Suraj you did tread on what I dread..

Suraj ... you did tread what I dread..

Suraj... What I feared the most... What I dreaded to think but indeed kept on thinking about it... And you treaded on it... Yes You did not prove me wrong... Indeed I was right about you Dude.....

The episodes since Thurs has been excelling each one after the other and honestly it's the experience that has to be felt just the feeling!!!

But yesterday episode I felt was the ultimate peak which looked to me as if it answered all our questions, soothed our agony and healed our pain, cleared our doubts about the New Suraj, The Ghulam, the living corpse and I ofcourse did went ahead and did say you are dead in my earlier post.

But Suraj, my dude I am so proud of you as I was one among the few who did not give upon you, did not hate you...How can I even... And stood by you for I knew the agony, pain, suffering you are going through in this memory loss phase and all the more it pained me as you did not even realise that you were going through all these...

I had always been worrying dreading with fear about one thing... That one thing... that dastardly act on his Chakor... how will he comprehend it... For sure I knew he would just cannot... And would hurt himself gravely... Infact I was indeed wondering what he would do... Will he whip himself (which I thought very much)?, will he hold her hands and cry out apology (which I did not want him to do as that will not appease my mind) ?

But my dude... Suraj ... you did what I dreaded the most for I did not even think that you would want to hurt your hands (he literally used that often used word Kaat Denge on himself) ... Yes he wanted to hurt that abode of his world for which he believed was the safest for her... for his world ... His hands... His arms was the safest but lo as he was dead he lest realised that the safe abode was made to... turned in to her worst abode... how can he forgive or forget himself. The way he closed his eyes thinking of that act... and the way he said "CHEE spewed the hatred on himself... how could he do that for he would not have even dreamt to do... but dude you were dead, they killed and so you had no dreams... you were just a executioner, that robot...

And that lovely line of Ruby, which really impacted me He unwound himself and slowly released himself to Chakor. Yes as he had realised his Chakor, got back to living and thus got back his memory and what he saw... cringed him...

The way he did remember his act all those act on his Chakor... he died even more and more...

I am not good at referring to songs but what stuck chord here was the valentine day song line...

Tum dard ho tum hi aaraam ho...

Yes he was pained dard to pain her but his world knows about him... comes his solace his aaram yes she was there at the right time.

Emotions played along... but when he hurt himself what stood out... my adories... She panicked as his hurt pains her, his wound bleeds her, his wound on body hurts her heart... she panicked, but girl I applaud you of your brains... She did not want to tear her dress to dress his wound... for the monsters will know... the way she trembled over... rushed to get his towel... And what just made my eyes moist... He was just LOOKING AT HER WITH TEARS... not batting his eyelid... Just looking... WHAT HAD I DONE TO YOU...YOU CANT JUST BEAR MY HURT ON MY HAND BUT THE HURT I HAD GIVEN YOU.... I felt he was just killing himself...all the while he was looking at her, marvelled at her... what have I done to my precious deity...

Loved the way she solaced him, yes she did solace him ... made him realise his love for her that love which never dropped her down, that love which had the light at the end of this phase's dark tunnel and that love did heal her, healed her beautifully for he just unwound himself just to heal her (Ruby I am in love with this line... So will be using it often... Credits to you)

Sukor convo was beautiful, the dreams in his eyes of having children (Dude is very clear about his Mission TEN ha ha ha), her dreams of a family... The way she rested her head on his shoulders... I just sat enjoying my adories and did not want to think more as I just wanted to drench in their solace.

Suraj ... you did tread what I dread..but I am happy that your solace is with you now and you will tread once again on the paths together ... I will not Fear as I will only Cheer as you both Steer together..

(Niki - i secondly dedicate this to you as you was the one who made me write this...secondly why ...as all my writings are dedicated to Divya and my Rabbi first as they were the ones who made me realise that I had this potential to love my sukor and write about them during my interning days in this Forum)

(And thanks to all my dearies here each and every one who are all my catalysts... Bini, Mai, Aslesha who made me understand what a show is all about...).

Originally posted by: amrutha131

Beautifully written Sumi!

Originally posted by: meshmesh

Beautifully written Sumi!

Loved how you described why Suraj hurt his hands and the scene wher Chakor was dressing his wound.

Thanks for explaining why she used his towel and not her dupatta, I wondered why she changed her mind. Chakor is clever and quick thinking.

Sumi at the outset I would like to thank you for saying that you dedicate this article to me... That's very sweet of you... But yaar I ask you to write because I love to read your posts which give a different and profound perspective to the episode...which make my rusting grey cells tick... Which help me to bridge the gap between two 8.30's...

Originally posted by: 77nikita

Sumi at the outset I would like to thank you for saying that you dedicate this article to me... That's very sweet of you... But yaar I ask you to write because I love to read your posts which give a different and profound perspective to the episode...which make my rusting grey cells tick... Which help me to bridge the gap between two 8.30's...

Sumi you have penned down each and every expression so correctly and beautifully... What an episode it was!!!! It finally put all our souls to rest... If all this would have been left unanswered, many of us would not have whole heartedly enjoyed the sukor journey ahead... So it's a big thank you to the makers who yesterday dealt with almost each and every wrongdoing that was troubling us...his cheee really struck cord and one could visualise how yucky he was feeling for having done that dastardly act... Their conversation was a much needed one... Loved your reference to tum Dard ho tum hi aaram ho...so true... And last but not the least, loved your closing line...I will not fear as I will only cheer...yesss now we will whole heartedly cheer for Sukor.

Beautiful as always dear...im a fan of ur writing sumi...u have a sukorlicious way of writing...used to drench in ur reviews and I refer u to as d judge of udaan land to my kiddo...literally bcos a judge is always unbiased...u always analyse everything so deeply and present ur views in such away dat whatever d situation is we r able to connect with our sukor anytime..hope it not bored...now coming to d episode two things stood out yday...first suraj,s repentance for all d heinous things he has done to his love..his breakdown...his apologies...and secondly yday I saw sukor in a different light...as a couple who is mourning for their late unborn...five yrs has passed and still d wound is fresh...as we know"the smallest coffin is d heaviest"...and hats off to Meejay who nailed dat scene and it was heartwrenching...sorry girls for making it long...a hard-core sukorian...😛

Originally posted by: Viji1104

Beautiful as always dear...im a fan of ur writing sumi...u have a sukorlicious way of writing...used to drench in ur reviews and I refer u to as d judge of udaan land to my kiddo...literally bcos a judge is always unbiased...u always analyse everything so deeply and present ur views in such away dat whatever d situation is we r able to connect with our sukor anytime..hope it not bored...now coming to d episode two things stood out yday...first suraj,s repentance for all d heinous things he has done to his love..his breakdown...his apologies...and secondly yday I saw sukor in a different light...as a couple who is mourning for their late unborn...five yrs has passed and still d wound is fresh...as we know"the smallest coffin is d heaviest"...and hats off to Meejay who nailed dat scene and it was heartwrenching...sorry girls for making it long...a hard-core sukorian...😛

Sumi!

Originally posted by: maithu_

Sumi!

You pulled it out so well dear!

Each words and the choice of their places in your lines make this one a perfect piece to read and re-read

I wish I could write like this LOL(no words from you on this as I will keep on saying this I don't know how many times!)

Expected some action on his part on that past event but not in this way!

Suraj is the Sun that shines even in the darkness! He proved it multiple times, and once again proved it.

What a girl needs when she can stand on her own, with her man who values her more than himself.

Chakor deserves him and he with her.

Beautifully written Sumi

Keep rocking dear

Love it