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aaj kuch nahi bolna. dard bohot zeyada hai..

yaad a raha hai aaj ka din ye sab kese hova tha or kiyon hova tha..

yaad a rahi hai kisi ki har 1 baat. or mera ro ro kar os ko beg karna ke please na karo.. please mere sath eysa na karo.. please 1 baar sun lo.. please 1st time or last time 1 chance de do i promise ke kuch galat nahi hoga sab theek hoga please sun lo..

or jawab aya tha tum rowo ya tumhain dard ho mujhe is se fark nahi parta.. main ja rahi hoon os ke paas os ko meri zarorat hai or main idhar nahi aney wali....

14 dec din ke time tak to main bohot khush tha. zahir hai manzil pe tha apni.. or yehi os ansar ka akhri din tha. raat hote he duniya badal di thi meri kisi ne.. ansu abhe tak nahi gaye..

4 saal guzaar liye main ne, ab 5 saal keyliye ek ek din count hoga....

wo mere dil main aya to bohot se raston se tha,

jab jane ka rasta osey na mila to mera ye dil tor geya.

14 dec 2015 -💔-14 dec 2019

4 years... <3 <3 total 1461 din

1 saal or... phir 5 saal pure ho jayein ge..

GN..

kuch read karne ka man hai aaj. kabhe kabhe maza bhe ata hai khud ko dard dene ka,

read karta hoon dec 2015 ki kuch yadain,

saza kesi mili hum ko tujh se dil lagane ki,

rona he para jab koshish ki muskurane ki,

Originally posted by: Cursed

saza kesi mili hum ko tujh se dil lagane ki,

rona he para jab koshish ki muskurane ki,

muhabat khubsurat hogi kisi or duniya mei,

idhar to hum par jo guzri hai, hum he jante hain....

Originally posted by: Cursed

muhabat khubsurat hogi kisi or duniya mei,

idhar to hum par jo guzri hai, hum he jante hain....

dil se nikla he nahi wo din judai ka abhe,.

tum to kehte they bura waqat guzar jata hai..

Originally posted by: Cursed

dil se nikla he nahi wo din judai ka abhe,.

tum to kehte they bura waqat guzar jata hai..

beth kar sochte hain ab ke kya khoya or kya paya,

on ki nafrat ne tore bohot meri wafa ke ghar,

a gayi shamat meri 1 baar phir se.

jis ka dar rehta hai na wo kabhe kabhe ho jata hai..

mujhe USA jane tak theek rehna tha but nahi ho saka.. zahir hai 14 dec thi kese theek reh sakta tha.

heart ki problem hai. ager eysa he raha to Dad ne mujhe jane nahi dena.. ticket meri jayegi bhar mei. kaam they kuch warna abhe wahan hota.. mujhe maloom tha ye dec kya haal karega mera. socha tha shayed khud ko sambhal loon ga, lekin bhool geya tha main khub ko sambhalne ke kabil he nahi.. hamesha kisi na kisi ne mujhe sahara diya, pehle Mama ne, on ke baad os Nagin ne.. main to is kabil he nahi ke khud ko he sambhal sakon.. nafrat hai mujhe khud se, kisi kaam ka nahi main,!

log mujhe kehte hain bhula do sab, main on se kehta hoon mujh se koshish he nahi hoti to bhula kese doon,!!

kisi ne kaha tha tum daily read karte ho is liye, main ne nahi kiya, 4 se 5 months ho gaye os ka 1 mesg tak read nahi kiya main ne purani yadon mei ja kar, but kya fark parta hai, mujhe sab wese he yaad hai,! fark itna hai pehle read kar ke yaad ata tha ab wese he yaad ata hai, bhula to nahi na, har 1 baat yaad hai,

koshish kar raha tha acting karne ke, funny batain karne ki.. hamesha ki tarhhan 1 baar phir se fail ho geya main... koshish karta hoon or phir se wapis toot jata hoon...

ye jo dard hota hai na mujhe. ye kya halat karta hai meri ye koi nahi janta. koi samjh he nahi sakta. magar ye os ko samjh ayegi GOD jee os ko maaf nahi kar sakte,! mere har 1 ansu ka hisaab os ko dena hai. duniya main koi bach nahi sakta to os ki kya okaat hai,.. meri ye halat kar ke jayegi kahan...

khel kar meri zindagi se enjoy kiya os ne, mujhe rula kar bhe enjoy kiya os ne, waqat os ko jawab dega.!

jis ki waja se aaj meri ye halat hai os ko eysa ehsas hoga os ki duniya badal jayegi. phir main os se puchon ga kesa lagta hai,! ager zinda raha to,!

i m sure jaldi he meri bypass surgery ho jayegi. andar ka dard to nahi jane wala , bahir wala to khatam ho na, phir main ache se sad to reh sakon ga, abhe sad hota hoon to hospital jane wali halat ho jati hai,,,

bypass surgery 1 risk hota hai, mujhe khushi hogi agar os ke baad zindagi na mile to, warna kasam se ye counting chalti rahegi jab tak sans hai.. aj 4 saal ho gaye, eyse he 40 ho jayein ge ager main zinda raha to, khud ke sath bohot si galat chezain karna band kar din thin main ne, abhe phir se start kar din. ta ke health kharab rahe. or shayed koi lucky din a jaye tang a geya hoon is zindagi naam ki saza se.

ye is tarhan ke jo drame they na os ke mujhe ullu banane ke, is ka hisaab dena hai os ko ,!

ye sab dekh kar dil karta hai khud ko he 2 lagaon,!! itna bewakoof koi kese ho sakta hai... abhe saza mil rahi hai, milni bhe chahiye.. os ka kaam tha time paas karna, mujhe use karna, wo os ne kar liya ab os ko kya parwah , wo to sar utha ke kehti hai in sab baton ka koi matlab he nahi..