**Tera Sukkon Ya Junnon Tera-Rantara FF**[Thread-1] - Page 84

Originally posted by: Rasika9

Riu i m commenting on ur FF for the first time...but i m silent reader of ur FF...i love to read ur long long updates...because they are always mindblowing...telling about Tera sukoon ,,,i like the quote u gave to sattu,,toilet brush hairs...hahahahaha...

Originally posted by: pampz

i got to read this huge insecurity of yours just now ...and am wondering how cd u think of such stuff for even just a second ????????????????

don u know how much crazy we all are for ur stories ????

your each and every story creates an enormous fabulous wonderous hypnotic effect on us. Please Riyu yedi firse dobara aisa nahi sochneka baba ...

but am really hurt that some of our poor response made u think so ...as far i know that nowadays i hv become very rare in this golden forum which is my only best window of my life from which pure oxygen comes to me and gives me life. please forgive me Riyu dear as am helpless ...am stuck in such a situation i cant tell ...😕

but i hv loved ur each and every story with my soul and THIS story i think is beyond everything because this one is so excruciatingly mature raw dangerous dark yet so lovingly hypnotic .

what else wd i say ...i wait for ur updates and the dark phases which u r going to gift us through this story ...its a royale treat to enjoy , cherish , analyse and re-analyse the psychologies of the characters of ur story in my mind. i so much love the whole process.😳

And dear don underestimate ur pyary little Vampy 😆...don u know ur updates hav made me so much thirsty ...its only u who quench my thirst and then again make me thirsty more that before ...

love you and your truely great fantastic fabulous stories. When i read them ...i actually see and feel each and every action and get hypnotized merrily.

i feel myself lucky to have YOU in my life and hv got to read your stories ...

and i really mean it dear !!!

So dear don ever think such stuff ...u just don hv any idea of your hidden talent...and i think u r utilizing the most of it in Tera Sukoon ya Mera Junoon as per my perception.

love you and keep on writting always . NEVER STOP . And LAST but not the LEAST don ever compromise your story about thinking what might readers are thinking or what they want...u can not satisfy each and everyone all at a time ...its harsh but a true fact dear.

BUT what i wanna say ur each update give me something more than mere satisfaction. Just too much LOOOVE it .👏👏👏 and i believe everybody here is in same boat with me .😃

Originally posted by: .Muskhaan.

Rii...

I love u dear...
Kuch ajeeb Sa lag raha hai... So I came here...
Btw...
I am res this post now...
Will post my reviews tomorrow...:)

Aaj hi post karnewaali thi...
But looking at my post u must say "u made my day" right...
If u say"u made my evening" means, it'll be so weird... Lol

Originally posted by: .Muskhaan.

Unres...

Ahem ahem... !!!! (voice teek kar rahi Hu yaar, speech Dena hai na.. Issliye)
Hello ji... Riu ji... Kaise Ho aap.. Ghar Mein sab kaise hai... ??? Umeed karthi Hu Ki sab bahut acche hai...
Haan ji sab khairiyat see hain..
Vaise riu.. U just tell me how many talents you have inside you... Ur an awesome story writer, dialogue writer, singer, dancer, professional photographer... Ufff.. U have so many hidden talents in u baba... I am so proud of u... *hugs *
chup kar yaar.. kuch jyada hii hoo gaya.. LOL
{iske baad tujhe meri taareef bhi karna chahiye.. Samjhi.. Agar nahi kiya toh chodungi nahi... Urghhh..<lol>

aap ki tareef mein hum kya kahein.. humari kya mazal joo hum aap ke tareef karein aap too sar se pao tak tareef hi tarref kee kabil hain..😆}

Okayy..now I'll stop my chappad chappad and will start my reviews...

Usse pehle, I have a dedication for you...

Arz kiya hai...
Ham tere dil mein rahenge ek yaad bankar,
Tere lab pa khilenge muskaan bankar,
Kabhi hamein apne se juda na samajhna,
Hum tere saath challenge aasmaan bankar...

Wah wah!!! (applause from audience)

Did u like it...?? Meri naam hai isme yaar "muskaan" hehe...
Jo bhi likha hai, meri yaadon Mein likha hoga shayad... *blush* lol

Aww.. i love it!!

Sorry.. Don't scold me now.. I'll start... *gulp*

Antara's POV:

Ohhh rhea forced antara to reveal all the truth... Aww poor girl, she is not at all aware that she is no more a little girl who always will be doing some nautankis...
Thats true..
Rhea has become antara's strength now... Glad that at least antu got a chance to share this with someone... From so many days she was suffering from pain keeping all this in her itself...
yeah.. and also she get read of the suffocation..
Dard baatne se kam hotha hai antu... U don't worry.. Ur cute little sister is there with you...
Exactly😊
Omg!!! Ithna investigate karne ke baad kuch nahi Mila... Isse pata chaltha hai Ki woh DM kithna powerful hai...
Yeh sab na asal zindagi Mein bhi hotha hai yaar...
Look at those ppl yaar.. They are so smart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ek bhi clue nahi choda uhhh... They have their ppl all over India I guess...
Pehle khoon kar lethe hai, aur baad Mein sab nishaanein mitaake chale jaathe hai...
Kithna aasan hai yeh sab karna unn logon ke liye... Hmph!!!
Aur inn sab logon Ki chakkar Mein kithne maasum Ki jaan le lethe hai... Unn logon ko andaaza bhi nahi hai Ki unki family ka kya haal hoga inn sab se...
sach mein yaar... india koo chor duniya mein aise bahut sare log hain... jaan lena jaise unn logon kee liye ek khel hoo... itna kuch karne kee baad bhi unhe koi dar nahin.. cause they have power in their hand
Riu... This investigation part aur beech beech Mein antara's conversation has been shown really well yaar... Its very touching... Readers ko bhi yeh mehsoos hotha hai Ki antara Ki dard kya hai...
I really appreciate your work riii...
Thanks again
Inn sab Mein mujhe ek baat tho clear Ho gayi... DM na, Raghu ko pata nahi chalne Diya Ki woh kya karwana chahthi hai unse... Raghu is some kind of victim in this... :(
DM nee too raghu koo kind of use karta hain apne ileagule kamo mein.. raghu koo to pata bhi nahin ki uss key DM kaa asli chehera kya hain... Andhere mein jo rakha hain itne dino tak ussey,

Riu u have a matured way of writing yaar... Woh next para Mein clearly pata chaltha hai...- antara's and rhea's conversation...
I know the only reason behind keeping this as secret is that she is more concerned about her family.. She is not in a situation to lose her rest of the family members right!!!??? :'(
Right!!
Finally dono ko pata chal hi Gaya Ki dairy missing hai...
Antara.. Ur a brave girl...

Raghu's POV(my fav):
Sab ki fav hain yaar😆
Ohhh god.. Raghu ne dekh liya... Abh kya hoga!!! *gulp*
Raghu.. Lol.. Addressing her as the great Miss Antara Kaul... :D
Aur kar bhi kya sakta hain yeda😆
Raghu... Urghhh!! Is this the time to feel for her... Woho.. Heart thumped it seems.. Keep quite and watch her carefully... Urghhh!!!
Raghu baba always keeps watching antu aur kho jata hain...😆
Raghu baba!!!ur great.. At least u anticipated that antara is here to take her dairy back... Jai Ho Raghu baba.. Aap ek type Ki antaryaami Ho...:P lol
Raghu baba ki jay,,,😆
Ria Ria Ria... Ur amazing yaar...
The way u described raghu's thoughts for antara was awesummm... I don't have words for it yaar...
And the way u showed antara in a different shade- her fear, her desperation, her possessiveness... Mind blowing yaar...
he he... thx😆
Hehehe... This was my fav line... "Jhansi ki rani was back in action again." It sounds funny..
Lmfao.. Raghu ka sense of humour... Kml

he is just like that😆
Finally he broke the silence...

Oye hoye!!!! Kya baat hai... "I had to admit that I never imagined that someone could express anger even so mesmerizingly like her!"---- these are the signs of a true admirer... Hayeee <3<3<3

he he😆
"When her back skin brushed along my chest through my unbuttoned shirt my breath almost stopped"----- Ria yaar this was romantic yaar... I was blushing here... *blush*
hmm i understand😆
Ahaaa.. Mautarma.. Agar kissiko gussa dilana hai toh koi tujhse seekhe... Ur too good at arguments antara madam...>_<

Riii.. Kaka ka acchi description likha hai tune yaar.. Lol...
Oye hello.. Where is the precap uhhh!!!????

Originally posted by: Komali14

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Awesome beginning riu ji...👏

thank you...😳

Loved it the way you have written the whole scene...

Yesa laga koi movie ka sequence dekh rahe hai... emotional and thriller filled scene...

Rhea and antu convo was really great ji...rhea ko raghu ke bare mein pata hai ki woh kisi ka khoon nahi kar sakta...lekin woh apne di pe zyada believe karti hai...

Rhea is also important in this story.. May be the most imp side charecter than others.. u wil come to know eventually...

Loved whole sequence brilliantly written...⭐️

Thx again.😊

Rhea aur antu ne bura ghar mein diary dunda fir antu ko yaad aaya woh kaha hai...

Antu bani james bond aur tayar hogaye usske diary lene...

LOL.. james bond😆

Uss dayan ke safety ke liye itna security ...

iss sey pata chalta hain ki woo dayan actually kitna darpok hain..😆

Security camera se tez hai raghu ki nazar akir raghu hai na...⭐️

Bilkul😎

Mangu aur bhangu talli hoke soh gaye aur fir humari james bond ka action shuru huwa...

Ussne balcony mein jake conform kiya ki raghu sogaya hai aur chali naik sadan ke andhar...

Lady james bond!!🤣

Raghu toh andhre mein bhi antu ko pehchan liya aur jab antu usse dekh rahiti usska dil bhi se zorse dharkane laga hayee...

Raghu antu koo pahechan nee mein kabhi galti kar sakta hain kya?!😉

Fir raghu ne antu ke afety ke liye usska pecha kiya how sweet gunda...😳

Sweet gunda..😆

Raghu aur antu encounter was nice...antu chokgaye raghu ko dekhke...

Raghu ka dialogue ...chorni bane ka training lerahi hai kya...😆

He he.. raghu kee nirale ideas..😆

Ab raghu ko antu ke gusse se bhi irritation nahi hota hai dhire dhire pyaar jo ho raha hai...gusse se bhi pyaar horaha hai...

Ji haan...😳

Raghu ne antu ko roka aur antu ne pin se poke liya aur bhaagi...

Raghu ne firse pakar liya that scene was so romantic raghu apne feelings se confuse hai aur control bhi karna muskil ho raha hai usse...😳

limit kaa gunda unlimited hoo raha hain...😆

Antu ne usse nail se scratch kardiya...usske baad ke scene ne firse purane din ke yaadein diladiya...

Antu ke baatein sunkar raghu ki bholti ban hogaye...😕

Antu jab bolta hain tooo raghu sun taa hain aur jab raghu bolta hain too antu ki bolti bandh,,😆

Kaka ne baatein suni aur bahar aagaye... raghu ne firse antu ko bachaya hayee...

Woo humesha ussey bachayega.. chahein situation kuch bhi hoo. He is her destined savior😊

Antu couldn't believe that raghu saved her...usne sab musibat se usse humesha bachaya...

Aur humesha bachata rahega😳

Kaka rantara ke taraf hi aarahe hai... 😲

Ab aagaye kya hoga...? Itne jaldi khatam kardiya...

Jaldi cont karo ji...hume intezaar hai...

Thank u 😊

Part Two

Antara's POV

I didn't know how it took to get back to my normal state. Clutching over the salwar's dupatta over my chest I was panting hard to catch my breath. That feisty hold around my chin had almost emptied my lungs of air. I didn't know how with that single hand he managed to stop me talk and move from that position. But literally when his palm was pressing my jaw I was not able to move a single inch from that place. The pressure and force he applied through that single hand didn't even let a single cell of my body to move. I struggled, wiggled and tried to push his hands away from my face with my all power but nothing bothered him at all. He just applied more and more pressure on my face and failed my every possible effort. He was talking to those people so casually while captivating me, as if like nothing mattered to him. I started to feel dizzy as it was hard to breathe under his pressure. My eyes were almost about to moistened. I didn't want to lose in front of him but what could I possibly do?! I knew that fact really well that I was nothing in front of his physical strength. He was able to crush down triple sized man of him in a blink and I witnessed that with my own eyes. Tears were about to form in my eyes. How could I be so stupid to get caught by him? Rhea warned me and even I should assure fully about him. But my stupidity and hurry failed me again. How could I become so dumb? Why he was the only one always there in each and every turn of my way, standing like he was there always waiting to capture me?! But the end result was that I was again captivated by that man again.

I heard him talking to someone called kakka and mai. I couldn't see them though I could hear there conversation. I was truly surprised when he lied to Daya Naik. For some moment I literally felt shocked and looked towards his face fixed above talking casually to them. I just couldn't get that why he lied to Daya Mai hiding the truth. What was cooking in his mind?! Manhandling me all the way, forcing me to hide from his godmother and relatives what he planned to do. I couldn't trust such peoples, their every action had some hidden motive behind. Just like Daya Naik, his most faithful follower must had inherited that two faced personality in him.

At last when the chaos was ever and I understood that no one was around the hall he finally released me giving me chance to breathe. If it continued a few more seconds I would seriously collapse due to the lack of air. My jaw was aching like hell after getting released from his merciless crude hold. I was feeling so exhausted and feeling like crushing down the floor and crying out. I was again saved pathetically by that same man who liked my beloved people. The destroyer by some cruel twists of fate had become the savior again. Feasting my palms I was again trying to stop my tears again. why everything was turning so complex for me. I loathed myself every time getting help from him, but still it seemed like destiny enjoys the mockery seeing me helpless, defeated.

But I wouldn't defeat. Never!! If I had to go against my fate and destiny I would but I would never back off.

"Eee..." my whole corpse trembled as I felt his old on my shoulder, "Tu thik hain?!" his question seemed like laughing at me even though there was concern in his voice, even the concern also seeming like sarcastic. Hardening my jaw I snapped back to him. his eyes were silent and calm observing me with questioning look. Looking straight to his eyes I shoved away his hand from my shoulder with all my force. He looked startled for a while as he observed the hand which I pushed back and again looked back to me with his as usual annoyance and rugged posture. "Itna garam kyun hoo rahi hain?! Billi kahan too buraa lagaa kya?!" he asked making his face. however, whom I was talking to and why should I bother to stand there and listening to his mocking antics? I moved my feet to the outside passage. "Oye!!" just as I moved some steps away his voice hit my ear and I felt his strong hold again on my wrist. My eyes widened gain in mixed feeling. Again i felt the strong pull which dragged me behind and caused me bump directly to some hard solid thing which just felt like rock. I understood that I was again crushed again his utterly powerful corpse. Before I could understand further I felt his hand locking tightly around my waist in that unbreakable powerful shackle. My whole fiber shivered in keen abhorrence and revulsion which caused me to wiggle madly inside his unbreakable hold. with my both hands I tried hard to shove away his two hands away which was grooving hard on my skin giving me cringing sensation. I didn't want to feel anything of him, even his breath!! But my mad effort didn't pay off that time too. Suddenly I felt his palms again on my face pressing hard. I couldn't avoid his eyes again and finally I had to look up to him. I found him looking down to me with his hardened angry gaze. Every stiff line of his face was clear even in the small light in dark passage. I knew this posture of him, he really looked dangerous in that state, could dominate anyone or shiver down cold wave through your spine with just with his gaze. I sensed the danger alert and stayed quite looking straight to him. he couldn't make me afraid with anything. I wouldn't!! our hardened gaze continued to observe each other for so many moment as if like no one among us was ready to accept defeat. In the pin drop silence of late night as I continued t observe his deep coal black eyes I suddenly saw something different there. as the time passed I saw his gaze went deeper and somehow tender too, the sheer hardness was slowly vanishing from his orbs. I started to get confuse with the sudden change. His face was as usual firm but only thing changing was his gaze. also I felt the pressure on my face has slightly turned light. His eyes were always cold and unreadable, just suited for his personality but whenever I observed that different tender look in his eyes I got confused. I could understand the meaning of his annoyance, his anger, his killer cold eyes but not that sudden mysterious vulnerability. What unknown thought of his mind made him feel somehow so poor at a time?!

His silent gaze observed me throughout as my confusion got overshadowed by the need of situation. I had to think that how I would be able to get myself free from him. I had to run away from there. The pin thing wouldn't work again which I used just a moment ago. I was thinking hard when his voice again interrupted my thought. "Fir se bhgane kee barein mein soch rahi hain naa?!" his word shook me a bit. Somehow he managed to guess right. I again touched and tried to move his hand from my waist but no use. "Ek min kee liye shant nahin rahe sakti hain?!... iss baar kakka nee fir see sun liya too nahin bacha payega apun... samjhi?!" he prompted. I looked towards his slightly annoyed gaze. Why the heck he was helping me?! For god sake he should understand that I didn't want any favor from him. Why didn't he understand that?! I didn't know my silent eyes words could make some sense in his mind but his confused frown deepened. After another stubborn moment of our cold war, he finally sighed and looked here and there in caution. I was again feeling confused that what he was up to. "Chal mere sath..." he just said and dragged me captivating in his hold. His hands were still pressed firm over my lips. I tried to resist but he didn't let me. "Eee kahe raha hoon naa chupchap chal idhar se... ek baar mein baat sunayi nahin deti kya tujhe?!!" his annoyed voice scolded me snd I finlly had to go with him. He moved near the corner and entered inside a little dark room with me. with the small light coming from passage I understood that it was kitchen. I didn't understand why he brought me there. He slowly opened the only window watching everywhere with his predator eyes. "Lee bahar kalti maar lee iss khirki see..." he said hissing. With wide eyes I looked towards him. I couldn't believe for a second. Did he actually helping me to escape?! I really didn't have such shock in my whole life. for a moment the thought came in my mind if he was double crossing me. Perhaps there was someone standing outside the window to catch me. I was hesitant and thinking hard what to do. Raghu huffed and again caught arround my waist with his hand. With just a yank he passed my whole feature out the window without any effort like I was nothing but a rag doll to him. Standing on the ground it was hard for me to catch the breath. Raghu also hooped at my side without a sound. We were still inside the premises of Naik Sadan. Rghu caught my hand without any argument and led me. Confusingly I followed him that time without any resist. I was feeling a bit worried that where actually he was taking me. I couldn't believe that person from heart. he worked for one of the most cunning personality in city. He couldn't be so much innocent and simple going guy. There must be any intentions behind his moves.

After some few seconds walk I found myself near the collapsible gate. Bhangu and Mangu were still unconscious on the stair steps. Raghu chuckled playfully looking at them. he slowly opened the gate without any noise and again gauzed everywhere. Then he finally led me out. And at last I was out of Naik Sadan but still captured by the captivator. He was still holding my hand.

He led me somewhere away from the naik sadan's gate and I was still following him in confusion. more than that I was curious to see what he was up to. One thing I understood that night. To evict inside Daya Naik's territory I had to mend up with the wall raghunath naik sooner or later so I had to learn to keep my cool in front of him holding onto my emotions. So at that moment I decided to taste myself. In the street light I found myself near the public library of basti. He stopped abruptly and turned towards me. I looked at his cold face in confusion and moved my eyes everywhere. The surrounding area of library was really silent in that late night. Forget about human not a single night bird could be seen around. I felt a bit worried and looked back to his face. There was a smirk in his lips. for a moment the fear arose inside me if he had any bad pathetic intentions which he wanted to fulfill with me. There was no one around to help if he did anything bad to me. I was looking everywhere and I find some sand piles at my feet. If he did something wrong I would just throw the sand piles on his eyes and run away.

"Mere ankh pee dhool maar nee kee barein mein soch rahi hain kya?! Hmmm..." damn he guessed again. Somehow I managed to keep cool and observed his face thoroughly to detect if he had some intentions like that. His eyes were playful but there was not any disgusting look there. His eyes were pointed only towards my eyes and nowhere else. I didn't get any indication from him which looked loathsome or creeping. It lessened my worry a bit but not fully. Still he was the most dangerous man of Mumbai city who himself was enough to burn up the whole city. And I knew very well what he could do if he got into his very own self. Crossing his hands around his chest he started again, "Dekh waisey.. maan na parega..Khopri mein bheja kuch zyada hi tez hain tera... woo kya kahete hain.. haan... akal hain tujhmein... aur himmat bhi kuch zyada hi hain..." he chuckled as he said those words and I was again confused that what he was trying to say. "Warna iss ilake kee kissi bhi chor chakare mein himmat nahin hain naik sadan ki taraf ankh utha kee bhi dekhe too... par kya hain naa... tere koo woo kya bol tee hain uss kii kami hain... bole too experiment (experience)!!abb agar experiment jyada hoga tab tu ekdum woo professional chorni ban sakti hain." he said nodding with a thoughtful face and his playful voice indicated his mocks. I didn't said anything and just kept staring to him firmly. "Ley abb mooh kya dekh rahi hain apun kaa?!.. Sach kahe raha hoon.. chorni banne kaa bahut chance hain tujhmein.. kahe too pakiya koo bol doon tere koo training dene kee liye... Uss key pass kamal kaa tazurba hain.." he let out his toothy grin saying those words. For a moment I thought that if he was really joking around or did he have any intentions. But everything was turning up coiled so I spoke up finally. "Woo experiment nahin experience hain..." I stated coldly. "S**a fir se garbar hoo gaya.." he bit his tongue and scratched his head and looked towards me cockily. "Aur sab sey bari baat. Chor nahin hoon main.. Maine pahele hii tumse kahan hain.. Chori karnee kaa iradha nahin tha mera.. Main apni cheez wapas lene gayi thi wahan, aur apni cheez wapas lena chori nahin hota..." I said coldly as he listened to my words with slightly twitched neck and cocky eyes. I closed my eyes and take a deep breath composing myself. I was really tired and wanna go back to home. Also I didn't found the diary. God knows where it is! I was so worried that what would it be if Daya Naik got that. I was sure that she didn't get that yet cause then I wouldn't be left in one piece at that time. But before she got that I had to brought that back. But also there was no way that I could trespass back inside Naik sadan at that moment. "Chorro.. main kis sey yee sab baat kar rahi hoon... Tum kabhi nahin samjhoge.. Aur main chahti bhi nahin ki tum samjho!" I slowly stated those words and moved back to step towards my house without looking towards him again. "Eee sun..." I heard his annoying voice from back but I ignored. "Apmi cheez to wapas leta jaa..." his playful voice suddenly stopped my feet. Frowning I looked back and instantly shook up to the core. I found my diary in his hand. Holding that playfully in his hand he whistled and gave me that ass smirk. For a moment I was frozen to the spot forgetting to even react. Just when the ice broke, I rushed madly to grab that. As my hand was just about to touch that he swiftly moved the diary to other hand. I was desperate to get that so I moved to his other hand he lifted his hand upwards lifting that higher from my reach. I tiptoed to get that but he lifted his hand ore up and as a result I lose my balance. I was soon to be found on ground unless he grabbed my hand and stopped me from falling. Holding myself as I looked towards his ass smirk I understood that he was just playing around with me. My head boiled up again. "Kya tamasha hain yee.. Meri diary mujhe wapas doo..." I said loudly to him. "Too yee hain teri cheez...Hmm.." he whistled, "Wapas karo mujhe...Abhi kee bhi!" I said in desperate voice. "Naa..." he chuckled. "Dekho tum..." I said angrily. "Haan dekhna too hain hii akhir iss kagaz kee dher mein aisa kaun saa khazana chupahuya hain jiskey liye tu itni mari jaa rahi hain... Hmm.." as he stated jokingly, I stood there frozen. In my desperate urge to get the diary I forgot to think about something important. Did he read my diary?! God if he really knew everything?!! Might be that's why he took me here so that he could murder me here and no one could know the fact. My hands turned cold. As I looked up to him I found him observing me with curious gaze. it was hard to find what's going on in his mind. My hand feasted. I wouldn't give up so soon. At last I would give a last try. My whole feature stiffened as I observed the gun tucked on his jeans. If somehow I got hold of that then the condition would be in my control. Frowning a bit, he slowly moved closer to me. I was preparing myself. I would get only a single chance and there was no room for error. Snatching away his fully loaded gun from raghunath naik's grip under his nose was next to impossible but I had to rely on that for moment. "Just a few bit more..." my mind said as I saw him approaching and my eyes were fixed on the gun secretly. My whole nerve was shaking in anticipation. he came close enough to me. I was just preparing myself for the impossible thing then he suddenly grabbed my hand. Blood dropped from my face. I sensed like he caught me. But at the next moment I felt my diary's load on my captivated hand. I snapped back with wide eyes. Placing the diary on my hand he was looking towards me with his silent unreadable gaze. My diary was kept on my palm and that palm was imprisoned between his two palm's hold within the diary.

He kept hold of my hand long while my confused gaze observed me. As I saw my diary in my hand, moist formed in my eyes. That diary hold everything about my life, my precious memory, my day of happiness, the day of gloomy sadness, its pages still held the impression of my tears which I shed every night penning down those painful memory. I didn't know when tears came down my eyes. "Oye..." his words broke my trance. "Abhi yee akhon kii tanki leak kar nee ki zarurat nahin hain... Kuch bhi nahin pta apun koo... Arey s**a mere ko too samajh hich nahin ayega.. kya hain naa apun kaa English mein locha hain.. dimag mein nahin ghusta..." he said in confused tone. I sighed the breath of relief. Thank god! "Haan par iss key baad jab bhi likhnee kaa naa too hindi mein likhnee kaa... dekh... angrez too kab kaa kalti maar liye... too unke zuban koo pakar kee yee khicha tani kyun karti hain..." I stared coldly towards him. "Abey yaar aisey mooh mat bana..." he finally let go of my hand, "waisey tu bhi yedi hain... arey agar yee kagaz kaa dher chahiye tha too sidha aa kee mang leta mere see... aise ghar mein choro kee tarah ghus nee kii kya zarurat thi?!" he asked with slight irritation. I couldn't afford the mocking smile. "Mang leta too dee dete nujhe?!" I asked straighly. "Arey haan barobar de deta... apun aapne pass tera diary rakh kee kya pataka for deta?! Teri cheez hain tu rakh..." he stated in same annoyance. "Mujhe too pata hii nahin tha kii naik sadan kee log liye gaye cheez wapas bhi karte hain.." I said with that same mocking tone looking towards the diary. "Eee kya matlab hain tera?!!" he asked as the annoyance increased in his voice. "Kyun kii joo cheez mujhse china gaya hain woo aaj tak mujhe wapas nahin mili aur sayad kabhi milegi bhi nahin..." I stated as my voice chocked. "Arey yaar jalebi mat kar aur sidha sidha bata ki problem kya hain.." he asked as if he would just solve everything. Should I tell him that what he snatched away from me?! My parents, my happiness, my life, my peace.. and so on. "Bhut lambi list hain... sunte sunte raat kat jayega.. iss sey better hain kit um naa suno.." I said avoiding his gaze. I flipped the pages of diary and brought out that tulip flower and my families photograph. How happy we looked at that pic. That happiness would never be able to come back I guess. As I caressed the photo my eyes started to turn blur due to tears which I rubbed secretly. While watching over the diary I heard his annoyed buzz, "S**a iss yedi kaa samajh nahin atta... Pata nahin kab kya karti hain.. kabhi shetty kee pillo ko thappar maar kee chali ati hain too kabhi rata ko choro kee tarah ghar pe ghus jati hain... aura pun kaa ddimag sanak taa raheta hain aur iss key piche daurna parrta hain..." I looked towards him and said, "maine tumse nahin kaha mera picha karne ke liye.. waise bhi maine humesh kahan hain.. aur aaj bhi kahe rahi hoon. Tumhari madad nahin chahiye humein.." I stated firmly as his face hardened more and frowned to me. "Itni akar kyun dikhati hain humesha?! Haan..." he asked me, "Madam do do baar jaan bachayi hain teri... do baar.." he daanced his index and middle fingers in front of my eyes, "Ekbaar thank you bhi nahin boli... Woo chor.. Par apun kee sath aise karw karela kii tarah batein kyun karti hain... Dushman nahin hoon teri... Kabhi ache see bhi baat kiya kar... Teri hi bhalayi hogi... Kyun kii kabhi apun kaa bheja sanak gaya naa... Too pata nahin apun kya kar baithega..." he almost warned me at last. "Dushman.." I chuckled a bit, "Kya pata,, insane aur rishto koo badalte der nahin lagti... aaj joo dost hain kaal woo duhman ban jate hain.. aur ulta bhi hota hain.. kuch bhi too constant nahin hota." I said painfully. "yaar tu fir see jalebi bana rahi hain.. teri yee sari batein mere khopri kee upar see chala jata hain yaar.. chalta kya hain tere dimag mein?!" he said in annoyance. I laughed a bit and looked towards his face, "Bas soch rahi hoon kii agar tumhe yee diary ki batein samajh mein aa jati too kya hota... kya yee sab kahe pate tum.. sayad main yahan sahi salamt khari bhi nahin rahe paati... pata nahin kya hoo jata..." I stated in pathos. His eyes widened a bit for a while but again was masked by irritation. "Acha?!.. hain kya tere iss kagaz kee dher mein?!! Bas woo angrezi mein likhaa huya kya saab batein aur sath mein yee photo aur sukha huya phool. Tu bhi ajib cheez hain yaar... Diary mein sukhe huye phool koi rakhta hain kya?!!" he asked in his usual tone. listening to his question I silently lifted that fkower from my diary and held near his eyes. he confusingly looked towards the flower. "Thik see dekho too samajh aaa jayegaa...Sukha huya nahin hain... Jala huya phool hain.. Aag mein jala huya.. Aisi aag joo zindagi kee sath sath bahut sare logon kii khusiyan bhi chin leti hain." I said in low voice, his eyes widened looking towards the burned tulip in my hand. He snapped back to my face with shocked eyes. "Sukhe huye phool too fir see khil sakte hain. Par jale huye phool kabhi naahin khilte... Yee too jaan te hi hoo naa tum.. Chahein kitna bhi pani de do.. Dhoop de do... Yee kbhi wwapas zinda nahin hote... Kyun jana te hoo.. Kyun ki un logon kee jine kii chah hii khatam hoo jati hain." my voice was choking while stating those words to the very man who made my life just like that burned tulip, there was no hope for live. A life only surrounded by death!!

He seemed hell startled and as well as confused by my words. His curious eyes continued to observe my face to get the answer of his confusion. I slowly kept back the flower on my diary's page and moved forward leaving him behind. Moving some steps away I looked back aand found raghu standing there at the same position fixing his amused eyes to me. "Ek baat batana bhool gayi thi..." I said, "Tumne do baar jo meri madad ki hain.. tumhara yee ahesaan udhar raha mujhpe...fikar mat karo, mar nee see pahele sood samet wapas kar ddongi." Listening to my words his eyes turned more shocked. I didn't wait long there. slowly with my stumbled feet I moved back to my house. When I reached at the door of my house tears had already blurred my eye sight.

When it would end?! When I would get back my peace of my mind?! I looked towards the star above but even they coudldn't answer.