Gun and Guitar-a RANTARA ff(2nd thread)updated @Pg147 - Page 11

Chapter 33

Antara was shocked like hell when she observed how the area was totally covered by raghu's gang men. As she moved outside from the dark path and came near the locality she saw mach mach and others were coming out from the darkness catching those drunken men whom she observed a moment ago. All the way raghu didn't make a single conversation with her. his firm eyes were fixed on the road. Antara was looking at his face with wide questioning eyes. her mouth was sealed as she didn't have courage to say a word to him. She looked at her palm steal imprisoned in his tight hold. Raghu didn't loosed his grip once for all the way. "bhai.. mil gayi yeri?!... ye log udhar hungama kar raha tha?! Ee yeri tere ko kisi ne pareshan to naii kiya?!!" machmach asked looking at antara. antara nodded silently in no. "machmach tu sab ko le ke dusre jeep se aaa..." raghu said. machmach nodded. Raghu again dragged antara towards the jeep parked at the side. when they reached near jeep, raghu left her hand and looked towards her with unreadable gaze. Antara gazed at front and sat inside the jeep without saying a word. The silence between them was increasing the tension. Both of them want to start other first, but none of them were taking initials. As antara sat inside the jeep lowering her gaze, raghu sighed and moved towards the driving seat. He started the engine. They remained silent all over the way but still they were stealing glances of each other unknown to all. ye yeri kuch kahe kyub bahi raha hain?!! arey kuch too bol... s**a khopri satak jar aha hain apun ka iski iss silent mode se...' raghu thought while driving the thought. Should I talk to him or no? Is he still mad on me?!! What should I tell to him?! why he is not he saying something. He is not even looking at me.' Antara thought looking at raghu's hard face. at last they came near a little cottage area and antara observed a small crowd there. they were all raghu's men. Antara frowned looking at the police jeep parked near the cottage but when she saw the polices dragging three man outside of the cottage her jaw almost dropped. Those three men were none other than adi, prateek and anuj. Their condition was really bad. Anyone could clearly observe the bruises and dark spots allover on his face and uncovered body parts. Their clothes were almost ripped. They were even stumbling while walking. Antara could see a big black spot around adi's left eye and a clear wound at the corner of his lips. His condition was two time worse than other two. It was clear that someone bit them black and blue mercilessly. And antara new very well who could do such things! She gasped and looked at his side with slight wide eyes. raghu looked at her at that moment. His eyes were firm and full of determination. As if he was trying to say that he would break each and every nasty hand, ripped off each and every eye who would dare to harm her anyhow. antara looked back to the police van. She also saw maya and jass were also going with them. a police inspector rushed to their jeep. "raghubhai.. sara maamla feet ho gaya... aap ne jaisa kaha tha... aise case mein fasa diya hain iss adi ko ki uske papa ko bhi nastanabud hina parega..." the inspector said. "hmmm.. bariya hain.." raghu said. "aur unn larkiyon ko bhi hum sahi salamat ghar bhej dengey... Humne unn dono ka statement bhi le liya hain.. bas iss madam ki statement lena baki hain... agar aap bura na mane too..." inspector asked. "naii abhi naii... Larki dari huyi hain... aur thak bhi gayi hain... issey araam ki zarurat hain... kaal humare basti me aa ke iski bayan lete jana..." raghu said in ordering voice. "thik hain raghubhai aap jaisa kahe waisa hi hoga... waisey bhi jyada kuch problem nahi hogi... aur upar se aap ne khud kaha hain to samjho kaam ho gaya..." inspector said. His hidden concern in his hard voice again speeded antara's heartbeat. She looked at him with dumb gaze as he moved towards raghu as he silently started the engine again.

The whole journey got over with their anticipating silence towards each other. They tried hard to open their mouth and talk. But it seemed like their lips were sealed forever. Their silent stole glances to each other continued to make the situation odder. Raghu parked the jeep on the door step of kaul house. Antara looked at his face again. he was looking at front, still not looking at her side. she thought to say thx to himbut looking at his hard expression she couldn't gather the courage to say anything. she silently went down from the jeep. Raghu looked at her back with intent eyes. he wanted to ask her if she was all right?! Did adi hurt her or not?! But her silence was making his mouth shut. He couldn't understand what was going on her mind. just a moment ago in that lonely beach of mud island, she saw her conceited eyes. he didn't want to make you upset anymore asking her something about that horrible moment. The door of the kaul house got opened and came outside rushing madly. Perhaps she heard the sound of jeep. "antara!!.." mummy said. "mummy!!.." antara hugged her tightly and cried madly. "antu... antu.. tu thik hain na?!!" saroj asked worriedly cupping her face. "haan mumy main thik hoon... par mummy main bahut dar gayi thi.." antara said almost shaking. Raghu was looking at her with worried eyes. saroj observed him on jeep. "raghu thanks!!... aaj pata naii tum na hote to kya hota.." saroj said with grateful eyes. "koi baat naii aunty..." raghu nooded his head. Antara's neck slightly twitched to him. but she didn't turned back fully to see his face. she could feel the intense gaze on her back. "antara tujhe kahin chot to nahin lagi.." saroj asked again. "nahin mummy... aisa kuch nahi huyaa... mummy, please aap bura mat maan na... par main kaal kashmir wapas jana chahti hoon..." she said those words with a deep breath. raghu's eyes froze for a while as she said about going back to Kashmir. He quickly moved towards her with wide eyes. "kya? Kaal hi...!!" saroj was all startled. "haan mummy, I really want a change now." Before antara could finish the word the jeep engine roar on her back, both of them looked and saw the jeep going inside machmach's garage with full speed. Antara's heart thudded loudly in anticipation. Had she again done a mistake talking about her going back to Kashmir in his front? "antara first come inside and get fresh and then we will talk about that.. it's quite late at night." Saroj proposed. Antara nodded and got inside with saroj.

Raghu threw some broken piece of metals near his feet in frustration. He saw machmach sleeping soundly at a side. He didn't go back to his house as it was late at night. Raghu too didn't feel like going back to naik sadan. His head again boiled up as antara told about going back to Kashmir. He sat on the bench at side in frustration. "woo aisa kaise kar sakti hain.." he said in frustration. "kyun woo fir se apun ko chor ke jaa rahi hain?!! ab apun ne kya kiya?!!" he caressed his hairs in frustration. His feet hit something and a bottle rolled out from the beneath of bench. Raghu saw the bottle almost full with brown liquid inside. must be machmach's thing. frustration caught into raghu's eyes. he bend down and lifted the bottle. He quickly opened the mouth and gulped the alcohol madly. She parted the bottle from his lips and looked towards antara's balcony with mad eyes.

"antara, when will you come back?!" saroj asked. "I don't know mummy.." antara said with lost eyes, "may be at that moment when I will get over all of these. Don't worry, I will try to come back as soon as possible. I can't ignore my classes for my personal issue." She said with a small sad smile. saroj sighed, "well its better in a way. I forgot to tell you. your mama ji called me. I am also going to ahmedabad tomorrow. His work pressure is so high now days. so he couldn't handle everything all alone. I am going to help him to settle down and it will take a quite time you know. So its better if you don't live here when I am not around." She said. antara didn't know why she was not feeling happy the way she should be. going back to her own house should erase her all gloomy and make her excited again. But still something was sticking inside her heart. she went back to her room and started to pack her bags. But her mind was diverted somewhere else. She left all her things scattered on the bed and sat their holding her forehead. It was paining a bit due to stress. The inside felt congested. She came outside at the balcony. Her eyes roamed on the silent basti of late night. It felt so serene and calm, not a single buzz anywhere. She was leaving the place tomorrow. All the incident happened after coming in that basti flashed in front of her eyes and again a lone tears escaped from her eyes. she never thought that she was gonna miss the place, one of the most red alerted area of the Mumbai city, which changed her world upside down. Due to some unknown pull she came downstairs and opened the door silently. Raghu was still there seating on the bench and gulping alcohol. The intoxication had spread in his nerve and he had started to lose control. Antara didn't notice him that time as she was lost. Nit even raghu felt her as he was busy with the bottle. Antara moved towards the public library with silent steps. As she reached near the stares, she moved two to three steps up and sat there keeping her gaze blanky at the front. The chill air of night touched her hair but it couldn't sooth the restlessness going inside her.

Raghu again gulped a mouthful doze and threw the empty bottle. He was totally got by the alcohol at that moment. "s**a... Kya fayda... Ye bubbly aunty bhi kuch naii kar sakti... usko naii bhula sakti..." he said in stumbled voice and reached out to take another bottle from the bench at that moment his eyes fell at front. He noticed the fig seating on the steps of public library. He frowned a little but even in that state he didn't make a single mistake to recognize her. a wide childish grin spread in face. he got up with stumbled feet and went towards her.

Antara was lost in her thought when she heard heavy footsteps. She looked at front with alerted eyes and saw him approaching towards her. she gasped a bit. looking at her strange yet innocent smile and his stumble feet she easily got that he was drunk. As he came forward, the smell of alcohol in air made her assure. Antara's worry rose and she was about to stand up to get away from him quickly. But at that moment her eyes fell on his deep coal black eyes staring back to her with so much tenderness. It shove away her worry at that instant. Something was there, in his innocent huge grin and gleaming eyes which rooted her to the spot. antara remained at her posture keeping her innocent, amused and questioning hazel fixed on his face. raghu approached to her slowly without breaking the eye contact from her. he sat at her side slowly. His gri widened as he looked at her adorable face from so close. "miss call!!..." he said with a stumbled voice keeping his grin intact to his face. antara didn't respond and continued to look into his face trying to detect what was going in his mind. "tu bhi idhar hawa khane aa gayi?... tere ko bhi raat o ko nind naii ati hain kya??... meti tarah?!!" he asked with a small stumbled giggle. Antara lowered her gaze from him. "s**a apni nind to tabse tat a bye bye bol diya tha jab se tujhe dekha tha... Par tere kokya problem hain haan?!! Bol na..." he asked again in that same stumbled tune. Antara's heartbeat rose again as he said those words. She felt her chicks a bit warmer. Somehow she was not getting a bit afraid of raghu although he was drunk. Somewhere deep down in her heart she knew that he would never harm her anyhow. "takleef hoti hain... naaa??..." he chuckled sheepishly. "apun ko bhi hoti hain... woo joo sine ke andar hota hain na dil... Udhar ajib si jalan hoti hain... jab tu mere se gussa hoti hain..." he said with a painful laugh. Antara looked at him with painful eyes. "tere ko bhi takleef hoti hain... apun dekha hain teri akhon pe... chahe tu lakh chupane ki try maar le... par apun sab dekh sakta hain... tu mere ko chot deti hain aura pun tere ko... iss sey fayda kya hota hain misscall?!... Hum ek dusre ko kyun itna takleef dete rehete hain?!!" he asked innocently. She couldn't give answer. even she didn't know why everything become so complicated between them. if some miracle happened and everything became normal again. "S**a kyat ha aur kya ban gaya... kya chokri life thi apni... akha Mumbai mere se darta tha... Aur apun sab ko darate reheat thaa... Pata hi naii tha ki dar kya hota hain... par jab se tujhse mila... sab kuch ulta par gaya... mere ko bhi pata chala ki dar kya cheez hota hain... s**a bare bare ser ko bhi chuha bana de..." His mocking laugh roamed into the silent basti making her dumb. "tere ko khone ka dar... pata chala kitna khatarnaak hota hain... teri woo akhein pure ek saal taka pun ke bheje mein khalbali machata raha... kitna sara dardaur nafrat tha mre liye jab tujhe apni asliyat pata chala... s**a itne logo ki haddiya tori fir bhi apun ko kuch farak naii para... par tera bharosa toot te dekha too andar chuba... bahut jor se chuba... aaj bhi chbta hain jab tere akhon mein apun woo nafrat dekhta hain too..." he looked inside her eyes with deep intense emotion which shook antara all over. Without uttering a single word she continued to look dumbly inside his eyes. she felt that his words were again hitting the world she build around her heart and making several huge cracks. "itna nafrat... kyun?!!!... itni bari galti ki kya apun ne!!... mere se nafrat karke tujhe bhi to takleef hoti hain antara... aur tujhe takleef ho ye apun ko manzoor naii... Kabhi bhi nai..." his voice was getting huskier and more stumbled. The alcohol was getting on his nerve slowly and was taking away his sense one by one. He looked deeply inside her sad innocent hazel and slowly he bent down his head. Startling antara again, raghu placed his head on her lap and closed his eyes. antara froze at the spot. her wide eyes continued to observe his calm face in her lap. She couldn't resist him to rest on her lap. His warm sensation on her lap was feeling somehow so calm to her. he opened her eyes and slightly twitched his head and looked inside her innocent hazels looking down to him. he again smile widely. "antara!!" he said in slow husky voice making her heart flutter. "itni bari bati pyari se akhein hain... fir bhi itni udass kyun raheti hain hamesha... kitne din ho gaye teri woo hasi dekhe huye... s**a teri uss hasi ne hi apun ko hila dala tha... jab paheli baar apun ne tere ko dekha tha..." he said with an wide grin and lifted his face gently remiving the hairlocks from her face. antara flushed instantly by his rough fingers feel on her tender chick. "apun ki wajah se... tere ko... bahut takleef huyi naaa?!!..." he asked tenderly. His voice was more broken than before but the intensity was not even fading a bit from his eyes and voice. antara didn't answered and closed her eyes for a while, might be to control the overflow coming down her eyes. He tossed his neck and buried his face more on her lap making her shiver a bit. his hand caught around her knees which made her gasp a little unknowingly. "apun ne jaan bojh ke... kuch naii kiya... Sachiii... bas mere se hi gaya... apun to tera sabkuch... Thik karna chahta tha... par har baar galti ho jata hain... apun kya kare yaar?... aisa hi hain apun...wooo fool aur...wooo cards deke... wooo pappu romeo ban ke... mere ko woo sab naiii atta... Par teri parwah hain mere ko... Tu samjahti kyun naii?!!... bol na... kya apun itna bura hain?!!... tu mere ko aise hich... Apna naii sakti?!! bol na..." he squeezed her knees with her hand tightly making her breath hitch. His each and every words were making a huge emotional pull inside her which was about to burst out. "tujhe pata hain.." he started again after a long pause. "jab se ayi off hi gayi...mere se koi aise has ke...pyar se baat naii karta tha... Par tune kiya... Anjane me hi sahi par kiya to... jab bhi teri hasi dekhti thi... Tera woo gana sun ta tha... bahut acha lagta tha... Tu pass hoti... Too dil ko ajib sa... sukoon milta tha... tere ko sach apun bata naii saka antara... isme apun ka koi matlab naii tha... bas mere se himmat naii huyi bta ne ki... Ek tu hi to thi ... Jisne mere ko koi khooni... darinda... dushman naii... balki ek insaan mana... Apun woo khusi naaii khona chahta tha... issi liye mere mooh se sach... naii nikla... bol isme meri kya galti hain?!!..." he asked poorly. Antara felt something moist on her lap. Was he crying?!! She could't see his face as it was buried on her lap. She looked at him blankly. For the first time she was witnessing what truly he was holding inside him for so long. Suddenly his grip hardened around her knees. "kyun antara... apun inasaan naii hain kya?!!... kya mere ko koi acha naii lag sakta hain kya?!!... kyun naiii... bata naa... sab ke liye pyar karna sahi aur mere liye galat?!!... KYUN???!!!" he asked frustratedly in so much broken voice. antara squeezed her eyes shut tightly. His deep pain was pinching her badly and she understood that what actually she was doing to him for all the time. "S**a akha life mein sab ko bas humesha maut di hain.. par paheli baar kisi ko zindagi dena chaha... apun to humesha logo ko asoon deta hain... par tujhe rota huya dekta hoon to tera asoon poch ne ka man kiya... par tu hain ki na apna bhala karne deti hain, na apna asoon pochne deti hain... kyun apun ko pass naii ane deti... KYUN MERE KO TERE SE PYAR KARNE NAHIN DETI?!!" his broken stumbled voice hit the wall badly, breaking all the boundaries at last. She remained there, frozen, numb by the huge wave of emotion hitting her, shaking her, removing each and every black curtain from her heart. "tu fir apun ko chorke jaa rahi hain... kyun kar ti hain aisa?... pata hain teri family hain udhar... par apun ke pass kaun hain?! ek tu hi too hain jissey apna sab kuch maan liya tha... aoub tere bina kaise rahega?!!!... antara... ek saal taka pun tere ko yaad kar ke jiya... Aur naii higa mere se... naii jii paunga... MAR JAUNGA TERE BINA!!!..." he said loudly abolishing the last stone remaining on the wall. The huge wave hit the wall at blew it away. The devastating flood cleared away all dirt from hearts, from eyes. antara sat there frozen, devastated letting herself blown away by that huge flood of emotions. A tear escaped from antara's eyes and fell on raghu's head. Raghu looked back to her hazels and his shattered eyes almost broke antara's heart inti pieces. He seemed disturbed looking at her tears. "tu fir se... ro rahi hain... !!" he said in stumbled voice. he slowly lifted his face from her lap gazing towards her and his hand shifted on her shoulder from her knees. "arey ro mat... Apun tere ko fir se rula diya... Apun se hummesha yahich galti ho jati hain..." he said in innocent stumbled voice. his eye sight was getting blur due to alcohol. He looked intently towards her face. a little cute smile spread on his face. he leaned slowly towards her. that time antara didn't even resisted or tried ti get away from him. she let him do whatever he wanted. He leaned on her neck and suddenly kissed deeply on her chick brushing away those tears with his lips. antara closed her eyes in so much pleasant feeling. She felt like her heart getting alive by his touch again. a small smile escaped from her lips after so long. She was not despised of him, his closeness, his touch. Each and every wall of hatred, anger, pain was broken down. Just after that deep kiss on her chick raghu's face collapsed on her left shoulder. antara opened her eyes and looked at his innocent face sleeping soundly on his shoulder. he lifted her right hand and gently caressed his hairs. "sorry!!!" she said with sad eyes full of guilt. "I am really really sorry. Mujhe nahi pata tha ki tumhare andar itna kuch daba huya hain... kash mujhe pahele pata chal jata..." She said slowly looking at her sleepy face. she thanked god for bringing her at that place where everything got cleared up. She understood what he was actually! A prince in attire of pauper! She never knew that the innocent boy hiding behind the merciless killer. she just saw the glimpse but on that day she got the clear view. He was just like an empty shell, hard to break from outside but total blank inside. and when he needed someone she was leaving him all alone. She could hear her inner voice calling her, antara, now if you leave him like that, you would never be able to forgive yourself.' It said. antara remembered once she asked her pappa, "pappa!! If the person destined for me doesn't come out like the way I want him to be?! if he is going to be totally different of my imagination.What If he posses some bad qualities?" At that moment his pappa smilled and said. "then you will change those bad quallities into goods. I know my daughter. She has the power to change the world with her love and affection. Couldn't she even change a man?!" he answered that time. And that voice roamed in her mind for a long while as she observed raghu's sleeping face for long with calm face.

Machmach was amused as he saw antara standing in front of him when his sleep broke. It was still dark. "mach mach bhaiya... sorry to disturb you... par raghu wahan bahar para huya hain.. public library ke pass. Main to ussey yahan nahi la sakti... iss liye aap ko bulaya..." She said silently. "kya bhai udhar bahar..." mm became worried. "jii..." anytara nodded. MM rushed outside quickly. Antara looked at the direction of public library where MM was lifting raghu;s unconscious body. with a last glance towards his sleeping face, antara moved inside her house.

Precap: "tu woo... Sach mein Kashmir ja rahi hain?..." he asked with eager eyes fixed on her face. "tum kya chahte ho?!!" she asked with a frown. He was a bit startled by her questioning back. "woo kya?!!" he asked again. "maine poocha ki tum kya chahte ho?!! Main yahan rahoon ki Kashmir chali jaaon?!!" antara asked again folding her arms. "arey teri memory card secomd hand hain kya?!! Sab bhool jati hain... apun to pahele din se kahe raha hain ki mat ja... par tere ko sunayi hi naii deta..." he blabbered in irritation. "OKKK to main nahi jaungi!!" she said indifferently jerking her shoulder. his eyes widened and his breath stopped as her thoroughly observed the mischief in her gleaming eyes. "tu sach mein naii jayegi?!!" he asked holding his breath. "kaha to nahin jaa rahi hoon..." she smiled, "tumhari memory card to mujhse bhi weak hain..." she teased a bit. "to ye sab kyat ha..." He asked scratching his head. "kyun tumhar basti hain... tumhare permission ke wagar to main yahan nahi rahe sakti naa?!!" she said with another mischievous frown.

ps: happy holi to all🤗