(EPISODE 74 on Pg 146)Do Dil Ek Jaan ..ek baar phir - Page 42

-Episode 30-

Sleep seemed far away from ragghu's eyes on those days. The current situation couldn't even allowing him to close his lids. At first it was his jealousy and restlessness and after that his new found feeling towards Antara. The girl really shook his world from the time he saw her in the basti facing shetty's rifle all alone. He really didn't saw such a girl. He never realized that her everything was attrackting him like hell. He had drawn himself in the ocean of her hazel eyes and there was no way to escape.

After his realization, Raghu was desperate to confess his feelings to Antara. Lying over his bed his innocent urging eyes was fixed on antara's balcony to get a single glimpse of her. He wanted to tell how much he felt for her, how important she was to him, but no!!.. he couldn't!! Just for that idiot so called secret agent binod! He first had to make Antara realize the truth of Binod.. "Uss ghade ko to apun Miss Kaul se door karva ke hi rahega!!" said a determined Raghu. "Bas kisi bhi tarah uska sach yeri ke samne aa jayein!! He started to think deeply. But still he couldn't get any idea. After a long moment, his phone rang all of a sudden. "Abey itni raat ko kaun hain?!!" raghu thought and saw MM's name flashing on the screen.

Raghu: Haan machmach bol, pauch gaya tu...

MM(from other side): haan bhai apun pauch gaya. Atein hi apun ko ek aur bat pata chala, apun ne chupke se suna ki mai uss gadhe binod se fir baat kar raha tha phone pein. Idhar ane mein thora der ho gaya tha too iss liye pura sun nahin paya. Bas sun paya ki woo budhi binod se kahe raha tha ki kaal saam ko fir se ek baar antara ke ghar jane ke liye.. kyun ki binod ko pata laga hain ki Antara kaal saam ko akeli hogi...

Raghu(with worried face): haan yaar.. apun ne suna tha ki uske ghar ke sab shadi pee ja raha hain aur woo office ke kuch kaam ke liye ruk rahan hain... par yee uss gadhe ko kaise pata chala...(he was confused at first but then understood)... Miss Kaul!!.. (he stroke his head)... Pata naii iss yeri ka kya karoon... ye sari batein bata ne ki kya zarurat thi?

MM: Thik hain bhai... apun rakhta hain.. koi aaa re la hain idhar..

MM cut the phone and raghu's face hardened. "S**a samajhta kya hain apne aap ko.. tujhe kya laga miss kaul akeli hain to tera kaam assan ho jayega.. chook e dikha ussey.. hath kaat dalunga!!" he said with hardened face. But then he thought that his way of violence wouldn't help anything rather than creating more distance between antara and him. He had to change his way. He thought again and suddenly an idea flashed in his mind.. He smiled at his idea. "Kitna bole toh intelligent hoon main" Raghu thought and patted his own shoulder with a smile. He tossed on the bed and smiled thinking abput his plan. At that moment he heard a sound and his eyes fell on the mirror at the wall at his front. In the mirror he could see the reflection of antara's balcony. He was utterly surprised when he saw antara coming out at the balcony. Her saddened and worried eyes were fixed towards his balcony. Raghu didn't moved a single fiber of her body and continued to look at her reflection. She stood near the railing fixing her eyes on his balcony, particularly on him. Antara continued to look at Raghu's feature with gloomy eyes. She was hurt when she saw that he was not lying facing at her balcony's side which he usually did. She got her angel, but did she lose her sweet friend who always helped her, supported her always unconditionally?! He didn't even had to help her. She was none to him rather than only a friend but he did something which no one could do. He was there for her always when she needed someone desperately. A lone tear escaped from antara's eyes. She was also worried about his wound. Did he bandaged his hands?! she was about to call him but resisted herself. She understood that after the incident of evening, he would never talk to her again. Her heart ached painfully. Keeping her gloomy eyes to him for a while she moved inside the room with slow pace and closed the door. Little did she know that raghu was totally awake and looking at her each and every action through the mirror. A satisfied and pleasant smile escaped from raghu's lips when she closed the door. "Too tujhe bhi apun ki fikar hain miss kaul?! Ab dekh bahut jald apun tere iss fikar ko chahat mein badal doonga. Bas uss binod naam ke kate ko gale se utar doon... bas kaal saam tak wait karne ka miss kaul! fir dekh aoun kya karta hain!!" He whispered the words and closed his eyes in peace after so long.

As it was planned before, Binod came to visit at antara's house at the next evening. Antara was surprised to see him and welcomed him inside. Raghu was ready to execute his plan and as soon as he saw binod going inside, he quickly knocked at Antara's house to which Binod opened the door. "Bole too...surpress (surprise)!!"said Raghu. Binod was again shocked and afraid to c him. "kya kahan tumne?!!" binod asked in confusion. "arey woo joo.. b'days pe woo party diya jata hain na bina bata ke..." raghu said in excitement. "ohh surprise?!" binod said in miffed voice. "haan wohich!! Kya hain ki apna English ka standout (standard) bahut high hain!! sab ke bheje mein nahin ghusta!!" raghu said with a grin and binod nodded his head in disappointment. "Tum yaha kyun aaye ho?" asked Binod with worried face. He remembered his angry gaze from yesterday and still he was afraid. But surprisingly he seemed different! "Jis wajah se tu idhar ayya hain na...uss ka band bajane ayya hoon!!.."said Raghu. "Matlab?"asked Binod with utterly confused voice. "Matlab bole too .. tere se maaphi maangne aaya hoon. Woh apun ko pata naii tha ki tu hi Antara ke woo angel hain.. Sorry bhai.. maaf kar de... ab se sara lafra khatam aur dosti kar lete hain!!"said Raghu leaving Binod confused. "binod ji aap darwaje ke pass kya kar rahein hain?!" raghu heard antara's voice which automatically raised his heart! Antara came towards the door and saw raghu there. At that moment something happened between them, their eyes made conversation while they continued to look to each other silently. Both of them were sad as they hurt each other. After some moment antara lowered her gaze when raghu was still looking at her with so much serenity. "Raghu , tum yaha?" At last she managed to say somehow. "Haan, woh apun tere angel se maaphi maangne aaya tha. Apun ko laga tha ki yeh bas ek pheku aadmi hain par phir pata chala yeh sachi mein tera angel hain"said Raghu. At that moment a huge smile crept on antara's face which almost took his breath. She was looking so gloomy and low just some moment ago and everything was gone. Her eyes gleamed in utter joy and those eyeballs expressed how much happy she was that raghu actually forgave her. A small smile appeared on raghu's face. He could clearly see that although that binod pretended to be her angel for whom antara was mad, still he was not that important to her. He couldn't get the place in her heart which Raghu captured already. "Hmm.. Accha huya tum samajh gaye .. Andar aao"said Antara with her huge grin. Raghu came inside happily and an worried binod followed them keeping alerted eyes to him. They reached at the small visiting room cum dining hall at ground floor."Tum dono mere kamre mein jaa ke baitho, main chai banake aati hoon"said Antara happily. "Theek hain Miss Kaul, haan woo teri mast wali kashmiri chai bana na... bahut din se nahin piya!!"said Raghu comforting himself on couch and binod stood at the other side of couch slowly. The way he was demanding tea from antara, like he was someonevery close to her. Even Antara was not bothered by his demanding attitude. She smiled widely to him. "Acha thik hain!! jaisa tum chaho!! Main bas kuchi munite mein ayi!" antara said and left fo kitchen. Rghu looked towards binod with a huge grin. "yee aaj itna friendly kyun behave kar raha hain!! god!! Kahin antara ke pith piche meri dhulayi too nahin karega naa?!" binod thought worriedly. "Woo Binod bhai to tum ek secret agent ho naa?! "said Raghu. "Haan, antara ne too tumhe paahele din hi bata diya tha!!"said Binod. "Haan. Woh meri bahut acchi dost hain. Iss liye sari batein sab se pahele mujhse karti hain. Par tu chinta mat kar.. Apun kisi ko nahi bataoonga.. Kya hain ki apun log bh dost ban gaye naa na"said Raghu. Binod nodded abruptly. He was smelling fishy by raghu'ss so friendly behavior. After a few more minutes Antara came with three cups of tea. "Thank you Miss Kaul"said Raghu smilingly. "Aaj yeh itna muskura kyun raha hain..."thought Antara. She moved near raghu with the tray and stretched the cup to him. Raghu smiled and took the cup from her hand while he intentionally brushed hes tender fingers with him. Antara felt shiver in her nerves and she abruptly took back her hand with a flushed face. Raghu smirked looking at her slightly pink chicks and lowered gaze and sipped the tea. Antara was about to move towards binod when raghu quickly said. "Eee mskaul!! Tu takleef kyun karti hain?! apun ko de naa... pass kar deta hain." he said quickly. "arey nahin.. is ki koi zarurat nahin.. main de deti hoon..." she said and was about to go to binod's side when raghu forcefully snached the cup from her. "arey de naa mskaul..." he said making antaara startled a bit by his actions. "Arey ee lo binod bhai Kashmir ki garam garam chayein!!" Raghu handed over the tea to binod. Antara was standing at middle feeling clueless about raghu's sudden friendly behavior to binod. "arey mskaul tu aise khari kyun hain jaise teacher ne tujhe saza di hain... chal baith idhar!!" raghu said and qquickly dragged her hand making her seat at the couch beside him, without giving him a single chance to resist. Raghu made her seat so close to him that their arms touched each other. Antara felt a bit uncomfortable by his body heat which made her heartbeat uneven. She folded her hands and shifted herself a bit from him. but no use. Raghu also shifted closing their distance and that time even closer than before. Antara understood that there was no use and there was no way that she could shift because she was almost seating on the edge. Raghu smirked looking at her uneasiness and moved to binod. Binod was seating there silently as he understood that there was no way for him to search for that clue. Cause it ccouldn't happen in raaghu's presence. "eee binod bhai!!" raghu called. "Hnnn!!.." binod came out of his deep thought and looked towards raghu. "Woo mskaul kahe rahi thi tu apun logon ke basti mein raat ko woo mouth organ bajata firta hain... bhooto ke mafik.." raghu said in a teasing tone. "raghu!!" antara rolled her eyes to him but that time he ignored her. "haan woo..." binod answered awkwardly. "iss ka matlab tuu apun logon ke basti ke pass hi raheta hain!!" raghu asked in enthusiasm. "haan!!" he answered dryli. "too commissioner sahab tere bareinb mein hi baat kar raha tha!!" he said wondering. "hnnn!!" binod was again confused. "tum police commissioner ko kaise jan te ho?!" antara asked in confusion. "Arey miss kaul!! Apun logon ka kaam hi aisa hain... har din kabhi na kabhi police station ke chakkar kaat na hi parta hain.. iss liye commissioner sahab bol, DIG bol sab logon ke sath apna connection ban gaya hain!!" raghu said grinning towards antara. "haan haan pata hain mujhe!!" antara made a face. "waisey commissioner sahab ne kya kahan?!" Binod asked worriedly. "Arey binod bhai, woo kahe rahe the ki apun logon ke basti mein koi ek secret agent hain jo ek mission ke liye iss basti mein aaya hain. Ab a ke pata laga ki woh teri baat kar raha tha Binod.. Woh kehe rahe the ki iss basti mein ek bomb blast hone waala hain.. Aur tuu iss basti ke logon ko iss blast se bachaana chchta hain!!" said Raghu. "KYAA???"said both Antara and Binod in shock. "Haan, yahich too kahan uss commissioner budha ne, aur unhone ne kahan ki woo bomb blast kissi bhi time ho sakta hain...sayad aaj yahin ho jayein!!"he said with a secret smirk. Binod's breath almost hitched. Antara quickly hold raghu's hand tightly with pale face. Raghu's smirk increased in victory. Whenever antara was in danger, she only trusted raghu till her so called angel was seating near him. "Kya?? Mujhe sab ko bachaana hain. Paagal ho tum kya??? Mujhe kisi ko nahi bachaana !! Main yaha se jaa raha hoon" said a frightened Binod and was about to leave the house rushing towards the door when raghu rushed and came at his front blocking his way. "Arre , aise kaise jaa sakta hain tu haan! Tu toh ek secret agent ho naa jo logon ko bachaata hain. Jaise tumne Antara ke papa ko bachaaya" said Raghu. "Nahi!! Mujhe jane do!!" binod said with pale face. "aisa kaise kar sakte hain aap binod ji!!" antara came at his front and said, "aap ne itni bahadori se mere pappa ko bachaya tha... aur aaj inn basti ke logon ko aap ki zarurat hain!!" she said. "arey nahin antara!!...mujhe jane do.. mujhe der ho rahi hain!!" binod said again. "nahin binod ji!!... humein abhi bomb ko search karna chahiye!! Lakhon logon ki jaan khatre mein hain binod ji!!...woo bomb sab ki jaan le lega!!" antara said in frustration. "too marne doo unhe!! Mujhe kya?!!" binod said in frustration. Antara was so startled by his behavior. "binod ji... ek officer ho ke aap aisi baat kaise kahe sakte hain!!" she asked in quite surprised voice. "Arey nahin hoon main koi anti terrorist officer!!!!" binod screamed madly. Blood dropped from antara';s face as she heard that. She felt a huge shock shaking all over her. She stood their stunned looking towards binod's face while raghu let out a victorious smirk. Binod understood that there was no way left for him rather than telling the truth. Gulping a bit saliva he started to say, "Yeh sach hain antara! Main koi secret agent nahi hoon. Main ek struggling theatre artist hoon. Main kisi ki jaan nahi bachaa sakta .. Mujhe apni jaan nahi gavani hain" said a worried Binod. "Mujhe paise de diye gaye the iss kaam ke liye...aur ye kaam maine daya mai ke kahene pe kiya!!"said Binod. "Kya?!!! Daya mai!!" antara was so stunned that felt it was hard to even talk. "haan antara ji!!.. main unke kahene pe yee sab kiya... please mjhe police mein mat dijiyee..mera koi galat iradha nahin tha aap ko chot pauchane ka!! Main bas mai ke kahene par!!..." Binod couldn't finish his words and he heard a scream "Out of my house now!! Just get lost and never show your face to me!!"said Antara while her eyes spit fire. She was hurt deeply!! Binod was still standing there "abey dekh kya raha hain!! nikal!!" raghu said and dragged hin out of the house leaving antara there alone. Devastated, shattered and tored woth the mockery of her fate antara broke down on her knees crying out her heart. Why that happened with her always?! Why her cruel fate played with her emotions all time?! She didn't even left her angel?!! Even he was a fake one?! Was there anything in the world which was true and pure?! Tears streamed down her ees and she cried out her heart's pain which hit the wall of lonely room.

Leaving binod out of his basti with some warnings he headed back to antar's house. Although he was not ready to leave him so easily but looking at his already colorless face and shaking legs, he decided to leave him. he had already got so much and he was hell nervous. Just giving him some warnings, he left for antara as he was so worried for her, He noticed back then that how her face became colorless when he came to know about binod's true identity. And he knew that she could get to any extent when she was devastated. He qquickly rushed back and was surprised to find antara seating on the bench at the doorstep of their house. Her gloomy red eyes was fixed at the front and chicks were swollen due to continuois tears. Raghu's heart ached like hell seeing his ms kaul like that. It was so hard for him to c her in that state. He couldn't even imagine to c her in that state. But he was helpless, cause there was no other way to expose that binod. Raghu slowly came near her and looked down to hetr. Antara lifted her face and the torn expression in her eyes almost pierced his heart. Antara totally broke down seeing raghu at her front. For a long pause they continued to look in each other's eyes without any conversation. "Ab chup kyun ho?!" she asked slowly, "abtoo tum mujhe danto ge na?!! Fir se mujhpe chillao ge... Ye batao ge ki main kitni bewakuf hoon joo ek anjaan admi pe yakeen kar liya..." her eyes again got moistened saying those words and her each and every words hit her badly. Antara broke out and clutched raghu;s hand tightly joining her forehead on his palm. "Danto naa mujhe raghu!! main kuch nahi kahoongi... sach kahete hoot um.. yedi hoon main... bahut bari bewakuf hoon... baar baar tum mujhe rokte hoo aur main tumhari baat nahin sunti hoon!! Tumne humesha mujhe agwah kiya... uss interview ke time mein bhi aur iss baar bhi ki main galat kar rahi hoon... par maine tumhari baat nahin mani... aur dekho... jitni baar maine tumhari baat nahin suni meri zindagi mere sath kitna bhadda se mazak kar gaya!!!" her voice stammered due to the cry. Raghu shut his eyes tightly to control his outburst. It was so painful to watch her like that. how could he made her understood that it was not her fault. She was too innocent and pure for that wretched and dirty world. He caressed her head and said, "mskaul chup ho jaa!!... teri galti nahin hain yaar!!... hota hain aisa... bhool jaaa ussey!!...dekh sab thik ho gaya naa!!" he said assuring her while his hands continued to caresse through her hair. His eyes were full of concern and love. Antara's outburst was toned down a bit when suddenly she noticed the wound in his hand still open. Her eyes widened. "raghu!!! tumne abhitak apne chot pe dawayi nahin lagayi!!..." she asked worriedly. "arey chorna yaar misskaul.. chotti si chot hain.." he tried to ignore. "choti si chot?!! Raghu kitna gahera hain!! khoon bahe kar sukh gaya hain... septic ho jayega tumhe!!! Hath kaantna par gaya too!!..." her worried eyes examined his wound. Thank god it was not that bad till. "tumhe dard bhi nahin hota kya?!!" she asked looking at raghu's intense eyes. he smiled a little and said, "iss chot se dard nahi hota.. ye too humne bahut khayein hain... par jab meri misskaul roti hain tab bahut dard hota hain!!" he said in deep voice. Antara looked at his face with wide eyes for a while. After a moment she lowered her gaze from his deep intense eyes and shoved her tears. "tum ruko main abhi ati hoon..." antara said and moved inside. she came back with first aid box and started to bandage his hands while raghu continued to look at her face with a huge grin. He couldn't express how much her concern and touch was making him feel so good! "Maine tumhaara vishwaas nahi kiya aur uss aadmi ke baaton par bharosa kiya"said Antara while finishing her works and left raghu's hand. She cursed herself for not trusting Raghu. "Mujhe tumhaari baat maani chahiye thi...Sorry!! Agey se kabhi aisa nahin karungi. Tumhari har baat manungi!!"said Antara. Tears streamed down again though her face like a heavy waterfall. Raghu's heart ached badly seeing her like that. He immediately cupped her face. "Miss Kaul, rona band kar.. Tujhe rota huya dekh ke mere aankh mein aansoon aa jaate hain. Aur tu chahti hain ki yeh hatta khatta ladka roye?? Meri kya izzat reh jayegi agar kisine mujhe rote huye dekh liya. Kaun mujhse darega?"said Raghu. Antara smiled at his words. "Tum chahte ho ki log tumse dare?"asked Antara smiling. "Haan , kyunki agar log mujhse darenge , toh koi tujhe tang nahi karega.."said Raghu in a deep intense voice. Antara froze at his words.. What did he mean?? First he said that he felt like crying seeing her cry and then he says that no one will harm her if people are scared of him. How did that make any sense?? "How does people being scared of Raghu have any relation with me getting harmed"said Antara. Maybe it does... I maybe just don't want to understand. "Kyun itni parwaah karte ho tum meri?"asked Antara with moist eyes. Raghu didn't answer this question through his words , he did it with his actions. He hugged her gently sending chills down her spine.. Antara didn't resist him and just hugged back... After a gentle hug, Raghu said "Aur vaise bhi woh tera angel kaise ho sakta hain ! woh toh ek fatichar hain.. .. aur tera angel toh kitna lamba tha... Yeh kitna natta hain ... aur yeh ekdum chikna gora,.. tera angel too sahanvla tha naa.."said Raghu. Antara was left amused. She hadn't told the description of her angel to Raghu before. All she said was that he had a dragon tatoo on his wrist.. "Tumhe kaise pata?"asked Antara. "Woh Woh .. tune hi toh bataya tha na.. Lagta hain ki tu bhool gayi"said Raghu. Antara still stared at him in a suspicious manner. "Aur apun chalta hain Miss Kaul.. Tujhe bas uss fatichar ki asliyat dikhaane ke liye aaya tha .. baad mein milte hain" said Raghu. Antara nodded her head saying thank you and he moved towards damyanti bhavan. Looking at his back moving away suddenly a spark flashed in her head. Her eyes widened in sudden thought! But was that possible?!! Could it be that raghu was her angel?! But why not?!! Off course!! He was the one who was saving her from the danger all the time!! God!! Why didn't she got that before?!!! Before going inside raghu waved his hand to her with a smile and antara also smiled back to him waving her hand She knew that if she had to find out something from Raghu, she had to do it secretly. She couldn't converse with him as he wouldn't tell her anything. "Kya aisa ho sakta hain bhagwan ji?Kahi raghu hi mera angel toh nahi?" thought Antara.

Written by prerna and edited by editing team