FF--Circle of Love---Sequel--Upd 2/5--Pg 96 - Page 69

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Part Thirty Four: The Last Letter

Recap: Slowly she opened the letter with much care and love.

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My darling girl,

I am so proud of you. I know how difficult the past month has been. Sharad came in handy I hope. I am sure as fastidious as you are, everything is running like clock work, even in the depth of despair you held your head high and took care of everything like you always do. There is no one like you. Did I ever tell you, you are the best?

Even as independent as you are, as capable you are, I still can't have my peace of mind. I worry about our two angels. Sometimes some one just by being there could make a world of difference. When our son grows up, he would need a father figure who would teach him cricket, teach him all the field placements, all the nitty-gritty of fast bowling. When he goes on his first date or if he has problems with his girl friend, who would he talk to? Who will give him the "talk"! Who will introduce the world of "birds and bees" to him?

When my darling daughter--my heart beat grows up, who will scare her boy friend to death so that he brings her safe and sound at home by (curfew) 9pm? Is 9 too late D? Should we let them be alone for more than one hour? Don't laugh. What would you know how a father worries about his only daughter! But somehow I know they will be alright, they have you-the best mom ever!

To be honest, I am worried most about you. My super woman of a wife, you are the most smart, independent, able person I know. I know you can take the world any day and see the world in a grain and visualize eternity in a second! Dramatic? May be a little, but I honestly believe that. But when you are riding a roller coaster who will you cling on to? Remember, you can't sleep when you watch a horror film and hold onto my hand all night while sleeping. I want to be there for you, be there for Sagar and Sanvi for each second of their lives. The harsh reality is I can't. But I don't want you give up watching M. Night Shamalan or Ram Gopal Varma movies. I don't want you to give up the exhilarating experience of roller coaters! I don't want you to give up anything—I want your life to be as perfect as possible, actually I want it to be beyond perfect!

Divya I know you gave your heart to me but I am no more. Let someone build a nest there. For me, please? I won't be able to rest until I know the most important person in my life is well and well taken care of by someone who loves her as much as I did. I wouldn't trust anyone in the world with this job except Sharad. He loves you and he loves Sagar and Sanvi with all his heart. And you know deep down, you have accepted him once to be your life partner. Let him be there for you. Please Divya, don't be stubborn. For out children's sake, for my sake and also for Sharad's sake. Please. I know you will honor my last wish. I love you. I will always be with you and the children every single second of your lives. Ok, not when Sharad is kissing you, that I won't be able to tolerate, but would gladly leave you two for those moments knowing that my Divya is being loved, and kissed and cuddled, she is not alone. Ok, sorry! Bad joke. Forgive me? I Love you. Promise me you will marry Sharad. I know you will, you are my girl…

This is my last letter. I am setting you free and I don't want you to come back to me. I know it is hard for you but you are no immature, fragile, vulnerable woman—you are a born fighter and I believe with all my heart, you will overcome!

Ok, too much serious talk. On a lighter note, I want three of you to go out and have dinner tonight at "Frost" and celebrate a new beginning and I want you to have fun, laugh like crazy that ends up in snorts, okay? Ask Sharad to join you if he is around. Would you do that for me, please? Would you please wear that purple saree you wore at our last anniversary? Thank you sweetie. I know you would do it for me! Right?

Yours forever,

Amar

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Divya sat silent, her hands crumpled the letter. Tears were rolling down her cheeks. She was heart broken, she was confused but for the first time in her life she was furious at Amar, so much so that she felt like she needed to break something.

How can you think I would marry someone else? I know you are trying to be noble and look out for us but you above all people know love is not something you can switch off or on at your will. Would you have done the same Amar if the situation was reversed? Would have married my best friend because my children would need a mother? Would you be able to love someone again, care for someone in the same way? The promise we made to each other doesn't have any depth? Well, I am not that feeble, memories are enough for me. I don't need Sharad or anybody. My kids would be fine, I promise you that. I am sorry but I can't keep your request. I simply can't. I love you too much and thus have to negate on your last wish. I am sorry, I am so sorry!

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Once again a fantastic update! The letter was so touching. The way he wrote it... my heart mealted. The love in it, and the sadness of leaving your love was just amazingly written. It's so sad that you are ending this FF. But I want a promise from you, promise me that you'll start a SS or a FF again soon. Promise Nishi Di?

Love, Charri<3

You are too sweet...Thanks hun

I don't think I will start a new FF or SS. I still have the other incomplete one "Unexpected" which I need to finish...I don't feel like writing anymore...BMTD has lost its charm for me and its really sad...

Anyways, How have you been..we haven't chatted in a longggg time...Love you...

Divz_fan

Thanks a million...I will try to update the last part soon...Thanks again for reading...

What did you eat for breakfast? You are TOO sweet, you know that?

You make me fly in the deep blue sky, swim (I can't ) in the Pacific and make me sing (which no one wants to hear, not even me)....You take me to my lala land where I become the princess and have magic all around me...

But the reality is I am me and you are a very kind and loving person!

Thanks a MILLION though...Love you loads..

I don't come to this site anymore..I just want to finish this story because so many people PM-ed me...It was great meeting you here...be as generous like this..stay sweet forever!!