha nahi to celebration ka kya matlab..

Sia: Kashish tum kyun khud ke saath aisa karti ho..jab tumhe pata hai ke tumhe dard ke siwa kuch nahin milega

Kashish: tumhe aisa lagta hai ki muje dard milega lekin sach to yeh hai ki aaj muje koi dard hi nahi ho raha ...shayad isi liye ki meri beti mere saath hai aur main janti hoon woh hamesha mere saath rahegi..

Sia: to phir tum kyun aaj bhi takleef me ho..kyun nahin bhool pa rahi tum Sujal se judi har baat ko...

Kashish: kaise bhul sakti hoon us insaan ko jiski waje se aaj muje meri beti mili hai...haa main manti hoon ki Sujal ne kabhi meri koi kadar nahi ki lekin main janti hoon meri beti muje samjegi...woh janegi ki main kya hoon...maine kyun Sujal se pyaar kiya...kyun hum alag huye...aur janti ho woh yeh sab kyun samaj payegi...kyunki woh mere andar rehke sab kuch dekh rahi hai...sab kuch mehsus kar rahi hai...sab kuch sun rahi hai...use pata hai ki uski maa use kaise is duniya me lanewali hai...aur tum keh rahi ko main us insaan ko bhul jau jiski waje se muje jine ki nayi raah mili ho..pata hai Sia aaj main akelapan kyun mehsus kar rahi hoon...kyunki Sujal ka ek sapna hai ki uski koi beti ho...jo khushi Maahi use dena chahti thi woh aaj main use de rahi hoon lekin phir bhi dekho na...main use bata bhi to nahi sakti ki hum dono ke pyaar ke naam mere andar ek beti saans le rahi hai...kash woh hamare is pyaar ki nishani ki khushi bat sakta...

Sia: tumhara dard..tumhari takleef...sab tumhari kahi gayi in baaton se saaf saaf bayaan horahi hai...phir bhi...jisse tumhe khushi mille tum wahin karo...waise tumne Sujal ko wish kiya?

Kashish: nahi...himmat nahi hai...ek bar kiya tha lekin kuch bol nahi payi..

Sia: Kashish..aisa kaise chalega...acha baat nahin karsakti..to kamsekam tum Daima ke saath message to chod sakti ho uske liye

Kashish: hmm...haa main itna to kar hi sakti hoon..

Rohan: to phone lo..aur call karlo Daima ko..tumhe bhi acha lagega...

Rohan passes her his phone as she looks at it for a moment...she hesitantly dials the house number and waits for an answer..her heart stopped beating for a moment..as she heard Sujal answer the phone..

Sujal; hello

Kashish couldnt speak a word as she heards his voice.. Sujal stayed on the line for a moment..waiting for somebody to answer...and then stopped..realising it will be Kashish again..he waited for a few minutes..and then became frustrated as she didnt say anything...

Sujal: Kashish...agar tumhe mujse baat nahin karni..to tum phone mat kiya karo..

He places the receiver down..cutting the call..frustrated as he closed his eyes to calm himself down..

Sia: Kashish...kuch bolo to sahi...

Kashish: usne phone kat diya..

Sia looks at her and then realises it must have been Sujal that answered the phone...

Rohan: Kashish tumne usse baat kyun nahin ki..aur Sujal ne phone kyun kaata..kuch kaha usne?

Kashish: yahi ki aage se main use phone na karoon..

Rohan: kya...Sujal ne..aisa kaha..woh aisa kaise kehsakta hai..samaj nahin aaraha ke aakhir ho kya raha hai...Kashish..tum phone laao main usse baat karunga...woh aisa kaise karsakta hai tumhare saath

Kashish: maine to apne pati ke ghar pe phone kiya tha lekin muje nahi pata tha ki mere pati ke roop me muje koi ajnabee jawab dega...aur ajnabee se kaise koi rishta rakha ja sakta hai...aaj se main khud ...main khud mere aur Sujal ke beech ke sare rishte ko khatam karti hoon...aaj ke bad na main kisi ki beti hoon nahi behen...na kisi ki bahu na kisi ki patni...kyunki yeh sab log jinke saath mera koi rishta tha woh muje chod ke ja chuke hai...aaj se main sirf aur sirf meri beti ki maa hoon...mujse koi nahi chin sakta meri beti...uska baap bhi nahi...main kabhi meri beti pe uska saaya bhi nahi padne dungi...Sujal se ab hum maa beti ka koi vasta nahi...koi rishta nahi...

Kashish held onto her head as she felt dizzy..her eyes turned hazy..closing slowly as tears ran down her cheeks..Rohan and Sia looked at her..there eyes growing wide..

Sia: Kashish!!..Kashish...kya hua Kashish...

Rohan quickly rushed to her as he held her before she collapsed..patting her cheek..bringing her back to consciousness..but she wasn't reacting..

Rohan: Sia..Kashish ko kya hua..yeh kuch bol kyun nahin rahi

Sia: muje kuch nahi pata...lekin iska in halat me is tarah hona thik nahi...Rohan...hume Kashish ko hospital lejana hoga...chalo Rohan..

Rohan: haan Sia..chalo..

Rohan lifts Kashish in his arms heading out in a hurry...whilst Sia carefully followed..he lay her in the back..and then they quickly drove off..heading to the hospital

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Sia and Rohan rushed Kashish into the hospital and called out for the doctors who instantly took her into the operation theatre..Rohan made Sia settle down and held her hand..settling down beside her...an hour had gone by of them waiting..when the doctor walked out..Rohan stood up looking at the doctor...

Rohan: doctor..kya hua..Kashish theek to haina?

Doctor: I am really sorry...lekin hum uske bache ko nahi bacha sake...kya aap inke pati hai...

Rohan and Sia were in shock..they couldn't believe what they were hearing..Rohan stood there..frozen at the spot..Rohan was too shocked to even reply..as Sia started to cry..he shook his head in a no..

Rohan: n..nahin mein...uska dost...doctor yeh kaise hogaya...woh bas behosh hogayi..kuch hua bhi nahin...achanak aisa kaise hosakta hai

Doctor: I am sorry lekin aap jab unhe yaha laye to use koi gehra sadma laga hai...abhi tak use hosh bhi nahi aaya...its better ki aap unke husband ko yaha pe bula sake...kyunki unki halat thodi serious hai...

Sia gets up and holds onto Rohan's arm..sobbing..not being able to believe that Kashish lost her only hope of living..how would she face this when she found out the truth...she would be in complete shock..and not be able to bear it...

Sia; Rohan hum..hum kya karenge..yeh baat Kashish ko kaise batayenge..woh nahin seh payegi..is baar to shayad hum bhi usse sambhal nahin paayenge..kya karen hum Rohan..

Rohan: hume Sujal ko khabar karni hogi is bare me..

Sia: lekin...hum Sujal ko kya kahenge..woh to yeh bhi nahin jaantha ke Kashish pregnant thi...

Rohan: use samajna hoga aur aana bhi hoga Kashish ke pass...tum baat karke dekho...pata nahi main gusse me kya kuch keh dunga..

Sia: nahin tum rehne do..main..main usse phone karti hoon...

Sia takes her phone..going aside as she dials Sujal's number..Sujal hears his mobile ringing..and answers the call..

Sujal: hello..

Sia: Sujal...main Sia bol rahi hoon...aur please phone mat kat dena...kuch batana hai tumhe...ple muje samajne ki koshish karna..

Sujal: kya baat karni hai Sia..main sun raha hoon...

Sia: Kashish ko tumhari zaroorat hai...kya tum aa sakte ho uske pass...

Sujal: Kashish ko meri zaroorat hai?...kyun aisa kya hua...aur usse meri zaroorat hai to usne muje phone kyun nahin kiya..kyun woh baar baar phone karke kaat deti hai jab baat karni hi nahin hoti usse..

Sia: use tumhari zaroorat hai kyunki woh aaj zindagi aur maut ke beech lad rahi hai...usne apna bacha khoya hai...woh coma me ja chuki hai...aur use tumhare pyaar ki zaroorat hai..

Sujal stood up in shock...his eyes grew wide as he tried to register what was being said..everything she said was slowly registering into his mind..he was in complete shock...

Sujal: kya!! yeh tum...tum kya kehrahi ho Sia..Kashish pregnant thi..aur kissi ne mujse kuch kaha nahin..aur bacha usne kho diya..aisa kaise hosakta hai

Sia: haa...Kashish pragnant thi us raat ko leke jo tumne aur usne saath me gujari thi...usne tumse yeh baat chupayi kyunki use darr tha ki tum uski beti ko bhi alag kar donge lekin aaj tumne use aisa kya keh diya ki tumne aaj phir se uska bacha bhi chin liya...kyun kiya tumne aisa Sujal ...kya Kashish se tum pyaar nahi karte...kya use tum maff nahi kar sakte...

Sujal: usne mujse itna bada sach chupaya...muje phirse dhoka diya..aur tum mujse pooch rahi ho ke kya main usse maaf karsakta hoon? Sia..tum jaanti bhi ho..ke yeh kitni badi baat thi jo usne mujse chupayi..maine apne bache ko kho diya...us bache ko..jiska muje pata bhi nahin tha ke woh is duniya me hai bhi ya nahin...

Sia; bacha to tumne usi din kho diya tha jis din tumne Kashish ko apni zindagi se nikal diya...tumhara us bache pe koi hakk tha hi nahi...woh sirf kashish ka tha jiski waje se woh jee rahi thi lekin aaj woh waje bhi nahi to kya tum ab uske jine ki waje nahi ban sakte..

Sujal: itna sab hone ke baad tum mujse yeh umeed kaise karsakti ho Sia..tum nahin jaanti Sia ke maine kya khoya hai...aur us bache pe mera poora haq tha...aur muje uske baare me jaan ne ka bhi..Kashish ko yeh baat mujse nahin chupani chahiye thi...

Sia; ab jo ho gaya woh ho gaya...tum apna bacha kho chuke ho kya tum apni patni bhi khona chahte ho..

Sujal: kya woh muje kuch samajti hai? agar aisa hota na Sia..to woh muje humare bache ke baare me batati...muje yun andhere me woh nahin rahti

Sia: you know what Sujal...tum kabhi Kashish ko samaj hi nahi paye ...usne aaj tak jo kuch bhi kiya hai woh tumhari aur sirf tumhari khushi ke liye hi to kiya hai...kya kuch nahi saha usne tumhare liye...aaj tumhari waje se uska bacha bhi chin gaya...lekin tum pareshan mat ho abhi bhi main aur Rohan uske saath hai aur hum use kuch nahi hone denge...aur agar kuch ho bhi gaya to ab hum tumhe kuch nahi kahenge kyunki tumhare liye to tumhari ek hi patni thi Maahi jo tumhe chodke chali gayi hai...Kashish to sirf ek khilona hai jo istemal hone ke bad fek diya ...ab main tumse kehti hoon kabhi bhi mudke Kashish ki zindagi ki aur dekhna bhi mat...suna tumne...aaj ke bad Kashish ke aas pass bhi mat aana...aaj ke bad hum tumhare liye ajnabee ban gaye...

Sia cuts the phone in anger..Sujal silently listemed to her words..not saying anything and then cut the call...sitting down on the sofa...he was in a dilemma of what to do...whilst Rohan calmed Sia down...too much emotional stress was not good for her either...they both hoped that everything would be ok...

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After the phonecall conversation..Sujal was pacing in his room..running his hand through his hair in frustration..so much had happened and he couldn't get his head around anything...it was all so sudden..he was mad..frustrated..she hide such a big thing from him..and now he lost his baby too..he settled on the edge of his bed..his hands folded together..as he thought about his life at present..when Daima walked into his room..to see him in this state...

Daima: kya hua...kiska phone tha...

Sujal looked up at Daima..and then back down...

Sujal: Sia ka phone tha...aaj phir..aapki beti ne muje dhoka diya...binna yeh soche ke mujpar kya guzregi...phirse sab kuch khatam hogaya...

Daima: kya hua...Sia ne kya kaha...teri kuch kashish se baat huyi...aur tu bar bar yeh kyun sochta hai ki Kashish ne tuje dhoka diya hai...kabhi to uske dard ko samajne ki koshish kar tu...tu uska pati hai..

Sujal looks at Daima and laughs...

Sujal: Kashish ka pati? main? Daima kya aap ko sach me lagta hai ke woh muje apna pati maanti hai..nahin Daima..agar aisa hota to woh mujse kabhi bhi itni badi baat nahin chupati...woh phirse wahin kar rahi hai jo woh humesha se karti aayi hai..

Daima: kya kiya hai ab Kashish ne?...tu muje kuch batayega...pehle bata to sahi ki ab usne kaun si galti ki hai..

Sujal: aap jaanti hain...woh pregnant thi..aur usne muje batana zaroori nahin samja..aur ab..ab woh bacha..mera bacha is duniya me nahin raha...Kashish ki wajah se aaj mera bacha mujhse door hogaya..woh bacha jiska na hi to muje pata tha..aur na hi main dekh paaya..

Daima: KYAAA...Kashish maa banne wali thi aur yeh baat usne hume nahi batayi...per kyun beta...aur yeh kya abhi abhi pata chala bache ke bare me aur tum keh rahe ho ki woh...woh is duniya me nahi raha...

Sujal: main nahin jaanta ke aisa kya hua...lekin haan..itna jaanta hoon..ke ab mera bacha is duniya me nahin raha..Kashish hospital me hai...aaj subah usne phone kiya tha..lekin ek lafz tak nahin kaha usne...maine kehdiya..ke agar baat nahin karni to phone karne ki bhi koi zaroorat nahin hai...kab tak main yeh sahun Daima..aap hi bataiye..aur ab aap samaj gayi na..ke main kis dhoke ki baat kar raha hoon...usne hume batana theek nahin samja...jab ke hume jaan ne ka poora haq tha

Daima: Sujal...Kashish...Kashish hospital me hai...woh thik to haina...kahi usne kuch galat to nahi kiya...bolona Sujal...woh thik to hai...

Sujal: nahin jaanta main..kuch nahin jaanta..Sia ne sirf itna kaha hai ke..uski haalat bohat critical hai..muje samaj me nahin aaraha Daima ke..main kya karun..

Daima: tumhe abhi bhi samaj me nahi aa raha..tumhe is waqt Kashish ke pass jana chahiye...use tumhari zaroorat hai...woh waha zindagi aur maut ke beech me lad rahi hai aur tum yaha pe bethe apne bache ke liye ro rahe ho jiska pata tumhe aaj chala hai lekin Kashish ka kya...woh tumhari dost hai...tumhari patni hai...jise tumhari ...tumhare pyaar ki zaroorat hai...tumhe uske pass hona chahiye..

Sujal: itna sab kuch hone ke baad bhi aap yeh kehrahi hain Daima? main maanta hoon ke woh meri dost hai..maine usse shaadi ki..lekin usne badle me kya kiya kya aap nahin jaanti..usne har baar mere bharose ko toda hai...pehle mujse yeh baat chupa kar ke woh mujse pyar karti thi...aur phir yeh baat chupa kar ke pregnant hai..main kis kis galti ko nazar andaaz karun Daima?

Daima: usne tumse yeh baat chupayi ki woh tumse pyaar karti thi kyunki us waqt tum uske behen ke pati the...usne tumse yeh baat chupayi ki woh tumhare bache ki maa bannewali hai kyunki tumhi ne use kaha tha na ki yeh sirf ek galti hai jiske liye tum sharminda ho to woh kyun tumhe tumhare bache ke bare me batati...kya tumne kabhi use patni hone ka hakk diya hai..

Sujal just looks at her lost for words...as he thought over her words...

Sujal: Daima..haq to mera bhi banta tha..yeh jaan ne ke liye..ke woh maa banne waali hai..maine chahe usse galti kaha ho..humare bache ko to maine kabhi bhi ek galti nahin maana Daima..aur main aisa kabhi kar bhi nahin sakta..to phir usne itni badi baat kaise mujse chupayi

Daima: kya pata usne aisa kyun kiya...yeh to Kashish se milne ke bad hi pata chalega ...aur tumhare sawal ka jawab tumhe milega lekin Kashish ko kis hakk se tum yeh sawaal karoge...tumhari patni hone ke nate ki tumhare bache ki maa hone ke nate jo bacha abhi is duniya me nahi...

Sujal: Daima..baat to ek hi haina...kyunki woh meri patni bhi hai..aur mere us bache ki maa..jisse maine kho diya..aap jaanti hain Daima..usne mujse yeh baat kyun chupayi..usse lagta tha ke main uske bache ko usse durr kardunga...kya main itna bura hoon Daima..kya main aisa kabhi karsakta hoon

Daima: lekin uska darr bhi to jayaz hai...kyunki tumhari hi waje se to uske sare rishte usse durr hote gaye...pehle Maahi ...phir uske dad...phir uska pyaar...aur aaj tumse baat karne ke bad usne apna bacha bhi kho diya...kya tumhe nahi lagta ki Kashish ne aaj tak sirf khoya hai yeh baat jante huye ki tumpe uska sabse pehle hakk banta hai...Maahi se bhi pehle..

Sujal looks at her confused..not able to understand her words...

Sujal: Maahi se bhi pehle..Daima aap yeh kya kehrahi hain..mujpe sabse pehle...Maahi ka haq hai..aur humesha rahega bhi..meri pehli patni hone ke naate..

Daima: tum galat ho Sujal...Maahi tumhari dusri patni hai...aur Kashish tumhari pehli patni...kyunki Maahi ke saath shaadi ke waqt sari rasme tumne Kashish ke saath pehle nibhayi ...tumhe yaad hai tumhare haath se sindoor sabse pehle Kashish ki mang me saja tha ...aur is ghar me...is ghar me bhi pehle usne shub kadam pade the Shaadi ke bad to kya tumhe kuch bhi yaad nahi...yaad karo Sujal woh her ek rasme...

Sujal thought back to his wedding with Maahi..picturising it all...remembering how the sindoor filled her maang first..and how he saw her face before Maahi's..when tying the mangalsutr..he remembered her taking each step alongside Maahi when they went around the sacred fire...she took the first step with him when they came home..and her footprints marked the entrance before Maahi's...he turned blank..a sudden shock overcoming him..how could he not think of that before..it had always..always been Kashish..who was meant for him..and he didn't even know...he married Kashish in the form of Maahi..and thats why she could never move on..he couldn't believe this..he sat there shocked..as tears fell from his eyes...

Sujal; Daima...yeh...yeh maine kya kardiya,,,

Daima: tumhare saath na rehne ke bad bhi usne to Patni hone ke har farz ko ada kiya hai...yaha tak ki puri zindagi tumhare naam ke saath to kya use ab uska hakk nahi milna chahiye...Sujal woh pehle hi bahot kuch kho chuki hai ab use uska pyaar lauta do...jine ki chah lauta do...India jao uske pass...use wapas is ghar me le aao...apni zindagi me le aao...

Sujal: main...main usse waapis launga Daima..apni zindagi me waapis..maine bohat galtiyaan ki hain Daima..meri wajah se Kashish...bohat kuch kho chukki hai woh..sab meri galti hai Daima..meri galti..maine uske saath bohat bura kiya Daima..lekin phir bhi usne kuch nahin kaha..meri har baat ko maanti rahi woh..mujse kabhi koi sawaal nahin kiya..yeh nahin poocha ke maine aisa kyun kiya...samaj nahin aaraha Daima..ke main uska saamna kaise karun...

Daima: muje meri beti pe pura bharosha hai...woh tujse kabhi naraz ho hi nahi sakti...woh dekhna tumhara haath tham ke tumhare saath chali aayegi...

Sujal: main..main abhi airport jaata hoon Daima..shayad emergency flight mil jayegi..aap apna khayal rakhna,..main aapko wahan pohanchne ke baad phone karunga..aur Daima..please...aap dua karna..ke...Kashish...meri Kashish ko kuch na ho..

He looks at Daima..as he wipes his ttears..and then picks up his wallet and keys..rushing out from there...driving towards the airport..

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7 hours later...Sia and Rohan were still at the hospital..waiting for Kashish to gain consciousness..but nothing of that sort happened..doctors were still in and out..checking on her...as she was in a critical condition..Sia was still in tears..whilst Rohan tried to relax her...

Rohan: Sia..please...sab kuch theek hojayega..tum please pareshaan mat ho...i think muje tumhe ghar lejaana chahiye...tumhara is haalat me rona theek nahin hai

Sia; main Kashish ko chod ke kahi nahi janewali...uska hamare alawa yaha pe aur kaun hai...use hamari zaroorat hai...

Rohan: to phir..chalo..rona band karo..aur yahan pe beth jao...Kashish ko bilkul bhi acha nahin lagega..agar usne tumhe is haalath me dekha liya to Sia..uska dard hum aur nahin badha sakte hmm...

She nods her head..lowering her eyes..as Rohan wiped her tears and hugged her..whilst she rested her head on his chest relaxing..as she held on to him..calming down now..when she suddenly moved back..in surprise..Rohan looked down at her and followed her gaze..both shocked to see Sujal stood there...Sujal looked at them..and rushed to them...

Sujal: Rohan..Sia..kuch..kuch pata chala...kaisi hai Kashish? doctors ne kya kaha...

Rohan: abhi bhi use hosh nahi aaya...woh abhi bhi behosh hai...doctors use check kar rahe hai...keh rahe hai shayad use kal tak hosh aa jaye warna woh ...woh coma me ja sakti hai..

Sujal: kya!...nahin...aisa nahin ho sakta...kashish ko kuch nahin hosakta...main usse milna chahta hoon

Sia: koi zaroorat nahi tumhe Kashish se milne ki...kya dekhna chahte ho woh zinda hai ki mar gayi...ab use tumhari koi zaroorat nahi kyunki tumhe uski zaroorat nahi...

Sujal: Sia main jaanta hoon ke main kitna galat tha...maine Kashish ke saath bohat galat kiya hai..par ab muje meri har galti ka ehsaas ho chuka hai...

Sia: ehsaas bhi kab hua jab woh apna sabkuch kho chuki hai...kya in pichle kuch mahino me tumne ek bar bhi janne ki koshish ki woh kaha hai kaisi hai ...nahi Sujal tumne ek bar bhi yeh janne ki koshish nahi ki...lekin usne...usne tumhare her ek pal ki zarooriyat ko samja...lekin badle me use kya mila...kuch bhi nahi...ek bacha mila tha woh bhi aaj tumhari waje se usse durr ho gaya...tumhe pata bhi hai woh kitni khush thi apni beti ko leke...haa Sujal ...woh ek beti ko janam denewali thi...use lagta tha ki uski beti uske sabse jyada kareeb hogi...use samjegi lekin aakhir kar woh beti bhi tumhari thi na...isi liye use chod ke chali gayi...tum log kabhi Kashish ke bare me nahi sochonge na...

Sujal was in tears as he lowered his eyes joining his hands infront of them..

Sujal: jaanta hoon ke maine paap kiya hai..aisa paap ke jisse shayad Kashish bhi kabhi maaf na kar paaye...jitna main uska gunahgaar hoon..utna hi tum dono ka..jaanta hoon ke tum dono ke liye Kashishki kya ehmiyat hai..kitna pyar hai tum dono ke dil me uske liye..maine kabhi bhi Kashish ko koi khushi nahin di..na hi uska saath diya..lekin tum dono ne humesha uska saath diya hai...tum dono sahi mayne me uska pariwar ho...isliye sabse pehle muje maafi bhi tum dono se mangni chahiye...

Sia: maafi denewale hum kaun hote hai Sujal...tumhe maff karne ha hakk sirf aur sirf Kashish ka hai...jis din woh tumhe maff kar degi us din hum dono bhi tumhe maff kar denge lekin kya tumhe kabhi ehsaas nahi hua ki Kashish tumse kitna pyar karti hai...kya tumhe kabhi uska pyaar dikhai nahi diya...

Sujal: dikhayi diya Sia...aur maine uska pyar...aur uski gehrai ko mehsoos bhi kiya...par main kabhi is baat ko maan na hi nahin chahta tha..yeh soch kar ke main Maahi ko dhoka deraha hoon...par dhoka to maine Kashish ko diya hai...anjaane me hi sahi par mujse bohat badi galti hogayi

Rohan: aur her galti ko sudharne ke liye bhi ek mauka diya jata hai...aur main Kashish se baat karunga ki woh yeh ek mauka tumhe bhi de lekin meri ek shart hai...

Sujal: kaisi shart Rohan...main Kashish ke liye kuch bhi karne ko taiyaar hoon

Rohan: agar aaj Kashish tumhe maff nahi karti to aaj ke bad kabhi dubara mud ke Kashish ki zindagi ki aur dekhoge bhi nahi...bolo manzoor hai meri yeh shart..

Sujal: Rohan...main...main aisi shart kaise maan sakta hoon...uske binna ab main aur nahin ji sakta Rohan...please Rohan...samajne ki koshish karo...muje uski zaroorat hai...main uske binna...bohat akela hoon

Rohan: aur itne saal woh tumhari hoke bhi akeli rahi uska kya...nahi Sujal...ab bas wahi hoga jo Kashish chahegi...agar woh tumhare saath rehna chahti hai to haa reh sakti hai...aur nahi rehna chahti to nahi sahi...

Sujal looks at Rohan...not knowing what to say..

Sujal: shayad tum theek kehrahe ho Rohan..Kashish ne bohat kuch saha hai..aur meri galti maafi ke layak nahin hai...maine dard hi to diya hai usse humesha...muje tumhari shart manzoor hai..ab aakhri faisla Kashish ka hoga

Rohan: shayad tum thik keh rahe ho ab bas Kashish ka hosh me aane ka intzaar karna hai hume...

Sujal: nahin karunga Sia...thanks..main..main usse dekh ke aata hoon...

He wipes his tears away...taking steady steps towards the OT...he stood at the door a minute...taking a deep breath...and then stepped inside...

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Sujal walks inside the ICU where he sees Kashish laying there still...her face covered with a mask..as she took steady breaths...she lay there unaware of her surroundings..when Sujal walked in...tears running down his cheeks seeing her in that way...he felt so helpless...so guilty...it was all because of him...he settled down next to her..slowly moving his hand towards her tummy wanting to feel his child when he stops his hand and takes her hand in his...holding it softly between his...as he rested his forehead against her hand..crying...

Sujal: i'm sorry...i'm sorry Kashish...please ...please muje maaf kardo...main pehle hi hamari beti ko kho chuka hoon ab main tumhe nahi khona chahta Kashish...main sab ke bina reh sakta hoon lekin tumhare bigar ,,tumhare bigar nahi reh sakta..Kashish muje tumhari zaroorat hai..please laut aao Kashish...please Kashish aankhein kholo na...main wake me tumhare pass hoon..ek bar aankhein khol ke meri aur dekho to sahi...please Kashish muje maaf kardo...I am really Sorry...

Kashish slowly opens her eyes as she heard his voice not wanting to see his face... Sujal feels her fingers slightly move in his hold and looks up at her..surprised...and happy...that she reacted...he looked at her...placing his palm on her cheek...

Sujal: Kashish..tumhe hosh agaya...Kashish main jaanta tha tumhe kuch nahin hoga...tum muje chod ke ja hi nahin sakti...Kashish...main tumhe...tumhe kahi nahi jane de sakta...main tumhe nahi khona chahta...

Kashish looks at him with pain in her eyes putting her hand on her tummy to feel her daughter but she didnt feel her when she understands that she had a miscarrige and she had lost her daughter...she looks at Sujal tears running from her eyes lifting her hand to remove the mask...

Sujal: Kashish!..kya kar rahi ho tum..tumhari haalat abhi bhi kamzor hai...ruko main doctor ko bulata hoon

Kashish: doctor ko bulane ki koi zaroorat nahi...kyunki...kyunki main janti hoon main yaha pe kyun hoon...aur ...aur maine kya khoya hai...

Sujal: Kashish...main koi risk nahin lena chahta...main tumhe...tumhe kissi bhi keemat pe nahin kho sakta...hum hamari beti ko to kho chuke hai lekin main ...main tumhe nahi kho sakta...haa Kashish hum hamari beti ko ab kho chuke hai ab woh is duniya me nahi rahi...

Kashish: hamari beti..Sujal woh hamari nahi meri beti thi...sirf meri jo muje chod ke chali gayi...

Sujal: Kashish...aisa mat kaho...woh meri bhi beti thi...jitna dard tumhe ho raha hai use khone se muje bhi utna hi ho raha hai...

Kashish: sujal...main janti thi ki tumhe pata lagte hi tum use bhi mujse durr kar doge...aur tumne kar diya na Sujal...muje meri beti se alag...ab jike bhi main kya karungi jab mere pass kuch nahi raha ...kuch bhi to nahi...mera to sab kuch meri beti thi lekin aaj woh..aaj woh tumhari waje se ...sirf tumhari waje se muje bhi chodke chali gayi aur tum bolte ho tum muje khona nahi chahte...kyun...kyun khona nahi chahte tum Sujal...tumhare muh se yeh baat achchi nahi lagti...tum hi chahte the na ki main tumse bahot durr ho jau to aaj kyun muje marne nahi de rahe...jab ki main marna chahti hoon...mere marne se main tumse durr ja sakti hoon jise tumhe khushi mil sakti hai to muje marne do ..kyunki meri beti ke bigar ki zindagi maut ke barabar hi hai to muje marna hai...muje meri beti ke pass jana hai..woh mera intzaar kar rahi hai ...muje marna hai Sujal ..aur tum jante ho ki tum yaha mere pass rahoge to main chain se mar bhi nahi sakti isse achcha hai tum...tum yaha se chale jao taki main..main bhi chain se mar saku...kyunki tumhara yaha hona muje taklif de raha hai..nahi main tumhe is kadar chod ke ja paungi...chale jao yaha se Sujal...muje mere hal pe chod do...muje nahi jeena ab kisi ke liye...

Sujal: Kashish...please...please aisa mat kaho...tumse durr rehke main kabhi khsu nahi reh paya...main tumhe apne se durr nahi jane de sakta...main jaanta hoon ke maine tumhe kitni takleef di hai...jab ke tumne to meri har takleef ko sukoon me badal diya...tum diye ki tarah khud to jalati rahi...aur meri zindagi me roshni bhar di...jabke badle me main tumhe kuch de nahin paaya...par muje ab ehsaas ho chuka hai Kashish...meri har galti ka..woh sab jo maine tumhare saath kiya...main har ek baat ko leke bohat sharminda hoon...main bohat galat tha Kashish...please muje maaf kardo Kashish...mujhe maaf kardo..

Kashish: maff kar doon...tumhe maff kar doon...kyun karoon main tumhe maff Sujal...tumne her waqt wahi kiya jo tumhe laga sahi hai lekin nahi Sujal tum galat the...tum her bar galat the lekin maine tumhari her galti ko apni galti samaj ke tumse kuch nahi kaha lekin ab mujse bardasht nahi hota...ab mere me tumhari nafrat ko sehne ki taqat nahi rahi...tumhari waje se mujse mere sare rishte saath chod ke chale gaye lekin maine uff tak nahi kiya...tum jante ho ki mere liye mera parivar kitna mayne rakhta tha lekin tumhari waje se woh bhi muje naseeb nahi hua...lekin aaj..aaj tumhari waje se meri beti...meri beti muje chod ke chali gayi aur jiske liye main...main tumhe kabhi maff nahi kar sakti...kabhi bhi nahi...tum chale jao Sujal...ple chod do muje mare hal pe..chale jaooo..

Sujal: nahin Kashish...aisa mat kaho tum...main tumhe chod ke kahin bhi nahin jaunga..nahi ja sakta tumhe chod ke main..main jaanta hoon ke meri wajah se tumne apni zindagi me sirf khoya hai...maine tumhe koi bhi khushi nahin di...bas har khushi ko cheenta aaya hoon main...tumhari narazgi jayaz hai...par please Kashish...mujse durr hone ki baat mat karo...main tumhare bagair aur nahin ji sakta...main vaada karta hoon ke tumhari zindagi me phirse khushiyan hongi...main maanta hoom ke aaj meri wajah se humne humari beti ko kho diya hai...par muje bas ek mauka do Kashish...main tumse vaada karta hoon..ke tum phir se maa banogi Kashish...humari zindagi me sirf aur sirf khushiyan hongi...phir se hamari zindagi me hamari beti aayegi...yeh tumhare Sujal ka vaada hai Kashish ki tumne jo bhi khoya hai main tumhe sab kuch wapis dunga...tumhara ghar...tumhara pyar...tumhari beti...aur tumhara pati bhi...mujpe yakeen karo Kashish main badal gaya hoon..main tumhe lene aaya hoon...chalogi na mere saath...bolona Kashish...

Kashish: tumhare saath kaha chalu Sujal waha jaha tum pal pal apne rang badalte ho...jab zaroorat padti hai tab tum Kashish ka istemal karte ho...aur bad me ..bad me kabhi piche mud ke dekhte bhi nahi ki woh kaisi hai use kya tumhari zaroorat bhi hai...zinda bhi hai ki nahi...pata hai Sujal...hum kitne akele the lekin tumhe kabhi hamari namaujudi mehsus nahi huyi to ab kaise karoon tumhara yakeen Sujal...kaise karoon...jo insaan hamari shaadi shuda zindagi ke sabse khubsurat pal ko galti ka naam de us insaan ka main kaise dubara yakeen karoon ...aur tum kyun mere pass aaye ho jab ki main achchi tarah se janti hoon ki tum muje kabhi apnaoge nahi to phir kyun joothe vaade karte ho...Sujal main samjote ki zindagi se tang aa gayi hoon ...bahot jee liya maine sab ke liye lekin ab main khud ke liye jina chahti hoon...ab mere pass khone ko to kuch nahi to ab main kyun kisi se samjota karoon...

Sujal: Kashish main kabhi nahi chahta ki tum samjota karke meri zindagi me wapis aao kyunk main tumhe janta hoon aur tum kabhi khush nahi reh paogi ...isi liye jo hua use bhul jao aur hum naye tarike se zindagi shuru karenge..jaha pe khushi ki kabhi kami nahi hogi...main janta hoon tum mera yakeen kabhi nahi karogi...aur main yeh bhi maanta hoon..maine tumhara bharosa..tumhara dil..sab tod diya hai...par Kashish please mujpe ek bar yakeen karo...main ab kabhi bhi gham ki parchai tumpe padhne nahin dunga...maanta hoon ke pehle maine tumhe nahin apnaya...kyunki tab main Maahi ka Sujal tha...lekin ab...yeh Sujal...Kashish ka hai...yeh Sujal sirf aur sirf Kashish ka hai...meri zindagi pe...mujpe sirf Kashish ka haq hai...meri Kashish ka haq...

He places both his palms on her cheek...looking at her with teary eyes...meaning every word...

Kashish: kis haqq se main tumhari zindagi me wapas aau Sujal...tumne to mujse sare rishte tod diye hai na...to ab mera tumpe kaunsa haqq banta hai...aur tum pehle haqq dete ho bad me tumhi her rishte se mud modke chale jate ho...to tum hi batao kis haqq se tumhare pass wapas aau...hamare rishte ka koi naam hai...koi pehchan hai...sirf duniya ke liye hum pati patni bane the aur duniya ke samne hi reh gaye...tumne kabhi bhi muje dil se apni patni ki tarah dekha bhi nahi...

Sujal: nahi Kashish...tum hi meri patni ho aur tum hi hamesha rahogi...kyunki Sujal ke saath ek hi naam jud sakta hai aur woh tumhara hai Kashish...aur tume meri patni ke haq se Kashish...aur mere pyar ke haq se wapas aa sakti ho...mujpar...mere pyar par...ab bas tumhara haq hai Kashish...sirf tumhara...muje pata hai ki tumhe meri baatein bhi joothi lag rahi hogi lekin sach me Kashish ab yeh main samaj gaya hoon ki tumhi meri patni ho...sirf tum...

Kashish: Sujal agar tumne muje dil se apni patni man liya hai to phir kyun nahi kehte jise sunne ke liye maine itna intzaar kiya...bol do na Sujal ki tum bhi mujse...ab aur kitna waqt lagaoge..kahi aisa na ho ki tumhare kehne se pehle main bhi chali jau...maine tumhe pehle bhi kaha tha na ki kabhi kabhi bahot dair ho jati hai to Sujal aaj jo bhi tumhare dil me hai kehdo ..keh do na ki tum mujse..

Sujal: haa Kashish main..main tumse bohat pyar karta hoon Kashish...bohat pyar..tumhare binna main ek pal bhi nahin rehsakta...ab main iske aage kuch nahi bol paunga please Kashish laut aao na meri zindagi me...muje tumhari zaroorat hai...ek bar phir se mere pyaar pe bharosha karke laut aao...main is bar tumhare bharose ko kabhi nahi todunga...please Kashish mere pyaar pe yakeen karo...

Kashish: itna pyaar karte the to ek bar bhi mujse kabhi kaha nahi ki Kashish wapas aa jao meri zindagi me..ek bar bolke to dekhte main dusre pal tumhare saath hoti...lekin kya mere pyaar pe itna hi yakeen tha Sujal..kya tumhe yeh laga ki tumhari waje se main tumse pyaar karna chod doon to nahi Sujal yeh to main kabhi nahi kar sakti..kyunki mere pyaar ko kabhi duniya nahi samaj payi to tum kya mere pyaar samajoge...Kashish ne sirf aur sirf tumse pyaar kiya hai..usne kabhi badle me kuch nahi manga...sirf tumse pyaar karna jana hai...aisa pyaar jiske liye woh tumhare naam ke saath puri zindagi gujar sakti hai..lekin pyaar to woh sirf tumse hi karti rahegi janmo tak..sirf tumse...I love you sujal..

He bent forward hugging her tightly...leaning closer to her...

Sujal: i love you too Kashish..i love you very much...muje maaf kardo Kashish...maine bohat galtian ki hai main jaanta hoon..meri galti maafi ke layak nahin hai main jaanta hoon...phir bhi i am sorry..i'm really sorry Kashish

Kashish: Sujal...main tumse itna pyaar karti hoon ki tumhari her galti ko main nazar andaz kar sakti hoon lekin tumhari nafrat nahi seh sakti main...tumhari aankhoin me main kabhi meri waje se aanshu nahi dekh sakti...kyunki tumhare dard se sabse jyada muje taklif hoti hai...tumhare pass na rehke bhi main tumhare dard ko mehsus kar sakti hoon...isi liye kabhi bhi mere pyaar ke liye jo nafrat tumhare dil me tumhe dard de rahi hai use hamesha ke liye nikal do main tumhe is kadar dard me nahi dekh paungi...

Sujal: main tumse nafrat nahin karta Kashish...mere dil me tumhare liye sirf aur sirf pyar hai...maine tumse kabhi bhi nafrat nahin ki...sach Kashish...aur us raat humare beech jo kuch bhi hua..woh humara pyar tha...na ke ek galti...kyunki agar woh galti hoti to bahot pehle main yeh galti kar chuka hota lekin mere dil me tumhare liye hamesha pyaar aur maan hai jiski waje se main kabhi bhi aisi galti na karta lekin sach mano woh mera pyar hi tha jo muje tumhari aur khich laya tha...lekin use galti kehke...tumhe khud se durr bhej ke jo galti maine ki hai...woh maafi ke layak nahin thi...phir bhi tumne muje maaf kardiya...tum itni achi kyun ho Kashish...kyun tum hamesha khud ka dard bhula kar meri khushi ka sochti ho...par ab bas bohat hogaya...ab se tumhari zindagi me sirf aur sirf khushiyan hongi...aur yeh vaada main tumse karta hoon...mujpe sirf aur sirf tumhara haq hai...hamesha se hi tha...bas maine hi aaj is baat ko samja hai Kashish...main bohat burra hoon...bohat burra hoon main,,,main tumhare layak hi nahi hoon...

Kashish: nahi Sujal tum bure ho hi nahi sakte...kyunki agar tum bure hote to to main to bahot burri hoti lekin tum hi kehte ho na ki main bahot achchi hoon to phir tum kaise bure ho sakte ko kyunki ek achcha insaan hi to dusre achche insaan se pyaar kar sakta hai...aur Sujal main...main hamari pichli zindagi ko bhulake ek nayi shuruaat karna chahti hoon...tumhare saath...tum mera saath donge na..hum phir se ek nayi duniya basayenge jaha pe main hogi...tum honge...aur sirf hamara pyaar...

Sujal kisses her forehead...gently caressing her hair...

Sujal: main zindagi ke har mod...har ghadi..har pal me tumhara saath dunga...main aaj tumse vaada karta hoon ke aaj se hum ek nayi zindagi ki shuruaat karenge...jisme har pal khushiyan aur pyar ke alawa aur kuch nahin hoga...bohat seh liya tumne..ab aur nahin Kashish

Kashish: Sujal...muje ghar jana hai...tumhare ghar...tumhare saath..le chaloge na muje apne saath wapas ...

Sujal: hum zaroor chalenge...par mere nahin...humare ghar ...ab se hum hamare naye ghar me rahenge Kashish ...kyunki main nahi chahta ki hamare naye rishte me meri pichli shadi shuda zindagi ki parchai bhi pade...main tumhe apni patni ke roop me hamare ghar me dekhna chahta hoon jo ki is waqt ke ghar me namumkin hai isi liye hum hamare naye ghar me hamari shadi shuda zindagi shuru karenge...aur woh ghar jitna mera hai utna hi tumhara...aur ghar to woh tumse banega...warna tumhare binna woh bas ek makaan hai...abhi tum araam karo..tumhare theek hote hi hum chalenge

Kashish: aur tum..tum kaha ja rahe ho..please Sujal ab muje ek pal ke liye bhi chod ke mat jao...nahi reh sakti tumhare bina...tum bas mere pass raho..

Sujal: kahin bhi nahin...main bas doctor se pooch kar aata hoon ke main tumhe kab ghar leke ja sakta hoon...main yahi hi hoon...

Kashish: nahi tum abhi yaha pe betho thodi dair...kitne dino se tumhe maine thik se dekha bhi nahi...betho tum..muje tumhe jee bhar ke dekh to lene do...bahot kuch khoya hai in kuch dino me jo tumhe dekh ke main phir se pana chahti hoon...

He looks at her and then sits down beside her...holding her hand between his...

Sujal: lo main beth gaya...tum jab tak chahogi..main tumhari aankhon ke saamne rahunga..kahin nahin jaunga main..vaada...ab jee bhar ke dekh lo apne sujal ko jiske saath ab tumhe her janam saath bitana hai...

Kashish: hmm..hamesha aise hi rehna...tumhare chehre se kisi ki saansein chalti hai...

He kisses her hand as he looks into her eyes...

Sujal: jaanta hoon ke bohat pyar karti ho tum mujse...shayad main kabhi bhi tumse utna pyar nahin kar paunga...par main itna vaada karsakta hoon ke main ab sirf aur sirf tumhara hoon..aur mere pyar pe bhi bas tumhara haq hai...

Kashish: I love you Sujal..

Sujal: i love you too kashish...

He slowly caressed her hair as she lay there watching him...holding onto his hand not wanting to let him go...after finally getting him...today she knew she got her love...and she could have wished for nothing more...but to be with him...and hold his hand this way for the rest of her life...