How I was as a kid?
A loser.
Naive, stupid, shy, awkward, pushover.
Average in studies. Never took part in extra-curricular activities because of low self-esteem.
I'm still all of the above things but now I follow the approach of "fake it till you make it". So I act like the most confident person around even though I'm not.
But it becomes too hard to put on a mask in front of people all the time, so I take it off sometimes, and when I do, people realize what a loser I am. Then they manipulate and bully me so I shut those people out of my life forever.
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