"Tu meri pehli dua,aur tu hi dua,aakhri...tu mile,har martabaa...aarzooo hai bas yahi!!!
Of the whole of mahiya song,this particular line is my fav,sung heart wrenchingly in a male voice,more because it also represents Suraj...and very true indeed,this particular lines,very economically sums up Suraj's love for Chakor in this two lines,coz its only SHE,that which he desires,wants or craves for,for Suraj,love life,feelings,emotions or whatever exists in this world,starts with Chakor,and eventually ends up with Chakor,he never really went beyond her,and only wants her,for as many times,it can be permitted to him.
Love,the most underrated as well as the most overrated word or feeling in this world,and all of us have somewhere experienced it in our lives,somewhere,in any form,but the question is,does it happens and ends???
There is no feeling in this world as blissful as to love someone,but does the bliss continues,maybe for some...but for majority,it just fizzles out with time.
But I feel,that "falling in love with the same person,over and over again is the feeling providing the most utmost level of tranquilty to the soul,and I have been witnessing this,since a few days,coz just as SUKOR FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER,OVER AND OVER AGAIN,AS THEY ARE CONSTANTLY TESTED,IN THE SAME WAY I FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY CALLED SURAJ,OVER AND OVER AGAIN,EVERYDAY,,,COZ JUST AS I FEEL,THAT THIS WAS ONLY ABOUT HIM,HE IS UNFOLDED IN FRONT OF ME WITH AN ALTOGETHER NEW SHADE...
And I once again,witnessed...a Suraj,who completely,bought me,once again...
Suraj Rajvanshi,as I first encountered him,was known to me as someone,rude and rough,someone very very ambitious,someone very self-centered,someone very deceptive,someone very impulsive,but also someone very pessimistic...
He is still the same somewhere,yet he has changed,changed a lot.upright down,for a lady...[need we introduce her]
As soon as he heard,that she was sentenced five years imprisonment...he was the first on to just sprang up,and shout at her,that what was the need to be like this,,,,,when he himself acknowledges this virtues of hers,every time he gets a chance...this act of him was unconvincing and illogical,yet I fell for his INNOCENCE,[he had behaved this way,on their camp wedding night,when he was hugging her,and her phone rang,and he remarked to her,what was the need to bring your phone here]
Then as he got "those precious ten minutes" of his life,he immediately started to live the moment,by speedingly hugging her[those minutes mattered to him,more coz he knows it,she knows it,that ultimately,although with extreme difficulty,she will somehow manage without him,but he just cant think of it]...
There are many people who have loved,but loving someone is very different,then living the love,and fulfilling the love...and the one who NOT JUST LOVES,BUT ALSO LIVES AND FULFILLS IT,INDEED LOVE IT WITH DIVINITY
Suraj was the one,who used to be always the pessimistic,kind of person,once he was faced any kind of adversity,and he will just sit alone,make himself aloof,and whin in his own pains,,,but now,he as been taught how never to lose hope,how to never give up,how to shine up with positivity in the darkest of times...and credit goes to Chakor,as in love people give their heart and lives,but Chakor has given virtues in love...
And I was recalled of Suraj's dialogue from the ;andhua date scene.when Chakor has fed him,through the kids,how suraj acknowledged her and said,Chakor,agar hum tumhaari nazron se dekhne lage,toh har cheez hame achhi lagne lagegi
I recalled of this scene,when he sat with her in his arms in the bench,coz I saw his POSITIVITY.
Not for once,not for once,did this man,expressed the pain,he is undergoing,when his small universe of innocent dreams and hopes,came crashing down,in a matter of few hours...NOT FOR ONCE
But when she was crying,she was mourning at their irrevocable loss...IT WAS HE WHO PACIFIED HER BY REIGNITING THOSE FLAMES OF THEIR INNOCENT DREAMS
After so much,going and enduring so much,he was still left with those eyes to dream ,he was still left with those hopes,to reestablish their world...SURAJ RAJVANSHI WAS NEVER LIKE THIS,YET GATHERED HIMSELF,COLLECTED THE POSITIVITY,SO THAT HE COULD GATHER HER.AND IMBIBE THE POSITIVITY WITHIN HER...
One can idiolise someone,but very few can follow the principles of their idol.
But Suraj has not only worshipped or loved Chakor,HE HAS LIVED HER,FELT HER,INFUSED HER WITHIN HIM.
Then when the lady came to inform them about the time lag,,,,,,his eyes widened,as if an executioner informed him that he was to be executed...
Usually,the person who is going is the one,who asks for memorials to be taken along,but here,it was Suraj,who instead gave his pic to Chakor,coz he felt just as he has the habit of talking with her pictures,she must also do it,and this way,maybe they will remain connected.
And finally while holding her face,he said all that he had known and retained,all his life,"Chakor,hum tumse bohot pyar karte hain".
A LINE THAT DEFINES SURAJ'S BEING
He had said,this many a times,in different situations,but each time,he had an intensity,greater than before,and each times he says those simple words,in a way,as if applying all his life in saying so.
As he gave her a back hug,and she reciprocated in a manner,AS IF IN THAT TEN MINUTES,THEY BOTH LIVED A CENTURY
And then,he allowed to let her go,allowed to let her go,so that they could meet again...
Again fall in love with each other,worship each other,relive those emotios,fulfill their dreams,fulfill each other...
After all,Suraj and Chakor had to live together,in a small hut,somewhere in a very far-off village,atop a mountain,along with ten kids,if not ten,then ONLY WITH A FLOWER,WHO WILL BE TE SYMBOL OF AN UNDYING SUKOR LOVE SAGA
Sapna Jahan Dastak Na De, Chaukhat Thi Woh Aankhein Meri
[My eyes were that place where dreams would never arrive/come]
Baaton Se Thi Tadaad Mein, Khamoshiyan Zyaada Meri
Silences were more in number than talks in my life]
Jabse Pade, Tere Kadam, Chalne Lagi, Duniya Meri
[Since You've come into my life, my world has started revolving/moving (become alive)]
Mere Dil Mein Jagah Khuda Ki Khaali Thi...
[A place for God inside my heart was empty]
Dekha Wahan Pe Aaj Tera Chehra Hai...
[Today I see Your face there]
Main Bhatakta Hua Sa Ek Baadal Hoon...
I'm like a wandering cloud]
Jo Tere Aasmaan Pe Aake Thehra Hai...
[That has come to Your Sky and is standing still now]
Tu Rooh Hai Toh Main Kaaya Banoon
[You're the soul, so I'll become the guise]
Taa-Umr Main Tera Saaya Banoon
[I'll become Your shadow for lifetime]
Keh De Toh Ban Jaoon Bairaag Main
[If You say so, I'll become Your longing]
Kehde Toh Main Teri Maaya Banoon
[If You say so, I'll become Your illusion]
Tu Saaz Hai, Main Ragini
[You're the tune, I'm the melody]
Tu Raat Hai, Main Chandni
[You're the night, I'm the moonlight]
Mere Dil Mein Jagah Khuda Ki Khaali Thi...
[A place for God inside my heart was empty]
Dekha Wahan Pe Aaj Tera Chehra Hai...
Today I see Your face there]
Main Bhatakta Hua Sa Ek Baadal Hoon...
[I'm like a wandering cloud]
Jo Tere Aasmaan Pe Aake Thehra Hai...
[That has come to Your Sky and is standing still now]
Hum Pe Sitaaron Ka Ehsaan Ho, Poora, Adhoora Har Armaan Ho
[May the stars be benevolent upon us, may all our dreams become true]
Ek Doosre Se Jo Baandhe Humein, Baahon Mein Nanhi Si Ik Jaan Ho
[May we have a little soul (young one/kid) in our arms that attaches both of us]
Aabaad Ho, Chhota Sa Ghar, Lag Na Sake, Kisi Ki Nazar
[May our abode flourish, may no one's evil gaze affect us]
Mere Dil Mein Jagah Khuda Ki Khaali Thi...
[A place for God inside my heart was empty]
Dekha Wahan Pe Aaj Tera Chehra Hai...
[Today I see Your face there]
Main Bhatakta Hua Sa Ek Baadal Hoon...
I used to be like a wandering cloud
Jo Tere Aasmaan Pe Aake Thehra Hai...
[That has come to Your Sky and is standing still now]
As rightly,said Suraj is the rarest of rare precious gemstone,who never really descended on earth from the heavens,but thanks to Chakor,she discovered it for her,in this life only.
THANKS TO YOU CHAKOR FOR SCULPTING OUT THIS FROM MY SURAJ
And for my rarest of rare gemstone,my SURAJ...
"BADAA HI KHAMOSH SA ANDAAZ HAI TUMHAARA...
SAMAJH NAHI AATA KI,FIDA HO JAAUN YA FANAA HO JAAUN..
[your personality is too silent to be deciphered,I am unable to decide,if I should die at it,or drool at it]
