AYLS CC: Phoenix Feathers - Page 6

Wld reply tom harshuuu my day starts early so if i get stuck here i wld be stuck for ever...isliye running but wld reply tom so come tom tooo...ps...this is the place to find me...u always say u not ol or on fb and blah i feel most at ease here yahaan we cna actly talk and discuss so much and so vividly...muaaah cya huggy

Harshuuu! 🤗🤗 I know you do, so do I...obviously. But that is exactly what I am talking about that we are watching our favorite shows, we just wish to be part of it...want to just escape and I think that is because somewhere we are unhappy. I don't know about you harshu but past 1-2 months has been dark for me because I have been feeling useless since I wasn't doing anything and I wanted to LEARN and STUDY or keep myself busy. And on top of that, I was home alone most of the time because my parents work and my sister was out of town. And in that I used movies to be my escape or most of the time I slept (like crazy). So I don't know...like you said it could be because we just get bored but I don't think there is anything wrong in watching the shows and looking at the characters and learning from them like loons said. Because you know when we read the book, we all have different interpretations of one word and that is based upon who we are, so no...we are not really changing ourselves. And neither are you, if that is what you are wondering by just wanting to see the TV shows/Movies and loving them.

Sigh made these avis two-day☺️

That is EXACTLY the thing we have to watch out u know? We choose to stick to fiction as an "escape" and thats deadly thats suicidal because nothing NOTHING can make u escape ur reality sooner or later u will and will and so so WILL have to deal with your reality no matter how hard or bitter it is u cant escape and if u r finding escape mechanisms u r just wasting away precious time...i wld say THAT is what living in an illusion is...for me fiction never ever was an escape u know?...yes when i met Ay my life was a mess agreed but they didnt let me escape from that mess they instead made me grow strong and they they freaking made me DEAL with that mess fight through it and rise...loving AY nd other characters and books and all of that for me was never an escape route infact loving them made me accept my reality accept my own self just the freaking way i am...u know?...so yeah Harshu like u said all those girls reading MBs and fantasizing about their perfect prince charming...if they r doing it coz they feel something missing in their lives something whcih they cant find then thats definitely escaping and creating an illusion...anything u choose to love will never make u escape it would make u ACCEPT who u r what ur life is with pride and just sheer pride...i dont love and talk about AY MD HP coz i dnt have anything else to do in life or whatever shit...nopes i wld love to talk about them even on the busyest of days and times i wld love to sit hours and do special things for them give my heart and soul in them even at the busest times or happiest times or saddest time EVERY TIME i wld do it coz I LOVE THEM and loving them makes me strong loving them makes me love me my life it reminds me who i really am...iits my way of finding hope and strength,,,its my way of loving my reality being proud of it...so ya for me fiction is never an escape until and unless it gives meaning to my reality it wont and so freaking wont touch me

Originally posted by: FollowYourHeart

That is EXACTLY the thing we have to watch out u know? We choose to stick to fiction as an "escape" and thats deadly thats suicidal because nothing NOTHING can make u escape ur reality sooner or later u will and will and so so WILL have to deal with your reality no matter how hard or bitter it is u cant escape and if u r finding escape mechanisms u r just wasting away precious time...i wld say THAT is what living in an illusion is...for me fiction never ever was an escape u know?...yes when i met Ay my life was a mess agreed but they didnt let me escape from that mess they instead made me grow strong and they they freaking made me DEAL with that mess fight through it and rise...loving AY nd other characters and books and all of that for me was never an escape route infact loving them made me accept my reality accept my own self just the freaking way i am...u know?...so yeah Harshu like u said all those girls reading MBs and fantasizing about their perfect prince charming...if they r doing it coz they feel something missing in their lives something whcih they cant find then thats definitely escaping and creating an illusion...anything u choose to love will never make u escape it would make u ACCEPT who u r what ur life is with pride and just sheer pride...i dont love and talk about AY MD HP coz i dnt have anything else to do in life or whatever shit...nopes i wld love to talk about them even on the busyest of days and times i wld love to sit hours and do special things for them give my heart and soul in them even at the busest times or happiest times or saddest time EVERY TIME i wld do it coz I LOVE THEM and loving them makes me strong loving them makes me love me my life it reminds me who i really am...iits my way of finding hope and strength,,,its my way of loving my reality being proud of it...so ya for me fiction is never an escape until and unless it gives meaning to my reality it wont and so freaking wont touch me

Its very good that you have found inspiration through fiction. I think inspiration is one word we forgot while naming all of the AYLSes. (or did we name one of the AYLSes as "Inspiration"??) 🤣


Its always fascinating to read how all the fiction in your life have inspired you, changed you, toughened you up and made you all kick ass :P 🤣 🤣


For me, what I have observed/understood about myself all these years is that it is very difficult to change me. I'm quite stubborn to change. I mean, I enjoy a good show and love love LOVE a character.
But when it comes to real life situations and when I'm staring a situation in the face, I never think that "Ashi could have done this n that. And so can you." Somehow, I NEVER think this.
I wish I could but I never do.

For me, all the characters that I have loved, have been in some way, a form of my self expression. Or so I feel. I mean, all the characters I have loved have probably have had SOMETHING in common with me. Either its the tom boyishness , the bookworm-ish-ness, the subtleness, the emotional repression... etc etc

So whenever I strongly love a character, it is because it finds resonance within me. It is like an extension of me. The character probably has some facet of me.
It is like I am living through that character, a situation, which I probably would never live in my actual life. So yes, I enjoy all the emotions that a character feels :P

And I do enjoy spinning out multiple scenarios and crazy storylines for these characters.

But when faced with something, again, I go back to myself and react as ME and not as these characters. (So I guess I'm not a MPD or DID after all) :P :P :P But yes, I am concerned and doubt if I have too high expectations regarding romantic relationships! o_O


Sorry for boring you :P

changed me? nopes i dont think its easy to change me AT ALL infact i repulse change thats the whole thing i and mads were talking abt u know that how m sort of on the rigider side and cant handle even the slightest of change specially if the change is happening around the core of my life...like certain things and relationships define ur essence i cant handle anything changing or affecting that...and once i form an opinion its kind of hard to break or change...so none of these characters changed me...they just made me realize i have things which i previously didnt know i had...that i can believe in the impossible and actually strive for it achieve it...thats abt it...Ashi perhaps is my biggest inspiration but blv u me i dnt have a shard of thing common with her in fact we r poles apart more than poles apart i cant even think like Ashi does most of the time and my idea of fun adventure is so not like hers...so when am dealing with life its basically ME dealing not me being Ashi or thinking to be Ashi and then dealing...Ashi is just the inspiration who kind of brought those things feelings burried deep in me out...feelings like follow your heart and fight for your dreams believe in them and just be u the real u no matter how imperfect...thats abt IT...rest all is all ME...she is the force the hope that keeps me pushing but I am the one driving my life's car...the characters and stories i like may or may not be like me but their essence has to resonate the values and things I believe in..so what they basically do is strengthen my belief like HP for example strengthens my belief in love being the greatest cure in the fact that its actually our ability to choose between good an bad that defines who we r in the fact that if we have something to cherish something to love and fight for it can wipe out the greatest of scars dementors curses whatever u call it...u know?...and when this belief is strengthened i feel confident i feel stronger because coz i feel no matter how ugly things might get out there such invisible things like love and magic is still out there and i can actually feel its force how? by choosing to believe in it...thats it...basically i dnt get attracted by the attitude of a character i get attracted to their u know values sort of that inner thing...u know?..so its ok if they r not like me they cant even be like me coz I am ME there cna only be one me right?...out of so many chars that i loved the only two who slightly make me fele meish are Sonya and Mia...thats it

and abt romantic relationships...harshu...i wld say dont base ur expectations on the person per say rather define ur expectations from the relationship instead look if u start in a relationship with a pre conceived notion that this is what u want in ur partner or whatever then honey u r not actually looking to fall in love r u? u r instead just looking out for a thing u desire with so and so qualities with set parameters and yeah i am calling it a "thing" coz by doing so u r equating the person u r looking for to nothing but a commodity u know...let love just happen harshu..and if it would be love no matter how badly the person fails in ur list of expectations he wld still be THE one for u coz u wld love him for who he is and part of u wld love him exactly coz he doesnt gets a ten on ten in ur expectation meter coz when its love harshu u love the other for their weaknesses too...u know?...so stop creating a picture of the perosn u want u r limiting urself then hugely that too...instead carve out the vision of life and relationship u want with him...define what is and what not is love for u...so when u meet ur someone or whatever u wld know THIS this is what u had hoped for...and that u wld know not by the qualities of that someone but by the strength of ur relationship by the way u urself fele abt him..u know?...so stop worrying just loosen urself and go with it..go with life

For me, the "values" of a character are a done thing. You know, like a pre-requisite. Its like, I don't even CONSIDER characters who are not morally strong :P

So thats why didn't say much about the values and moralities.

But my fav. characters do HAVE to have some similar qualities as me. It's almost unconscious I think. I don't even think about it.

Its always good to see some part of you acknowledged by someone, in the form of the character...it is like a silent nod to me, a tip of the hat in my direction :)


On another note, after the end of Deathly Hallows, I realized that over the four years I have felt one feeling for the characters, particularly the Golden Trio. After much pondering, I realized that what I felt the most was pride. I was proud of them. For what they had achieved. What they had gained even while losing plenty.

And to be proud of *fictional characters*. Now that's saying something!

have a loook guys -

OH MY GOD just saw Made Of Honor and fell in love with Patrick Freaking Dempsey ALL OVER AGAIN i love that man i just LOVE him no one does dreamy stuff better than him no one no one can say I LOVE YOU the way he does and his eyes his freaking eyes god that man expresses everything so i dont know whatly specially heart ache pain that train chooting feeling when he feels it u wld feel it he is just so freaking I DONT NOW WHAT I LOVE HIM I JUST LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM🤗