Swayam OS: Change!!

Swayam OS: Change

He returned from Sharon's house after dropping her and Ruhi. He went upstairs, straight into his room and lied on the bed. He probably didn't bother, he probably didn't care, but somewhere, deep down, his heart was aware that something was disturbing him. He couldn't sleep. Neither did he want to get up and go to the kitchen. As a matter of fact, he didn't want to do anything... He was just feeling way too disturbed.

This was not the first time in years that Swayam Shekhawat was sleeping, or trying to sleep in a disturbed pattern. It had happened a few days ago too, when he was sick, and after that too. Actually it had been happening since a week...

Or maybe since the day Ruhi started behaving queerly with him. He thought.

Ruhi's behavior was weird. Really really weird. She wanted to do everything she could, for Swayam. Swayam didn't know why she was acting like this, especially after his injury. He would have rather preferred Sharon taking care of him, Sharon giving medicines to him and Sharon sitting WITH him for a long time.

It did happen...She was there with him almost for 3-4 hours, at his place... How could he forget those moments? Those moments, made memorable by her..those moments which actually made him realize how much she cared for him...okay...stop Swayam... what are you thinking.

He wasn't supposed to think how much she cared for him, was he?? Why on earth was he even thinking about her feelings?? Her feelings... her love for him.. there was nothing like that.. She only liked him... she didn't love him, although that concern from her side was so real and so lovely... He was forced to think otherwise.

He didn't know, he didn't know why, he had slowly begun to doubt his own thoughts.. He had been having second thoughts on the topic "does Sharon love me" since a long time, precisely the day he had got hurt... and believe it or not, he always knew there was a voice inside his heart screaming out to him and telling him that hey! Wake up! Go and talk to her! She loves you, but he had never paid attention to it. Result? The voice started getting louder and started screaming out to him, each day more and asked him to accept her feelings which were true.

He never did. Reason? The clip of her rejecting him in front of the whole college kept flashing in front of him.

He didn't cry. He never did. But he felt weak that day. Even more than his physical weakness, there was this mental weakness which was acting like a barrier in his love story... A hurdle, which he didn't know how to break... a constriction, which separated him from her... something which didn't let him go close to her... something which didn't let him be with her, his love..

He loved her. He loved her so much that it was inexplicable. It hurt him whenever someone else came close to him... He wanted her, he wanted Sharon to come close to him, hug him tight and express her love.. He wished for some miracle to happen... he wanted something to prove that Sharon loved him. She actually did.

Swayam heaved a deep sigh. He didn't know why... Everything was so complicated...why everything had to be so complicated... He kept a hand on his forehead and then, he saw her.

He got up from his bed and walked towards the door where he saw her figure. She walked slowly towards him and her lips carved into a crescent as she saw him coming towards her.

"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"I can read you in an out Swayam..." She said, still smiling. "I realized that you were feeling low, confused, disturbed... So here I am! To clear your confusion...I want you to stay free of any worries." She said.

"What will you do?" He asked her innocently.

"Swayam..." She said... " I want you to realize that if not anyone else, there's one person to support you.. there's someone who'll support you when you find yourself alone...That's me... you know why? Because I love you." She said as her tone reflected purity and her eyes reflected heartfelt love, for him.

"Sharon..." He didn't want the past to haunt him.

"Swayam, I know you have kept ignoring this since a long time, but I guess its time for even you to realize who actually loves you... it's time that you realize the importance of the you love... that's me.. and I genuinely care for you, a lot.. and I know you love me too... a lot..."

"I don't think I can suffer another heartbreak Sharon..." He said, turning around.

"Swayam, I don't want you to think more... I know that even you know about me loving you...You know why? Because ad you not known it, you probably wouldn't have been hallucinating me coming here and saying all this to you..." She said.

He turned around... Crap. He was hallucinating her... and just when he was about to go forward and touch her she disappeared into a puff of dust... She was gone in a couple of seconds.

His head ached as he walk towards his bed after realizing that she was there in his imaginations, but even in his imaginations she had said something which he was not able to realize. Had she not loved him, she wouldn't have been lecturing him like that..

Swayam, are you sure about it? His mind asked him.

No, he wasn't sure... He didn't know what was right at that point of time... He loved Sharon... And he knew her more than anyone else did... but was he right in judging her ? Was he right in saying that she used Kria for her selfish intentions?? Was he right in doubting her love??

As a matter of fact who was he to say all this? The guy who claimed to know Sharon Rai Prakash in an out didn't know this bit of her heart? The guy who claimed to love her so much didn't know for whom she feelings? The same guy couldn't recognize her love?? And he claimed to love her?

What was wrong with him?? Was he really himself?? Yes, he had once upon a time lost all the trust he had on her... but later, eventually she had managed to make him trust her all over again. Yes she had, and by default , she was the one who had managed to make him fall in love with her, all over again.

She was the one who was his angel. She was the only one who deserved his love, and she was the one to whom he was going to declare his love, very soon.

An elated Swayam at the self realization of this very thought smiled to himself as he muttered "Thanks Sharon..."

I know the ending sucked BIG BIG time... And I couldn't make it better.. sorry :( If you liked it, do leave your likes and comments :) I'm not sending PMs this time.. I don't have time to sorry :(