Antara's diary.....29th Sept to 2nd Oct

29^th Sept

Dear Diary,

Oh there was such a lot of activity going on in the house with Arti bua's marriage round the corner. I was in my room playing when I heard Vidya singing. She has such a nice voice! I came to the hall where she was singing. She and Papa both seemed to be so happy. I went straight to her and sat on her lap. She held me close and kissed me. Then Sameer Uncle and the other girls started dancing. Papa tried to make me dance too. Abhi and Billo were dancing. Vidya and Papa joined the gang. They tried to make me dance but I couldn't. I kept quiet but I was getting more and more disturbed. At night, everyone was tired and wanted to sleep. I too wanted to sleep but sleep was elusive.

The feasting was over and the dance came to an end

Everyone was tired sleepy but I wanted to spend

Sometime in peaceful quiet and be on my own

And look up at the sky and gaze at the stars alone

I walked silently to the balcony and tried to reach

I tripped on a leg and the woman began to screech

I couldn't find my speech … I cried out in my fright

Couldn't I be left alone even at this time of the night?

Vidya picked me up and Papa put off the light

He went to bed and she tried with all her might

But I was uneasy, so we went outside to sit

On a bench which was by many bulbs lit.

There were so many little bulbs that lit up our house and I wondered if the stars had come down. Vidya was speaking to me and was talking about being a mother. So I wanted to tell her about my mother. I pointed to a star far away and said …Ma--- Antara.

But Vidya was sad and I didn't want that. She said she was Abhi's mother but she wanted to be my mother. But my mum was in the sky…….. and Vidya was my best friend and whom I loved very much. She wanted me to know how much she loved me. But I do know that. She wondered if I would sit with her in future and talk to her. But I always sit with her, quietly of course but doesn't silence speak volumes? She wanted to know if I would run to her one day and call her 'mother'? But Vidya I came to you today and I have always come to you. I do love you Vidya…….how do I make you understand that? You, Papa and Abhi are the best people in the world. My very own people. How can I prove it to you? I was looking at the sky but I was talking to her. She caressed my hair and it felt so nice.

I am tired Diary…..haven't slept in days………..

30th Sept

1st Oct

Originally posted by: skeptical

29^th Sept

Dear Diary,

Oh there was such a lot of activity going on in the house with Arti bua's marriage round the corner. I was in my room playing when I heard Vidya singing. She has such a nice voice! I came to the hall where she was singing. She and Papa both seemed to be so happy. I went straight to her and sat on her lap. She held me close and kissed me. Then Sameer Uncle and the other girls started dancing. Papa tried to make me dance too. Abhi and Billo were dancing. Vidya and Papa joined the gang. They tried to make me dance but I couldn't. I kept quiet but I was getting more and more disturbed. At night, everyone was tired and wanted to sleep. I too wanted to sleep but sleep was elusive.

The feasting was over and the dance came to an end

Everyone was tired sleepy but I wanted to spend

Sometime in peaceful quiet and be on my own

And look up at the sky and gaze at the stars alone

I walked silently to the balcony and tried to reach

I tripped on a leg and the woman began to screech

I couldn't find my speech ? I cried out in my fright

Couldn't I be left alone even at this time of the night?

Vidya picked me up and Papa put off the light

He went to bed and she tried with all her might

But I was uneasy, so we went outside to sit

On a bench which was by many bulbs lit.

There were so many little bulbs that lit up our house and I wondered if the stars had come down. Vidya was speaking to me and was talking about being a mother. So I wanted to tell her about my mother. I pointed to a star far away and said ?Ma--- Antara.

But Vidya was sad and I didn't want that. She said she was Abhi's mother but she wanted to be my mother. But my mum was in the sky??.. and Vidya was my best friend and whom I loved very much. She wanted me to know how much she loved me. But I do know that. She wondered if I would sit with her in future and talk to her. But I always sit with her, quietly of course but doesn't silence speak volumes? She wanted to know if I would run to her one day and call her 'mother'? But Vidya I came to you today and I have always come to you. I do love you Vidya??.how do I make you understand that? You, Papa and Abhi are the best people in the world. My very own people. How can I prove it to you? I was looking at the sky but I was talking to her. She caressed my hair and it felt so nice.

I am tired Diary?..haven't slept in days???..

Skep - awesome, as always! When you publish your first book, can I please have a signed copy? 😉

wow.. thants simply superb.. skeptical(sorry dunno ur name) u explained or should i say expressed every emotion, feeling of antara soo nicely.. mujhe aisa lagg raha tha jaise antara khud yeh likh rahi hai.. hats off to u skep.. i cant tell u how much i loved reading antara's diary.. u r a grt wirter aur usse bhi jyada u r a grt person coz i beilieve jitne ache se u expressed antara's emotions no one else could have done it soo nicely.. i am soo lucky that i got a chance to read this.. i have become ur fan now..😊