Jisse main tha bhoolta aaya, Woh wajood mila - An IshRa SS Ch 4 - Pg13 - Page 5

Originally posted by: Npadz

That was really good! Very much looking forward to the next parts. Thanks for the PM!

Also I love this song as well! Sooo romantic 😳

Originally posted by: malini96

plz plz continue soon

Originally posted by: Nikki_Titli

wht a rocking REALISTIC update Aani..THIS ISHITA is wht i wanted to see in the show...But unfortunately shes bein bc adarsh patni...Kitne mauke mile-bt she hv wasted evry single moment..!!

bt am glad atleast Ishita of ur this SS had the GUTS to say TRUTH on Raman's face..👏👏👏...!!

Originally posted by: uamaz

You grabbed my attention for part 1. And have me hooked after part 2, cant wait for part 3

Originally posted by: jojo1986

Loved it we are waiting for c 3😊

Originally posted by: Metamorphmagus

I really wish the writers of the show would at least breeze through your stories and just try to borrow some sense from them. This is how it should be.

Originally posted by: --mancityfan--

Hey excellent one again

We fulfill all our wishes by reading os

As we are not going to get in shoe anytime soon
We are still stick in comedy and small ang big fights nothin soon

Chapter 3

Running after her, he caught up with her and seized her by the arm, spinning her around to face him almost simultaneously.

"Take back what you just said, take back your words. I am nothing like them, nothing at all." He growled at her.

She struggled to free her arm but he would not budge, the strength working in his favor. Nonetheless, she did not relent.

"I won't. It is not my fault you cannot handle your reflection in the mirror. You think you can decide things, run everyone' life like it is your own personal jungle gym, but it's not. You think just because things did not work out for you, they will not for Mihir. You believe every woman is Shagun, but here is a reality check Raman Bhalla; notevery woman is like your ex-wife. I am not being biased because Mihika is my sister, but because somebody has to knock some sense into you. You think Mihir loves Mihika and he is doomed for heartbreak. You think your history will repeat in his life, but you are wrong. Do you want to know why?

Because Mihika loves Mihir too. Just as much if not more.

Shagun stopped loving you, if she ever did. Your marriage did not last, not because you loved her, and she did not. It did not last because in the end, she did not want it to.

Ever heard the line - set the one you love free Raman? If they come back, they were yours or never were. Shagun never came back because she was not meant to be yours. May be because fate had to doom me with you, but Mihir Mihika, they went through hell and their love emerged from all that. They came back to one another and it's you now that's keeping them apart, god knows using what influence on Mihir."

So enraged was he by her sharp, piercing words he held onto her other hand as well and pushed her back holding onto her, when her back collided with a tree.

As if influenced by his mood, even the weather suddenly worsened. For if, it seemed only the winds were howling before, now there was lightning and a slight thunder.

The moment Ishita' back collided with the tree; a sudden pouring of rain began.

In the battle of wills, it was Raman who blinked first as he let go off her hands, only to trap her in place as he placed them on the tree and leaned in close to her.

If anyone were to look at them from a distance, it would appear as if a pair of lovers was enjoying a romantic, unguarded moment in the sudden rain while trying to take shelter from it and perhaps using the shade to shield themselves from the prying eyes of onlookers.

"You think... you think I don't know what I am doing but I am. I very well am. I have never ever pressurized Mihir into anything, but its not my fault if he will not speak up. I never bullied him into meeting Trisha. You think he lives in fear, so be it, but I am not forcing anyone. And why don't you look at it this way huh? If their love is strong, it will find a way, but since none of them is even bothering to save this sinking ship, maybe it was never meant to be, just like Shagun and I.

You think I have lost my faith in love, yes I had. Which man would not?Tell me. Did it not hurt you, when Subbu left? You have been betrayed just as I was. So why are you so hell bent on believing in this power of love huh? When we both have been scalded once.

Are you... trying to tell me something here? Fall in love with me did you."

"You wish." She spat back.

"What if I do, dear wife? Hmm... Tell me." He leaned in impossibly close to her, their breaths kissing each other, but she did not bat an eye.

"Then I would call you a deluded man. Someone who cannot decide what he wants from his life."

He does not know how she does it; say the things he fears to hear the most, things, which are always the truth.

And so without even realizing the change in the topic of their conversation he goes on.

"And what if I am a deluded man? What if I really don't know what I want, Huh ever wonder about that? What if I told you, that you are responsible for that?"

When she looked thoroughly perplexed at his statement but did not speak up, he continued.

"Taken aback I see. As am I, my dear wife, as am I. You know I had decided when Shagun left me I would never remarry, not because I loved her so much I couldn't move on, but because I began to hate her enough that starting over did not seem like an option to me.

All my anger, my hatred turned me into this bitter, miserable sorry man I am. This man who everyone abandons. Do you know my father stopped speaking to me for years altogether because I became like this? My own father could not tolerate me. I began to think all my life I would be alone if my own parent cannot handle me now. "

He laughs once he finishes, though there is no trace of amusement in it.

"I began to shape my life around the idea I would be a single father forever. But looking at Ruhi, it brought back so many bad memories of Shagun, because of that mole; I hid from my own daughter..

I suppressed my emotions. I caged myself in, in this despicable form you witness every day. And it pained me every single day. To be so alone and miserable. I punished everyone because I felt they deserved it, even Ruhi, only because she happened to be born to Shagun and I.

Only for you to come along and shatter all my preconceived notions. Make me challenge everything I had done for the past six years of my life and you have been in my life for what now? Not even a year.

And that angered me.

You aroused a reaction from me, even when my own family couldn't. you made me see what I was doing to Ruhi, and I hated you and I hated myself for it.

I thought you are a gold-digger initially only for you to turn into my daughter' savior. I had imagined you would be happy with cash and kind when you became a witness in my own daughter' custody trial, only for you to rebuke me.

Do you know Shagun would have grabbed that opportunity with both her hands?

Every instinct, every notion you went against it. And I couldn't figure you out.

My daughter, my own daughter picked you over me, hell even her own mother and it angered me Ishita, it made me jealous of you, that you can win over her love so much and that Ruhi could desert me too.

Truthfully, I wanted to punish you so very much for that. For making, my daughter feel so loved and safe with you that she could forget me. I married you for her custody because my father convinced me to. "

"I married you for the exact same reason too, if there is any love in this marriage it is for Ruhi. I love her and that is the only reason I was putting up with you and your tantrums. I cannot bear to hurt her, see her cry. Do you even see how mature she is for her age? Raman she is a five-year-old girl who behaves sometimes older than she is, is supposed to. I want her to have the childhood she deserves, I don't tolerate you because I am weak, but because my love for Ruhi makes me want to rise above petty quarrels and not give due importance to things that are better buried. As a mother, it's my duty to see my daughter stays happy. And it kills her when she sees us fighting, I can't do that to her, not now. Before I was just her friend, her Ishita aunty, now I am her maa and I won't place anything in my life higher than Ruhi."

He laughed without a trace of humor and replied

"See, that's exactly what I mean. You go ahead and do things, without even realizing how people around you get affected. You consider only Ruhi. You love her so much, and you have been around her only since you moved in next to us and it... it bothers me, that I couldn't love her so openly until now. Can you get that? A father being jealous of the mother of his child? A woman who legally became her mother only afterhe married her.

It's so messed up isn't it? I can't figure it out too. Imagine how that makes mefeel. Imagine what it does to me when I see you becoming a part of my family... you, who came into our lives out of the blue a few months ago. Suddenly , you are the center of my daughter' universe, my father adores you, Rinky already is a friend to you while she runs away from me afraid of my temper, my sister Simi - you helped her out and now even she is on your team. One by one, my entire family is being won over by you, in a matter of months.

While I, I became a stranger in my home. When all of these people are mine."

"No one abandoned you, you chose this, you can change your ways. I am not trying to steal your family from you if that is what you are trying to imply."

"No, you are doing worse, far worse. You are being the woman my parents would have chosen for me had they met you before Shagun. "

When she genuinely seemed surprised by the comment, he softly continued with the words that had her genuinely unsettled.

"You are being the woman I would have wanted for myself, the woman who I could have so easily fallen in love with had I met you when things were different."

If anyone of them could have heeded to common sense at the moment, they would have went running to find a dry place, especially since they were shivering but sense itself had deserted them at the moment.

He closed the minuscule distance between them and came even closer to her, if that was even possible, aligning their bodies, setting each of them on fire with the proximity, the intimacy of the moment.

It shouldn't have affected them, this proximity, but it did.

She looked down, anywhere but at him and he gently put a hand to her chin, lifting her face so that he could look in her eyes. Her heart hammering and her breathing rapid due to the intimacy of the moment. Unaware, she was affecting him just as much if notmore, as he was affecting her.

"You think I don't notice you Ishita? I do, so very much. Especially since, we got married. Do you realize what it feels like to see you blended in so very easily among my family? Do you think I wasn't hurt, ashamed at what I made you do that day at the restaurant. I was, I am, god knows it. But I got selfish Ishita, for my son' sake. His love blinded me, and I was sure you would refuse, create a scene and give in only for Ruhi, if you did.

But you did nothing of the sort that day, I couldn't meet your eyes. Remember that. It killed me to ask you to do that but I got carried away, and then I felt so cheap, so very low. Ruhi' reaction was like a slap on the face to me, which I truthfully deserve.

And I felt now, now you would betray me, shun me in front of my daughter. Call me names. Create a ruckus, which Shagun would have. But you stayed silent. Justified and defended me in front of Ruhi, assured her of my love. I was watching the two of you that night and do you know what I wanted to do? What I wished I had the strength to do then?

Do you?" he asked in a hushed whisper the last words.

Caught in a trance, Ishita could manage no more than shake her head at his question.

And slowly as if brandishing her, scorching her with his touch, his fingers traveled to cup her cheek as he leaned in to touch her forehead with his.

"I wanted to hold you, both of you. So very much, say I am sorry, but I was a coward. I didn't know how to justify myself, and the truth was, is there is no excuse that can justify what I made you do Ishita."

The sound of her name brought her back to reality, as she realized they are standing on the street so intimately in the middle of a downpour, as well as what it must look like if anyone were to see them. She touched his chest with a hand and slowly pushed him back, but he moved no beyond than a few centimeters at best.