Swaron OS :Do you need a break??(Current Scenario)

Do you need a break??

Swayam kept glancing at his phone time to time. After all the twists that had occurred in his life today turned the tables of D3 and his relationship upside. He kept staring at it waiting for Sharon's message. As expected Huma was restricted by her mother for dance rehearsals after she got caught. Somewhere he knew this was going to come. He just sat frustrated pulling his hair as he had no clue what is he going to do, either with D3 or Sharon.

The moment he tried explaining his part of story, she signalled him to stop battling with the tears which she wiped even before he could say anything.

"Ab nahi... i have to conduct rehearsals and i guess even you have to do that"

"Sharon ..just once listen"

"ABHI NAHI SWAYAM.. mein tumhe message karungi tab baa kargenge ab tum jao"

Saying that she turned around acting as if she checking some files... desperately waiting for him to leave so that she could let her emotions flow.

He stood there for a few minutes feeling extremely guilty cursing himself for the situation. How he wished he could just hug her and let her know how guilty he is. He traced his steps back turning around to leave. He stopped by the door.

"I Love you Sharon."

He spoke leaving a sigh as she let the tears flow.

He went back to the garage and sat on the floor thinking of her. He couldn't get his thoughts off her eyes...those eyes in which he wanted to see happiness no matter what, he made them cry. He found no justification himself for the act he did. He looked at the mirror to find a new person in himself. A new Swayam who is changing his principles the virtues he had for what ?? Is it just the competition or something else? He was a positive person who stood by his words no matter what but why is he acting in different way now.

Is it because he had so many people's career under his leadership?? He manipulated some and that too Sharon. What the hell he got out of it nothing in fact he is pretty sure that Huma will not come for rehearsals today. Is this way of God for telling him that he is going in a wrong way? Is he giving lot of importance to other people mostly is he taking Sharon for granted??

He kept looking at himself to find a new him. He took the remote to switch on and started dancing thinking about himself for the first time.

Anjaan Raahon Mein Benaam Yaadon Ka Pehra
Anjaan Sa Aaine Mein Yeh Kis Ka Hai Chehra
Na Aarzoo Na Hi Haq Chaahaton Ka
Main Qaabil Hi Kab Tha Teri Chahaton Ke
Hai Jayaz Yeh Tanhaiyan
Mere Chehre Ki Do Nishaniyan..

His thoughts wandered around the recent incidents. He swayed his body in frustration... thinking about the responsibilities and pressure their relationship.

He didn't know for how long he had been dancing. He came back to his senses sensing someone standing behind him.

He looked up to find Huma standing here, surprisingly.

"Huma tum."

"I.. I m sorry Swayam... mere wajah se.."

"Huma i guess hum iss bare mein baat na kare tho behtar hoga..."

"Swayam im really sorry"

"Tum ho team me???"

"Ha Ammi ne permission di hai but sirf dance mania tak..uske baad"

"Okay..tum apna warm up sessions shuru karo baaki log bhi aate honge.."

"Aap ne mujhe maaf kiya na Swayam...aap ne mana kiya phir bhi maine.."

"Huma please mein tumse gussa nahi hu... i have no reason to be tumne bola aur mein maan gaya agar thoda aur strict hotha tho yeh nahi hotha... agar mein kisi se gussa hut ho apne aap se.. anyways and mein apna problems khud deal karunga. tum bas apna classes pe dhyan do and thats all"

"Okay"

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Sharon had finished her rehearsals. She tried a lot to brush off her thoughts about the incidents and guide the students. She couldn't give her entire efforts. She went in to her cabin and locked herself and crashed on the sofa and let the emotions flow out as she knew that holding them back would do no help. She didn't want to continue the chain of thoughts that are crossing her mind right now.

It didn't matter to her what Huma did and what she didn't all it pained her that Swayam actually manipulated her to get things done for her and the first thing he said to her after the huge incident is to excuse Huma.. not even a sorry. Was she soo important to him. So important than her birthday.. so important than her??

He was not the Swayam she knew. He never lied ever. She calmed herself down thinking about Swayam. She knew he was under pressure. He looked guilty even when he was talking to her in coffe e shop. But what bothered him so much that he had to lie to her?? He could have shared the problem with her. But did he think so. She would have understood him. But does he feel that she understands him or he feels suffocated in the relationship.

She threw the cushion in frustration. For good or bad she had decided to clear the confusion. She messaged him to revert back once he is done with rehearsals.

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Swayam rushed to his phone once it beeped. He told Nil and Vicky to take care of the rehearsals and rushed outside to find Sharon waiting near her car. He ran to her taking deep breaths.

"Hi"

She said in a faint voice staring at everything else except him

"Hi."

He looked at her trying to look into her eyes...

"Sharon..."

"Hmmm"

"I... I...m"

"mujhe kuch poochna hai..."

"haa haa pucho.."

"woh ..."

She stopped looking at Gang and students coming out of the garage. Sharon had turned her head away looking at Huma. Swayam looked back and looked at her.

He could see those dried tears...and fresh ones too. Each drop from her eye pricked him like a needle in heart.

"Tum kuch puch rahi thi.."

"Woh.. .."

She said looking at his students and gang staring at them.

"Mere saath chalo"

Saying that he took to the garage. He made her sit on the chair settling next to her.

"Do you need a break Swayam??"

She said breaking the silence between them.

"Break... matlab samjha nahi"

"break...break from us.."

She said fighting new set of tears,looking at everything else in the rehearsal hall.

"BREAK.. Sharon.. what are you saying... why would i even think of it"

"Just answer me Swayam are feeling suffocated in this relationship"

He pulled her chair towards him . She just got jerked for a moment and lowered her eyes avoiding him.

"Look at me Sharon"

Making her look at him...

"Do you really think so"

"I don't know Swayam is liye puch rahi hu..."

She said moving backwards. Swayam loosened his grip on hers. He took a deep breath looking at her .

"Sharon ...look ...im.. sorry ... im really very sorry...kash mein tumhe realise kar patha ki how guilty i am.. i .. i was helpless Sharon...selfish ho gaya tha... Dance mania sir pe hai and iss time pe uske parents ke wajah se agar Huma D3 chod degi phir ek aur dancer yeh sab... i didn't agree to her... she pleaded me.. "

"Hmmm"

"Sharon please look at me... Sharon tumhara boy friend Swayam tumhe jhoot bolne ki aur thumhe manipulate karne ki soch bhi nahi sakta ...but D3 ke liye i just became selfish.. im sorry Sharon.. "

"You could have shared it with me Swayam. Kya ho jatha agar tum mujhse problem share kar lethe.."

"Sharon...pehle bhi Huma ko leke humare beech jagde hue they.. and you guys don't get along and.. "

"True Swayam i don't like her infact i hate her.. mein uske ke liye koi favour kabhi na karu.. but i love you Swayam... i could have done it for you..."

"Sharon..i"

"Sometimes it makes me feel that u feel that i dont make u feel that im there for you.ii"

"Hey...Sharon you do..sach batau tho.. i lied to you because somewhere our love ...you gave me the confidence that you will understand me...no matter what.. you will be there for me... "

"Sharon i trust us.. but i dont trust my D3 team for Dance Mania ...i know i can get back to you but i know icant mend D3 if something goes wrong.. sorry this helplessness made me selfish...im really sorry"

"Is liye tum jo sazza do gi im ready to take it.. dont forgive me...tumhe maarna hai tho maaro...baat mat karo... but be with me please... i cant do it without you Sharon,.."

"Im sorry ...I love you.."

He said kissing her fingers...

She could see tears brimming in his eyes.

Sharon hated the fact that he was always right somewhere or the other. Even if he had manipulated his honesty his love for her make things difficult. So difficult that she can't be mad at him coz she knows that her day will go at worst phase with out him. She hated him for that... She went and hugged him tightly.

"I hate the fact that i cant be mad at you... i just cant be..."

He remained silent wiping a tear off.

"We will be fine right..??"

"We will never be apart... Sharon... never.. we will never let that happen"

"I love you..Sharon.."

"I love you..."

She said embracing herself in his arms.

He happily wrapped arms around her feeling content..

"That doesn't mean im not mad at you... i will take revenge for all those you have done "

Swayam was surprised... with her angry wala tone.but felt happy somewhere that his siren is back...

"Can't wait.."

He whispered to her .

As they stayed like that for god knows how long...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Iii