Self infliction, wounds and parallel Reality!

Akshara is a girl who is used to being hurt and bearing it smiling. She is so used to this constant pain, humiliation that she doesnt give it much thought. If she feels slighted by Swarna, Ag or Aarohi she simply smiles says a few bubbly words and hurries to find a hidden corner.

She had been inflicted with this pain for so long that is like a permanent baggage to her. She does not feel the weight of this hurt anymore. In fact she is the one who adds more pain for herself by ignoring it, siding with the inflictors and refusing to ask for help. She is shown siding and supporting those who hurt her, humiliate her are cruel to her in the name of family members. And so she no more sees the pattern of abuse when it comes to her. But she is a girl who is quick to see when others are hurt and immediately goes to defend and helps others.

Abhimanyu comes into her life like a whiff of magic. And his quiet gestures towards her makes her feel special. Although he likes it she is not ready to accept the feelings and talks herself out of that feeling. Every time his actions make her feel special, his attention makes her feel life the happy girl she should have been she shrugs it off. She rejects the love, the attention, the happiness because she is not used to it.

She has learn to laugh through inflicted pain and an expert to give the most brilliant smiles when hurt badly. But Abhimanyu's love and care was making her feel emotions she was not ready to accept. And thats the conflict only intensified for Akshara when Aaaohi wanted to marry Abhimanyu. She thought that she will make this one final sacrifice for her step sister and pay for all the accusations and failures piles against her.

By refusing Abhimanyu’s love she thought she will make Aarohi happy and silently keep loving him.

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But every time Abhimanyu was in danger she immediately accepted, her last breath was attached with him.

The fire incident was a major revelation to her when she openly accepted her feeling to herself aloud. She was ready to confront Abhimanyu and accept her feelings. But when Aarohi was mistaken as the savior immediately the old pain and wounds came back to cloud her love and she became a mute spectator letting Ar take her credits.

The moment Abhimanyu came to know the truth he decides to confront her but she restrained for Ar sake until he threatens to give up his life. As soon as she understood that he may harm himself she forgot everything and came running to him and stopped the distort from happening in their life.

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After 1yrs leap, she was once again leaving with Khera in spite of knowing that her 1yr contract she could return to Abhimanyu only to continue to help Kv. She was again ready to sacrifice her pain to help another, until she saw Abhimanyu laying on the road and immediately she knew that she cannot keep doing this to him and herself. For her to breath on earth she needs Abhimanyu. And she was ready to forget everything and return to him in the hospital until she saw Manjari in the hospital talk about her and moved away. Causing a distort.

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After Neil’s death, she accepted every accusations made by Abhimanyu in his anger and left him. But she knew she was too hurt to face any one in the GH because she was nt used to sharing her pain with anyone. When she came to know that she was pregnant it was one ray of sunshine into her darkness. And the only person with whom she wanted to share this happiness was Abhimanyu but his refusal to listen to her, then BP words about him not willing to come to take her and hearing him say to Nav that he has nothing to do with her or her baby shattered the last thread of love she had kept with her.

But she needed to live and she in a lifeless manner. Abhir's birth helps her survive. But she refused to thrive, to prosper, to love or be loved. Thats the phase represented with life with Nav.

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The only person who makes her feel alive, to care, to live and love intensely is Abhimanyu and she believes he does not want her in his life. In the 6yrs of separation, Akshara's worst fear and only desire in life was to face him. When she suddenly faced him a lot of emotional debris came crashing down. She deliberately hurt him by portraying infront of him how happy she was in her new life. She kept inflicting pain giving the impression that she has moved on. And once he gave her the outlets to burst and express her anger few more layers of anger, insults and humiliations washed away. But now Akshara dosnt know how to come out of this languid life that she has created in this 6yrs. Even though her anger has dissipated she doesn’t know the path to go back to the life she once lived with Abhimanyu.

Her coming back to Udaipur didnt happen on its own. Its was Akshara's desire but she kept stalling until Kv unwittingly gave her the much needed push. It only shows how adamant and strong she is and she is the one who is in control of Abhimanyu and her future.

Akshara is stronger than Abhimanyu. She grew up among family bearing pain and laughing at it. Abhimanyu is attached is attached to his family by one emotional strand that of her mother. He cannot take any life decision without her. One decision he made for himself to marry Akshara brought him so much dishevel that he did not know how to deal with it. His mother has made him so emotionally dependent on herself that he does according to her which caused a distort in his life.

And that’s the reason everyone is very upset with Akshara’s entry because the plots of everyone's evil schemes start shaking when Akshara takes the centre stage in Abhimanyu's life.

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Right now she is fine because she sees Abhimanyu is fine… If she has the slightest inclination that he is not doing okay Akshara’s shred will come crashing down. She lives because Abhimanyu is still walking and talking fine. Universe is giving them another chance to restart and reboot their life into the reality that both of them desire. But are the willing to take that first difficult step and enter the desired reality is the crossroads

😊

Thank you so much if you read till the end. My thoughts are all over but I will soon try to be more cohesive in my next attempt.

Originally posted by: Illuminatus.

Akshara is a girl who is used to being hurt and bearing it smiling. She is so used to this constant pain, humiliation that she doesnt give it much thought. If she feels slighted by Swarna, Ag or Aarohi she simply smiles says a few bubbly words and hurries to find a hidden corner.

She had been inflicted with this pain for so long that is like a permanent baggage to her. She does not feel the weight of this hurt anymore. In fact she is the one who adds more pain for herself by ignoring it, siding with the inflictors and refusing to ask for help. She is shown siding and supporting those who hurt her, humiliate her are cruel to her in the name of family members. And so she no more sees the pattern of abuse when it comes to her. But she is a girl who is quick to see when others are hurt and immediately goes to defend and helps others.

Abhimanyu comes into her life like a whiff of magic. And his quiet gestures towards her makes her feel special. Although he likes it she is not ready to accept the feelings and talks herself out of that feeling. Every time his actions make her feel special, his attention makes her feel life the happy girl she should have been she shrugs it off. She rejects the love, the attention, the happiness because she is not used to it.

She has learn to laugh through inflicted pain and an expert to give the most brilliant smiles when hurt badly. But Abhimanyu's love and care was making her feel emotions she was not ready to accept. And thats the conflict only intensified for Akshara when Aaaohi wanted to marry Abhimanyu. She thought that she will make this one final sacrifice for her step sister and pay for all the accusations and failures piles against her.

By refusing Abhimanyu’s love she thought she will make Aarohi happy and silently keep loving him.

——————-

But every time Abhimanyu was in danger she immediately accepted, her last breath was attached with him.

The fire incident was a major revelation to her when she openly accepted her feeling to herself aloud. She was ready to confront Abhimanyu and accept her feelings. But when Aarohi was mistaken as the savior immediately the old pain and wounds came back to cloud her love and she became a mute spectator letting Ar take her credits.

The moment Abhimanyu came to know the truth he decides to confront her but she restrained for Ar sake until he threatens to give up his life. As soon as she understood that he may harm himself she forgot everything and came running to him and stopped the distort from happening in their life.

————————————-

After 1yrs leap, she was once again leaving with Khera in spite of knowing that her 1yr contract she could return to Abhimanyu only to continue to help Kv. She was again ready to sacrifice her pain to help another, until she saw Abhimanyu laying on the road and immediately she knew that she cannot keep doing this to him and herself. For her to breath on earth she needs Abhimanyu. And she was ready to forget everything and return to him in the hospital until she saw Manjari in the hospital talk about her and moved away. Causing a distort.

———————-

After Neil’s death, she accepted every accusations made by Abhimanyu in his anger and left him. But she knew she was too hurt to face any one in the GH because she was nt used to sharing her pain with anyone. When she came to know that she was pregnant it was one ray of sunshine into her darkness. And the only person with whom she wanted to share this happiness was Abhimanyu but his refusal to listen to her, then BP words about him not willing to come to take her and hearing him say to Nav that he has nothing to do with her or her baby shattered the last thread of love she had kept with her.

But she needed to live and she in a lifeless manner. Abhir's birth helps her survive. But she refused to thrive, to prosper, to love or be loved. Thats the phase represented with life with Nav.

—————————————

The only person who makes her feel alive, to care, to live and love intensely is Abhimanyu and she believes he does not want her in his life. In the 6yrs of separation, Akshara's worst fear and only desire in life was to face him. When she suddenly faced him a lot of emotional debris came crashing down. She deliberately hurt him by portraying infront of him how happy she was in her new life. She kept inflicting pain giving the impression that she has moved on. And once he gave her the outlets to burst and express her anger few more layers of anger, insults and humiliations washed away. But now Akshara dosnt know how to come out of this languid life that she has created in this 6yrs. Even though her anger has dissipated she doesn’t know the path to go back to the life she once lived with Abhimanyu.

Her coming back to Udaipur didnt happen on its own. Its was Akshara's desire but she kept stalling until Kv unwittingly gave her the much needed push. It only shows how adamant and strong she is and she is the one who is in control of Abhimanyu and her future.

Akshara is stronger than Abhimanyu. She grew up among family bearing pain and laughing at it. Abhimanyu is attached is attached to his family by one emotional strand that of her mother. He cannot take any life decision without her. One decision he made for himself to marry Akshara brought him so much dishevel that he did not know how to deal with it. His mother has made him so emotionally dependent on herself that he does according to her which caused a distort in his life.

And that’s the reason everyone is very upset with Akshara’s entry because the plots of everyone's evil schemes start shaking when Akshara takes the centre stage in Abhimanyu's life.

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Right now she is fine because she sees Abhimanyu is fine… If she has the slightest inclination that he is not doing okay Akshara’s shred will come crashing down. She lives because Abhimanyu is still walking and talking fine. Universe is giving them another chance to restart and reboot their life into the reality that both of them desire. But are the willing to take that first difficult step and enter the desired reality is the crossroads

😊

Thank you so much if you read till the end. My thoughts are all over but I will soon try to be more cohesive in my next attempt.

This is beautiful mini..🤗🤗

Hopefully Akshara finds the courage to confront her past and move forward to make a beautiful future. She is stuck in a loop of make belief! She will have to break that pattern to find her Abhi. Her version of truth is distorted and is clouded by the immense pain she has held in herself. Only Abhi can crumble this facade. Only he can bring back the real Akshara. We saw her in yesterday’s episode. The Akshu who just forgets all the worries once she hides in her Mimi’s lap. Abhir saw a glimpse of that old Akshu. May he see more of her and be able to accept her with all her flaws.

Thank You Mini…this sure explains “Akshara” so well. At times it’s hard to understand why she does things a certain way. It teared me up reading this post how much pain she endures 🥺

Loved your post! Please do keep writing. 🙏

I do have a question - do you think Akshara has changed in these 6 yrs of parallel reality she created living for Abhir? She is shown to believe being selfish is the right way to live.And also the fighting spirit to not take any abuse is something new.

Beautiful Mini ❤️

You have described Akshara's life too well. I mean her feelings her insecurity her fear everything on top notch.👏

Really feeling so sad for her 😒

I really hope she will get all the love which she deserves.

Wonderful explanation. thanks for the details and your time.

People who are commenting Akshu is dumb and did a lot of mistakes etc should read this to understand.

She is very strong. when she see Ab suddenly at her door she handled it very maturely even though she broke when alone.

Just by hearing Ak return news Ab broke down so much and showed all his feelings out and gave chance to manipulate him KM and Ar.

Originally posted by: Illuminatus.

Akshara is a girl who is used to being hurt and bearing it smiling. She is so used to this constant pain, humiliation that she doesnt give it much thought. If she feels slighted by Swarna, Ag or Aarohi she simply smiles says a few bubbly words and hurries to find a hidden corner.

She had been inflicted with this pain for so long that is like a permanent baggage to her. She does not feel the weight of this hurt anymore. In fact she is the one who adds more pain for herself by ignoring it, siding with the inflictors and refusing to ask for help. She is shown siding and supporting those who hurt her, humiliate her are cruel to her in the name of family members. And so she no more sees the pattern of abuse when it comes to her. But she is a girl who is quick to see when others are hurt and immediately goes to defend and helps others.

Abhimanyu comes into her life like a whiff of magic. And his quiet gestures towards her makes her feel special. Although he likes it she is not ready to accept the feelings and talks herself out of that feeling. Every time his actions make her feel special, his attention makes her feel life the happy girl she should have been she shrugs it off. She rejects the love, the attention, the happiness because she is not used to it.

She has learn to laugh through inflicted pain and an expert to give the most brilliant smiles when hurt badly. But Abhimanyu's love and care was making her feel emotions she was not ready to accept. And thats the conflict only intensified for Akshara when Aaaohi wanted to marry Abhimanyu. She thought that she will make this one final sacrifice for her step sister and pay for all the accusations and failures piles against her.

By refusing Abhimanyu’s love she thought she will make Aarohi happy and silently keep loving him.

——————-

But every time Abhimanyu was in danger she immediately accepted, her last breath was attached with him.

The fire incident was a major revelation to her when she openly accepted her feeling to herself aloud. She was ready to confront Abhimanyu and accept her feelings. But when Aarohi was mistaken as the savior immediately the old pain and wounds came back to cloud her love and she became a mute spectator letting Ar take her credits.

The moment Abhimanyu came to know the truth he decides to confront her but she restrained for Ar sake until he threatens to give up his life. As soon as she understood that he may harm himself she forgot everything and came running to him and stopped the distort from happening in their life.

————————————-

After 1yrs leap, she was once again leaving with Khera in spite of knowing that her 1yr contract she could return to Abhimanyu only to continue to help Kv. She was again ready to sacrifice her pain to help another, until she saw Abhimanyu laying on the road and immediately she knew that she cannot keep doing this to him and herself. For her to breath on earth she needs Abhimanyu. And she was ready to forget everything and return to him in the hospital until she saw Manjari in the hospital talk about her and moved away. Causing a distort.

———————-

After Neil’s death, she accepted every accusations made by Abhimanyu in his anger and left him. But she knew she was too hurt to face any one in the GH because she was nt used to sharing her pain with anyone. When she came to know that she was pregnant it was one ray of sunshine into her darkness. And the only person with whom she wanted to share this happiness was Abhimanyu but his refusal to listen to her, then BP words about him not willing to come to take her and hearing him say to Nav that he has nothing to do with her or her baby shattered the last thread of love she had kept with her.

But she needed to live and she in a lifeless manner. Abhir's birth helps her survive. But she refused to thrive, to prosper, to love or be loved. Thats the phase represented with life with Nav.

—————————————

The only person who makes her feel alive, to care, to live and love intensely is Abhimanyu and she believes he does not want her in his life. In the 6yrs of separation, Akshara's worst fear and only desire in life was to face him. When she suddenly faced him a lot of emotional debris came crashing down. She deliberately hurt him by portraying infront of him how happy she was in her new life. She kept inflicting pain giving the impression that she has moved on. And once he gave her the outlets to burst and express her anger few more layers of anger, insults and humiliations washed away. But now Akshara dosnt know how to come out of this languid life that she has created in this 6yrs. Even though her anger has dissipated she doesn’t know the path to go back to the life she once lived with Abhimanyu.

Her coming back to Udaipur didnt happen on its own. Its was Akshara's desire but she kept stalling until Kv unwittingly gave her the much needed push. It only shows how adamant and strong she is and she is the one who is in control of Abhimanyu and her future.

Akshara is stronger than Abhimanyu. She grew up among family bearing pain and laughing at it. Abhimanyu is attached is attached to his family by one emotional strand that of her mother. He cannot take any life decision without her. One decision he made for himself to marry Akshara brought him so much dishevel that he did not know how to deal with it. His mother has made him so emotionally dependent on herself that he does according to her which caused a distort in his life.

And that’s the reason everyone is very upset with Akshara’s entry because the plots of everyone's evil schemes start shaking when Akshara takes the centre stage in Abhimanyu's life.

-----------------

Right now she is fine because she sees Abhimanyu is fine… If she has the slightest inclination that he is not doing okay Akshara’s shred will come crashing down. She lives because Abhimanyu is still walking and talking fine. Universe is giving them another chance to restart and reboot their life into the reality that both of them desire. But are the willing to take that first difficult step and enter the desired reality is the crossroads

😊

Thank you so much if you read till the end. My thoughts are all over but I will soon try to be more cohesive in my next attempt.

Originally posted by: Sri4Abhira

I do have a question - do you think Akshara has changed in these 6 yrs of parallel reality she created living for Abhir? She is shown to believe being selfish is the right way to live.And also the fighting spirit to not take any abuse is something new.

Such a beautiful and balanced post. Thank you Mini(saw others referring you by this name. I hope you dont mind) FYi, I am Nisha.

You know from the start of season 3(havent watched other seasons), I found it much easier to connect with Abhimanyu. I was conflicted when it came to Akshu. But reading your post I think may be it is me who didnt quite understand who Akshu really is. I so wish makers had shown her monologues expressing herself a little more for dumb people like me. Thanks to you. I understand her much better now.

I do however have a question and am keen to get your views on. Akshu has this habit of fully trusting people. Yes she doesnt share her pain but believes no one is bad, except for Arohi post leap 1. Yes she appears to have changed but has she really?

I feel she has blind faith in Nav, if this trust was built gradually over 6 years, I would have understood it. But she trusted him with the one who was most precious to her, her Abhir by giving him father rights within 4-5 months of knowing him. Agree Nav has shown he is worthy of her trust over the 6 years. But he could very well have turned to be a bad guy.

She once trusted Abhi with all her her heart. That trust was broken, Dont you think she has made the same mistake again with Nav. Yes Nav has not given her any reason to doubt him, but the way she has hyped up his "father rights" scares me no end. You will be forgiven if you thought it was Akshu who is not the real mother. What will happen when Abhir finds out he is not the real father. His trust in both Nav and Akshu will be broken. How traumatic would that experience be.

I know she is grateful and thinks without Nav's help Abhir wouldnt have survived. But given what she has been through, I would have expected her to be more cautious. Nav has feelings for her, people can do crazy things in love. If Abhira are to get back together, what is he going to do. He seems so possessive of Abhir. Since their arrival in Udaipur, his looks and especially his conversation with Akshu in her room some how made me uncomfortable.

Loved to hear your views on whether this character of hers of fully trusting people will come back to bite her again.

Originally posted by: daffodil153

This is beautiful mini..🤗🤗

Hopefully Akshara finds the courage to confront her past and move forward to make a beautiful future. She is stuck in a loop of make belief! She will have to break that pattern to find her Abhi. Her version of truth is distorted and is clouded by the immense pain she has held in herself. Only Abhi can crumble this facade. Only he can bring back the real Akshara. We saw her in yesterday’s episode. The Akshu who just forgets all the worries once she hides in her Mimi’s lap. Abhir saw a glimpse of that old Akshu. May he see more of her and be able to accept her with all her flaws.

Yes, the soft, kind Akshu is buried under the baggage of pain. I hope Akshu's pain n anger melts soon. The ego can dissipate and she comes out of the punishing phase because along with Abhimanyu, and herself she is hurting Abhir too.