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Originally posted by: zayalove
Very much excited plzz update soon
Thanks for the pm shiri
Lots of love
Alina
Originally posted by: LuvAaliyah
Read part 1 and 2 can't wait to read part 3
I have a question so Aaliyah is okay with Zain spanking her and all that I thought she left him because she didn't like that about Zain 🤔
Chap1
I stare up through gaps in the sea grass parasol at the bluest of skies, summer blue,
Mediterranean blue with a contented sigh. zain is beside me, stretched out on
a sun lounger. My husband"my hot, beautiful husband, shirtless, and in cut-off
jeans"is reading a book predicting the collapse of the Western banking system.
By all accounts, it's a page-turner. I haven't seen him sit this still, ever. He looks
more like a student than the hotshot CEO of one the top privately owned companies in the United States.
On the final leg of our honeymoon, we laze in the afternoon sun on the beach
of the aptly named Beach Plaza Monte Carlo in Monaco, although we're notactually staying in this hotel. I open my eyes and gaze out at the Fair Lady
anchored in the harbor. We are staying, of course, on board a luxury motor yacht.
Built in 1928, she floats majestically on the water, queen of the all the yachts in
the harbor. She looks like a child's wind-up toy. zain loves her"I suspect
he's tempted to buy her. Honestly, boys and their toys.
Sitting back, I listen to the zain abdullah mix on my new iPod and doze in
the late afternoon sun, idly remembering his proposal. Oh his dreamy proposal in
the boathouse . . . I can almost smell the scent of the meadow flowers . . .
"Can we marry tomorrow?" zain murmurs softly in my ear. I am sprawled on
his chest in the flowery bower in the boathouse, sated from our passionate
lovemaking.
"Hmm."
"Is that a yes?" I hear his hopeful surprise.
"Hmm."
"A no?"
"Hmm."
I sense his grin. "Miss haider, are you incoherent?"
I grin. "Hmm."
He laughs and hugs me tightly, kissing the top of my head. "Vegas, tomorrow, it is then."
Sleepily I raise my head. "I don't think my parents would be very happy with
that."
He thrums his fingertips up and down my naked back, caressing me gently.
"What do you want, aliya? Vegas? A big wedding with all the trimmings? Tell me."
"Not big . . . Just friends and family." I gaze up at him moved by the quiet
entreaty in his glowing gray eyes. What does he want?
"Okay." He nods. "Where?"
I shrug.
"Could we do it here?" he asks tentatively.
"Your folks' place? Would they mind?"
He snorts. "My mother would be in seventh heaven."
"Okay, here. I'm sure my mom and dad would prefer that."
He strokes my hair. Could I be any happier?
"So, we've established where, now the when."
"Surely you should ask your mother."
"Hmm." Zain's smile dips. "She can have a month, that's it. I want you
too much to wait any longer."
"zain, you have me. You've had me for a while. But okay"a month it
is." I kiss his chest, a soft chaste kiss, and smile up at him.
"You'll burn." zain whispers in my ear, startling me from my doze.
"Only for you." I give him my sweetest smile. The late afternoon sun has
shifted, and I am under its full glare. He smirks and in one swift move pulls my
sun lounger into the shade of the parasol.
"Out of the Mediterranean sun, Mrs. abdullah."
"Thank you for your altruism, Mr. abdullah."
"My pleasure, Mrs. abdullah, and I'm not being altruistic at all. If you burn, I
won't be able to touch you." He raises an eyebrow, his eyes shining with mirth,
and my heart expands. "But I suspect you know that and you're laughing at me."
"Would I?" I gasp, feigning innocence.
"Yes you would and you do. Often. It's one of the many things I love about
you." He leans down and kisses me, playfully biting my lower lip.
"I was hoping you'd rub me down with more sunscreen." I pout against his
lips.
"Mrs. abdullah, it's a dirty job . . . but that's an offer I can't refuse. Sit up," he
orders, his voice husky. I do as I'm told, and with slow meticulous strokes from
strong and supple fingers, he coats me in sunscreen.
"You really are very lovely. I'm a lucky man," he murmurs as his fingers
skim over my breasts, spreading the lotion.
"Yes, you are, Mr. abdullah." I gaze coyly up at him through my lashes.
"Modesty becomes you, Mrs. abdullah. Turn over. I want to do your back."
Smiling, I roll over, and he undoes the back strap of my hideously expensive
bikini.
"How would you feel if I went topless, like the other women on the beach?" I
ask.
"Displeased," he says without hesitation. "I'm not very happy about you
wearing so little right now." He leans down and whispers in my ear. "Don't push
your luck."
"Is that a challenge, Mr. abdullah?"
"No. It's a statement of fact, Mrs. Abdullah."
I sigh and shake my head. Oh, zain . . . my possessive, jealous, control
freak zain.
When he's finished, he slaps my behind.
"You'll do, wench."
His ever-present, ever-active BlackBerry buzzes. I frown and he smirks.
"My eyes only, Mrs. abdullah." He raises his eyebrow in playful warning, slaps
my backside once more, and sits back down on his lounger to take the call.
My inner goddess purrs. Maybe tonight we could do some kind of floor show
for his eyes only. She smirks knowingly, arching a brow. I grin at the thought and
drift back into my afternoon siesta.
"Mam'selle? Un Perrier pour moi, un Coca-Cola light pour ma femme, s'il vous
plait. Et quelque chose a manger . . . laissez-moi voir la carte."
Hmm . . . zain speaking fluent French wakes me. My eyelashes flutter in
the glare of the sun, and I find zain watching me while a liveried young woman walks away, her tray held aloft, her high blond ponytail swinging
provocatively.
"Thirsty?" he asks.
"Yes," I mutter sleepily.
"I could watch you all day. Tired?"
I flush. "I didn't get much sleep last night."
"Me neither." He grins, puts down his BlackBerry, and stands. His shorts fall
a little and hang . . . in that way so his swim trunks are visible beneath. zain
takes his shorts off, stepping out of his flip-flops. I lose my train of thought.
"Come for a swim with me." He holds out his hand while I look up at him,
dazed. "Swim?" he says again, cocking his head to one side, an amused expression on his face. When I don't respond, he shakes his head slowly.
"I think you need a wake-up call." Suddenly he pounces and lifts me into his
arms while I shriek, more from surprise than alarm.
"zain! Put me down!" I squeal.
He chuckles. "Only in the sea, baby."
Several sunbathers on the beach watch with that bemused disinterest so typical, I now realize, of the French as zain carries me to the sea, laughing, and
wades in.
I clasp my arms around his neck. "You wouldn't." I say breathlessly, trying
to stifle my giggling.
He grins. "Oh, aliya, baby, have you learned nothing in the short time we've
known each other?" He kisses me, and I seize my opportunity, running my fingers
through his hair, grasping two handfuls and kissing him back while invading his
mouth with my tongue. He inhales sharply and leans back, eyes smoky but wary.
"I know your game," he whispers and slowly sinks into the cool, clear water,
taking me with him as his lips find mine once more. The chill of the Mediterranean is soon forgotten as I wrap myself around my husband.
"I thought you wanted to swim," I murmur against his mouth.
"You're very distracting." zain grazes his teeth along my lower lip. "But
I'm not sure I want the good people of Monte Carlo to see my wife in the throes
of passion."
I run my teeth along his jaw, his stubble tickly against my tongue, not caring
a dime for the good people of Monte Carlo.
"Aliya," he groans. He wraps my ponytail around his wrist and tugs gently,
tilting my head back, exposing my throat. He trails kisses from my ear down my
neck.
"Shall I take you in the sea?" he breathes.
"Yes," I whisper.
zain pulls away and gazes down at me, his eyes warm, wanting, and
amused. "Mrs. abdullah, you're insatiable and so brazen. What sort of monster have I
created?"
"A monster fit for you. Would you have me any other way?"
"I'll take you any way I can get you, you know that. But not right now. Not
with an audience." He jerks his head toward the shore.
What?
Sure enough, several sunbathers on the beach have abandoned their indifference and now regard us with interest. Suddenly, zain grabs me around my
waist and launches me into the air, letting me fall into the water and sink beneath
the waves to the soft sand below. I surface, coughing, spluttering and giggling.
"zain!" I scold, glaring at him. I thought we were going to make love in
the sea . . . and chalk up yet another first. He bites his lower lip to stifle his
amusement. I splash him, and he splashes me right back.
"We have all night," he says, grinning like a fool. "Laters, baby." He dives
beneath the sea and surfaces three feet away from me, then in a fluid, graceful
crawl, swims away from the shore, away from me.
Gah! Playful, tantalizing Fifty! I shield my eyes from the sun as I watch him
go. He's such a tease . . . what can I do to get him back? While I swim back to the
shore, I contemplate my options. At the sun loungers our drinks have arrived, and
I take a quick sip of Coke. zain is a faint speck in the distance.
Hmm . . . I lie down on my front and, fumbling with the straps, take my bikini
top off and toss it casually onto zain's sun lounger. There . . . see how brazen
I can be, Mr. abdullah. Put this in your pipe and smoke it. I shut my eyes and let the
sun warm my skin . . . warm my bones, and I drift away under its heat, my
thoughts turning to my wedding day.
"You may kiss the bride," Reverend Walsh announces.
I beam at my husband.
"Finally, you're mine," he whispers and pulls me into his arms and kisses me
chastely on the lips.
I am married. I am Mrs. Zain Abdullah . I am giddy with joy.
"You look beautiful, aliya," he murmurs and smiles, his eyes glowing with
love . . . and something darker, something hot. "Don't let anyone take that dress
off but me, understand?" His smile heats a hundred degrees as his fingertips trail
down my cheek, igniting my blood.
Holy crap . . . How does he do this, even here with all these people staring at
us?
I nod mutely. Jeez, I hope no one can hear us. Luckily Reverend Walsh has
discreetly stepped back. I glance at the throng gathered in their wedding finery . . .
My mom, ghulam, usman, and the abdullah's are all applauding"even yasmin, my maid of
honor, who looks stunning in pale pink as she stands beside zains best man,
his brother harshad. Who knew that even harshad could scrub up so well? All wear
huge, beaming smiles"except suraiyya, who weeps graciously into a dainty white
handkerchief.
"Ready to party, Mrs. abdullah?" zain murmurs, giving me his shy smile. I
melt. He looks divine in a simple black tux with silver waistcoat and tie. He's
so . . . dashing.
"Ready as I'll ever be." I grin, a totally goofy smile on my face.
Later the wedding party is in full swing . . . usman and suraiyya have gone to
town. They have the marquee set up again and beautifully decorated in pale pink,
silver, and ivory with its sides open, facing the bay. We have been blessed with
fine weather, and the late afternoon sun shines over the water. There's a dance
floor at one end of the marquee, a lavish buffet at the other.
ghulam and my mother are dancing and laughing with each other. I feel bittersweet watching them together. I hope zain and I last longer. I don't know
what I'd do if he left me. Marry in haste, repent at leisure. The saying haunts me.
yasmin is beside me, looking so beautiful in her long silk gown. She glances at
me and frowns. "Hey, this is supposed to be the happiest day of your life," she
scolds.
"It is," I whisper.
"Oh, aliya, what's wrong? Are you watching your mom and ghulam?"
I nod sadly.
"They're happy."
"Happier apart."
"You're having doubts?" yasmin asks, alarmed.
"No, not at all. It's just . . . I love him so much." I freeze, unable or unwilling
to articulate my fears.
"Aliya, it's obvious he adores you. I know you had an unconventional start to
your relationship, but I can see how happy you've both been over the past
month." She grasps my hands, squeezing them. "Besides, it's too late now," she
adds with a grin.
I giggle. Trust yasmin to point out the obvious. She pulls me into a yasmin khan
Special Hug. "aliya, you'll be fine. And if he hurts one hair on your
head, he'll have me to answer to." Releasing me, she grins at whoever is behind
me.
"Hi, baby." zain puts his arms around me, surprising me, and kisses my
temple. "yasmin," he acknowledges. He's still cool toward her even after six weeks.
"Hello again, zain. I'm off to find your best man, who happens to be my
best man, too." With a smile to us both, she heads over to harshad, who is drinking
with her brother bilal and our friend rehaan.
"Time to go," zain murmurs.
"Already? This is the first party I've been to where I don't mind being the
center of attention." I turn in his arms to face him.
"You deserve to be. You look stunning, aliya."
"So do you."
He smiles, his expression heating. "This beautiful dress becomes you."
"This old thing?" I blush shyly and pull on the fine lace trim of the simple,
fitted wedding dress designed for me by yasmins mother. I love that the lace is just
off the shoulder"demure, yet alluring, I hope.
He bends and kisses me. "Let's go. I don't want to share you with all these
people anymore."
"Can we leave our own wedding?"
"Baby, it's our party, and we can do whatever we want. We've cut the cake.
And right now, I'd like to whisk you away and have you all to myself."
I giggle. "You have me for a lifetime, Mr. abdullah."
"I'm very glad to hear that, Mrs. abdullah."
"Oh, there you two are! Such lovebirds."
I groan inwardly . . . suraiyya's mother has found us.
"zain, darling"one more dance with your grandma?"
zain purses his lips. "Of course, Grandmother."
"And you, beautiful aliya, go and make an old man happy"dance with
grandpa."
"And I think you can call me Grandma. Now, you two
seriously need to get working on my great-grandkids. I won't last too much
longer." She gives us both a simpering smile.
zain blinks at her in horror. "Come, Grandmother," he says, hurriedly
taking her hand and leading her to the dance floor. He glances back at me, practically pouting, and rolls his eyes. "Laters, baby."
As I walk toward Grandpa, rehaan accosts me.
"I won't ask you for another dance. I think I monopolized too much of your
time on the dance floor as it is . . . I'm happy to see you happy, but I'm serious,
Aliya. I'll be here . . . If you need me."
"rehaan, thank you. You're a good friend."
"I mean it." His dark eyes shine with sincerity.
"I know you do. Thank you, rehaan. Now if you'll please excuse me"I have a
date with an old man."
He furrows his brow in confusion.
"zain's grandfather," I clarify.
He grins. "Good luck with that, aliya. Good luck with everything."
"Thanks, rehaan."
After my dance with zains ever-charming grandfather, I stand by the
French doors, watching the sun sink slowly over Seattle, casting bright orange and
aquamarine shadows across the bay.
"Let's go," zain urges.
"I have to change." I grasp his hand, meaning to pull him through the French
windows and upstairs with me. He frowns, not understanding, and tugs gently on
my hand, halting me.
"I thought you wanted to be the one to take this dress off," I explain. His eyes
light up.
"Correct." He gives me a lascivious grin. "But I'm not undressing you here.
We wouldn't leave until . . . I don't know . . ." He waves his long-fingered hand,
leaving his sentence unfinished but his meaning quite clear.
I flush and let go of his hand.
"And don't take your hair down either," he murmurs darkly.
"But""
"No buts, aliya. You look beautiful. And I want to be the one to undress
you."
Oh. I frown.
"Pack your going-away clothes," he orders. "You'll need them. Taylor has
your main suitcase."
"Okay." What has he got planned? He hasn't told me where we're going. In
fact, I don't think anyone knows where we're going. Neither barkat nor yasmin has
managed to inveigle the information out of him. I turn to where my mother and
yasmin are hovering nearby.
"I'm not changing."
"What?" my mother says.
"zain doesn't want me to." I shrug as if this should explain everything.
Her brow furrows briefly.
"You didn't promise to obey," she reminds me tactfully. yasmin tries to disguise her snort as a cough. I narrow my eyes at her. Neither she nor my mother
have any idea of the fight zain and I had about that. I don't want to rehash
that argument. Jeez, can my Fifty Shades sulk . . . and have nightmares. The
memory is sobering.
"I know, Mom, but he likes this dress, and I want to please him."
Her expression softens. yasmin rolls her eyes and tactfully moves away to leave
us alone.
"You look so lovely, darling." shabana gently tugs at a loose tendril of my hair
and strokes my chin. "I am so proud of you, honey. You're going to make zain a very happy man." She pulls me into a hug.
Oh, Mom!
"I can't believe how grown-up you look right now. Beginning a new life . . .
Just remember that men are from a different planet, and you'll be fine."
I giggle. zain is from a different universe, if only she knew.
"Thanks, Mom."
ghulam joins us, smiling sweetly at both Mom and me.
"You made a beautiful baby girl, shabana," he says, his eyes glowing with
pride. He looks so dapper in his black tux and pale pink waistcoat. Tears prick the
back of my eyes. Oh no . . . so far I have managed not to cry.
"And you watched her and helped her grow up, ghulam," shabana's voice is
wistful.
"And I loved every single minute. You make one hell of a bride, aliya." ghulam
tucks the same loose strand of hair behind my ear.
"Oh, Dad . . ." I stifle a sob, and he hugs me in his brief, awkward way.
"You'll make one hell of a wife, too," he whispers, his voice hoarse.
When he releases me, zain is back at my side.
ghulam shakes his hand warmly. "Look after my girl, zain."
"I fully intend to, gulam. shabana." He nods at my stepdad and kisses my mom.
The rest of the wedding guests have formed a long human arch for us to
travel through, leading round to the front of the house.
"Ready?" zain says.
"Yes."
Taking my hand, he leads me under their outstretched arms while our guests
shout good luck and congratulations and shower us with rice. Waiting with smiles
and hugs at the end of the arch are suraiyya and usman. In turn they hug and kiss us
both. suraiyya is emotional again as we bid them hasty good-byes.
Taylor is waiting to whisk us away in the Audi SUV. As zain holds the
car door open for me, I turn and toss my bouquet of white and pink roses into the
crowd of young women that has gathered. barkat triumphantly holds it aloft, grinning from ear to ear.
As I slide into the SUV laughing at barkat's audacious catch, zain bends to
gather the hem of my dress. Once I'm safely in, he bids the waiting crowd a
farewell.
Taylor holds the car door open for him. "Congratulations, sir."
"Thank you, Taylor," zain replies as he seats himself beside me.
As Taylor pulls away, our wedding guests shower the vehicle with rice.
zain grasps my hand and kisses my knuckles.
"So far so good, Mrs. abdullah?"
"So far so wonderful, Mr. abdullah. Where are we going?"
"Sea-Tac," he says simply and smiles a sphinxlike smile.
Hmm . . . what is he planning?
Taylor does not head for the departure terminal as I expect but through a security gate and directly on to the tarmac. What? And then I see her"zain's
jet . . . Abdullah Enterprises Holdings Inc. in large blue lettering across her fuselage.
"Don't tell me you're misusing company property again!"
"Oh, I hope so, aliya." zain grins.
Taylor halts at the foot of the steps leading up to the plane and leaps out of
the Audi to open zains door. They have a brief discussion, then zain
opens my door"and rather than stepping back to give me room to climb out, he
leans in and lifts me.
Whoa! "What are you doing?" I squeak.
"Carrying you over the threshold," he says.
"Oh." Isn't that supposed to be at home?
He carries me effortlessly up the steps, and Taylor follows with my small
suitcase. He leaves it on the threshold of the plane before returning to the Audi.
Inside the cabin, I recognize Stephan, zains pilot, in his uniform.
"Welcome aboard, sir, Mrs. abdullah." He grins.
zain puts me down and shakes Stephan's hand. Beside Stephan stands a
dark-haired woman in her what? Early thirties? She's also in uniform.
"Congratulations to you both," Stephan continues.
"Thank you, Stephan. aliya, you know Stephan. He's our captain today,
and this is First Officer Beighley."
She blushes as zain introduces her and blinks rapidly. I want to roll my
eyes. Another female completely captivated by my too-handsome-for-his-owngood husband.
"Delighted to meet you," gushes Beighley. I smile kindly at her. After
all"he is mine.
"All preparations complete?" zain asks them both as I glance around the
cabin. The interior is all pale maple wood and pale cream leather. It's lovely.
Another young woman in uniform stands at the other end of the cabin"a very
pretty brunette.
"We have the all clear. Weather is good from here to Boston."
Boston?
"Turbulence?"
"Not before Boston. There's a weather front over Shannon that might give us
a rough ride."
Shannon? Ireland?
"I see. Well, I hope to sleep through it all," says zain matter-of-factly.
Sleep?
"We'll get underway, sir," Stephan says. "We'll leave you in the capable care
of Natalia, your flight attendant." zain glances in her direction and frowns,
but turns to Stephan with a smile.
"Excellent," he says. Taking my hand, he leads me to one of the sumptuous
leather seats. There must be about twelve of them in total.
"Sit," he says as he removes his jacket and undoes his fine sliver brocade
vest. We sit in two single seats facing each other with a small, highly polished
table between us.
"Welcome aboard, sir, ma'am, and congratulations." Natalia is at our side,
offering us both a glass of pink champagne.
"Thank you," zain says, and she smiles politely at us and retreats to the
galley.
"Here's to a happy married life, aliya." zain raises his glass to mine,
and we chink. The champagne is delicious.
"Bollinger?" I ask.
"The same."
"The first time I drank this it was out of teacups." I grin.
"I remember that day well. Your graduation."
"Where are we going?" I'm unable to contain my curiosity any longer.
"Shannon," zain says, his eyes alight with excitement. He looks like a
small boy.
"In Ireland?" We're going to Ireland!
"To refuel," he adds, teasing.
"Then?" I prompt.
His grin broadens and he shakes his head.
"zain!"
"London," he says, gazing intently at me, trying to gauge my reaction.
I gasp. Holy cow. I thought maybe we'd be going to New York or Aspen or
maybe the Caribbean. I can hardly believe it. My lifetime ambition has been to
visit England. I'm lit up from within, incandescent with happiness.
"Then Paris."
What?
"Then the South of France."
Whoa!
"I know you've always dreamed of going to Europe," he says softly. "I want
to make your dreams come true, aliya."
"You are my dreams come true, zain."
"Back at you, Mrs. abdullah," he whispers.
Oh my . . .
"Buckle up."
I grin and do as I'm told.
As the plane taxis out on to the runway, we sip our champagne, grinning inanely at each other. I can't believe it. At twenty-two years old, I'm finally leaving
the United States and going to Europe"to London of all places.
Once we're airborne, Natalia serves us yet more champagne and prepares our
wedding feast. And what a feast it is"smoked salmon, followed by roast partridge with a green bean salad and dauphinoise potatoes, all cooked and served by
the ever-efficient Natalia.
"Dessert, Mr. abdullah?" she asks.
He shakes his head and runs his finger across his bottom lip as he looks questioningly at me, his expression dark and unreadable.
"No, thank you," I murmur, unable to break eye contact with him. His lips
curl up in a small, secret smile and Natalia retreats.
"Good," he murmurs. "I'd rather planned on having you for dessert."
Oh . . . here?
"Come," he says, rising from the table and offering me his hand. He leads me
to the back of the cabin.
"There's a bathroom here." He points to a small door then leads me on down
a short corridor and through a door at the end.
Jeez . . . a bedroom. The cabin is cream and maple wood and the small
double bed is covered in gold and taupe cushions. It looks very comfortable.
zain turns and pulls me into his arms, gazing down at me.
"I thought we'd spend our wedding night at thirty-five-thousand feet. It's
something I've never done before."
Holy cow . . . another first. I gape at him, my heart pounding . . . the mile
high club. I've heard about this.
"But first I have to get you out of this fabulous dress." His eyes glow with
love and something darker, something I love . . . something that calls to my inner
goddess. He takes my breath away.
"Turn around." His voice is low, authoritative, and sexy as hell. How can he
infuse so much promise into those two words? Willingly I comply and his hands
move to my hair. Gently he pulls out each hairpin one at a time, his expert fingers
making short work of the task. My hair falls in swathes over my shoulders, one
lock at a time, covering my back and down to my breasts. I try to stand still and
not squirm, but I'm aching for his touch. After our long, tiring but exciting day, I
want him"all of him.
"You have such beautiful hair, aliya." His mouth is close to my ear and I feel
his breath, though his lips don't touch me. When my hair is free of pins, he runs
his fingers through it, gently massaging my scalp . . . oh my . . . I close my eyes
and savor the sensation. His fingers travel on down, and he tugs, tilting my head
back to expose my throat.
"You're mine," he breathes and his teeth tug my ear lobe.
I groan.
"Hush now," he admonishes. He sweeps my hair over my shoulder and trails
a finger across the top of my back from shoulder to shoulder following the lace
edge of my dress. I shiver in anticipation. He plants a tender kiss on my back
above the first button on my dress.
"So beautiful," he says as he deftly undoes the first button. "You have made
me the happiest man alive today." With infinite slowness, he unfastens each one,
all the way down my back. "I love you so much." Trailing kisses from the nape of
my neck to the edge of my shoulder. Between each kiss he murmurs, "I. Want.
You. So. Much. I. Want. To. Be. Inside. You. You. Are. Mine."
Each word is intoxicating. I close my eyes and tilt my head, giving him easier
access to my neck, and I fall further under the spell that is zain abdullah, my
husband.
"Mine," he whispers once more. He peels my dress down my arms so that it
pools at my feet in a cloud of ivory silk and lace.
"Turn around," he whispers, his voice suddenly hoarse. I do so and he gasps.
I'm dressed in a tight, blush-pink satin corset with garter straps, matching
lacy briefs, and white silk stockings. zains eyes travel greedily down my
body, but he says nothing. He just gazes at me, his eyes wide with want.
"You like?" I whisper aware of the shy blush creeping across my cheeks.
"More than like, baby. You look sensational. Here." He holds out his hand
and taking it, I step out of my dress.
"Keep still," he murmurs and without taking his darkening eyes off mine, he
runs his middle finger over my breasts, following the line of my corset. My breath
shallows, and he repeats the journey over my breasts once more, his tantalizing
finger sending tingles down my spine. He stops and twirls his index finger in the
air, indicating that he wants me to turn around.
For him, right now, I'd do anything.
"Stop," he says. I'm facing the bed, away from him. His arm encircles my
waist, pulling me against him, and he nuzzles my neck. Gently he cups my
breasts, toying with them, while his thumbs circle over my nipples so that they
strain against the fabric of my corset.
"Mine," he whispers.
"Yours," I breathe.
Leaving my breasts bereft he runs his hands down my stomach, over my
belly, and down to my thighs, his thumbs skimming my sex. I stifle a moan. His
fingers skate down each garter, and with his usual dexterity, he simultaneously
unhooks each one from my stockings. His hands travel around to my behind.
"Mine," he breathes as his hands spread across my backside, the tips of his
fingers brushing my sex.
"Ah."
"Hush." His hands travel down the backs of my thighs, and once more he unclips my garters.
Leaning down, he pulls back the cover on the bed. "Sit down."
I do as I'm told in his thrall, and he kneels at my feet and gently tugs off each
of my white bridal Jimmy Choos. He grasps the top of my left stocking and
slowly peels it off, running his thumbs down my leg . . . Oh my. He repeats the
process with my other stocking.
"This is like unwrapping my Christmas presents." He smiles up at me
through his long dark lashes.
"A present you've had already . . ."
He frowns in admonishment. "Oh no, baby. This time it's really mine."
"zain, I've been yours since I said yes." I scoot forward, cupping his beloved face in my hands. "I'm yours. I will always be yours, husband of mine.
Now, I think you're wearing too many clothes." I bend to kiss him, and suddenly
he leans up, kisses my lips, and grasps my head with his hands, his fingers threading into my hair.
"aliya," he breathes. "My aliya." His lips claim mine once more, his tongue invasively persuasive.
"Clothes," I whisper, our breath mingling as I push back his vest and he
struggles out of it, releasing me for a moment. He pauses, gazing at me, eyes
wide, eyes wanting.
"Let me, please." My voice is soft and cajoling. I want to undress my husband, my Fifty.
He sits back on his heels, and leaning forward I grasp his tie"his sliver-gray
tie, my favorite tie"and slowly undo it and pull it free. He raises his chin to let
me tackle the top button of his white shirt; then once it's undone, I move on to his
cuffs. He's wearing platinum cufflinks"engraved with an entwined A and
C"my wedding present to him. When I've removed them, he takes the cufflinks
from me and fists them in his hand. Then he kisses his fist and shoves them into
his pants pocket.
"Mr. abdullah, so romantic."
"For you Mrs. abdullah"hearts and flowers. Always."
I take his hand, and glancing up through my lashes, I kiss his plain platinum
wedding ring. He groans and closes his eyes.
"Aliya," he whispers and my name is a prayer.
Reaching up to his second shirt button and mirroring him from earlier, I plant
a soft kiss on his chest as I undo each of them and whisper between each kiss,
"You. Make. Me. So. Happy. I. Love. You."
He groans, and in one swift move, he clasps me around the waist and lifts me
on to the bed, following me down on to it. His lips find mine, his hands curling
around my head, holding me, stilling me as our tongues glory in each other.
Abruptly zain kneels up, leaving me breathless and wanting more.
"You are so beautiful . . . wife." He runs his hands down my legs then grasps
my left foot. "You have such lovely legs. I want to kiss every inch of them. Starting here." He presses his lips against my big toe and then grazes the pad with his
teeth. Everything south of my waistline convulses. His tongue glides up my instep
and his teeth skim my heel and up to my ankle. He trails kisses up the inside of
my calf; soft wet kisses. I wriggle beneath him.
"Still, Mrs. abdullah," he warns, and suddenly he flips me on to my stomach and
continues his leisurely journey with his mouth up the back of my legs, to my
thighs, my behind, and then he stops. I groan.
"Please . . ."
"I want you naked," he murmurs and slowly unhooks my corset, one hook at
a time. When it's flat on the bed beneath me, he runs his tongue up the length of
my spine.
"zain, please."
"What do you want, Mrs. adullah." His words are soft and close to my ear. He's
almost lying on top of me . . . I can feel him hard against my behind.
"You."
"And I you, my love, my life . . . ," he whispers, and before I know it, he's
flipped me on to my back. He stands swiftly and in one efficient move dispenses
with his pants and boxer briefs so that he's gloriously naked and looming large
and ready over me. The small cabin is eclipsed by his dazzling beauty and his
want and need of me. He leans down and peels off my panties then gazes down at
me.
"Mine," he mouths.
"Please," I beg and he grins . . . a salacious, wicked, tempting, all-Fifty grin.
He crawls back onto the bed and trails kisses up my right leg this time . . . until he reaches the apex of my thighs. He pushes my legs wider apart.
"Ah . . . wife of mine," he murmurs and then his mouth is on me. I close my
eyes and surrender to his oh-so-adroit tongue. My hands fist in his hair as my hips
swing and sway, slave to his rhythm, then buck off the small bed. He grabs my
hips to still me . . . but doesn't stop the delicious torture. I'm close, so close.
"zain." I moan.
"Not yet," he breathes and he moves up my body, his tongue dipping into my
navel.
"No!" Damn! I sense his smile against my belly as his journey continues
north.
"So impatient, Mrs. abdullah. We have until we touch down on the Emerald
Isle." Reverentially he kisses my breasts and tugs my left nipple between his lips.
Gazing up at me, his eyes are dark like a tropical storm as he teases me.
Oh my . . . I'd forgotten. Europe.
"Husband, I want you. Please."
He looms up over me, his body covering mine, resting his weight on his elbows. He runs his nose down mine, and I run my hands down his strong, supple
back to his fine, fine backside.
"Mrs. abdullah . . . wife. We aim to please." His lips brush. "I love you."
"I love you, too."
"Eyes open. I want to see you."
"zain . . . ah . . . ," I cry, as he slowly sinks into me.
"aliya, oh aliya," he breathes and he starts to move.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" zain shouts, waking me
from my very pleasant dream. He's standing all wet and beautiful at the end of my
sun lounger and glaring down at me.
What have I done? Oh no . . . I'm lying on my back . . . Crap, crap, crap and
he's mad. Shit. He's really mad.
Chap2
I am suddenly very awake, my erotic dream forgotten.
"I was on my front. I must have turned over in my sleep." I whisper weakly
in my defense.
His eyes blaze with fury. He reaches down, scoops up my bikini top from his
sun lounger and tosses it at me.
"Put this on!" he hisses.
"zain, no one is looking."
"Trust me. They're looking. I'm sure Taylor and the security crew are enjoying the show!" he snarls.Holy shit! Why do I keep forgetting about them? I grasp my breasts in panic,
hiding them. Ever since Charlie Tango's sabotaged demise, we are constantly
shadowed by damned security.
"Yes," zain snarls. "And some sleazy f**king paparazzi could get a shot
of you, too. Do you want to be all over the cover of Star magazine? Naked this
time?"
Shit! The paparazzi! f**k! As I hurriedly scramble into my top, all thumbs,
the color drains from my face. I shudder. The unpleasant memory of being besieged by the paparazzi outside SIP after our engagement was leaked comes unwelcome to mind"all part of the zain Abdullah package.
"L'addition!" zain snaps at the passing waitress. "We're going," he says
to me.
"Now?"
"Yes. Now."
Oh shit, he's not to be argued with.
He pulls on his shorts, even though his trunks are dripping wet, then his gray
T-shirt. The waitress is back in a moment with his credit card and the check.
Reluctantly, I wriggle into my turquoise sundress and step into my flip-flops.
Once the waitress has left, zain snatches up his book and BlackBerry and
masks his fury behind mirrored aviator glasses. He's bristling with tension and anger. My heart sinks. Every other woman on the beach is topless"it's not that big
of a crime. In fact I look odd with my top on. I sigh inwardly, my spirits sinking. I
thought zain would see the funny side . . . sort of . . . maybe if I'd stayed on
my front, but his sense of humor has evaporated.
"Please don't be mad at me," I whisper, taking his book and BlackBerry from
him and placing them in my backpack.
"Too late for that," he says quietly"too quietly. "Come." Taking my hand,
he signals up to Taylor and his two sidekicks, the French security officers Philippe and Gaston. Weirdly, they are identical twins. They have been patiently
watching us and everyone else on the beach from the verandah. Why do I keep
forgetting about them? How? Taylor is stony-faced behind his dark glasses. Shit,
he's mad at me, too. I'm still not used to seeing him so casually dressed in shorts
and a black polo shirt.
zain leads me into the hotel, through the lobby, and out onto the street.
He remains silent, brooding and bad-tempered, and it's all my fault. Taylor and
his team shadow us.
"Where are we going?" I ask tentatively, gazing up at him.
"Back to the boat." He doesn't look at me.
I have no idea of the time. I think it must be about five or six in the afternoon.
When we reach the marina, zain leads me onto the dock where the motorboat
and Jet Ski belonging to the Fair Lady are moored. As zain unties the Jet Ski,
I hand my backpack to Taylor. I glance nervously up at him, but like zain,
his expression gives nothing away. I flush, thinking about what he's seen on the
beach.
"Here you go, Mrs. abdullah." Taylor passes me a life vest from the motorboat,
and I dutifully put it on. Why am I the only one who has to wear a life jacket?
zain and Taylor exchange some kind of look. Jeez, is he angry with Taylor,
too? zain then checks the straps on my life jacket, cinching the middle one
tightly.
"You'll do," he mutters sullenly, still not turning to look at me. Shit.
He climbs gracefully on to the Jet Ski and holds out his hand for me to join
him. Grasping it tightly, I manage to throw my leg over the seat behind him
without falling into the water while Taylor and the twins clamber into the motorboat. zain kicks the Jet Ski away from the dock, and it floats gently into the
marina.
"Hold on," he orders, and I put my arms around him. This is my favorite part
of traveling by Jet Ski. I hug him closely, my nose nuzzling into his back, marveling that there was a time when he would not have tolerated me touching him
this way. He smells good . . . of zain and the sea. Forgive me, zain,
please?
He stiffens. "Steady," he says, his tone softer. I kiss his back and rest my
cheek against him, looking back toward the dock where a few holidaymakers have
gathered to watch the show.
zain turns the key and the motor roars to life. With one twist of the accelerator, the Jet Ski bucks forward and speeds across the cool dark water,
through the marina and out to the center of the harbor toward the Fair Lady. I
hold him tighter. I love this"it's so exciting. Every muscle in zain's lean
frame is evident as I cling to him.
Taylor pulls alongside in the motorboat. zain glances at him then accelerates again, and we shoot forward, whipping over the top of the water like an expertly tossed pebble. Taylor shakes his head in resigned exasperation and heads
straight to the yacht, while zain shoots past the Fair Lady and heads out toward the open water.
The sea spray is splashing us, the warm wind buffeting my face and flaying
my ponytail crazily around me. This is so much fun. Maybe the thrill of this ride
will dispel zains bad mood. I can't see his face, but I know he's enjoying
himself"carefree, acting his age for a change.
He steers in a huge semicircle and I study the shoreline"the boats in the
marina, the mosaic of yellow, white and sand-colored offices and apartments, and
the craggy mountains behind. It looks so disorganized"not the regimented blocks
that I am used to"but so picturesque. zain glances over his shoulder at me,
and there's the ghost of a smile playing on his lips.
"Again?" he shouts over the noise of the engine.
I nod enthusiastically. His answering grin is dazzling, and he opens the
throttle and speeds around the Fair Lady and on out to sea once more . . . and I
think I'm forgiven.
"You've caught the sun," zain says mildly as he undoes my life vest. I
anxiously try to assess his mood. We are on deck aboard the yacht, and one of the
stewards is standing quietly nearby, waiting for my life vest. zain passes it to
him.
"Will that be all, sir?" the young man asks. I love his French accent. zain
glances at me, takes off his shades, and slips them into the collar of his T-shirt,
letting them hang.
"Would you like a drink?" he asks me.
"Do I need one?"
He cocks his head to one side. "Why would you say that?" His voice is soft.
"You know why."
He frowns as if weighing something in his mind.
Oh, what is he thinking?
"Two gin and tonics, please. And some nuts and olives," he says to the steward, who nods and quickly vanishes.
"You think I'm going to punish you?" zains voice is silky.
"Do you want to?"
"Yes."
"How?"
"I'll think of something. Maybe when you've had your drink." And it's a sensual threat. I swallow, and my inner goddess squints from her sun lounger where
she's trying to catch rays with a silver reflector fanned out at her neck.
zain frowns once more.
"You want to be?"
How does he know? "Depends," I mutter, flushing.
"On what?" He hides his smile.
"If you want to hurt me or not."
His mouth presses into a hard line, humor forgotten. He leans forward and
kisses my forehead.
"aliya, you're my wife, not my sub. I don't ever want to hurt you. You
should know that by now. Just . . . just don't take your clothes off in public. I
don't want you naked all over the tabloids. You don't want that, and I'm sure your
mom and ghulam don't want that either."
Oh! ghulam. Holy shit, he'd have a coronary. What was I thinking? I mentally
castigate myself.
The steward appears with our drinks and snacks and places them on the teak
table.
"Sit," zain commands. I do as he says and settle into a director's chair.
zain takes a seat beside me and passes me a gin and tonic.
"Cheers, Mrs. abdullah."
"Cheers, Mr. abdullah." I take a welcome sip. It's thirst-quenching, cold, and delicious. When I gaze at him, he's watching me carefully, his mood unreadable. It's
very frustrating . . . I don't know if he's still mad at me. I deploy my patented distraction technique.
"Who owns this boat?" I ask.
"A British knight. Sir Somebody-or-Other. His great-grandfather started a
grocery store. His daughter's married to one of the Crown Princes of Europe."
Oh. "Super-rich?"
zain looks suddenly wary. "Yes."
"Like you," I murmur.
"Yes."
Oh.
"And like you," zain whispers and pops an olive into his mouth. I blink
rapidly . . . a vision of him in his tux and silver waistcoat comes to mind . . . his
eyes burning with sincerity as he gazes down at me during our wedding
ceremony.
"All that is mine is now yours," he says, his voice ringing out clearly reciting
his vows from memory.
All mine? Holy cow. "It's odd. Going from nothing to""I wave my hand to
indicate our opulent surroundings""to everything."
"You'll get used to it."
"I don't think I'll ever get used to it."
Taylor appears on deck. "Sir, you have a call." zain frowns but takes the
proffered BlackBerry.
"abdullah," he snaps and rises from his seat to stand at the bow of the yacht.
I gaze out at the sea, tuning out his conversation with Ros"I think"his
number two. I am rich . . . stinking rich. I have done nothing to earn this
money . . . just married a rich man. I shudder as my mind drifts back to our conversation about prenups. It was the Sunday after his birthday, and we were seated
at the kitchen table enjoying a leisurely breakfast . . . all of us. harshad, yasmin, suraiyya,
and I were debating the merits of bacon versus sausage, while usman and zain read the Sunday paper . . .
"Look at this," squeals barkat as she sets her netbook on the kitchen table in front of
us. "There's a gossipy item on the Seattle Nooz website about you being engaged,
zain."
"Already?" suraiyya says in surprise. Then her mouth purses as some obviously
unpleasant thought crosses her mind. zain frowns.
barkat reads the column out loud. "Word has reached us here at The Nooz that
Seattle's most eligible bachelor, the zain abdullah, has finally been snapped up
and wedding bells are in the air. But who is the lucky, lucky lady? The Nooz is on
the hunt. Bet she's reading one helluva prenup."
barkat giggles then stops abruptly as zain glares at her. Silence descends,
and the atmosphere in the abdullah kitchen plunges to below zero.
Oh no! A prenup? The thought has never crossed my mind. I swallow, feeling
all the blood drain from my face. Please ground, swallow me up now! zain
shifts uncomfortably in his chair as I glance apprehensively at him.
"No," he mouths at me.
"zain," usman says gently.
"I'm not discussing this again," he snaps at usman who glances at me
nervously and opens his mouth to say something.
"No prenup!" zain almost shouts at him and broodingly goes back to
reading his paper, ignoring everyone else at the table. They look alternately at me
then him . . . then anywhere but at the two of us.
"zain," I murmur. "I'll sign anything you and Mr. abdullah want." Jeez, it
wouldn't be the first time he's made me sign something. zain looks up and
glares at me.
"No!" he snaps. I blanch once more.
"It's to protect you."
"zain, aliya"I think you should discuss this in private," suraiyya admonishes us. She glares at usman and barkat. Oh dear, looks like they're in trouble, too.
"aliya, this is not about you," usman murmurs reassuringly. "And please call
me usman."
zain narrows cold eyes at his father and my heart sinks. Hell . . . He's
really mad.
Everyone erupts into animated conversation, and barkat and yasmin leap up to
clear the table.
"I definitely prefer sausage," exclaims harshad.
I stare down at my knotted fingers. Crap. I hope Mr. and Mrs. abdullah don't
think I'm some kind of gold digger. zain reaches over and grasps both my
hands gently in one of his.
"Stop it."
How does he know what I'm thinking?
"Ignore my dad," zain says so only I can hear him. "He's really pissed
about Elena. That stuff was all aimed at me. I wish my mom had kept her mouth
shut."
I know zain is still smarting from his "talk" with usman about Elena
last night.
"He has a point, zain. You're very wealthy, and I'm bringing nothing to
our marriage but my student loans."
zain gazes at me, his eyes bleak. "aliya, if you leave me, you might
as well take everything. You left me once before. I know how that feels."
Holy f**k! "That was different," I whisper, moved by his intensity. "But . . .
you might want to leave me." The thought makes me sick.
He snorts and shakes his head with mock disgust.
"zain, you know I might do something exceptionally stupid"and
you . . ." I glance down at my knotted hands, pain lancing through me, and I'm
unable to finish my sentence. Losing zain . . . f**k.
"Stop. Stop now. This subject is closed, Aliya. We're not discussing it any
more. No prenup. Not now"not ever." He gives me a pointed give-it-up-now
look, which silences me. Then he turns to Grace. "Mom," he says. "Can we have
the wedding here?"
And he's not mentioned it again. In fact at every opportunity he's tried to reassure
me about his wealth . . . that's it mine, too. I shudder as I recall the crazy shopping
fest zain demanded I go on with Caroline Acton"the personal shopper from
Niemans"in preparation for this honeymoon. My bikini alone cost five hundred
and forty dollars. I mean, it's nice, but really"that's a ridiculous amount of
money for four triangular scraps of material.
"You will get used to it," zain interrupts my reverie as he resumes his
place at the table.
"Used to it?"
"The money," he says, rolling his eyes.
Oh, Fifty, maybe with time. I push the small dish of salted almonds and
cashews toward him.
"Your nuts, sir," I say with as straight a face as I can manage, trying to bring
some humor to our conversation after my dark thoughts and my bikini top faux
pas.
He smirks. "I'm nuts about you." He takes an almond, his eyes sparkling with
wicked humor as he enjoys my little joke. He licks his lips. "Drink up. We're going to bed."
What?
"Drink," he mouths at me, his eyes darkening.
Oh my, the look he gives me could be solely responsible for global warming.
I pick up my gin and drain the glass, not taking my eyes off him. His mouth drops
open, and I glimpse the tip of his tongue between his teeth. He smiles lewdly at
me. In one fluid move, he stands and bends over me, resting his hands on the arms
of my chair.
"I'm going to make an example of you. Come. Don't pee," he whispers in my
ear.
I gasp. Don't pee? How rude. My subconscious looks up from her
book"The Complete works of Charles Dickens, Vol. 1"with alarm.
"It's not what you think." zain smirks, holding his hand out to me.
"Trust me." He looks so sexy and genial. How can I resist?
"Okay." I place my hand in his, because quite simply, I'd trust him with my
life. What has he got planned? My heart starts pounding in anticipation.
He leads me across the deck and through the doors into the plush, beautifully
appointed main salon, along a narrow corridor, through the dining room, and
down the stairs to the main master cabin.
The cabin has been cleaned since this morning and the bed made. It's a lovely
room. With two portholes on both the starboard and port sides, it's elegantly decorated in dark walnut furniture with cream walls and soft furnishings in gold and
red.
zain
a chair. He steps out of his flip-flops and removes his shorts and trunks in one
graceful move. Oh my. Will I ever tire of looking at him naked? He is utterly gorgeous and all mine. His skin glows"he's caught the sun, too, and his hair is
longer, flopping over his forehead. I am one lucky, lucky girl.
He grasps my chin, pulling slightly so that I stop biting my lip and runs his
thumb along my lower lip.
"That's better." He turns and strides over to the impressive armoire that
houses his clothes. He produces two pairs of metal handcuffs and an airline eye
mask from the bottom drawer.
Handcuffs! We've never used handcuffs. I glance quickly and nervously at
the bed. Where the hell is he going to attach those? He turns and gazes steadily at
me, his eyes dark and luminous.
"These can be quite painful. They can bite into the skin if you pull too hard."
He holds up one pair. "But I really want to use them on you now."
Holy f**k. My mouth goes dry.
"Here." He stalks gracefully forward and hands me a set. "Do you want to try
them first?"
They feel solid, the metal cold. Vaguely, I hope I never have to wear a pair of
these for real.
zain is watching me intently.
"Where are the keys?" My voice wavering.
He holds out his palm, revealing a small metallic key. "This does both sets. In
fact, all sets."
How many sets does he have? I don't remember seeing any in the museum
chest.
He strokes my cheek with his index finger, trailing it down to my mouth. He
leans in as if to kiss me.
"Do you want to play?" he says, his voice low, and everything in my body
heads south as desire unfurls deep in my belly.
"Yes," I breathe.
He smiles. "Good." He plants a featherlight kiss on my forehead. "We're going to need a safe word."
What?
"Stop won't be enough because you will probably say that, but you won't
mean it." He runs his nose down mine"the only contact between us.
My heart starts pounding. Shit . . . How can he do this with just words?
"This is not going to hurt. It will be intense. Very intense, because I am not
going to let you move. Okay?"
Oh my. This sounds so hot. My breathing is too loud. f**k, I am panting
already. My inner goddess has her sequins on and is warming up to dance the
rumba. Thank heavens I'm married to this man, otherwise this would be embarrassing. My eyes flick down to his arousal.
"Okay." My voice is barely audible.
"Choose a word, aliya."
Oh . . .
"A safe word," he says softly.
"Popsicle." I say, panting.
"Popsicle?" he says, amused.
"Yes."
He grins as he leans back to gaze down at me. "Interesting choice. Lift up
your arms."
I do, and zain grasps the hem of my sundress, lifts it over my head, and
tosses it on the floor. He holds out his hand, and I give him back the handcuffs.
He places both sets on the bedside table along with the blindfold and yanks the
quilt off the bed, letting it fall to the floor.
"Turn round."
I turn, and he undoes my bikini top so that it falls to the floor.
"Tomorrow, I will staple this to you," he mutters and tugs on my hair tie,
freeing my hair. He gathers it into one hand and yanks gently so I step back
against him. Against his chest. Against his erection. I gasp as he pulls my head to
one side and kisses my neck.
"You were very disobedient," he murmurs in my ear, sending delicious
shivers through me.
"Yes," I whisper.
"Hmm. What are we going to do about that?"
"Learn to live with it," I breathe. His soft languid kisses are driving me wild.
He grins against my neck.
"Ah, Mrs. abdullah. You are ever the optimist."
He straightens. Taking my hair, he carefully parts it into three strands, braids
it slowly, and then fastens my hair tie to the end. He tugs my braid gently and
leans down to my ear. "I am going to teach you a lesson," he murmurs.
Moving suddenly, he grabs me by the waist, sits down on the bed, and yanks
me across his knee so that I feel his erection pressed against my belly. He smacks
my backside once, hard. I yelp, then I'm on my back on the bed, and he's gazing
down at me, his eyes molten gray. I'm going to combust.
"Do you know how beautiful you are?" He trails his fingertips up my thigh so
that I tingle . . . everywhere. Without taking his eyes off me, he gets up from the
bed and gathers both sets of handcuffs. He grasps my left leg and snaps one cuff
around my ankle.
Oh!
Lifting my right leg, he repeats the process so I have a pair of handcuffs attached to each ankle. I still have no idea where he's going to attach them.
"Sit up," he orders and I comply immediately.
"Now hug your knees."
I blink at him then draw my legs up so they are bent in front of me and wrap
my arms around them. He reaches down, lifts my chin, and plants a soft wet kiss
on my lips before slipping the blindfold over my eyes. I can see nothing, all I can
hear is my rapid breathing and the sound of the water lapping against the sides of
the yacht as she bobs gently on the sea.
Oh my. I am so aroused . . . already.
"What's the safe word, aliya?"
"Popsicle."
"Good." Taking my left hand, he snaps a cuff around my wrist then repeats
the process with my right. My left hand is tied to my left ankle, my right hand to
the right leg. I cannot straighten my legs. Holy f**k.
"Now," zain breathes, "I'm going to f**k you till you scream."
What? And all the air leaves my body.
He grasps both of my heels and tips me back so that I fall backward on to the
bed. I have no choice but to keep my legs bent. The cuffs tighten as I pull against
them. He's right . . . they cut into me almost to the point of pain . . . This feels
weird"being trussed up and helpless"on a boat. He pulls my ankles apart, and I
groan.
He kisses my inner thigh, and I want to squirm beneath him, but I can't. I
have no purchase to move my hips. My feet are suspended. I cannot move. Holy
shit.
"You're going to have to absorb all the pleasure, aliya. No moving," he
murmurs as he crawls up my body, kissing me along the edge of my bikini bottoms. He pulls the strings on each side, and the scraps of material fall away. I am
now naked and at his mercy. He kisses my belly, nipping my navel with his teeth.
"Ah," I sigh. This is going to be tough . . . I had no idea. He traces soft kisses
and little bites up to my breasts.
"Shhh . . . ," he soothes. "You are so beautiful, aliya."
I groan, frustrated. Normally I'd be grinding my hips, responding to his touch
with a rhythm of my own, but I cannot move. I moan, pulling on my restraints.
The metal bites into my skin.
"Argh!" I cry. But I really don't care.
"You drive me crazy," he whispers. "So I am going to drive you crazy." He's
resting on me now, his weight on his elbows, and he turns his attention to my
breasts. Biting, sucking, rolling my nipples between his fingers and thumbs, driving me wild. He doesn't stop. It's maddening. Oh. Please. His erection pushes
against me.
"zain," I beg and feel his triumphant smile against my skin.
"Shall I make you come this way?" He murmurs against my nipple, causing it
to harden some more. "You know I can." He suckles me hard and I cry out, pleasure lancing from my chest directly to my groin. I pull helplessly on the cuffs,
swamped by the sensation.
"Yes," I whimper.
"Oh, baby, that would be too easy."
"Oh . . . please."
"Shh." His teeth scrape my chin as he trails his lips to my mouth, and I gasp.
He kisses me. His skilled tongue invades my mouth, tasting, exploring,
dominating, but my tongue meets his challenge, writhing against his. He tastes of
cool gin and zain abdullah, and he smells of the sea. He grasps my chin, holding
my head in place.
"Still, baby. I want you still," he whispers against my mouth.
"I want to see you."
"Oh no, aliya. You'll feel more this way." And agonizingly slowly he flexes
his hips and pushes partway into me. I would normally tilt my pelvis up to meet
him but I can't move. He withdraws.
"Ah! zain, please!"
"Again?" he teases, his voice hoarse.
"zain!"
He pushes fractionally into me again then withdraws while kissing me, his
fingers tugging at my nipple. It's pleasure overload.
"No!"
"Do you want me, aliya?"
"Yes," I beg.
"Tell me," he murmurs, his breathing harsh, and he teases me once
more"in . . . and out.
"I want you," I whimper. "Please."
I hear his soft sigh against my ear.
"And have me you will, aliya."
He rears up and slams into me. I scream, tilting my head back, pulling on the
restraints as he hits my sweet spot, and I am all sensation, everywhere"a sweet,
sweet agony, and I cannot move. He stills then circles his hips, and the motion radiates deep inside me.
"Why do you defy me, Ana?"
"zain, stop . . ."
He circles deep inside me again, ignoring my plea, easing out slowly and then
slamming into me again.
"Tell me. Why?" he hisses, and I'm vaguely aware that it's through gritted
teeth.
I cry out in an incoherent wail . . . this is too much.
"Tell me."
"zain . . ."
"aliya, I need to know."
He slams into me again, thrusting so deep, and I'm building . . . the feeling is
so intense"it swamps me, spiraling out from deep within my belly, to each limb,
to each biting metal restraint.
"I don't know!" I cry out. "Because I can! Because I love you! Please,
zain."
He groans loudly and thrusts deep, again and again, over and over, and I am
lost, trying to absorb the pleasure. It's mind-blowing . . . body blowing . . . I long
to straighten my legs, to control my imminent orgasm, but I can't . . . I'm helpless. I'm his, just his, to do with as he wills . . . Tears spring to my eyes. This is
too intense. I can't stop him. I don't want to stop him . . . I want . . . I want . . . oh
no, oh no . . . this is too . . .
"That's it," zain growls. "Feel it, baby!"
I detonate around him, again and again, round and round, screaming loudly as
my orgasm rips me apart, scorching through me like a wildfire, consuming
everything. I am wrung ragged, tears streaming down my face"my body left
pulsing and shaking.
And I'm aware that zain kneels, still inside me, pulling me upright onto
his lap. He clutches my head with one hand and my back with another, and he
comes violently inside me while my insides continue to tremble with aftershocks.
It's draining, it's exhausting, it's hell . . . it's heaven. It's hedonism gone wild.
zain tears off the blindfold and kisses me. He kisses my eyes, my nose,
my cheeks. He kisses away the tears, clutching my face in between his hands.
"I love you, Mrs. abdullah," he breathes. "Even though you make me so mad"I
feel so alive with you." I don't have the energy to open either my eyes or my
mouth to respond. Very gently, he lays me back on the bed and eases out of me.
I mouth some wordless protest. He climbs off the bed and undoes the handcuffs. When I'm free, he gently rubs my wrists and ankles, then lies down beside
me again, pulling me into his arms. I stretch out my legs. Oh my, that feels good. I
feel good. That was, without doubt, the most intense climax I have ever endured.
Hmm . . . a zain abdullah Fifty Shades punishment f**k.
I really must misbehave more often.
A pressing need from my bladder wakes me. When I open my eyes, I'm disorientated. It's dark outside. Where am I? London? Paris? Oh"the boat. I feel her pitch
and roll, and hear the quiet hum of the engines. We're on the move. How odd.
zain is beside me, working on his laptop, casually dressed in a white linen
shirt and chino trousers, his feet bare. His hair is still wet, and I can smell his
body wash fresh from the shower and his zain smell . . . Hmm.
"Hi," he murmurs, gazing down at me, his eyes warm.
"Hi." I smile, feeling suddenly shy. "How long have I been asleep?"
"Just an hour or so."
"We're moving?"
"I figured since we ate out last night and went to the ballet and the Casino
that we'd dine on board tonight. A quiet night deux."
I grin at him. "Where are we going?"
"Cannes."
"Okay." I stretch, feeling stiff. No amount of training with Claude could have
prepared me for this afternoon.
I rise gingerly, needing the bathroom. Grabbing my silk robe, I hastily put it
on. Why am I so shy? I feel zains eyes on me. When I glance at him, he returns to his laptop, his brow furrowed.
As I absentmindedly wash my hands at the vanity unit, recalling last night at
the Casino, my robe falls open. I stare at myself in the mirror, shocked.
Holy f**k! What has he done to me?
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I gaze in horror at the red marks all over my breasts. Hickeys! I have hickeys! I
am married to one of the most respected businessmen in the United States, and
he's given me goddamn hickeys. How did I not feel him doing this to me? I flush.
The fact is I know exactly why"Mr. Orgasmic was using his fine-motor sexing
skills on me.
My subconscious peers over her half-moon specs and tuts disapprovingly,
while my inner goddess slumbers on her chaise longue, out for the count. I gape at
my reflection. My wrists have a red welt around them from the handcuffs. No
doubt they'll bruise. I examine my ankles"more welts. Holy hell, I look like I'vebeen in some sort of accident. I gaze at myself, trying to absorb how I look. My
body is so different these days. It's changed subtly since I've known him . . . I've
become leaner and fitter, and my hair is glossy and well cut. My nails are manicured, my feet pedicured, my eyebrows threaded and beautifully shaped. For the
first time in my life, I'm well groomed"except for these hideous love bites.
I don't want to think about grooming at the moment. I'm too mad. How dare
he mark me like this, like some teenager. In the short time we've been together,
he's never given me hickeys. I look like hell. I know why he's done this. Damn
control freak. Right! My subconscious folds her arms beneath her small bosom"he's gone too far this time. I stalk out of the en suite bathroom and into the
walk-in closet, carefully avoiding even a glance in his direction. Slipping out of
my robe, I pull on my sweatpants and a camisole. I undo the braid, pick up a hairbrush from the small vanity unit, and brush out my tangles.
"aliya," zain calls and I hear his anxiety. "Are you okay?"
I ignore him. Am I okay? No, I am not okay. After what he's done to me, I
doubt I'll be able to wear a swimsuit, let alone one of my ridiculously expensive
bikinis, for the rest of our honeymoon. The thought is suddenly so infuriating.
How dare he? I'll give him are you okay. I seethe as fury spikes through me. I can
behave like an adolescent, too! Stepping back into the bedroom, I hurl the hairbrush at him, turn, and leave"though not before I see his shocked expression and
his lightning reaction as he raises his arm to protect his head so that the brush
bounces ineffectively off his forearm and onto the bed.
I storm out of our cabin, bolt upstairs and out on deck, fleeing toward the
bow. I need some space to calm down. It's dark and the air is balmy. The warm
breeze carries the smell of the Mediterranean and the scent of jasmine and bougainvillea from the shore. The Fair Lady glides effortlessly through the calm cobalt sea as I rest my elbows on the wooden railing, gazing at the distant shore
where tiny lights wink and twinkle. I take a deep, healing breath and slowly begin
to calm. I'm aware of him behind me before I hear him.
"You're mad at me," he whispers.
"No shit, Sherlock!"
"How mad?"
"Scale of one to ten, I think I'm at fifty. Apt, huh?"
"That mad." He sounds surprised and impressed at once.
"Yes. Pushed to violence mad," I say through gritted teeth.
He stays silent as I turn and scowl at him, watching me with wide and wary
eyes. I know from his expression and because he's made no move to touch me
that he's out of his depth.
"zain, you have to stop unilaterally trying to bring me to heel. You made
your point on the beach. Very effectively, as I recall."
He shrugs minutely. "Well, you won't take your top off again," he murmurs
petulantly.
And this justifies what he's done to me? I glare at him. "I don't like you leaving marks on me. Well, not this many, anyway. It's a hard limit!" I hiss at him.
"I don't like you taking your clothes off in public. That's a hard limit for
me," he growls.
"I think we've established that," I hiss through my teeth. "Look at me!" I pull
down my camisole to reveal the top of my breasts. zain gazes at me, his eyes
not leaving my face his expression wary and uncertain. He's not used to seeing
me this mad. Can't he see what he's done? Can't he see how ridiculous he is? I
want to shout at him, but I refrain"I don't want to push him too far. Heaven
knows what he'd do. Eventually, he sighs and holds his palms up in a resigned,
conciliatory gesture.
"Okay," he says his voice placating. "I get it."
Hallelujah!
"Good!"
He runs his hand through his hair. "I'm sorry. Please don't be mad at me."
Finally, he looks contrite"using my own words back at me.
"You are such an adolescent sometimes," I scold him, mulishly, but the fight
has gone out of my voice, and he knows it. He steps closer and tentatively raises
his hand to tuck my hair behind my ear.
"I know," he acknowledges softly. "I have a lot to learn."
Dr. Flynn's words come back to me . . . Emotionally, zain is an adolescent, Ana. He bypassed that phase in his life totally. He's channeled all his energies into succeeding in the business world, and he has beyond all expectations.
His emotional world has to play catch-up.
My heart thaws a little.
"We both do." I sigh and cautiously raise my hand, placing it over his heart.
He doesn't flinch like he used to, but he stiffens. He rests his hand over mine and
smiles his shy smile.
"I've just learned that you've a good arm and a good aim, Mrs. abdullah. I would
never have figured that, but then I constantly underestimate you. You always surprise me."
I arch my eyebrow at him. "Target practice with ghulam. I can throw and shoot
straight, Mr. abdullah, and you'd do well to remember that."
"I will endeavor to do that, Mrs. abdullah, or ensure that all potential projectile
objects are nailed down and that you don't have access to a gun." He smirks.
I smirk back, narrowing my eyes. "I'm resourceful."
"That you are," he whispers and releases my hand to circle his arms around
me. Pulling me into an embrace, he buries his nose in my hair. I wrap my arms
around him, holding him close, and feel the tension leave his body as he nuzzles
me.
"Am I forgiven?"
"Am I?"
I feel his smile. "Yes," he answers.
"Ditto."
We stand holding each other, my pique forgotten. He does smell good, adolescent or not. How can I resist him?
"Hungry?" he says after a while. I have my eyes closed and my head against
his chest.
"Yes. Famished. All the . . . er . . . activity has given me an appetite. But I'm
not dressed for dinner." I'm sure my sweatpants and camisole would be frowned
upon in the dining room.
"You look good to me, aliya. Besides, it's our boat for the week. We can
dress how we like. Think of it as dress down Tuesday on the Cote D'Azur. Anyway, I thought we'd eat on deck."
"Yes, I'd like that."
He kisses me"an earnest forgive-me kiss"then we wander hand in hand toward the bow where our gazpacho soup awaits.
The steward serves our crme brule and discreetly retires.
"Why do you always braid my hair?" I ask zain out of curiosity. We're
sitting adjacent to each other at the table, my lower leg curled around his. He
pauses as he's about to pick up his dessertspoon and frowns.
"I don't want your hair catching in anything," he says quietly and for a moment, he's lost in thought. "Habit, I think," he muses. Suddenly he frowns and his
eyes widen, his pupils dilating with alarm.
Holy shit! What's he remembered? It's something painful, some early childhood memory, I guess. I don't want to remind him of that. Leaning over, I put my
index finger over his lips.
"No, it doesn't matter. I don't need to know. I was just curious." I give him a
warm, reassuring smile. His look is wary, but after a moment he visibly relaxes,
his relief evident. I lean over to kiss the corner of his mouth.
"I love you," I murmur, and he smiles his heart-achingly shy smile, and I
melt. "I will always love you, zain."
"And I you," he says softly.
"In spite of my disobedience?" I raise my eyebrow.
"Because of your disobedience, aliya." He grins.
I crack my spoon through the burnt sugar crust of my dessert and shake my
head. Will I ever understand this man? Hmm"this crme brule is delicious.
Once the steward has cleared our dessert plates, zain reaches for the bottle of
ros and refills my glass. I check that we're alone and ask, "What's with the no
going to the bathroom thing?"
"You really want to know?" He half smiles, his eyes alight with a salacious
gleam.
"Do I?" I gaze at him through my lashes as I take a sip of my wine.
"The fuller your bladder, the more intense your orgasm, aliya."
I blush. "Oh. I see." Holy cow, that explains a lot.
He grins, looking far too knowing. Will I always be on the back foot with Mr.
Sexpertise?
"Yes. Well . . ." I desperately hunt around for a change of subject. He takes
pity on me.
"What do you want to do for the rest of the evening?" He cocks his head to
one side and gives me his lopsided grin.
Whatever you want, zain. Put your theory to the test again? I shrug.
"I know what I want to do," he murmurs. Grabbing his glass of wine, he rises
and holds his hand out to me. "Come."
I take his hand and he leads me into the main salon.
His iPod is in the speaker dock on the dresser. He switches it on and selects a
song.
"Dance with me." He pulls me into his arms.
"If you insist."
"I insist, Mrs. abdullah."
A slinky, cheesy melody starts. Is this a Latin rhythm? zain grins down
at me and starts to move, sweeping me off my feet and taking me with him round
the salon.
A man with a voice like warm melted caramel croons. It's a song I know but
can't place. zain dips me low, and I yelp in surprise and giggle. He smiles,
his eyes filled with humor. Then he scoops me up and spins me under his arm.
"You dance so well," I say. "It's like I can dance."
He gives me a sphinxlike smile but says nothing, and I wonder if it's because
he's thinking of her . . . Mrs. Robinson, the woman who taught him how to
dance"and how to f**k. She hasn't crossed my mind for a while. zain has
not mentioned her since his birthday, and as far as I'm aware, their business relationship is over. Reluctantly though, I have to admit"she was some teacher.
He dips me low again and plants a swift kiss on my lips.
"I'd miss your love," I murmur, echoing the lyrics.
"I'd more than miss your love," he says and spins me once more. Then he
sings the words softly in my ear making me swoon.
The track ends and zain gazes down at me, his eyes dark and luminous,
all humor gone, and I'm suddenly breathless.
"Come to bed with me?" he whispers and it's a heartfelt plea that tugs at my
heart.
zain, you had me at I do"two and half weeks ago. But I know this is his
way of apologizing and making sure all is well between us after our spat.
When I wake, the sun is shining through the portholes and the water reflects shimmering patterns onto the cabin ceiling. zain is nowhere to be seen. I stretch
out and smile. Hmm . . . I'll take a punishment f**k followed by makeup sex any
day. I marvel what it is to go to bed with two different men"angry zain and
sweet let-me-make-it-up-to-you-in-any-way-I-can zain. It's tricky to decide
which of them I like the best.
I rise and head for the bathroom. Opening the door, I find zain inside
shaving, naked except for a towel wrapped around his waist. He turns and beams,
not fazed that I am interrupting him. I have discovered that zain will never
lock the door if he is the only person in the room"the reason why is sobering,
and not one I want to dwell on.
"Good morning, Mrs. abdullah," he says, radiating his good mood.
"Good morning yourself." I grin back as I watch him shave. I love watching
him shave. He pulls up his chin and shaves beneath it, taking long deliberate
strokes, and I find myself unconsciously mirroring his actions. Pulling my upper
lip down just as he does, to shave his philtrum. He turns and smirks at me, one
half of his face still covered in shaving soap.
"Enjoying the show?" he asks.
Oh, zain, I could watch you for hours. "One of my all-time favorites," I
murmur, and he leans down and kisses me quickly, smearing shaving soap on my
face.
"Shall I do this to you again?" he whispers wickedly and holds up the razor.
I purse my lips at him. "No," I mutter, pretending to sulk. "I'll wax next
time." I remember zains joy in London when he'd discovered that during his
one meeting there, I'd shaved off my pubic hair out of curiosity. Of course I
hadn't done it to Mr. Exacting's high standards . . .
"What the hell have you done?" zain exclaims. He cannot keep his horrified
amusement to himself. He sits up in bed in our suite at Browns Hotel near Piccadilly, switches on the bedside light and gazes down at me, his mouth a startled O.
It must be midnight. I blush the color of the sheets in the playroom and try to pull
down my satin nightdress so he can't see. He grabs my hand to stop me.
"aliya!"
"I"err . . . shaved."
"I can see that. Why?" He's grinning from ear to ear.
I cover my face with my hands. Why am I so embarrassed?
"Hey," he says softly and pulls my hand away. "Don't hide." He's biting his
lip so that he won't laugh. "Tell me. Why?" His eyes dance with merriment. Why
does he find this so funny?
"Stop laughing at me."
"I'm not laughing at you. I'm sorry. I'm . . . delighted," he says.
"Oh . . ."
"Tell me. Why?"
I take a deep breath. "This morning, after you left for your meeting, I took a
shower and was remembering all your rules."
He blinks. The humor in his expression has vanished, and he regards me
cautiously.
"And I was ticking them off one by one and how I felt about them, and I remembered the beauty salon, and I thought . . . this is what you'd like. I wasn't
brave enough to get a wax." My voice disappears into a whisper.
He stares at me, his eyes glowing"this time not with mirth at my folly, but
with love.
"Oh, Aliya," he breathes. He leans down and kisses me tenderly. "You beguile
me," he whispers against my lips and kisses me once more, clasping my face in
both his hands.
After a breathless moment, he pulls back and leans up on one elbow. The humor is back.
"I think I should do a thorough inspection of your handiwork, Mrs. abdullah."
"What? No." He has to be kidding! I cover myself, protecting my recently deforested area.
"Oh, no you don't, aliya." He grasps my hands and pries them away,
moving nimbly so he's between my legs and pinning my hands to my sides. He
gives me a scorching look that could light dry tinder, but before I combust, he
bends and skims his lips down my naked belly directly to my sex. I squirm beneath him, reluctantly resigned to my fate.
"Well, what have we here?" zain plants a kiss where, until this morning,
I had pubic hair"then scrapes his bristly chin across me.
"Ah!" I exclaim. Wow . . . that's sensitive.
zains eyes dart to mine, full of salacious longing. "I think you missed a
bit," he mutters and tugs gently, right underneath.
"Oh . . . Damn," I mutter, hoping this will put an end to his frankly intrusive
scrutiny.
"I have an idea." He leaps naked out of bed and heads to the bathroom.
What on earth is he doing? He returns moments later, carrying a glass of water, a mug, my razor, his shaving brush, soap, and a towel. He puts the water,
brush, soap, and razor on the bedside table and gazes down at me, holding the
towel.
Oh no! My subconscious slams down her Complete Works of Charles Dickens, leaps up from her armchair, and puts her hands on her hips.
"No. No. No," I squeak.
"Mrs. abdullah, if a job's worth doing, it's worth doing well. Lift your hips." His
eyes glow summer storm gray.
"zain! You are not shaving me."
He tilts his head to one side. "Why ever not?"
I flush . . . isn't it obvious? "Because . . . It's just too . . ."
"Intimate?" he whispers. "aliya, I crave intimacy with you"you know that.
Besides, after some of the things we've done, don't get all squeamish on me now.
And, I know this part of your body better than you do."
I gape at him. Of all the arrogant . . . true, he does"but still. "It's just
wrong!" My voice is prissy and whiney.
"This isn't wrong"this is hot."
Hot? Really? "This turns you on?" I can't keep the astonishment out of my
voice.
He snorts. "Can't you tell?" He glances down at his arousal. "I want to shave
you," he whispers
Oh, what the hell. I lie back, throwing my arm over my face so I don't have
to watch.
"If it makes you happy, zain, go ahead. You are so kinky," I mutter, as I
lift my hips, and he slips the towel beneath me. He kisses my inner thigh.
"Oh, baby, how right you are."
I hear the slosh of water as he dips the shaving brush in the glass of water,
then the soft swirl of the brush in the mug. He grasps my left ankle and parts my
legs, and the bed dips as he sits between my legs. "I'd really like to tie you up
right now," he murmurs.
"I promise to keep still."
"Good."
I gasp as he runs the lathered brush over my pubic bone. It's warm. The water
in the glass must be hot. I squirm a little. It tickles . . . but in a good way.
"Don't move," zain admonishes and applies the brush again. "Or I will
tie you down," he adds darkly, and a delicious shiver runs down my spine.
"Have you done this before?" I ask tentatively when he reaches for the razor.
"No."
"Oh. Good." I grin.
"Another first, Mrs. abdullah."
"Hmm. I like firsts."
"Me, too. Here goes." And with a gentleness that surprises me, he runs the
razor over my sensitive flesh. "Keep still," he says distractedly, and I know he's
concentrating hard.
It only takes a matter of minutes before he grabs the towel and wipes all the
excess lather off me.
"There"that's more like it," he muses, and I finally lift my arm to look at
him as he sits back to admire his handiwork.
"Happy?" I ask, my voice hoarse.
"Very." He grins wickedly and slowly eases a finger inside me.
"But that was fun," he says his eyes gently mocking.
"For you maybe." I try to pout"but he's right . . . it was . . . arousing.
"I seem to recall the aftermath was very satisfying." zain returns to finishing his shave. I glance quickly down at my fingers. Yes, it was. I had no idea
that the absence of pubic hair could make such a difference.
"Hey, I'm just teasing. Isn't that what husbands who are hopelessly in love
with their wives do?" zain tips my chin up and gazes at me, his eyes suddenly filled with apprehension as he endeavors to read my expression.
Hmm . . . payback time.
"Sit," I mutter.
He stares, not understanding. I push him gently toward the lone white stool in
the bathroom. Perplexed, he sits down, and I take the razor from him.
"aliya," he warns as he realizes my intention. I lean down and kiss him.
"Head back," I whisper.
He hesitates.
"Tit for tat, Mr. abdullah."
He stares at me with wary, amused disbelief. "You know what you're doing?" he asks, his voice low. I shake my head slowly, deliberately, trying to look
as serious as possible. He closes his eyes and shakes his head then tilts his head
back in surrender.
Holy shit, he's going to let me shave him. My inner goddess flexes and
stretches her arms outward, her fingers interlocked, palms out, limbering up. Tentatively I slide my hand into the damp hair at his forehead, gripping tightly to hold
him still. He clenches his eyes closed and parts his lips as he inhales. Very gently,
I stroke his razor up from his neck to his chin, revealing a path of skin beneath the
lather. zain exhales.
"Did you think I was going to hurt you?"
"I never know what you're going to do, aliya, but no"not intentionally."
I run the razor up his neck again, clearing a wider path in the lather.
"I would never intentionally hurt you, zain."
He opens his eyes and circles his arms around me as I gently drag the razor
down his cheek from the bottom of his sideburn.
"I know," he says, angling his face so I can shave the rest of his cheek. Two
more strokes and I've finished.
"All done, and not a drop of blood spilled." I grin proudly.
He runs his hand up my leg so that my nightdress rides up my thigh and pulls
me on to his lap so that I'm astride him. I steady myself with my hands on his upper arms. He's really very muscular.
"Can I take you somewhere today?"
"No sunbathing?" I arch a caustic brow at him.
He licks his lips nervously. "No. No sunbathing today. I thought you might
prefer something else."
"Well, since you've covered me in hickeys and effectively put the kibosh on
that, sure, why not?"
Wisely he chooses to ignore my tone. "It's a drive, but it's worth a visit from
what I've read. My dad recommended we visit. It's a hilltop village called Saint
Paul de Vence. There are some galleries there. I thought we could pick out some
paintings or sculptures for the new house, if we find anything we like."
Holy crap. I lean back and gaze at him. Art . . . he wants to buy art. How can
I buy art?
"What?" he asks.
"I know nothing about art, zain."
He shrugs and smiles at me indulgently. "We'll only buy what we like. This
isn't about investment."
Investment? Jeez.
"What?" he says again.
I shake my head.
"Look, I know we only got the architect's drawings the other day"but
there's no harm in looking, and the town is an ancient, medieval place."
Oh, the architect. He had to remind me of her . . . Gia Matteo, a friend of harshads who worked on zains place in Aspen. During our meetings, she'd been
all over zain like a rash.
"What now?" zain exclaims. I shake my head. "Tell me," he urges.
How can I tell him that I don't like Gia? My dislike is irrational. I don't want
to come across as the jealous wife.
"You're not still mad about what I did yesterday?" He sighs and nuzzles his
face between my breasts.
"No. I'm hungry," I mutter, knowing full well that this will distract him from
this line of questioning.
"Why didn't you say?" He eases me off his lap and stands.
Saint Paul de Vence is a medieval, fortified, hilltop village, one of the most picturesque places I have ever seen. I stroll arm in arm with zain through the
narrow cobblestone streets with my hand in the back pocket of his shorts. Taylor
and either Gaston or Philippe"I can't tell the difference between them"trail behind us. We pass a tree-covered square where three old men, one wearing a traditional beret in spite of the heat, are playing boules. It's quite crowded with tourists, but I feel comfortable tucked under zains arm. There is so much to
see"little alleys and passageways leading to courtyards with intricate stone fountains, ancient and modern sculptures, and fascinating little boutiques and shops.
In the first gallery, zain gazes distractedly at the erotic photographs in
front of us, sucking gently on the arm of his aviator specs. They are the work of
Florence D'elle"naked women in various poses.
"Not quite what I had in mind," I mumble disapprovingly. They make me
think of the box of photographs I found in his closet, our closet. I wonder if he
ever did destroy them.
"Me neither," zain says, grinning down at me. He takes my hand, and
we stroll to the next artist. Idly, I wonder if I should let him take photos of me.
My inner goddess nods frantically with approval.
The next display is by a female painter who specializes in figurative
art"fruit and vegetables super close up and in rich, glorious color.
"I like those." I point to three paintings of peppers. "They remind me of you
chopping vegetables in my apartment." I giggle. zains mouth twists as he
tries and fails to hide his amusement.
"I thought I managed that quite competently," he mutters. "I was just a bit
slow, and anyway""he pulls me into an embrace""you were distracting me.
Where would you put them?"
"What?"
zain is nuzzling my ear. "The paintings"where would you put them?"
He bites my earlobe and I feel it in my groin.
"Kitchen," I murmur.
"Hmm. Nice idea, Mrs. abdllah."
I squint at the price. Five thousand euros each. Holy shit!
"They're really expensive!" I gasp.
"So?" He nuzzles me again. "Get used to it, aliya." He releases me and
saunters over to the desk where a young woman dressed entirely in white is
gaping at him. I want to roll my eyes, but turn my attention back to the paintings.
Five thousand euros . . . jeez.
We have finished lunch and are relaxing over coffee at the Hotel Le Saint
Paul. The view of the surrounding countryside is stunning. Vineyards and fields
of sunflowers form a patchwork across the plain, interspersed here and there with
neat little French farmhouses. It's such a clear, beautiful day we can see all the
way to the sea, glinting faintly on the horizon. zain interrupts my reverie.
"You asked me why I braid your hair," he murmurs. His tone alarms me. He
looks . . . guilty.
"Yes." Oh, shit.
"The crack wh**e used to let me play with her hair, I think. I don't know if
it's a memory or a dream."
Whoa! His birth mom.
He gazes at me, his expression unreadable. My heart leaps into my mouth.
What do I say when he says things like this?
"I like you playing with my hair." My voice is hesitant.
He regards me with uncertainty. "Do you?"
"Yes." It's the truth. I grasp his hand. "I think you loved your birth mother,
zain." His eyes widen and he stares at me impassively, saying nothing.
Holy shit. Have I gone too far? Say something, Fifty"please. But he remains
resolutely mute, gazing at me with fathomless gray eyes while the silence
stretches between us. He looks lost.
He glances down at my hand on his and he frowns.
"Say something," I whisper, because I cannot bear the silence any longer.
He shakes his head, exhaling deeply.
"Let's go." He releases my hand and stands. His expression guarded. Have I
overstepped the mark? I have no idea. My heart sinks and I don't know whether to
say anything else or just let it go. I decide on the latter and follow him dutifully
out of the restaurant.
In the lovely narrow street, he takes my hand.
"Where do you want to go?"
He speaks! And he's not mad at me"thank heavens. I exhale, relieved, and
shrug. "I am just glad you're still speaking to me."
"You know I don't like talking about all that shit. It's done. Finished," he
says quietly.
No, Christian, it isn't. The thought saddens me, and for the first time I wonder if it will ever be finished. He'll always be Fifty Shades . . . my Fifty Shades.
Do I want him to change? No, not really"only insofar as I want him to feel
loved. Peeking up at him, I take a moment to admire his captivating beauty . . .
and he's mine. And it's not just the allure of his fine, fine face and his body that
has me spellbound. It's what's behind the perfection that draws me, that calls to
me . . . his fragile, damaged soul.
He gives me that look, down his nose, half amused, half wary, wholly sexy
then tucks me under his arm, and we make our way through the tourists toward
the spot where Philippe/Gaston has parked the roomy Mercedes. I slip my hand
back into the back pocket of zains shorts, grateful that he isn't mad. But,
honestly, what four-year-old child doesn't love his mom, no matter how bad a
mom she is? I sigh heavily and hug him closer. I know behind us the security
team lurks, and I wonder idly if they've eaten.
zain stops outside a small boutique selling fine jewelry and gazes in the
window, then down at me. He grasps my free hand and runs his thumb across the
faded red line of the handcuff mark, inspecting it.
"It's not sore." I reassure him. He twists so that my other hand is freed from
his pocket. He clasps that hand, too, turning it gently over to examine my wrist.
The platinum Omega watch he gave me at breakfast on our first morning in London obscures the red line. The inscription still makes me swoon.
Aliya
You are my More
My Love, My Life
Zain
In spite of everything, all his Fiftyness, my husband can be so romantic. I gaze
down at the faint marks on my wrist. Then again, he can be savage sometimes.
Releasing my left hand, he tilts my chin up with his fingers and scrutinizes my expression, his eyes troubled.
"They don't hurt," I repeat. He pulls my hand to his lips and plants a soft
apologetic kiss on the inside of my wrist.
"Come," he says and leads me into the shop.
"Here," zain holds open the platinum bracelet he's just purchased. It's exquisite, so delicately crafted, the filigree in the shape of small abstract flowers
with small diamonds at their heart. He fastens it around my wrist. It's wide and
cuff-like and hides the red marks. It also cost around thirty thousand euros, I
think, though I couldn't really follow the conversation in French with the sales assistant. I have never worn anything so expensive.
"There, that's better," he murmurs.
"Better?" I whisper, gazing into luminous gray eyes, conscious that the stickthin sales assistant is staring at us with a jealous and disapproving look.
"You know why," zain says uncertainly.
"I don't need this." I shake my wrist and the cuff moves. It catches the afternoon light streaming through the boutique window and small sparkling rainbows
dance off the diamonds all over the walls of the store.
"I do," he says with utter sincerity.
Why? Why does he need this? Does he feel guilty? About what? The marks?
His birth mother? Not confiding in me? Oh, Fifty.
"No, zain, you don't. You've given me so much already. A magical honeymoon, London, Paris, the Cote D'Azur . . . and you. I'm a very lucky girl," I
whisper and his eyes soften.
"No, aliya, I'm a very lucky man."
"Thank you." Stretching up on tiptoes, I put my arms around his neck and
kiss him . . . not for giving me the bracelet but for being mine.
Back in the car he's introspective, gazing out at the fields of bright sunflowers,
their heads following and basking in the afternoon sun. One of the twins"I think
it's Gaston"is driving and Taylor is beside him up front. zain is brooding
about something. I clasp his hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze. He glances at
me before releasing my hand and caressing my knee. I'm wearing a short, full,
blue and white skirt, and a blue, fitted, sleeveless shirt. Christian hesitates, and I
don't know if his hand is going to travel up my thigh or down my leg. I tense with
anticipation at the gentle touch of his fingers and my breath catches. What's he
going to do? He chooses down, suddenly grasps my ankle and pulls my foot on to
his lap. I swivel my backside so I am facing him in the back of the car.
"I want the other one, too."
I glance nervously toward Taylor and Gaston, whose eyes are resolutely on
the road ahead, and place my other foot on his lap. His eyes cool, he reaches over
and presses a button located in his door. In front of us, a lightly tinted privacy
screen slides out of a panel, and ten seconds later we are effectively on our own.
Wow . . . no wonder the back of this car has so much legroom.
"I want to look at your ankles," zain offers his quiet explanation. His
gaze is anxious. The cuff marks? Jeez . . . I thought we'd dealt with this. If there
are marks, they are hidden by the sandal straps. I don't recall seeing any this
morning. Gently, he strokes his thumb up my right instep, making me wriggle. A
smile plays on his lips and deftly he undoes one strap, and his smile fades as he's
confronted with the darker red marks.
"Doesn't hurt," I murmur. He glances at me and his expression is sad, his
mouth a thin line. He nods once as if he's taking me at my word while I shake my
sandal loose so it falls to the floor, but I know I've lost him. He's distracted and
brooding again, mechanically caressing my foot while he turns away to gaze out
the car window once more.
"Hey. What did you expect?" I ask softly. He glances at me and shrugs.
"I didn't expect to feel like I do looking at these marks," he says.
Oh! Reticent one minute and forthcoming the next? How . . . Fifty! How can
I keep up with him?
"How do you feel?"
Bleak eyes gaze at me. "Uncomfortable," he murmurs.
Oh, no. I unbuckle my seatbelt and scoot closer to him, leaving my feet in his
lap. I want to crawl into his lap and hold him, and I would, if it were just Taylor in
the front. But knowing Gaston is there cramps my style despite the glass. If only it
were darker. I clutch his hands.
"It's the hickeys I don't like," I whisper. "Everything else . . . what you
did""I lower my voice even further""with the handcuffs, I enjoyed that. Well,
more than enjoyed. It was mind-blowing. You can do that to me again anytime."
He shifts in his seat. "Mind-blowing?" My inner goddess looks up startled
from her Jackie Collins.
"Yes." I grin. I flex my toes into his hardening crotch and see rather than hear
his sharp intake of breath, his lips parting.
"You should really be wearing your seat belt, Mrs. abdullah." His voice is low,
and I curl my toes around him once more. He inhales and his eyes darken, and he
clasps my ankle in warning. Does he want me stop? Continue? He pauses, scowls
then fishes his ever-present BlackBerry out of his pocket to take an incoming call
while glancing at his watch. His frown deepens.
"Barney," he snaps.
Crap. Work interrupting us again. I try to remove my feet, but he tightens his
fingers around my ankle.
"In the server room?" he says in disbelief. "Did it activate the fire suppression system?"
Fire! I take my feet off his lap and this time he lets me. I sit back in my seat,
buckle my seat belt, and fiddle nervously with the fifteen-thousand-euro bracelet.
zain presses the button in his door armrest again and the privacy glass slides
down.
"Anyone injured? Damage? I see . . . When?" zain glances at his watch
again then runs his hand through his hair. "No. Not the fire department or the police. Not yet anyway."
Holy crap! A fire? At Christian's office? I gape at him, my mind racing.
Taylor shifts so he can hear zains conversation.
"Has he? Good . . . Okay. I want a detailed damage report. And a complete
rundown of everyone who had access over the last five days, including the cleaning staff . . . Get hold of Andrea and get her to call me . . . Yeah, sounds like the
argon is just as effective, worth its weight in gold."
Damage report? Argon? It rings a distant bell from chemistry class"an element, I think.
"I realize it's early . . . E-mail me in two hours . . . No, I need to know. Thank
you for calling me." zain hangs up, then immediately punches a number into
the BlackBerry.
"Welch . . . Good . . . When?" zain glances at his watch yet again. "An
hour then . . . yes . . . Twenty-four-seven at the off-site data store . . . good." He
hangs up.
"Philippe, I need to be onboard within the hour."
"Monsieur."
Shit, it's Philippe, not Gaston. The car surges forward.
zain glances at me, his expression unreadable.
"Anyone hurt?" I ask quietly.
Christian shakes his head. "Very little damage." He reaches over and clasps
my hand, squeezing it reassuringly. "Don't worry about this. My team is on it."
And there he is, the CEO, in command, in control and not flustered at all.
"Where was the fire?"
"Server room."
"Abdullah House?"
"Yes."
His responses are clipped, so I know he doesn't want to talk about it.
"Why so little damage?"
"The server room is fitted with a state-of-the-art fire suppression system."
Of course it is.
"aliya, please . . . don't worry."
"I'm not worried," I lie.
"We don't know for sure that it was arson," he says, cutting to the heart of
my anxiety. My hand clutches my throat in fear. Charlie Tango and now this?
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