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Hello everyone...
I have started writing this OS long back, I thought I will leave it in mid but some how I finished it...
Here I am posting it... there will lot of typo & grammatical mistakes. Please bear with it...
Here the story base is raman opting surrogacy and how ishra deal with it... this OS is bit lengthy sorry for it...
Thanks in advance for it...
LIVING THE DREAM (with a pinch of bitterness)
Bhalla house is full of hustle bustle all are running around to make everything perfect for the evening party.
Senior Bhalla's and Iyer were rechecking the guest list as they don't want to miss any...
Vandu, Bala and simmi busy with caterers...
Rinki and mihika with decorations...
Adi, ruhi, shravan bunked the school in the pretext of party and running around to help elders
Ananya, rohit and kshitija happily playing with their toys...
Raman, Mihir and romi are busy in a meeting which will help them to reach new heights in business...
Neelu also busy in preparing lunch and serving snacks and tea for all...
Ishita is not able to look after the things bcoz of her little princess who is cranky and hell bent on not leaving her for a second...
Yes today our pihu has turned one and it was her birthday party for which all the preparations are going on...
Ishita didn't liked the idea of such a huge celebration but wanted to keep it simple with family, but Raman was adamant and wanted a big party and their parents and kids supported and at last she has to give in to their demands..
Ishita was hell angry on Raman bcoz he ditched her and left to office for an urgent meeting and becoz of Raman only she is not able to look after the things just sitting and checking the outfits which they choose for the party
Pihu is so cranky today firstly she don't want Raman to leave her in the morning but don't know what Raman told pihu, she let him go and came to me and is not ready to leave her even in sleep... And Ishita loves to adore all her sleeping babies from Raman to pihu.
Ishita sits there admiring pihu and slips back to memory line while pihu was in womb, shagun's womb their love symbol pihu is a surrogate baby which hurts Ishita a lot but can't do anything but love her more by each passing second.
Flash Back
The moment Ishita came to know about Raman opting for surrogacy and that to from shagun's womb she was broken and devastated and left bhalla house and 2 months back and moved to her parents along with ruhi and adi.
Raman reasoned why he did so but Ishita could not buy it. She stopped talking to Raman and didn't even enter bhalla house but very much talking and taking care of others except Raman. Shagun was living with Dr.Manoj and Raman was also taking care of her. Raman has even got DNA test done and gave me reports to check but i refused to see that also because i do trust raman but i don't support surrogacy when we have adi & ruhi there was no need for more kids, and over that shagun as surogacy mother, which ishita was not able to hear, digesting it is impossible for her.
i my self was in a complete mess without raman ... depressed and crying for him I miss him alot but can't ignore his betrayal. Today I was sitting alone on bed as adi and ruhi went to vandu Akka house, later at night raman came to my room he has lost much weight looking pale, dark circles around his eyes telling that he is not sleeping well. I just want to hug him and soothe him and myself too. But I can't...
He came to me with the sonography reports of shagun though i did not see the report, but could not stop my tears... remembering my first and last sonography of my little baby which I lost...
Raman: Ishita see our baby, isn't it so cute. Dr.manoj was telling that baby is healthy and growing fine...
(Raman Mind- he waited for her reaction just tears in her eyes which is enough for me to understand her turmoil but i want to listen to her but she did not utter any word to me from the moment she moved to amma's house
i miss her alot
i miss my crazy Madrasan
i miss my fighter Janshi ki rani
i miss my ishita...)
Ishita please speak to me pls jaan speak to me, scold me, beat me...
Ishita can see tears in his eyes
React to me jaan... you are killing me with your silence
Ishita - both left me for Kids subbu left after knowing the truth... But you know the truth before marriage only still we married for ruhi ke liye, enemies, and then friends and slowly we have fallen for each other, confession, consummation every memory we lived raman
And even our Miraculous baby came to us when we and even doctors also lost the hope, we rejoiced being pregnant and then we lost our miracle raman i miss him alot
i miss him
But we have adiruhi know why you want more kids?
Why raman why...?
you both are same ... u and subbu,
Actually subbu is bette..
The moment this words left my mouth he slapped me hard.
Raman - Shut up ishita don't you dare compare me with him
Ishita - Selftalk - i know raman hates subbu alot and he never wants to hear about him, comparing with subbu irritates and make him more angry...
And so his anger came out as slap...
Raman - hugged ishita and said sorry jaan
Should not have did this
i love u alot ishita and u know i dont like to hear his name from you, and here you are comparing me with subbu which i could not control my anger...really sorry love you jaan
raman still hugging ishita and ishita did not protest also
I opted for this so that we can have a baby which we lost in that accident and you can experience the feelings which we missed.
Ishita - pushed raman and said stop it raman just stop it...
What are we experiencing Raman...what!??!!
i am feeling the baby inside my womb? No...
i am feeling the hormonal changes ? No...
i am feeling that craving for anything? No...
i am feeling the baby kicks??? No
i am feeling any changes the pregnant women under goes or feels ???
no..a big no raman...
i am surly experiencing the pain, shame and insult u have given me by opting this surrogacy..
Pain that as a husband you want a baby, as a wife i could not fulfill it...
It's a shame on our love raman that you haven't even told me before taking this huge step.
Last but the most embarrassing one is you insulted as a wife and a mother by choosing shagun for this... i hate you for this raman i hate you for giving me this pain or may be a reality check to me...
By this time both ishra eyes were red due to continuous crying.
Raman- reality check yeh kya hai??
ishita - smiles sadly and says
Earlier shagun always use to tell me this that you still love her and you could not get over her maybe she was right..
And i was wrong that you love me and we are soul mates with that all delusions crashed along with me...
By this time raman was glaring ishita with guilt and anger
Raman - i asked to break your silence that does not mean you speak nonsense...
After our marriage we became friends and you helped to overcome the hatred i had for shagun, and i totally left shagun and throwed her out of my system and unfortunately could not get her out of our life becoz of Adiru. Not becoz she is their mother, only becoz she want to meet them. For me and adiru you are their mother and only u...
And who the hell is shagun to tell that i love her, in fact i have never loved her it was just infactuation and later it was hatred as she felt me for my boss...
And u are the only one for me whom I love to no end and we are real soul mates not that subbu dubbu or that idiot shagun... in future if she speaks like that zoor se thappad maar usko..
i opted for Surrogacy becoz it was my responsibility to protect my family which i failed that day as
raman could not stop his tears remembering baby
and we lost out baby ... becoz i was a useless father and could not protect hi..
ishita - you are not useless raman that was an accident, an un expected incident which we survived but we could not save our baby...
i told you not to be guilty for it and here ur blaming ur self.. Let go of it raman...
raman- I can't ishita it was my carelessness, i have to protect u and baby but failed miserably...
and i want to give him back to you. i know you will not accept for surrogacy, you will cry whole life remembering him but will not share that pain with me. i know i did it without telling and u may feel cheated but i want to get him back to us...it's a father's promise to get back the baby to his wife...
And shagun was not my choice for Surrogacy, i had hired a lady for that but she was a diabetic and was doing this for money, which was not safe for baby and surrogate mother also. Shagun voluntarily came to help me and time was running out so i have to accept her help.
As i know her evil mind, i had clearly made an agreement that she is only surrogate mother and will we pay her for this and she will not have any attachment with baby...
i did all this for you jaan may be you are right you may not feel the baby now. But she is our blood and fruit of our love ishita. you know baby likes what all you like... every day i will check shagun diet list she eats south indian food, sithapal, black current icecream, listens music etc., how can you say that u can't feel that.
That baby is exact replica of you, she has your taste buds and similar likes...
i can feel the connection with baby. i am sure u will also feel that connection for that u have to go near baby. Please ishita i don't want to lose us, and want to complete our broken dream...
By the time raman finished ishita was sobbing uncontrollably ... Raman hugged her and soothed her hair and kissed her forehead...
After few minutes ishita slept of in his arms due to tiredness, he took her to bed and covered the quilt and slept hugging her.
Next day
New day with a ray of hope sun peeped into their bedroom.
Both opened their eyes due to sun rays at the same time.
In earlier days he would have grabbed her and smashed her lips with good morning kisses but now there's an awkwardness to wake up on same bed due to recent happenings.
They just get of bed and wished good morning... both were waiting for eachother to say something... which did not happen.so raman thought to leave and moved towards door but stopped there and told her to think about his words last night...and u better fix that all in pea sized brain of yours he taunted her and left iyer house without uttering a word. But both were at peace with a little taunt or may be last night talking..
2 days passed raman was expecting a call or messege from ishita, but nothing happened. From kids raman came to know that ishita was ok and not crying all the time for last 2 days, and it was a great relief to him...
Next day morning raman was having breakfast, he got a msg from ishita saying meet me @ parking in 10 mins. he was so happy and was at could nine. He jumped from his seat happily. Toshiji and others were asking him whats the matter but he did not bother to answer then and left to parking area, ishita was already waiting for him.
Raman wished Ishita good morning but Ishita just moved towards his car and settled inside.
Raman also take the driver seat and saw the lunch box in her hand and asked you want me to drop in your clinic, as ishita did not answer he turned towards her, and can see that she is nodding her head as no... Then where we are going with lunch box?!!?
Ishita - I want to see shagun
Raman - What?? Really ... Raman was shocked and very happy and happy tears from his eyes.
And he hugged ishita and told her how happy he was with her decision...
Ishita - you asked me try and i am doing it... if i could not feel or connect don't expect anything from me towards Baby, and don't compel me also...
Raman - Jaan right now you are trying and that is more than enough for me and he smiles and says
sach bolo tho baki ka kaam baby kud karege i am sure of it... jaisa raman ka jaddo ishita par and ishita ka jaddo raman par chadgaya na waise jaddo harame baby ke pass bhi hai...
Ishita - glares raman and says hogaya apka tho can we start...
After 45 mins they reached shagun's apartment as the door was open Ishra entered without knocking the bell.
Shagun was shouting at manoj to prepare nice dosa or bring nice one which is hygenic from outside, and manoj was trying his best to make a perfect round on the dosa pan which he failed to do and it was half baked or fully burnt.
Manoj leave it you can't make a simple dosa order from outside, i am so hungry and baby also. Please don't test my patience order now ... this was the scene ishra are welcomed with...
Raman interrupt their little argument and asks them to see who came to meet them..
Shagun & Monoj were so happy and shocked to see ishita
Shagun came forward told ishita that thanks for coming here and accepting baby...
ishita said that raman asked me to try so here i am don't expect anything from me though ishita was telling shagun but was eyeing and glaring raman.
There was complete silence after ishita spoke these words.
To break the silence manoj said thank god ishita you came please prepare a nice dosa for Shagun as she is eating my brain from that time..
Raman smiled and turned to see ishita.. But she was looking at shagun baby bump and lost in her thoughts, raman went closer to her and shook her to divert Ishita she saw raman and asked what happened...
Raman said manoj is asking your help in making Dosa...
Oh Dosa ishita forwarded her Lunch box which she carried, raman was telling me that shagun is fond of South Indian Food now a days so i ... she left the sentence there only...
Once again there was silence occupied in the room, shagun eating food, Manoj & Raman having their coffee but all are eagerly watching ishita. Ishita lost in her thoughts... but suddenly asked shagun how many weeks pregnant you are...
Raman smiled and told its 26 weeks...
Ishita - 26 weeks ... her face was so blank while telling this
Raman called ishita.. ishita to gain her attention. She got up and said can we go back home ... she paused and looked at shagun & Manoj and said if you have any work no problem will catch a taxi and go...
Raman said we will go back home... and they moved...
Two weeks passed...
Like this almost every day ishita along with raman used to visit Shagun but there was no much change in her behaviour, as raman told she was just trying but could not able to cope with the situation... Other side raman and others were tensed though baby growing and was healthy... but it was not moving or kicking which left him worry he could not share it with ishita as he don't know how she will react???
Today ishra came as usual to see shagun, shagun was also worried and stress out due to that. Ishita prepared food & served shagun by seeing her worried face she asked what happened is everything fine...
shagun looked at raman and ishita followed her... and saw him more tensed...
Though she observed raman and his worry earlier she asked him once and he said it was business related so she ignored it and did not ask him much as they were still not in normal/talking terms. But now she understood it as different and asked what it is?? And told him bit harshly so you are back to your hiding business...
Ok leave it...
i am leaving saying so she was about to pick her hand bag... raman hold her hand and said nothing like you are thinking it's just i don't want to give tension to you...
Ishita just tried to release her hand from his grip, he was angry as she was not even ready to hear from him now...
Raman shouted angrily and left her hand and said ok fine i will tell but please don't be tensed as your health is not good (Due to tension between ishra she developed has low BP and was under medication).
Ok fine i will tell... woooh
Ishita - raman uske agay bhi tho bolo
baby is fine & healthy ... but baby is not not moving or kicking its already 28 weeks completed and
we are worried for the same...
By listening this tears came into her eyes, till now she was thinking she did not connect to baby which was wrong and her tears were proof of the same..
Raman hugs her and says thats why i did not tell you i dont want to see you tensed... chup ho jao baby will be fine... ishita please jaan dont worry everything will be good...
Ishita says you are right raman...
Raman moves from her & looks at her confused and ask her what???
raman i can feel for baby i was never angry with baby, its just i was angry with you and your decision of surrogacy. And i wanted to hate the baby but it never happened and the moment i hear my baby is not safe all the emotions which i buried with my anger surfaced and that is why i am crying. You are right if i am crying right now means i am already connected to my baby i can feel it and my tears are proof of the same. I want my baby to be safe and healthy raman, i lost one i dont want to lose another one ... do anything and everything i want my baby to be safe. Please i want her to be safe... saying so she lost her conscious and raman holded her on time...
After sometime...
Ishita was sleeping on Shagun bed and manoj was checking her and raman was walking to & fro in the room out of tension...
manoj - Ishita is fine raman due to stress and BP it happened, i have given her injection... she will wake up in few minutes...
After 30mins ishita opened her eyes and saw raman holding her hand with tears in his eyes and was saying sorry to her...
I am sorry because of me you are undergoing same pain once again. Please forgive me ishita ... Please i am sorry...
Ishita holds his hand and says raman i am fine... where is shagun... let us take her to doctor and get her checked i don't want to take any risk this time...
By listen the sounds from room Manoj & Shagun came in and asked ishita.
How are you feeling now???
Ishita did not answer and got up from bed and drag shagun towards door and told her lets go to doctor & will ask their help. Please... in this process ishita hand had touched shagun belly/baby bump and at the same time baby responded to her mama with continuous kick telling her that i am fine...
Firstly she was tensed later she was happily shocked and again tears followed her eyes, but this time happy one...
Shagun was also happy and tears formed in her eyes.
Here Raman & Manoj were tensed seeing both ladies crying...
Raman asked ishita what happened.( in a worried tone)
She happily hugged him & cried... and there he was going crazy with worry...
Few seconds later ishita herself took ramans hand & kept on baby bump. Raman was confused and later shocked and then happily hugged ishita and rejoiced their babies kick together...
From that day ishra togather rejoiced the babies and its wild fantasies thru shagun though which is bitter part, still they lived it...
After 9 months shagun delivered a baby girl who is exact replica of ishita features and raman's attitude...
Back to present...
In the evening Pihu was cranky/crying and was not ready to wear dress and ishita was trying hard to make her ready for the party.
All Bhalla and Iyer clan except raman were ready and were worried as pihu is not ready and it was time for the guest to come for the party and it's really tough to handle Pihu when she is in bad mood...
Ishita anger arouse as raman did not come home yet & other side Pihu is being stubborn, to make her clam she did all she can to stop her cries, instead she increased her volume more which made ishita more pissed...
Ishita anger bursts and says bilkul baap pe gaye hai guusa raman per hai par pareshan mujhe karthi hai... but soon her anger melts seeing her tears but was not able to pacify her baby girl
Suddenly pihu stops her crying and smiles just by sensing raman
Downstairs Raman enters the house and sees nobody in hall and while climbing stairs calls ishita's name and enters his room and asks what is going on here??
Jab dekho gappe marne ka mann hai tum logaon ko ..poora ghar kali pada hai party hai go check on arrangements now ... and he takes pihu in his arms and kisses her as she was jumping to come to him from ishita's lap...
Ishita glares both Rapi and mutters Nautanki kahe ke... and leaves the room to check on party and the family which was watching with awe follows ishita...
Adiru explains raman all the happening and raman fondly kisses her princess and says Nautanki bacchaa.. pihu smiles with her 2 small teeth and hugs raman more...
With the help of ruhi raman made pihu ready in the white dress which was obviously ishita's selection...
As the guests flowed in all were busy chatting & serving...
After sometime ishita entered her room to bring pihu and saw her looking like any angel chewing her small pink pipi and was very much jumping to her... ishita picked pihu in and kissed her fondly and was so happy to see her smiling...
ISHRADIRUPI all went hand in hand and bhallas & iyers were so happy & contended to see coming altogether...
Soon caking cutting done between Pihu and other kids cute antics and lots of fun & smiles and with a big feast and happy faces all retired their happy abodes..
At night raman came out and saw Pihu sleeping still in party dress, he called out ishita but could not get her attention...
Ishita in ruhi room helping her to change and putting adiru to sleep... once they were asleep he closed lights and door and went to her room and saw raman was making pihu change into night dress very carefully as don't want to break her beauty sleep..
She smiled at raman and took her dress and went to change and once she felt relaxed from days stress she felt more tied, and felt like vomiting. But ignored it as stress due to party and went back to bed..
There raman was waiting for her and once she was on bed she kept her head on raman's chest and caressed pihu cheek with other hand. They talked long about how party went and their kid's antics and slept with a smile adoring their faces...
A New day awaiting for them with new rays of hope which will bring and make their dream true in TRUE senses...
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