I am confused....

I watched the past few epis and found that actually it was Ishu who lied to the family for the whole 7 years and made them beleive that she is dead. 🤢 I mean may be Raman was equally or even more responsible for losing Ruhi than Ishita and he putting the blame of Ruhi's death on Ishu is very wrong but did that give Ishu the right to leave her kids, her families like this?? She tried to commit suicide because she somewhere felt burdened of Ruhi's death (though she wasnt at fault) but strangely she forgot all that wen she chose to move with Mani and let Raman and her kids beleive that she died? She didnt even realize that even if raman was angry on her or asked her to move out that didnt break her relationship from Adi and her newborn kid. She didn't realize how would he bring them up alone? Even if she would have stayed away from Raman as he wanted but atleast her kids wont have suffered. And she actually let Raman's momentory anger/disgust (which was pretty obvious in the situation) make her believe that he or his family wont be affected if she died. I mean how stupid is that? For 7 years she didn't try to know how her family or her kids were doing w/o her. What if Raman did this? What if he left her all alone and made her live the life of a widow all by herself. '