Hello people... Yes I am back with a new chapter. Without delaying further let's get started!
This chapter is for deltadawn. I am really happy that we share common likings! Be it Beatles or classics like 'Jane Eyre'.
Okay.. Coming back to this chapter, we all know ki shravan ka dumag kharab hai... We will witness that here!
Its a shorter update as I am at Puri, holidaying with my family.
This will be from Suman's POV
Chapter 14
"Sahi to keh raha hai woh, ghalat to nahin! "
"What are you saying Shravan, dimag kharab ho gaya hai kya! Kuch bhi... " I yelled! "And Adi tu... Tu apne aap ko kya samajhta hai! "
"Let it be Suman.. It's okay! " Shravan sounded so normal! As if everything was as normal as 2 hours ago!
And it scared me!
Ride back to home was quite! Sharma ji stayed there, after informing a mechanic! And in pushkar's car we five were sitting like statues! As if we all had forgotten how to breathe!
Adi parked the car in front of my house! But I was no mood to leave Shravan like this! Somehow I had a feeling that if I leave him now, he would do something that wouldn't be good for both of us!
To my surprise, suddenly Shravan said... "Chalo tumhe chod kar aata hoon! "
I didn't like that "chod ke aata hoon... " part!
Me and Preety got down from the car mumbled soft byes.. Shravan followed us with his small steps.
The very atmosphere was getting heavier...with our every foot thuds!
"Main andar jaati hoon... Aap..." Preety looked at me and Shravan.."Bye.. "
We stood there for a whole minute awkwardly.."So... " hearing his voice I flinched! There was something in that tone... As if...
"Sumo... "
"Haan.. " I whispered.
"Kal milte hai... Okay... "
Relief washed through my whole body... I smiled ..
"Sure... Sharp at 10 sir!"
"Okay.. Bye.. Goodnight.. " he hesitated!
"What.. "
"Can I get a kiss... " he murmured!
"As many as you want! " I Laughed and tip toed to match his height; he immediately took me in his arms and leaned... The kiss began much the same as usual! Soft and sweet! And then something seemed to change. Suddenly his lips became much more urgent, his left hand twisted into my hair and held my face securely to his. My hand tangled in his hair, pulling him against me with all my force, forgetting, I was standing in front of my house, I crushed myself eagerly against him! His right hand clutched my waist, and it started roaming on my whole body.. As if he was trying to memorize me... Whole of me! It was too much for me to handle, feeling several knots in my stomach, my knees gave in!
When he stopped it was abrupt; he pushed me away with gentle, firm hands.
I collapsed into his arms, gasping, my head spinning! He was breathless too!
"Sorry Sumo... That was too much! I shouldn't have... "
"It's okay... I don't mind... " I blushed!
"Go and try to sleep.. Sumo... Raat bahut ho gayi hai... Good night.. " he pecked on my lips!
"Ya good night... "
I looked at his retreating back... Until he sat in the car and out of my view.
I went to bed, and was happy of what had happened 1 hour ago! Drowsiness took over my eyelids! I dozed off!
I was halfway asleep, maybe more, when I realized what his face had reminded me of something! It reminded of same Shravan when Alisha came to invite him! That same grave, dead face! It was empty! And his kiss.. That kiss had almost painful edge for some reason I couldn't imagine. I shuddered into unconsciousness, as if I were already having a nightmare.
I felt absolutely hideous in the morning! I hadn't sleep well! Had several nightmares! And all of them were same... Shravan...!
"Hi.. " I was dot in time!
He looked at me and smiled... " Hi.. "
I waited in the doorway...though his smile was polite, but again his eyes said something else! I stared at him for another whole minute, something, panic maybe, building up in my chest.
"What come in.. "
I went inside. I sat in my chair, pulled my knees up, and wrapped my arms around them. Something was very wrong, maybe more wrong than I'd realized.
"So Suman...these are certain letters.. I want you to type! " his voice was flat!
"Yeh to tum khud hi kar sakte the! "
"Haan! But tum meri secretary ho to intna to karna padega tumhe! "
I felt a tight slap on my face! Only secretary! But I could not found the courage to ask anything! I tried to control myself, to reason with myself! What's the worst that can happen? I flinched. That was definitely the wrong question to ask. I was having a hard time breathing right.
So I went on to sit on my computer to type the mails. He dictated every line with same dead voice.
"Yeh kya Shravan.. ..abhi bhi meri bahu se kaam karwa raha hai... " I was thankful that maa entered the room! The tension was unbearable!
"Kaam to karna padega! Haina maa! " he sighed.
"Achcha achcha sun.. .ek mahine baad shaadi hai, tum dononki registry bhi usidin hogi.. .so photos chahiye tum dono ki... Application form k liye. Passport size. Okay! " she paused.. ."Waise tum donon ki ek bhi photo nahin hai sath mein.. Chalo chalo ek photo ho jaye.. ."
"Maa... Kya zaroorat hai... "
"Har kaam zaroorat ke hisab se nahin hota hai Shravan!"
He reluctantly got up! I went to stand beside him and the arrangement felt formal and strange to me. He put one hand lightly on my shoulder, and I wrapped my arm more securely around his waist. I wanted to look at his face, but I was afraid to.
The whole day passed like this! Shravan seemed way more indifferent! I knew there was something in his mind! But at the end of the day.. My patience gave in I bursted out!
"Kya problem hai... Aise kyun behave kar rahe ho! "
"Matlab? " he challenged!
"Matlab tum bahut achche se jante ho! Kal se dekh rahi hoon! Kya chahte ho Shravan? "
"Jo chahta hoon... Woh tum nehi de paogi... " he laughed a bitter laugh!
"Aisa kya hai... Bolo... "
"Bola na tum nahin kar paogi! "
"Tum keh k to dekho... Shravan... Jaan hazir hai tumhare liye! " I was desperate now!
"Thik hai then chod do mujhe! Mat karo mujhse shaadi! "
I stared at him, trying to understand what he meant. He stared back coldly..I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying to clear it. He waited without any sign of impatience. It took a few minutes before I could speak.
"Tum... Mujhse... Shaadi... "
"Nahin karna chahta! " He stated as a matter of fact!
"Okay... I mean... You are breaking up with me! " somehow I still managed to form a proper sentence!
"If that's what you say... Yes! I am breaking up with you! "
"But why... " I whispered!
"I am no good for you, Suman... "
"Don't be ridiculous! "I wanted to sound angry, but it just sounded like I was begging. "You're the very best part of my life"
"No I am not! " he said grimly!
"Shravan why are you doing this to me... To us! Why damn it! It's because of Aditya right? What he said yesterday... You are... Shravan I don't think like that... You know that right? " Tears started to brim...The whole world in front of me blurred!
"No there is nothing to do with Aditya! See Suman... I am just tired of pretending! Mujhse aur nahin ho payega! Maine socha tha ki main tumse bahut pyaar karta hoon! But abhi yeh sab shaadi ki baat.. N all! Mujhse nehi hoga! Main tumse utna pyaar nahin karta ki tumse shaadi karloon! " he snapped!
"You... Dont... Want me... " I mumbled!
"No"
I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He stared back without apology.
"Well, that changes things." I was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. It must be because I was so numb. I couldn't realize what he was telling me. It still didn't make any sense.
"Don't." My voice was just a whisper now; awareness was beginning to seep through me, trickling like acid through my veins.
"Don't do this."
He just stared at me, and I could see from his eyes that my words were far too late. He already had.
"See maine kaha tha na tum nahin kar paogi! " He laughed.
I opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. He waited patiently, his face wiped clean of all emotion. I tried again.
"If... that's what you want."
I wonder what he saw on my face, because something flickered across his own face in response. But, before I could identify it, he'd composed his features into the same serene mask.
"Good! Then we are done! Tum please kal se mat aana! Aur haan.. Main maa papa se baat karloonga. Okay... Then good bye.. " he extended his hand!
Okay.. .that's it for today! I know it's a bit depressing! But I promise next part will be the blasted one!
P. S Sumo itni jaldi haar nahin manegi!
P. S. S wrote it in a hurry! Please excuse the typos.
Edited by Itssanjh - 8 years ago
CID
