PART 5
"Good Afternoon Naina"
"Good Afternoon Dr."
"How are you feeling now?? Better"
"Yes."
I noticed her fumbling with the blanket again as the Nurse was checking her fever. Thats when I realised that the hospital dress that she was wearing was not tied properly at the back . She could have told me and I would have helped her. I kept thinking ..Does she not trust me at all?? Was she scared of me ??..I quickly walked out of the room as I didnt want to make her feel uncomfortable. This is another huddle that I had to cross , to make her feel comfortable with intimacy. Lord !! how many huddle do I have to jump, to set this relationship going??!!
"Sameer , you can come in. She is fine now. You can take her home later in the evening . I have asked one more bottle of IV after an hour,as she is still a lil weak. She should take lots of fluids and light food for next three days. As of now , she has had a glass of juice. I have also prescribed medicines for three days. She will be fine after that. "
"Thank you Doctor!!"
"Your welcome. You take care Naina. Sameer , convey my regard to your mom."
"Sure will do." With that doctor left our room . One look at Naina , I understood she needed help with the dress she was wearing. She was sitting on the bed with legs stretched and trying to pull both ends of the dress towards her shoulder. The moment she saw me , she was all red. Red like beetroot. I kept a very straight face. I slowly locked the door and walked towards. Sat on the bed .
"Need help with that??"
"No, can you call a nurse. I wanted to ask that nurse but she was busy making notes of what dr was saying besides I was a lil hesitant.."
"I am not going to call a nurse to help you with this when I can . So turn around."
"Its ok, I will wait for Chacha chachi to come. "
"And what if ,only your chacha ji comes to the hospital??"
"So what he is like my dad, he will help me."
"And who am I to you Naina?? Why is that I have to remind you of who I am to you every time."
"No , its just that ..."
"You are shy!! So , let us cross that huddle as well...huh??"
There was silence again. She was still in same position the on bed, now her eyes were concentrating on her hands. This time I took the silence as a yes. Since I was sitting on the bed facing her , I moved close to her pulled her to my chest, strained my hands around her to tie those threads of her dress back in place. I should have moved back after that , but to my surprise my lady had snaked her hands around me and placed her head on my left shoulder . Our first hug in three years. I could hear her heart beating fast and so was mine. The feeling of her warmth was engulfing me and tickling every sense organ in my body. Those hormones that had literally got lethargic waiting to be awakened, all of a sudden was ready to be in action. After a min or two she slowly moved her hand and my first thought was " Oh god , I dont want her to move away. I wanted her to stay in my arms."
She lifted her head from shoulder and then I felt her lips on my neck below my left ear and her head was on my chest, listening to my heart beats . Did she just kiss me?? Yes!! She did. She signaled me to sit behind her , so that she could lean on my chest . God answered my prayers , she was getting closer to me and trusting me. I gathered the pillows, pilled it near the head rest , then sat on the bed leaning on to it and spreading my legs wide enough for her to sit in between. She wriggled her way through the space between my legs , resting on my chest as if it was her right to be there. I wound my hands around her , placed it on her tummy and she rested her hands on mine.
" You know Sameer,for the first time in my life , I am feeling secure and safe. Its not that my Chacha Chachi hasnt done anything for me. I wanted someone in life for whom I will be their priority. My life till you walked in was good , I cant complain but was I happy?? Not completely, there was something missing. Every day, adjustments had to be made , milestones to be achieved so that I could keep people happy for what they have done for me. In my family , I am that child no one actually wanted. I was a burden and a curse...someone who took her mother's life while her mother pushed her into this world..
Chacha Chachi likes me a lot and they would do anything for me but I knew I couldnt take that liberty which normally kids would take with their parents. I had no expectations from any one as I realised expectations were not something , that kids like me should have. I know my mom didnt have a choice but my dad always had the choice of keeping me with him. But he chose not to. Girl child rt?? What use am I ??
And then I met you I was so happy as I found someone who loved me for who I am , fought for me , safe gaurded my image...and wanted all my attention..I felt I could love you just like there is no tomorrow...sadly it didnt last long for that bubble to burst . My belief in selfless love was lost. All years of my life I had heard, with a fate like mine , I would never manage to get a good life partner . It reminded me of what Swathi had ones mindlessly said , that people like me should concentrate on studies and not on love, especially a girl with a face like mine. Everything seemed so true . I felt I was a fool to even think that you would fall for me ...at that time I was convinced that you were in deeply in love until those boys at Mt. Abu disclosed abt the ..."
"Naina !! Please..." I held her tight , tears were clouding my eyes. That was one of those moments of my life I will never forget nor forgive. I thought she had forgiven me but looks like the wounds were deep.
"I am sorry. The reality is ,in a fit of anger , I did place the bet but never wanted to win it. There were times when you were so willing to confess but I didnt want you to because I knew I was wrong and I didnt want to hurt you dear. Naina , every step that you took towards me with affection made me see life in better way. Your love was cleansing my mind and thoughts. Just that I didnt understand the feeling that was engulfing me. I wanted to tell you about the bet, I would have but by then fate had a different choice. Karma did hit me hard by bringing those boys there . You havnt forgiven me or forgotten that incident ...have you Naina?? Because I havnt till date."
On hearing this , she took my palm in hers and kissed my fingers , tears found its way out of my eyes wetting her shoulders, "Sameer , I know why you placed that bet . Partly I was also responsible to push you into that , I should have trusted you, when you said you hadnt cheated. I should have understood that my father was making use of me to see that Arjun Bhaiya won. I had forgiven you long back and your love healed my wounded soul forever...but there was something that I had lost that day at Mt. Abu...its my confidence and my belief in selfless love ...not that I had it in plenty...but whatever you had managed to built in me was destroyed and the reality is I never was able to get it back.
Later , when I saw what Arjun Bhaiya had done to Shefali, that too when she is so pretty and confident in life, I got scared thinking about us and my reaction to my family. I buckled up under pressure and fell for it . I thought it was better to let you go...once you were gone and the vert thought about having to live with another man did hit hard on me...I hated Sharad , everything about him, by then nothing was in my hands. I had allowed my fear and my lack of trust in our relationship to destroy our lives. Then one of the days , I saw you with Sunaina , it hurt even more but understood that she was perfect for you in everyway, good looks, good family background..wealth ...everything and to top it all you said that you both made a perfect match. It pained me even more...every time I thought, I understood you , you showed up with a different shade of yours. I realised and accepted that I was no good for you. I still wanted to keep you close to me , the only way was to have you as my friend. As I walked towards to accept my life with Sharad , my only hope of happiness was your friendship.
Yet again, fate played its games, and we were back, but those insecurities about appearance and fear of loosing you to someone else or you walking away from me ...hasnt left Sameer. Thats the reality!!thats why I want myself to be financially independent before we get married..."
For the very first time Naina had shared her fears with me. I think she had let out everything that was locked in her heart from her childhood. I felt sad that I was also responsible for making her insecure. The first thing that attracted me towards her was her eyes. We had literally clashed into each other at the corridor and what captured me was her black dove shaped eyes. Then on, I wanted to see those orbes again every day, it acted like the black obsidian , driving away all the negative thoughts from me. On the day of confession I got to see it more closely than I could imagine and I literally wanted to drown in her. From then on , I noticed every inch of her , yearned for her and dreamt every night about her...her in my arms , entangled ..in the most elemental forms. I wished I could tell her all this..little did she know that my definition of beauty was Naina Agarwal.
"Silence Sameer?? You dont have anything to tell me?? ...I know you are angry with me...and I wont blame you...because you will not understand..." saying so she had moved a lil towards my left hand and was straining her neck to look at my face to see my expression. I realised she was also crying . We both had troubled childhood. Both had lost one parent to the fate and the other was not interested in us. In short , we never got parental care during our growing up years and it reflected on our characters. Only when we met each other we got introduced to different shades of affection that we were craving for , especially the feeling of wanting to belong to someone. As realisation struck my tears kept flowing with more vigor ,looking at her face through my clouded eyes , I understood that words alone couldnt heal every wound.
I cradled her head in the crook of my left hand , wrapped her with the other , pulling her close to me. She kept looking at my face, trying to gauge my thoughts..I knew for once she was lost , lost in my eyes. Her face was all pink, her cheeks as usual chubby and round, her lips ..was moist , looked divine and I wanted to feel it with mine. The thought itself was raising my pulse. As I adjusted my hand to move her closer, my nose touched her rounded tear stained cheeks. Logic told me to move away but my heart yearned for more and logic failed. One look at her , I knew both our hearts were craving for the same. I placed my lips at the corner of her warm lips with hesitance, I pulled slightly away , to see if she was ok. Her eyes were closed , lips parted in anticipation and her hand held me tighly. The time stilled , there was no turning back , I brushed my lips on hers , soft ,passionately slow ,comforting her , expressing my love in ways that words couldnt. She moved her hands to my neck , her fingers playing with my hair at the nape of neck, pulling me closer to her , hot and demanding. Our breathing quikened and every muscle of mine hardened , I didnt care if she felt it or not. I yearned for more , but I knew I had to stop else it might lead to something else and neither of us was prepared for it. When we broke apart , we were absolutely brethless and trying to sooth the raging hormones.
We looked at each other not knowing what to say, we never thought our firt kiss would be like this and that too, on the hospital bed. She slowly moved to adjust herself back on to my chest. We both felt so relaxed , so light , so happy that we just couldnt utter a word. These were those moments when silence was bliss.After what seemed like 30 mins, she moved a lil
"Want to lie down on the pillow?"
"Nope!! Sameer, what are you thinking. Why are you so quiet??"
"Naina , I told my family about us . My parents will be coming to meet your family day after tomorrow. I will speak to Chacha ji. We can get engaged now and once education is over , marriage. You can pursue your dream even after marriage. No one is going to stop you.. OK ??"
"Sameer, I know you wont but ...as a woman ...I...I mean you are the eldest boy , so ...there will be lots of other demands..."
"Naina, are you referring to pregnancy ...kids??? " I could see her turning pink...oh I loved it when she blushed.
"Yes..." she wisphered
"We are too young to be parents. You leave that to me , I will handle it and there are umpteen ways of planning..so dont worry ..ok..??"
"ok.."
" Good girl . Do you want something to eat or drink??"
"No, not at all hungry. Anyways that lady made me drink a glass of juice. Cant take anything more."
"OK. Then rest for a while before chacha chachi and the others come."
"Sameer , is your back hurting ?? If you want you can sit on the chair , dont worry about me."
"I am fine Naina. With you in my arms like this, I feel I am home and at peace ."
"Same here...LOVE YOU SAMEER.."
"LOVE YOU DEAR.."
PS: This is the concluding part . Do review and comment . As usual eager to read on your comments. Do key in your thoughts on this story.
Edited by WeRockTheWorld - 6 years ago
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