Stalking : Ever expierienced it? - Page 7

Originally posted by: Dexterkichokri

I am interested in knowing about this. I have a similar feeling. Years ago when I told my first boyfriend during intimacy, it seemed really vivid and I told him. I remember him being furious at no one being able to shelter a vulnerable child. I have never told anyone but him. But later on, I wasn't sure if I quite recollected the events correctly. Is it in your repressed memory, perhaps? I have often wondered the same. I don't see the face. I don't hear the voice...just the act seems to come and go at will. I have never seen a psychologist regarding this and it has not adversely affected my sex life. But I often wonder if this is why I am such a commitment phobe when it comes to marriage and children. How do you feel about it if you don't mind me asking?

Originally posted by: Arwen.

I was in the middle of replying to u when there was a power outage 😆

So coming back to this ... If my early childhood memories are real, than there are two points in my life when i was molested .. one when i was at most 3 but probably younger and second one when i was 9 or younger .. The reason for my confusion is that the house i lived in both times were identical to each in other in design (different cities though) For as long as i can remember, i have this memory of going up the stairs and trying to tell my parents (in whatever language children that young use) except in my memory the stair case is on right side of the foyer but mum says it was on the left ... hence my confusion if it really happened and i repressed the memory or it's just a figment of my imagination ... I really don't know

I do feel that i came through with remarkably little scarring ...as a teenager i used to read those advise columns in magazines ... one magazine used to publish letters of child sex abuse survivors with the psychologist replying and advising .. and i remember thinking i don't feel any of the stuff those victims report .. i don't feel guilty or in any way responsible for what happened .. i m not angry or hate men and i don't have any fears of the opposite sex and even though i don't have a sex life, i m not grossed out by the possibility of intimacy ...
i actually feel pretty dispassionate about the whole episode(s) ..may be that could be indication of some problem? don't know though ... Sometimes i think that my being an introvert and essentially a bit of a loner stems from all of this ... or may be i was always a bit of an oddball 😆😆

So yeh ... i think i m alright but who knows what life will throw at me right? may be some day somewhere i'll realize that it did effect me after all? i don't know Dex .. for now i feel as normal as every other person ... Everyone has there secrets .. mine are just a bit more twisted than usual

Originally posted by: blue-ice

Reading this thread has made me vevy vevy saaad😒

Originally posted by: souro

The world is pretty messed up, especially with such people around. One can't even trust one's relatives. I don't know what kind of perverted mind they have that they sexually abuse kids who are not even mature enough to understand anything.