New OS: Let it go {Warning: My philo mode is on high in this one}

I am screwed. But it feels good to break the rules.

Living your life inside a big mansion with every possible comfort you can imagine would probably be anyone's dream come true type thing but I don't fit into that category.

I am different. Well everyone is...but I am just...very different. Not that I am self-centered or anything but seriously I am so different that I don't fit into any category of people! Or is there any such thing as categories'?

I just ran away from home because I wanted to pursue my dream and right now I am sitting here at Baskin Robbins eating chocolate chip ice cream. My favorite! Now you would think I am nuts cause usually when normal people run away from home they...umm...for one at least they don't eat ice-cream unlike me. I mean what if those chipku bodyguards who hardly look human come after me. Shouldn't I be like sitting in a train or in a bus or in a plane or something right now? I mean what if I get caught? Wouldn't that ruin my whole attempt?

Well talk about being contradictory, I'll answer those questions myself. For one Ice-cream is my favorite food...wait correction one of the favorite foods in the world. I can't leave it for anything. Second who cares about those chipku-bodyguards-who-hardly-look-human. Waise bhi I know martial arts so all is well. Last but not least Mujhe pakadna mushkil hi nahi na mumkin hai Muhahaha. Oh and sabse important baat to bhool gayi. It's my birthday today and I ran away from home! Isn't that exciting?! I mean someone could totally make a Bollywood film out of this one. Plus I am pretending the choco-chip ice-cream is my mini b'day cake. Waise bhi both of them are food so cake ho ya ice-cream ki pharak painda hai.

Huh. Now let me indulge myself into this delicious and mouth watering ice-cream.

Om nom nom :P

~1 hour later~

I am standing at a bus stand right now and it's raining. Can you believe it? It's raining! Could this day get any better! I drop my bags on the ground and run beneath open sky to enjoy the rain. No prying eyes to watch you and no traffic to block the way. Now those are rare moments in India. Lucky me!

And as if a reflex I start singing...

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation,
and it looks like I'm the Queen
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in;
Heaven knows I've tried

Yes I felt isolated. I had felt that way since childhood. We were so happy, me, my father and my Mum. There was nothing that could separate us. One big happy family. My Dad was a DCP in the police department and My mom was an artist. Now you would think rab ne ye Jodi kaise mila di. Well opposites attract so Mera mom and Dad did too. Unki love story bilkul typical Bollywood style mein shuru hui thi. My Dad was my hero. Literally Superman aur Spiderman se zayada I used to look up to him. And My Mom...she was my best friend! I used to tell her everything. From what I ate at school to what I used to dream about. Every single detail. But now I don't have anyone ti share that with. God was cruel enough to take her away from me. She...died because of a heart disease and since then my Dad was never the same. He hardly talked to me and a kind of paranoia set over him about losing me. Which is why he never let me out of the house. My whole life up till now I have lived in that mansion hardly seeing the glimpse of the real world.

Don't let them in,
don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel,
don't let them know
Well now they know

Now those words seem familiar. Oh wait cause that's what Dad used to keep saying over and over again for the past years. I have gotten so use to them that I mumble them in my sleep. *sarcastic laugh* Talk about being over protective.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

But I am letting go. I don't care about those words anymore. I don't care what others think. I don't care about what my Dad is going to say. I DON'T CARE. I...am breaking the rules and you know what it feels good. It feels good to finally let go.

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all
Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe
I know I left a life behind but I'm too relieved to grieve

I am not afraid anymore. The fear that controlled me can't get to me anymore. I have...moved on! I AM FREE! And It feels like I am breathing after ages. The cold, the rain, the wind, the water drops. They feel good! And I wish this moment never ends.

Let it go, Let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, Let it go,
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

Standing - frozen in the life I've chosen
You won't find me, the past is so behind me
Buried in the snow

Oh My God am I shouting? I am SHOUTING! But who cares! I don't! It feels good to tell the whole world that I am free! I am finally free! My muscle hurt cause of this huge smile but I hardly feel it! I spread my arms and stand in the rain closing my eyes and just living my moments of freedom.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go,
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway...
(let the music go on)
let it go, let it go
Let it go, let it go

From here on I am living my life to the fullest. I Riya Mukherjee is free! I look up towards the sky and shout this as loud as possible. I don't know what will happen next all I know is that this right now is more than I could have ever asked for. Bappa! I love you! Aur Aage ka aap sambhal lena for now let me celebrate my freedom. This calls for another ice cream Muhahaha!

I picked up my bags from the bus stand and danced my way to the ice-cream parlor again! As I said I am very different.

"Dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them."

- Walt Disney

So How was it? Sorry agar meta Philoness ne aap sab ko paka diya to I couldn't help myself! I know it's not a very good ending but I am thinking I will continue based on the response I get so...upto you peeps now 😉

Do comment and like s'il vous plat!

Until laters peeps!

😳