confuse sad mad!!???

ok after all the spoiler and posts i'm so confuse about everything and top of that i'm lost i think i attach myself with ragana so much like all ragana friends that now i'm really scare to watch... i think i'm going to read written update for a wile and if ragna marriage happen then i will start watching because if its doesn't happen that i will be so sad and heartbroken .. so i think i should leave EMA for a while because i don't have a guts to see ragana separate or with someone else