Partner do I have to tell you how emotional you have made me with this post??😭 I so cant cope up with this change.Yes I have been saying since the start that I will give the "story" of BV a chance but w/o Prats it almost seems impossible.I am stuck and that too very badly.
Having said that,I would like to say why it is difficult for me to accept this change.Many of u have misinterpreted it as our love for the actor than the character.And believe me I cant tell you how much that had hurt.I would fall short of words if I wud try to tell how much it pained.Just bcoz a few ppl are ready to accept a new face as Anandi doesn't mean the rest never loved the characters.That's such a narrow-minded approach to look at it.And I am so hurt that people even thought we didnt love the real AnSh.
The fact is that probably I never thought of AnSh as some fictional characters.For me they were two real life people...who though are rare but stile alive...and loving each other like this in some remote village of my own country.I know its stupid and you may term me a psycho but thats the truth.I had taken them to life and believed in their existence as I believe in the existence of my family and friends.And why not?I never saw them as a characters of show.You never watch a show a dozen times for a single scene.You never spend hours writing fictional stories on them.You never spend hours making mixes and siggies out of them.Most ppl here who claim we are overreacting probably havent done all this for AnSh.They have probably never slept with a thought of AnSh's love.I hv done...so I know how beautiful it was.
Now when I will see the new girl with Sid I wont be able to digest it.Bcoz they wud use the same songs...the same background tunes...the same dialogues for them which they used for Prats.And that,rather than making me beleive that she is Anandi,will make me remember my real Anandi all the more...which I cant tolerate.I ask u can any of u relate "teri deewani" or "saiyyan" with Toral???Just imagine and tell.
If anyone remembers we AnShians have always said...the true 'moving on' of Anandi will be when she will see "Shiv" in that mirror gift he gave her.The mirror with pictures of her at the sides and mirror in between in which she will see him than her.If ever that scene reaches a closure...would u be able to see Toral's pic in that gift???Just imagine and tell.
This is why I cant imagine my Anandi in Toral.I dont want to be reminded of the most beautiful AnSh moments bcoz the newe A will try to adopt to A's style using old references and that,more than making me convinced will make me hurt and emotional.
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I feel really sorry bcoz I promised that I would try and give it a chance...but it isnt working.By each passing thought I am becoming surer that AnSh cant be revived.Sorry If I hurt anyone but thats how I feel atm.
It was Anandi who taught me to not invest in ur emotions in someone whose not urs...and ironically though I thot I had learnt the lesson from her...I again did it! Invested my emotions in two people who were never mine...they were the creatives'...stupid of us fans to think that the show and characters are of the audiences' too...they never are..really!
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But I promise I will never break my bonding with any one here...whether they moved on with ansh or not...what ever there views were for this change...I will always love my friends here bcoz we spent a lot of time here and loved and respected each other.😳
Edited by Malika - 12 years ago
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