AYLS CC: Phoenix Feathers - Page 4

but my point is MerDer isnt a phase mads...and i dnt want them to be a phase either i love them i truly honestly LOVE THEM and i want to love them FOREVER...is a beautiful love story a beautiful beautiful love story and over seven years of Remix and Ashi Yuvi happening they r the freaking first people i loved coz of THEIR OWN SELVES...rest all be it RD even MM to a certain extent for tht matter Geet Adi Rohan isha Rats Mew Sajan too i loved coz i saw tinges of my AY in them everything came back to AY u know? But MerDer mads u wont beleive how many times they defy my vision of love they totally do so...but the way they rise mads the way they survive in the face of everything...i just dont know...their journey it doesnt has one one thing similar to tht of AY there is just no freaking link and still i love them and i just DO and i want to love them with all my heart...I know the are not Ashi Yuvi Ashi Yuvi MADE ME they made me who i am they taught me to dream to love to hope to believe they gave me EVERYTHING mads and the mere thought that I am loosing them thats killing me coz i need i freaking NEED their belief in my life its THROUGH them i knew that ok this is what i believe in this is who I AM...MerDer are not all that mads they are not but still i love them and i love them loonyly mads I LOVE THEM and i want it to be ok to love them i dont want them to be a passing phase mads i want them to be part of me...I dont know

and i didnt know u r over Sajan...how did that happen?...guess its like i always told u u saw too much of urself in Gunjan and her story sort o gave u hope for ur own self in fiction u were actly u know trying to to cling to ur reality and when that Gunjanish phase of ur life passed Sajan's imp and meaning faded away coz they werent ur belief they were ur escape mechanism...

its not same for me with MErDer they r no escape infact some parts of their journey showed me things made me discover things which i couldnt even in AY;s journey coz AY didnt had that journey only AY;s journey is all about happiness and just HAPPINESS and HOPE and FAITH but MerDer oh man they lost faith they stopped believing and they were in pain and u know what we beleive that if we love we cant ever be in pain right like AY's love had no sign of pain what so ever even when they werent together they were just so HAPPY SO FREAKING HAPPY and blessed but MerDer were in pain but mads that pain too was just so beautiful in that pain they never once hated they never once blamed each other they never once regretted or denied their love and in the end they always reached to a point where they were just blessed that they both happened to each other they didn't know what future holds maybe they would make it maybe not but nothing no one could snatch this miracle from them and they were thankful for it blessed for it...u know?...so ya they r not like what Sajan were for u

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BRB LIGHTS GONE ITS RIANING LIKE NUTS

PS...THANX FOR TALKING THIS OUT WITH ME MADS NEED THIS TALK BADLY ARGH Y M I SAYING THANX?...I MEAN LOVE U FOR IT HUGS

Originally posted by: FollowYourHeart

but my point is MerDer isnt a phase mads...and i dnt want them to be a phase either i love them i truly honestly LOVE THEM and i want to love them FOREVER...is a beautiful love story a beautiful beautiful love story and over seven years of Remix and Ashi Yuvi happening they r the freaking first people i loved coz of THEIR OWN SELVES...rest all be it RD even MM to a certain extent for tht matter Geet Adi Rohan isha Rats Mew Sajan too i loved coz i saw tinges of my AY in them everything came back to AY u know? But MerDer mads u wont beleive how many times they defy my vision of love they totally do so...but the way they rise mads the way they survive in the face of everything...i just dont know...their journey it doesnt has one one thing similar to tht of AY there is just no freaking link and still i love them and i just DO and i want to love them with all my heart...I know the are not Ashi Yuvi Ashi Yuvi MADE ME they made me who i am they taught me to dream to love to hope to believe they gave me EVERYTHING mads and the mere thought that I am loosing them thats killing me coz i need i freaking NEED their belief in my life its THROUGH them i knew that ok this is what i believe in this is who I AM...MerDer are not all that mads they are not but still i love them and i love them loonyly mads I LOVE THEM and i want it to be ok to love them i dont want them to be a passing phase mads i want them to be part of me...I dont know

m back...and what u said is so true mads i feel unworthy of going to the forum too being at AYLS most importantly i feel i cant tlak AY with naps coz i fele she loves them more than I do and hence i dont deserve to talk them with her or i just cant talk them with her coz then i feel i love AY less or something and she loves them more i dunno m so confused SO CONFUSED

Originally posted by: FollowYourHeart

m back...and what u said is so true mads i feel unworthy of going to the forum too being at AYLS most importantly i feel i cant tlak AY with naps coz i fele she loves them more than I do and hence i dont deserve to talk them with her or i just cant talk them with her coz then i feel i love AY less or something and she loves them more i dunno m so confused SO CONFUSED

i would have known if it was a phase mads i would have i am a bit i dunno rigid person? or something but once i got AY i was done i didnt care about anything else i got my entire freaking heaven my whole life's path meaning via AY...and no one could get there no matter how beautiful they were in their own right u know?...but MerDer got there...they did they totally did...so i know its not a phase..but i jsut want it to be ok i dont want to feel guilty of loving them i dont want to feel as if am loosing myself or AY...thats all...and there is no turning back i love them thats a fact i dont know why i do i just do...i cant stop that feeling nor can i control it and i am done controlling it long back i accepted that i love them long long back whether or not anyone likes or approves i love them...but still something is missing just one piece where it would all be in tandem again...and i wld just b able to breathe freely

Originally posted by: mads

well u only know whether its a phase or not, until u put that behind.. when I loved SaJan, even I thought ( and KNEW it then ) that they are not a phase...now that I am out of it, I KNOW it was a phase ...

so for u, merder may or may not prove to be a phase in the future...what matters is that u love them right now..and its ok to love them.. even I loved SaJan, because of their freaking selves to begin with..and then later on found similarities in them and AY..even in season two or later on for that matter, when u gave up on SaJan saying they no more resemble AY, I still loved them for their own freaking selves...but now that I am out of it I know its a phase... when we are IN it, we dont realise it to be a phase ... so right now, if u do not want it to be a phase then so be it.. there's nothing wrong in it.. whats wrong is that u are not doing what ur heart is telling u to do..and ur heart is telling u to love merder, no matter what...and u must obey ur heart.. 🤗🤗

when I loved a guy for 4 freaking years of my life..I didnt know it would be a phase, I thought it would last forever (recall my talks about a yr back ) ... but then he broke my heart and I gave up even on our friendship.. and now, months after that incident, I KNOW it was a phase and this I would have felt, even if I werent dating someone else.. today I still am best of friends with that guy, I talk to him abt everything, he talks to me abt everything...he is genuinely sorry for what he did to me and I forgave him long back.. but my feelings for him were a phase which will never hinder our friendship again.. our friendship will go on forever..

so all I am saying is that, dont stop urself from loving something.. just dont.. go ahead and wholeheartedly do that which ur heart tells u to do.. 🤗🤗 the outcome does not matter..

gaaah I LOVE YOU🤗🤗🤗 i love u for just understanding ALWAYS even the sillyest of my things and u just understand without judging without questioning...i love u mads just love u for just being there man months goes by when we dont talk but when we do its just like ALWAYS...and its amazing how inspite of months going by we can share our sillyest of things so freely so uninhibitedly...love u love u love u...

and i want ot ask u something mads about this guy we r talking abt did u know he was just a phase before or after the happy thing happened to u?

well I think u answered ur own question.. u are rigid, so try to loosen up a bit.. may be u are not accepting the fact that u have allowed someone else to enter 'your' world.. u have included merder in that world of urs, but u are not able to accept it urself.. I guess everybody has this world of theirs, in which very few ppl are allowed... but as time passes, the people who enter this small world keeps on changing...and its easy to accept for people who themselves are flexible, in that they keep on changing themselves with time.. for u, the biggest change in urself was when AY entered ur life and thats that.. if I know right, then after AY, no big change has ever move u or inspired u to change urself ( I am not talking abt things which are AY-like..I m talking abt other independent things ).. there has probably been no non-AY thing that has moved u or inspired u uptil now, so u never felt the need to expand ur world.. now u have found it.. so it will take some time until u accept it..

Originally posted by: FollowYourHeart

gaaah I LOVE YOU🤗🤗🤗 i love u for just understanding ALWAYS even the sillyest of my things and u just understand without judging without questioning...i love u mads just love u for just being there man months goes by when we dont talk but when we do its just like ALWAYS...and its amazing how inspite of months going by we can share our sillyest of things so freely so uninhibitedly...love u love u love u...

and i want ot ask u something mads about this guy we r talking abt did u know he was just a phase before or after the happy thing happened to u?

okie smrits...as much as I'd like to continue talking to u..I have to go now..daaamn hungry..and nothing to eat at home as well will make some pasta or something like that..