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wo sab hone ke baad mera dil bohot dukha tha yaar. kiyon ke os se agey ab main kuch kar nahi sakta tha..

or mera is baat pe bhe dil dukha tha ke milne wali baat pe bhe meri feelings se khela inhon ne? agar nahi milna tha to sept to dec wo drama kiyon kiya tha,.. ab kya wo kahain gi is ke peeche bhe koi reason tha? ya kahain gi ke on ki causin ke sath eysa hova tha, lool

ya kahain gi ke wo ab change ho chuki hain? ya ye bolain gi ke wo Bhootni mar chuki thi jis ne tum se milne ki baat ki thi 2018 me,!! matlab kya jawab hoga on ka ke kya reason tha eysa karne ka,?

mazakh ho raha hai yahan.. 3 months tak Ap kisi ko milne ka kaho or wo agar yakeen kar ke milne a jaye to Ap eysa karo os ke sath? is pe kya reason launch karain gi wo main dekhna chahta hoon. lol

to main wapis ghar chala geya tha os ke baad.

lekin phir se wapis aya dec 2019 me.

tab on ka mesg mila tha mujhe wo ye tha ( You're in US right now? ) ye mesg dec 2019 ke ke end me aya tha. or jab main ne read kiya to socha in ko kya jawab doon main,?

i mean last year 2018 me bhe eysa bola tha or meri feelings se khela, to ab kya plan hai in ka?

i mean again main dar chuka tha na ke ab na jane kya karne wali hain...

or ye dar on ki harkaton ki waja se hai na.. wo a kar sabit kar dain ke dec 2015 ke baad jab bhe baat hoi onhon ne mujhe hurt nahi kiya kabhe? agar wo sabit kar dain ke haan os time nahi kiya tha to jo saza hogi main accept karon ga. to dar to lage ga na, ke Ap acha mesg karoge to samne se reply ayega bhe ya nahi or aya bhe to kese ayega? to mera darna banta hai Bhai..

barhal main sochta raha ke kya reply karon or kya puchon in se? eyse he sochte sochte 15 days guzar gaye to main ne socha ab to bohot din ho gaye to kya reply karon, lol wese bhe wo janti hain ke i m in US right now to jab janti hain to puch kiyon rahi hain, lol

matlab ke itna use hova hoon on ke hath se ke ye samjh he nahi a rahi thi ke ab ki baar ye kya chahti hain? kya plan hai mujhe hurt karne ka...

os ke baad summer 2020 me main hamari yadon ko dekh raha tha to ek dam se ( typing ) likha aya, or main bohot zeyada dar geya, itna ke main ne mobile ko he band kar diya ke pata nahi kya bolne wali hain, lol

kuch minutes ke baad jab mobile on kiya to kuch bhe nahi tha, main ne again chat open ki to onhon ne typing phir se start ki or main phir se bhaag geya, os ke baad 3rd time eysa hova to main ne socha ye to dara rahi hain mujhe :P

to on ki is typing se 2 batain confrim ho gayin thin, i mean ke i m sure wo ye dekh rahi hongi ke main agar online hoon to kaha hoon, matlab ke os se pehle main ne ye baat share ki he nahi thi ke main on ki yadon ko dekh raha hota hoon all the time, to onko kese maloom tha? maybe on ke dil ne kaha ho, jo bhe tha on ka toy ya kuch or tha to on ke dil me he na. to shayed on ke dil ne bhe koi signal diya ho on ko ke ye online reh kar kisi or se baat nahi kar raha balke meri he old chat ko read kar raha hai, lol or onhon ne confrirm karne keyliye he wo typing ki ho ke dekhte hain ansar kya karta hai,

to ye baat on ko confrim ho gayi wo typing wala khel khelne se, or main ullu ban geya, phir socha same baat dono keyliye hai, agar on ko pata chala to wo bhe to online mujhe dekh rahi thin tab he to typing kar ke daraya mujhe, lol

os ke baad phir hum online online khelte they, i m not sure 100% ke wo online online he khelti thin ya kisi or se baat lekin shayed khelti hon..

os ke baad phir mujhe on ki missed call dikh jati thi kabhe kabhe, i dont know wo missed call he hoti thi ya sach me call he thi, becoz mera mobile to mute pe rehta tha to mujhe idea nahi. agar mobile mere hath me hota or on ki call ati to pata chalta ke puri call thi ya just chotti si missed call he thi..

lekin haan mujhe yaad hai 1st wali call tab to mobile mere paas he tha wo main on ki yadain dekh raha tha, or wo online a gayin or laga aj bhe typing kar ke dara dain gi mujhe kya? lekin os din onhon ne call kar ke dara diya tha, to main samjha shayed dara he rahi hain, but baki calls ka i dont know wese he thin ya sachi me call thi baat karne keyliye.

os ke baad dec 2020 me on ki last missed call thi os ke baad wo bhe nahi ayi kabhe,

phir online online he khelte rahe, or phir dec 2023 me main ne on ko last time online dekha... os ke baad abhe tak dikhayi nahi din online.. i think onhon ne block kar diya hai mujhe.. warna 4 months ho gaye 1 baar to online dikh jana chahiye tha na on ko.

wese ek baat wo sare kaam jo bhe hain i think on ka the end dec me he karti hain,

mujhe life se kick kiya DEC me,

mujhe green signal diya or gayeb ho gayi DEC me,

mujhe milne ka kaha or mili nahi DEC me,

last mesg DEC me,

last missed call DEC me,

last time online dikhi DEC me,

wese to on ka last mesg june 2023 me tha meri Sis ki Beti ki BD ki wish thi on ki taraf se,

mera mobile mere dost ke paas tha or wo game khel raha tha, to on ka mesg aya, to mere dost ne kaha ye BD wish kis mosam me kar rahi hai? main ne kaha matlab kon? to os ne btaya ke kis ka mesg hai, or on ka naam sunte he mere dil ki dharkan. na jane kitni fast ho gayi, becoz dec 2019 ke baad ye on ka mesg tha to mera haal wesa to hona he tha,loool.

main itna pagal ho geya tha ke ye samjha he nahi ke kis ko wish kar rahi hain,

or jab mesg dekha to samjh aya ke onhon ne mere status ko reply kiya hai , to main ne socha jis ki wish hai wohi reply kare to acha hai, to main ne wo wish Apni Sis ki Beti ko de di,

You know main na bohot pehle sochta tha ke in ka koi bhe meesg aya na to gusse se deal kar ke bhaga dena hai, but mujh se kabhe bhe wesa hova he nahi, i mean ab ki baat nahi kar raha 2019 se bhe pehle ki baat kar raha hoon, to jab bhe on ka mesg ata tha main melt ho jata tha gussa rehta he nahi tha.

or abhe mujh me itni bhe himat nahi ke koi ek mesg bhe kar sakon, phir se wohi baat ke ache se deal kiya hota to ye dar mere andar na hota, Ap soch rahe hoge ye kesa dar hai? to dar yehi hai Bhai ke itna sad hoon, to dar lagta hai ke wo kesa reply karain gi kahin ye na ho mujhe or rula dain..

Bhai ye thi wo thori si batain. ye sari nahi hain bohot thori si hain, lekin shayed Ap samjh sakoge itne se ke meri life ka haal kesa tha,

blv me or not agar main ek happy person hota na jo life se khush tha to shayed mera ye haal na hota jo aj hai,

onhon ne jo bhe kiya wo sab kar diya lekin jis person ke sath kiya wo shayed khud bhe nahi janti thin ke mera haal hoga kya os ke baad...

ek khubsurat life thi na yaar... ek ajeeb si chahat. care, pyaar, apnapan.. ye sab theek tha ya jo abhe hova ye sab theek hai...

jab koi problem nahi thi. to eysa kiyon kiya onhon ne...

kya jata onka agar sab wese he rehta to? onhon ne kya kabhe nahi socha hoga ke life shayed wesi he hoti jesi hum ne sochi thi.. kya problem thi, itni khubsurat life to thi wo.. or is ko or khubsurat bana chuke hote ab tak to hum...

mujhe maloom hai wo to khud kehti hain ke on ko kuch bhe yaad nahi. or hoga bhe kiyon,?

lekin mere liye wo time kisi janat se kam nahi tha.. itna acha time tha ke aj bhe wohi yadain dekh kar mujhe sakoon milta hai kuch...

pata nahi kuch log eysa kiyon karte hain.. koi 3rd person kare na to samjh bhe ata hai lekin jab wohi kare to phir ajeeb lagta hai.. or bohot dard bhe hota hai..

kya kehti thi wo? ke tum sab se alag ho, lol

torch le kar bhe jaon to ansar tum sa nahi mile ga,

tum meri zindagi ho tum se baat karna or tumhara sath acha lagta hai..

agar ye sab tha to phir eyse insaan ki he life se khel liya....

kya kiya mere sath? anjaan tha, pehle dost banaya. phir best friend banaya, phir pyaar kiya, phir life se khela or rula kar chali gayi.

phir bhe sakoon nahi aya baad me bhe khelti rahi..

or main ne kya kiya? on ki har zid, har baat ko mana.. khud ko change kiya on keyliye,

dekho main bhe to on se keh sakta tha na ke Ap meat khao gi jab hum ek sath rahain ge to right?

lekin onhon ne kaha ke ansar tum meat nahi khao ge, main ne dosri baat nahi ki yaar.. on se ye bhe nahi kaha ke plz eysa to na karo, ap socho jo bachpan se meat khata raha ho ek dam se koi kahe ke aj se nahi khao ge to asaan hota hai kya? but main ne os din se aj ki date tak main ne meat nahi khaya.

bohot change kiya main ne khud ko on keyliye. or bohot si baton ko to wo janti bhe nahi ke main ne kese kese change kiya khud ko.. wo pyaar he kya yaar jis keyliye Ap khud ko badal bhe na sako.! main koshish he nahi ki kar ke bhe dikhaya wesa,

on ko or khud ko le kar sapne dekhe. life ka plan banaya ke kese jeena hai kahan kahan jana hai.

or wo kya kar gayin?

ye sach hai ke onhon ne kaha tha ke ansar mujhe acha nahi lag raha tumhare sath ye sab kar ke, lekin agar eysa tha to phir kiya kiyon wesa,!!! matlab ye to same wohi baat hai ne ke Ap kisi ko kaho ke main tumhain goli marne wala hoon lekin tumhain marte hove dekh bhe nahi sakta, to ye funny lagta hai ke eysa bol kar bhe os insaan ko maar do Ap..

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to pyaare Bhai ye sab isi liye bataya aj ke Ap ko thora sa idea ho ke meri life Bhootni jee ki meri life me aney se pehle kitni sad thi. or eyse sad insan ko Ap ye yakeen dilao ke ab tumhari life me acha he hoga, or main yakeen kar bhe loon to phir ye sab kiya jaye to kya lagta hai Ap ko ke kya main bhula sakta hoon?

Ap yakeen karo mera pehla jitna bhe bura haal tha na aj se bhe bura hai becoz Ap kisi marte hove insaan ko khushi ki umeed de kar os se wapis cheen lo to kesa lage ga os ko?

yaar meri life me or bhe bohot si problems hain, daily kuch na kuch hota hai, main bohot mushkil se khud ko sambhalta hoon...

or yakeen karo wo batain main kisi se bhe share nahi karta, bus dil he dil me feel karta hoon..or sochta hoon ke aj nahi to kal ye sab to khatam ho baki Bhootni jee wala dard to ab nahi jane wala kahin..

meri life ko onhon ne hell se bhe zeyada bura bana diya hai Bhai.. ek eysi life jahan main har time sochta hoon ke kab marna hai main ne..

yaar kon dua karta hai khud marne ki,? sab ko zindagi se pyaar hai, to agar koi eysa kar raha hai to samjho na ke kuch to eysa hai na ke wo kar raha hai?

or on ka sath mere liye itna acha tha ke agar koi mujh se kahe na ke tumhain past me bhej sakta hoon btao kon se year me jao ge to main 2014 choose karon ga.. main bohot khush tha yaar. dil se main jeena chahta tha..

lekin sahyed meri ye khushi meri zindagi or Bhootni jee ko achi nahi lagi thi...

ok abhe chalta hoon. halat pehle he achi nahi meri.

eyse me na kuch bhe ho jaye mujhe sakoon nahi ata, or main janta bhe nahi ke kitne din eyse guzar jayein ge, jab har pal rone ko dil kare, jab har pal dil kare ke khud ki life khatam he kar leni chahiye..

or haan wo larka jis ki main ne starting me baat ki thi i hope ke wo mere jesa na bane. meri dil se dua hai ke wo mere jesa 1% bhe na ban sake. becoz meri jesi life hai na main kisi dushman ko bhe nahi kahon ga ye...

kudrat ka ek khel hai, sab ko marne se pehle on ke kiye ki saza mil ke he rehti hai koi bachta nahi. Bhootni jee keyliye meri dua hai ke on ke sath kabhe bhe kuch bura na ho or wo apni life me hamesha khush rahain.

agar main ye kahon ke on ke sath hona chahiye eysa to lanat hai mujh pe, lekin haan ek baat zaroor kahon ga or ye meri dua bhe hai GOD jee se ke on ki life me bus koi se bhe 24 hours eyse a jayein jab wo samjh sakain ke kesa lagta hai kisi ke sath eysa kar ke.. or Ap he kehte ho na ke main strong hoon? to main to ye sab bardasht kar raha hoon lekin wo 24 hours bhe kar lain to bohot baat hogi.

kiyon kee dosron ko ye kehna to asaan hota hai ke khud ko theek karo ya eysa karo wesa karo, lekin jab khud ke sath kuch eysa na ho to tab samjh ati hai..

kisi ne mujhe bohot kaha koi 2 saal se zeyda, os ne gusse se bhe kaha ke tum pagal ho, apna nahi sochte, phir os ki life me 1 week eysa aya ke os ko wo pain samjh aya to os ne kaha ke os ko bus marna hai, tab main ne pucha os se ke bus itna he tha? mujhe 2 saal se samjhane ki koshish ki or khud se 1 week bhe nahi guzar raha, lol

to ye sach hai. insaan dosron ki baat ko samjhta hai ke wo shayed pagal hai jo eysa rehna chahta hai :P

lekin sach ye hai ke Ap eysa karne ki acting beh karo na to 1 din bhe nahi kar pao ge.

baki mera kya hai yaaar, 9 years, 4 months to guzar gaye.

is pain me sans lena bhe mushkil hai lekin 9 years guzar gaye na. to dekhe hain life kab tak saza ban ke sath rehti hai..

dekhte hain kis ki jeet hoti hai. meri ya is khel khelne wali zindagi ki..

main aj khud ko bohot akela feel kar raha hoon, itna ke lag raha hai jese duniya me or koi bhe nahi hai.

Bhootni jee ke sath hote hove to mujhe sakoon he sakoon tha. sota kam he tha lekin nend achi a jati thi.

on se baat kar ke lagta tha ke zindagi kitni khubsurat hai na.

or last week to main ne on ko dream me bhe dekha, just on ko nahi, Mama bhe sath thin,

i dont know yaar, Bhootni jee to akele a jati hain dream me lekin Meri Mama nahi ati akeli dream me.. pata nahi kiyon jab bhe Mama dream me ati hain Bhootni jee hamesha sath hoti hain,

shayed is liye ke ye dono meri life me sab se khas hain.?

or Bhootni jee ko le kar kuch dreams itne real lagte hain ke active hone ke baad kuch pal lagta hai ke ye dream nahi tha.. real me tha.. bus wo kuch pal. kuch sec. wohi hain joo main feel kar leta hoon ke life khubsurat hai, or phiir jab hosh ata hai ke dream tha to wapis....

sach yaad aya Ap socho ge mujhe abhe kya hova?

to ye koi samjh nahi sakta, kaha na ke kuch batain main kisi se bhe share nahi karta.

bus Ap ye samjh lo ke mujhe meri life me ek or injection diya hai. os ki waja se ye halat hai. Bhootni jee wala dard to har time rehta he hai lekin abhe double ho geya hai na.

to mujhe zaroorat hoti hai eyse me kisi ki, or jab kisi dost se milon to dil karta hai nahi. akela he rahon...

isi liye starting me kaha tha ke i need You Bhai. i know Ap abhe to nahi aao ge or kab aao ge i dont know,

lekin agar Ap hote na real me mere samne to shayed Ap ko hug kar ke itna rota ke Ap ko samjh he na ati ke kese chup karwana hai mujhe..

Ap mujhe strong kaho ya kuch or Bhai.

lekin mera dil itna nazuk hai ke eyse me meri awaaz bhe nahi nikalti, aj subha se 3 calls reject kar chuka hoon or on se kaha hai ke baad me baat hogi,

hoga kya? mujh se baat nahi hogi or samne wala puche ga kya hova ansar awaz theek nahi lag rahi? to mujhe itni si baat pe he rona a jaye...

meri age ke sath mera dil nahi chal saka shayed, ye aj bhe 2 saal ke bache ki tarhan weak hai..

or ab to pehle se zeyada hai. akhir Bhoootni jee ne is dil ko abaad kiya tha phir tor bhe diya to weak to hoga na..

chalo yaar bye bye, ab or nahi hoga mujh se.

bed pe ja kar apni kismaat pe hasne ki koshish karta hoon..

sab ko ek na ek din is baat ka ehsaas hota hai ke onhon ke kisi ke sath kuch galat kiya,

lekin Bhootni jee ko kabhe ho he nahi sakta. kiyon itna pathar ka black heart main ne kisi or ka dekha nahi..

on ko kabhe realize he nahi ho sakti ye baat ke kya kiya onhon ne kisi ki life ke sath..

kiyon ke agar on ko sach me dil se kabhe bhe realize hova hota na to wo kam se kam nafrat or gusse ko side pe rakh kar he baat kar letin mujh se. wo bhe jab mujhe on ki har pal zaroorat hoti hai, on ki kami har pal feel karta hoon main apni life me. dil karta hai din start bhe on ke mesg ko dekh kar ho or khatam bhe on ke mesg ko dekh kar ho.

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Bhai main ne Ap tag kar diya hai, Ap page number 99 se yahan tak ki posts ko plz read karna. plz req hai Ap se...

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or bhootni jee Ap shayed ab yahan nahi atin, lol lekin kabhe ye sab read karne ki himat ya galti se Ap ne read kar liya jo hoga nahi Ap se,, phir bhe plz 1 baat sochna khud se he puchna ,

hum dono ek baat pe to same hain na main bhe kehta hoon ke main ab zinda nahi raha, or Ap bhe kehti ho ke wo koi or he thi jis ko tum jante they wo mar chuki hai,

to is baat ka taulq kisi dukh se hota hai, dukh insaan ko rula sakta hai, dard de sakta hai, lekin insaan ko change nahi kar sakta. i mean Ap dil se nahi badal sakte,

agar halaat he Ap ko change kar dain to Ap insaan kis baat ke,!

mujhe dekhho, zindagi or mout se daily fight karta hoon lekin wesa he hoon,!

mera baat karne ka style maybe thora change ho geya ho, lekin dil wesa he hai.

mujhe tab se le kar abhe tak kisi ne bhe nahi kaha ke main change ho geya hoon, ya mujhe dosron ki fikar nahi hai, ya main care nahi karta.

agar main change nahi hova to Ap kese ho gayin. ye khud se puchna,. or ye bhe puchna ke change he nahi hoi os ke sath sath Ap ne meri life ke sath jo bhe kiya wo kesa tha.

shayed Ap sochti hogi ke is ne kabhe baat nahi ki direct right? to reason ye hai ke main darta hoon Ap se, or dosri baat ke mujh se normal tarhan se baat ho bhe nahi sakti, i mean Ap mere dil me ho to Ap ke dil me main nahi, main Ap se jese baat karon ga Ap wese nahi kar saktin, i mean pyaar ke rishte se , dekho dosti tak baat rahe to theek hai, dosti se agey a jaye to phir dosti pe wapis nahi jati, warna eysa possible he nahi ke Ap se baat karne ka man na kare..

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@ok RB phir se bye bye, main itna bye bye is liye bol raha hoon ke dont know yaar main apni life ke sath kya bethon, ya wese khud se he kuch ho jaye.

or main ne bohot mushkil se yahan aney ki himat ki hai main to kal he aney wala tha lekin nahi a saka.

to i dont know kab aaon ga, maybe kal he a jaon, dekhte hain abhe jo life ne injection diya hai ye kab tak rulaye ga..

take carae Bhai.. khush raho. i love You Bhai.

or agar ho sake to mujhe bhe dua me yaad kar liya karo. 100% nahi lekin thora sa to ye pain kam ho na ta ke itni buri halat to na ho meri. plz..

bohot dard chupa hai zindagi ke har pehlu me,

dua karna kuch deir keyliye mujhe nend a jaye..

KSA

hayeee yahan to koi bhe nahi aya

chalo main to a geya na

RB i was playing call of duty cold war,

bohot din baat enjoy kiya main ne

main ne na kisi ko maar diya, or mujhe laga is ne kuch bola hai,

but main ne dheyan nahi diya tha ke kya

main ne phir se os ko maar diya, or he said ( arrreeeey yaaaar )

to ye sun kar mera dil garden garden ho geya ke ary ye to koi apni side ka lag raha hai, Indian ya pakistani matlab ab main is ko or maaron ga

main ne phir se os ko maar diya or os ne kaha ye kon hai is ka koi kuch karo 4 baar isi ne maara

tab os ke friend ne kaha kon hai ye, mere samne to aye,